Jeez... Yeah. This really hits close to home. Disappearing so I don't bother anyone. Cutting off my internet or trying to get myself banned from communities. It's horrible to feel that way. And I hate it whenever I do. It's like another person takes control and I hate myself more for my lack of control. It spirals down from there and all I do is wait for it to go away.

I've learned a little how to keep myself afloat. It's easier and no matter how bad I feel I never leave my friends. I sometimes drink and vent and let myself cry. That's the hardest part. Feeling the emotions. Confronting the pain. The more I do it, the easier it gets but I still have to fight the reflex to turn and hide. It's a constant... watch, if not struggle.

Anyways, thanks. I really enjoy that you post these comics. It's nice of you to share this strength.

beautiful use of emotion

<3