Even though I intend to think more positively in my life, and it works relatively well, there are days when it's very difficult! :/
I make other people feel valued, wanted, and encouraged to give more, and it makes me happy when that person feels this kind of warmth! :)

I also receive this in return from others to some extent, which I greatly appreciate! ^w^ But somehow, sometimes it's difficult for me to fully accept it. I accept it because of my kindness, etc., but my past scars prevent me from doing so one hundred percent. :'(
It could be due to my self-loathing or something from my past that explains why this is the way I am. Perhaps it's simply due to my closed-off nature, a major problem for me in opening up to others, no matter who they are!

There are days when I just want to talk, but I can't. A silent, helpless cry that drags me down, and I need days to find the strength to move on! Unfortunately, I'm far too introverted. :'/

Some days my depression gets so low that I simply wish I didn't exist anymore! Today is another one of those days where my mood is just very, very low and I'm once again very depressed and feel very lonely. And that hurts!

I know about the helpline, but I'm the kind of person who, firstly, doesn't like talking to strangers on the phone, and secondly, I don't talk to people I don't know at all about it. And the helpline FA offers here is for America—where I don't live. There's a different number here in Germany. ^^

I don't want to cause anyone any worry, I just wanted to share how I sometimes feel. I simply need a few days to recharge and regain my strength! :') / :'(

And even if some of them offer to talk to me again, and I'll more or less accept when I feel ready, I still won't talk! Why? Because I simply can't! So I'm sorry! :/

I wish you all a good morning/afternoon/evening/night - whatever time it is where you are - and thank you for reading! ^w^ ♥