Today was my last day at the intern place, so it's finally over!! 😭🎉✨✨

I'm finally going to have my certificate for Vocational Qualification in Business and Administration!
It's been long in the making tbh xD I started it way back in 2019, but had to quit due to mental breakdown.
Now I finally got the last courses done that I needed, and got excellent 5's and very good 4's! (the grades go from 1 to 5)
I think this certificate will have the best grades ever, since it's only full of 5's and 4's 😁

So now I'm only missing the certificate, but I can officially say "Jesus take the wheel" and just chill. All I need to do now
is to wait for all the participants to sign the papers and that's it. I'm DONE. It's OVERRRRR~!

Now I rrreally seriously need a long time off of such things x'D
I'm seeing my psychologist every 2-4 weeks, we're currently running tests for autism and ADHD.
I also had a revelation about drawing today when I met her;
before I started using smart phones or playing video games, arting was smooth and easy. I could easily draw 5 new artworks PER DAY.
Nowadays I barely manage 2 per MONTH. And I realized; I started playing WoW in 2010/2011, and gradually I drew less and less.
I could only concentrate on one thing. I either played the game and didn't draw, or I drew but didn't play at all.
Over the years it turned more into me gaming and not giving a fuck about drawing. But there's one more thing.
In WoW you can choose to either grind your gold or simply pay 20€ and get loads of gold. Me, lazy as I am, never had the
mental capacity to start grinding for gold, so I always bought it instead. This soon turned into a need for instant gratification.

When I draw, I need to "grind" it before the "gold" appears on my screen. I can't just click a button to buy myself my own art and dodge the grind.
This creates a vicious cycle of desperately wanting to draw, to create, but being unable due to the mental and physical strength it takes me to do it.

But now that this school bollocks is over, I can finally rest, breathe and collect myself.
I need to explore these thougths further. I might've just found the reason I hate drawing so much nowadays and can't find any joy in it.

But hopefully I'll finally get some new art out in December. 💙