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ADHD diagnosis..
a month ago
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So. There it is. Something that I never thought I'd see.
I got an ADHD diagnosis today.
My entire life I've never even thought I'd have that. I've read about it, and sure enough many of the symptoms matched, but I still always thought like "nahhh, I don't have that". People have just always said I'm "weird". Sure, maybe 5 people have said "you definitely have ADHD". Autistic, sure, but adhd? Sounds too bizarre to me. Yet today I got an official diagnosis of it.
The psychiatrist even said "the points needed for ADHD diagnosis went way over in your case, and it is so clear that we don't have the need for a specialized medical care evaluation".
I was just sitting there, stunned. In disbelief. I was like "are you sure???". The psychiatrist just nodded and smiled and said it was so very clear, that there's no doubt about the diagnosis. She also said I had such severe traits of autism that she thinks it might be asperger instead. But since their department don't have the tests needed for diagnosis for autism/asperger, I was put on line for specialized medical care where they will be able to make the last remaining interviews and tests for both. The lines for those are long, and she said I'll be lucky if I get there within a year.
On top of the ADHD diagnosis, she updated my other diagnoses as well, and said I might need VKL (vaativa lääkinnällinen kuntoutus), which roughly translates to "demanding medical rehabilitation". So I also have severe depression, bad social anxiety, dissociative disorder, anxiety disorder, and something else but I can't remember what it was. The 5 other diagnoses after ADHD I already knew I had, since most of them I've had for 20+ years. It was just something she updated that, yes, I *still* have them.
I will also be placed on short-term therapy to talk about my past traumas, since I requested, as those are big heavy things I really want to move on from and leave in the past. She also suggested I'd try psychophysiotherapy, and I'll be put on that as well. I also have a doctor's and neurologist's appointments soon, where I get to discuss about possible medication for the ADHD.
I uhh... Really don't know how to react to be honest. I guess I'm somewhat relieved? That I have some kind of explanation as to what's "wrong" with me, and the hope that maybe the medication will help me concentrate better and silence my brain. Only time will tell. It'll take a while to digest this new diagnosis. I'm just....so confused and full of different emotions.
I got an ADHD diagnosis today.
My entire life I've never even thought I'd have that. I've read about it, and sure enough many of the symptoms matched, but I still always thought like "nahhh, I don't have that". People have just always said I'm "weird". Sure, maybe 5 people have said "you definitely have ADHD". Autistic, sure, but adhd? Sounds too bizarre to me. Yet today I got an official diagnosis of it.
The psychiatrist even said "the points needed for ADHD diagnosis went way over in your case, and it is so clear that we don't have the need for a specialized medical care evaluation".
I was just sitting there, stunned. In disbelief. I was like "are you sure???". The psychiatrist just nodded and smiled and said it was so very clear, that there's no doubt about the diagnosis. She also said I had such severe traits of autism that she thinks it might be asperger instead. But since their department don't have the tests needed for diagnosis for autism/asperger, I was put on line for specialized medical care where they will be able to make the last remaining interviews and tests for both. The lines for those are long, and she said I'll be lucky if I get there within a year.
On top of the ADHD diagnosis, she updated my other diagnoses as well, and said I might need VKL (vaativa lääkinnällinen kuntoutus), which roughly translates to "demanding medical rehabilitation". So I also have severe depression, bad social anxiety, dissociative disorder, anxiety disorder, and something else but I can't remember what it was. The 5 other diagnoses after ADHD I already knew I had, since most of them I've had for 20+ years. It was just something she updated that, yes, I *still* have them.
I will also be placed on short-term therapy to talk about my past traumas, since I requested, as those are big heavy things I really want to move on from and leave in the past. She also suggested I'd try psychophysiotherapy, and I'll be put on that as well. I also have a doctor's and neurologist's appointments soon, where I get to discuss about possible medication for the ADHD.
I uhh... Really don't know how to react to be honest. I guess I'm somewhat relieved? That I have some kind of explanation as to what's "wrong" with me, and the hope that maybe the medication will help me concentrate better and silence my brain. Only time will tell. It'll take a while to digest this new diagnosis. I'm just....so confused and full of different emotions.
At the same time, please be gentle with yourself. This doesn't change who you are, how smart you are, or your personality. There's a line I really like in "Driven to Distraction" that basically says "you have a Ferrari brain, but at the moment you have bicycle brakes. Let's get you some better brakes."
ADHD isn't a gift, but I do genuinely believe that you're at the starting point to get the tools you need to be a Ferrari.
If you need to talk, I'm here to listen.
Thank you for your kind words and support ♥ Here's hoping I'll eventually evolve to at least somewhat functional Prius xD
This doesn't change who you are though, just helps to understand things better! :3
As for medication I'm on my 4th medicine, Adderall, in hopes something clicks, I am still waiting for my genetic test to come back so I know what meds work best for me. But in terms of medicine, you'll find one that works for you it may just take some trial and error before you find the right one.
But it definitely helped answer all my questions and bring so much closure to my behavior X'3