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All things must end
10 years ago
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For the 3 of you that actually read these journals/ care about the RP relationship i am in, this is just to update you.
Jason and I are now separating from what was a very unhealthy relationship. However, this is not your typical unhealthy relationship.
Jason is an absolutely amazing guy. and by that i mean much better than someone like me deserves. he is kind, patient, understanding, and always there. Not to mention extremely attractive. But that is exactly the problem. I cannot match up to that. I know that he was better than i deserved, but i wanted to try anyways. and I really did try. but in the end, I just knew he really did deserve better. And no matter how many times he said i was his mate and that he loved me and wanted to be with just me, I always knew that he was truly settling for me. That has been eating away at me for a very long time. And in the end, I just had to break it off.
So why bother saying this? Am i an attention whore? Probably. but the big reason is that I hope that the one that can match him will read this. I don't want to make Jason be "lonely" and i really hope someone can step up and show him what a GOOD mate is. And hopefully then I will fade into obscurity and seem like nothing but a dream to him.
Am i selfish for doing this? Probably. I'm the one that was the problem throughout the relationship. and i guess my last selfish act was to pull away. but hopefully, unlike all my other actions, this one will inadvertently help him as well.
Thank you all for listening here. I am trying to burn bridges as best as i can. and this was probably one of the hardest i have had to do. Thank you
JasonWerefox for everything you did for me. Things are going to be looking up for you, now, and you have to embrace it. Some things are better off forgotten and i firmly believe, i am one of them.
Jason and I are now separating from what was a very unhealthy relationship. However, this is not your typical unhealthy relationship.
Jason is an absolutely amazing guy. and by that i mean much better than someone like me deserves. he is kind, patient, understanding, and always there. Not to mention extremely attractive. But that is exactly the problem. I cannot match up to that. I know that he was better than i deserved, but i wanted to try anyways. and I really did try. but in the end, I just knew he really did deserve better. And no matter how many times he said i was his mate and that he loved me and wanted to be with just me, I always knew that he was truly settling for me. That has been eating away at me for a very long time. And in the end, I just had to break it off.
So why bother saying this? Am i an attention whore? Probably. but the big reason is that I hope that the one that can match him will read this. I don't want to make Jason be "lonely" and i really hope someone can step up and show him what a GOOD mate is. And hopefully then I will fade into obscurity and seem like nothing but a dream to him.
Am i selfish for doing this? Probably. I'm the one that was the problem throughout the relationship. and i guess my last selfish act was to pull away. but hopefully, unlike all my other actions, this one will inadvertently help him as well.
Thank you all for listening here. I am trying to burn bridges as best as i can. and this was probably one of the hardest i have had to do. Thank you
JasonWerefox for everything you did for me. Things are going to be looking up for you, now, and you have to embrace it. Some things are better off forgotten and i firmly believe, i am one of them.