As of Sunday, the 21st of April, I said goodbye to my twenties as I made my first steps into my thirties. It’s strange but in honesty, even as I’ve been growing older, I’ve never felt that different as I was when I got into my twenties. Yet at the same time looking at all of the mess going on in the world right now, especially knowing this year with the election, not saying that I’m not proud of my accomplishments the past ten years, but I was really hoping that my thirties would be so much better. We had a pandemic, there’s a war going on, crazy people turning our country into a clown show and slowly revoking our rights one by one, and not to mention personal grievances with sickness and death in my family, even natural disasters. Not to mention it’s been getting increasingly harder to stay afloat these days with all the greed and corruption as well. I didn’t know what to even say back in college when they constantly asked us “where do you see yourself in 5 or so years?” Because if we only knew the mess we were going to deal with even when we graduated college, met someone and started a family, got that dream job we worked so hard for, and we come to see that the same people who made life hard for our parents are trying to make shit tough for us as well. It really does suck. When you’re a kid, you feel like the world is a beautiful place. Like everything is revolving around you. Your loved ones will tell you that you have nothing to worry about. That you’ll always be loved, protected, and cared for. And then one day, you realize that’s not true. Some people see the truth when they get older, but others depending on what they see online or on the screen, and often times in unfortunate circumstances will see it early on. The truth hurts because when it hits you, everything changes: your friends, your beliefs, your ability to live freely without strangers telling you to “unalive” yourself or that they’re gonna hurt your family and friends. We have seen so much evil these past several years it’s enough to make the most calm, chill, loving, and caring person lose their hope. Because even back then, for those of you who have been through it, some people are wolves in sheep’s clothing. They’ll see you and me as weak, gullible, and naive. They’ll take advantage of you and often times your kindness. Some will go as far as to tarnish your reputation for their own selfish needs, sometimes in the process stealing your innocence. But even with all of this, even though it still comes off cliché, I still want to say to you–
Keep Fighting.
Regardless of what curveballs this life throws your way, you don’t give up hope. You rise above and conquer it. You knock back harder and take what’s yours. I’m saying this because there was a time at the start of the pandemic where even I almost gave up.

Growing up was scary but I was starry-eyed and ready to seize my future. Just like graduating high school and college felt liberating, joining the furry community and coming out felt liberating. Even today, it’s scary to step out of your comfort zone, and there was a time that I believed that if I lived as I am, being queer, that I was going to lose everything. I was going to be evil. I tried my best to be anything but that, and it eventually got to a point before the pandemic after getting rejected by countless potential employers before making a name for myself, and losing a friend because of someone who had a lot of animosity towards me and encouraged people to bully me and scare me back to my folks in Louisiana after one of these people found my address. There was so much awful stuff going on it got to a point where I thought maybe it’s better if I’m not here. I realized after much self-reflection, prayer, and actually taking the time to talk with close loved ones I can’t change this. And some people won’t change unless they take a look at themselves. I still have concerns for the future, but I’m not afraid anymore. I’m now at a place in my life to where I can be 100% genuinely myself. Everything that I have, I’m trusting in God’s hands as I keep moving forward. I never tried to get too invested in the news on social media or even took the time to think that deep into myself, because for a long while I thought it would’ve gotten in the way of what I really loved to do and that was my art, passion for drawing, performing and sharing stories and my love for cartoons with all of you. I even turned down opportunities to sell and pitch my art into being a TV show, because I knew it would drive a wedge between me, you, my family, and my work. I don’t want to get too into myself and what I have planned for the future of LimboJack Productions, but what can tell you is that I have a personal webcomic/cartoon project I’ve been meaning to get off the ground. Legally registered with a trademark, copyright, and everything. The screenplay and storyboard draft for the two-part beginning has been completed as of this February and you can check more progress on Bluesky

With that I also have the indie animated movie project I’m a part of, Kingdom City, the several commission spots I have reserved that I plan to complete before Pride, and a mature piece I was really hoping to complete for then too.

I’m blessed, grateful, and overwhelmed with the amount of love and support I’ve received since I reached out for help, and I can’t thank you enough. For showing love and support to me and even my family through everything that’s happened the past couple years and keeping us strong through it all. Thank you.

I don’t want to be fake or sugarcoat anything but I’m serious when I say that many of you deserve that love right back. No one should have to feel like they’re lesser, that they should be ashamed of who they are, or like they don’t belong (especially in their own bodies.) This community and a vast amount of the people in it, especially you (even those of you who have been with me since the beginning and continue to be good friends) are amazing and you should know you’re not alone, you’re awesome as you are inside and out, and you’re worth more than what you think you are. 💜❤️💜❤️

And remember when you get older, it has advantages. Even with these sudden changes, you have the opportunity to take the pieces and what’s left and make something bigger and better. Life is a great adventure and worth it from start to finish, and you should be around to see it. Stay loving and young at heart. Be kind to each other. Be yourself.

Convention plans for next year are not 100% certain, but as of this year I will be at AC & Terrebonne Con. I hope to see you there!