Oooohhohoho, hAAAAA!
I love journal posts on this website. I think.
Because... Nobody's prompted to see it unless they're watching me. Well... Nobody IS. SOOOOOO, I can post here without my fear of eyeballs, and still feel like I'm contributing something to my social presentation in life, even though I'm very much not. Really, though, isn't the feeling enough. Heheee, we'll see...

Oh, but why am I here, what reason would I have to be here posting a journal after two months of not? Well, for starters I'm bored and scatterbrained? What?
- What, you're scatterbrained? Why?

Oh, look, we have ourselves a detective..! Fine... I'm- SHUT UP, I LIKE ELIPSES, OK!? No, I'm not talking to you, I'm talking to the other guy. Anyway-anyway-anyway, what I'm talking about- OH man, a really good song just started, hold on... ... ... Mm, yeah, that's some good stuff. Anyway, I figured all the imaginary people who are reading this should know that I'm writing a Pokemon story. Yep. That's the news.

Oh, whatever, I write as a hobby, yes, but I don't really blab on about that do I? So, If I go out of my way to mention a story in particular, that means it's more significant to me than the other things I've been fiddling with. At least right now. Hm, I sure hope not 'at least right now'. I like the story - I love the characters I'm spending time with by writing - I'm closer to my ideal world than I've ever been, the Pokemon World.

I'm not an artist, I'm not making art. I don't give a single dang fiddle-faddle about the intricacies of artistic construction. Screw that blithering nonsense. I'm not making art, I'm writing, in a world I love, with characters I'm bonding with every day, as I write from the heart first, and the mind second. I'm not writing because I want to make something. I'M WRITING BECAUSE I WANT TO BE SOMEWHERE! Somewhere other than here.

It's a wonderful story. Not because of some artistic analysis nonsense. It's wonderful, because I think it's wonderful. I love this story, I can't get enough of this story. I want to keep writing, because when I'm not I feel that I'm away from this place that I love, but I CAN'T write all day; I'll burn out.

Oh, but I can't do this forever, can I? Just one thing, one story, day after day. Unfortunately THIS is the world I live in, and despite it not being the world I particularly love, I still have other interests. Other stories that I want told, other worlds I want to visit, other skills I want to build, and a body that needs to be cared for and maintained. Although I'm doing half of that last part, I'm not doing any of the other things, which means what I'm doing now isn't sustainable...

So... How do I do it? How do I keep eating this Pokemon story up like candy, while making sure I'm doing everything else as well. More creative hours? Can I handle that? Can I handle the flip flop? I'm not sure, but the extremely smart and attractive person who wrote that previous paragraph is right. Something's gotta give, or something's gonna give. Oh, the dilemma...

Ok, I'm clicking post. Proofreading is for chumps (JOKE.).