It's been a shit year for me. Things have just been getting worse. Feeling lonely and irritable. Hating my job and feeling like nobody cares about me. I only have my mom and grandpa, and my mom has been in rehab and going through a lot herself. My grandpa's health has been declining. I havent seen any friends since June, and have hardly talked to anyone since then. And work has been pissing me off too. Trying to get my license, but work has been an imposition. I need the money, but I've been working all different shifts. I have my permit, I've been practicing, and feel I'm almost ready to get my license, but it's been hard finding time. I've felt like a total loser, and honestly, this year is the first time I've REALLY actually considered suicide. I've thought about it before, but this was the first I had serious temptations.. I dont wanna cry out for help or anything, I just need to vent a bit. Dont go calling suicide hotline or whatever. I wont actually do it. I'm too stubborn. I just needed to write it all out.

Anyway, on a more positive note, I've been working on a story, the one I've been trying to do on and off for a solid 5 years now. But its finally getting written and got some art done. I should have my first episode of it out before the end of the month. This month. It's not smut, but it is adult oriented. I'll be posting the characters now, I have most of it done, and have most of the first episode written. Itll be a slow start, but it's just to introduce the characters. Itll get better before too long. It's a comedy story but with drama, romance, feels, and more comedy. I hope at least one person reads it and likes it. But even if that doesn't happen, I'm still doing it.