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Thank you all, so much.
Regarding my most recent post...
(Just to get it out of the way for anyone who hadn't seen, I have been checked out by medical professionals now, everything looks good physically and hearing wise, I just have the "T" now. They all told me the same thing- "You'll just have to get used to it" (though they did use nicer words than that of course))
It's... hard to explain exactly why this hit me so hard. Yes, the ringing in my ears is annoying and loud and still impossible to ignore... but at the end of the day it is just some ringing in the ears. I can still hear just fine, I'm not in pain, I'm not disfigured or disabled. It's just... how helpless and absolute it is. I made one mistake, and I might be dealing with the consequences of that mistake for the rest of my entire life. There's no going back, there's no re-dos, it's extremely possible that there's no getting better and that this is just my life now. There's a lot of frustration, and anger, and sadness, and panic that comes with a realization like that. And the fact that I did this to myself in my very first attempt to improve my life, to get out and try new things, was just the cherry on top. I didn't... exactly handle it well, heh.
But then-
So many of you came out to share your own stories and give me hope, or give encouragement, or advice, or even just wish me well. I don't know what I expected when I posted that... I think I just needed an outlet. But I definitely wasn't expecting this level of response. I'm still pretty down... it's going to take a little while to get back to doing regular art, it's hard to think horny thoughts when in emotional distress, haha. But y'all really helped pull me out of a bad emotional state. It now feels less like spiralling, and more like... dealing. Taking time to sort my shit out.
I'm going to keep picking away at the comments over the next few days, whenever I'm not curled up on the couch in a burrito of sadness anyway, but I don't think I'll be able to personally respond to them all... there are just so many of you. But I want you to know I read each and every single comment and they all mean a lot to me. You all helped me out a ton.
Thank you.
(Just to get it out of the way for anyone who hadn't seen, I have been checked out by medical professionals now, everything looks good physically and hearing wise, I just have the "T" now. They all told me the same thing- "You'll just have to get used to it" (though they did use nicer words than that of course))
It's... hard to explain exactly why this hit me so hard. Yes, the ringing in my ears is annoying and loud and still impossible to ignore... but at the end of the day it is just some ringing in the ears. I can still hear just fine, I'm not in pain, I'm not disfigured or disabled. It's just... how helpless and absolute it is. I made one mistake, and I might be dealing with the consequences of that mistake for the rest of my entire life. There's no going back, there's no re-dos, it's extremely possible that there's no getting better and that this is just my life now. There's a lot of frustration, and anger, and sadness, and panic that comes with a realization like that. And the fact that I did this to myself in my very first attempt to improve my life, to get out and try new things, was just the cherry on top. I didn't... exactly handle it well, heh.
But then-
So many of you came out to share your own stories and give me hope, or give encouragement, or advice, or even just wish me well. I don't know what I expected when I posted that... I think I just needed an outlet. But I definitely wasn't expecting this level of response. I'm still pretty down... it's going to take a little while to get back to doing regular art, it's hard to think horny thoughts when in emotional distress, haha. But y'all really helped pull me out of a bad emotional state. It now feels less like spiralling, and more like... dealing. Taking time to sort my shit out.
I'm going to keep picking away at the comments over the next few days, whenever I'm not curled up on the couch in a burrito of sadness anyway, but I don't think I'll be able to personally respond to them all... there are just so many of you. But I want you to know I read each and every single comment and they all mean a lot to me. You all helped me out a ton.
Thank you.
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Yeah, the ringing gets terrible,
If it gets too bad, look into Bose Sleep buds. They're a purpose built sleeping aid device that are tiny ear buds for sound, and they act both as a ear plug and a white noise generator. White noise, especially ones you enjoy like a gentle rainfall, can combat the ringing and help you!
Give a white noise generator a try, or the sleep buds if you want something compact for sleep.
If it gets too bad, look into Bose Sleep buds. They're a purpose built sleeping aid device that are tiny ear buds for sound, and they act both as a ear plug and a white noise generator. White noise, especially ones you enjoy like a gentle rainfall, can combat the ringing and help you!
Give a white noise generator a try, or the sleep buds if you want something compact for sleep.
Currently most white noise seems to aggravate it more than help it... it's a bit tough because the predominant tone is super high, around 16khz. The only noises that are actually able to kind of mask it are also high pitched and annoying, so not great for sleep, haha. But I'll keep looking, I'm sure I'll find something that's both relaxing and helpful eventually!
That's interesting the pitch you hear is so high frequency. Even 30 years ago when my hearing was in its prime and I didn't have any tinnitus the highest I could hear was about 15khz and even then it was very quiet because I could barely hear it. The tinnitus I have now seems to be a chord centered right around 11khz, based on comparing it to a tone generator.
I get more relief out of stuff like gentle rain noises for sleep, though lately I've been loving bedtime stories from Get Sleepy, and during waking hours "chill hop" music. It provides enough audio stimulation MOST THE TIME to put my multiple tones into the background.
I'd heard white noise and pink noise are supposed to help, but those turned mine up to 11.
The rainstorm I use is in an Android app called White Noise, one I got on their free Market.
https://whitenoisemarket.com/sound/.....0-169AB40D686A
It's one of the best storms I found back when I was looking for rain noise. It's a pretty long loop, and I struggle to find the actual loop point.
I know Tinnitus sucks, and I can only imagine how you might feel after actually being good to yourself.
I was the dumb teen that listened to loud rock music, so I had it before even starting work in a warehouse.
I'd heard white noise and pink noise are supposed to help, but those turned mine up to 11.
The rainstorm I use is in an Android app called White Noise, one I got on their free Market.
https://whitenoisemarket.com/sound/.....0-169AB40D686A
It's one of the best storms I found back when I was looking for rain noise. It's a pretty long loop, and I struggle to find the actual loop point.
I know Tinnitus sucks, and I can only imagine how you might feel after actually being good to yourself.
I was the dumb teen that listened to loud rock music, so I had it before even starting work in a warehouse.
one of the big reasons white noise helps so many people, is because it gives you something to focus on other than the ringing/helps distract from it. the best thing you can do to "treat" tinnitus is to avoid focusing on it; ignoring it or listening to something else helps push it to the background, desensitizing yourself to it, training yourself to disregard it the way you'd disregard a ceiling fan or AC unit. meanwhile focusing on it brings it to the forefront of your attention (obviously), and since it's not a real "sound"/it's just, like, signal noise in the aural nerve pathways, focusing on it can make it stronger (or at least more prominent).
because it's more of a brain/nerve thing, rather than actually being an ear thing, the best "treatment" is something that retrains your brain's reaction to it. and it doesn't have to be "white noise"; any kind of audio that gives you a different/better focal point will help with that. think like... a podcast or something. or music you like. as long as it occupies your brain with something better to listen to.
because it's more of a brain/nerve thing, rather than actually being an ear thing, the best "treatment" is something that retrains your brain's reaction to it. and it doesn't have to be "white noise"; any kind of audio that gives you a different/better focal point will help with that. think like... a podcast or something. or music you like. as long as it occupies your brain with something better to listen to.
But I'll keep looking, I'm sure I'll find something that's both relaxing and helpful eventually!
I used to swear by a 90-minute tape of ocean surf sounds, but I've yet to find a stream quite as good as that OG tape. A lot of 'em make it sound TOO clear -- like, I'm not filming Shark Week here, it shouldn't sound like I'm in the water! YouTube has been much better than Apple Music for finding these kind of backing tracks, but they have a bad habit of turning into an up-to-eleven-loud ad at four AM! There are the obvious workarounds of course, but that's getting a little ahead of myself. :)
I used to swear by a 90-minute tape of ocean surf sounds, but I've yet to find a stream quite as good as that OG tape. A lot of 'em make it sound TOO clear -- like, I'm not filming Shark Week here, it shouldn't sound like I'm in the water! YouTube has been much better than Apple Music for finding these kind of backing tracks, but they have a bad habit of turning into an up-to-eleven-loud ad at four AM! There are the obvious workarounds of course, but that's getting a little ahead of myself. :)
Even if you can't physically heal, there's still treatments that will help your brain push the noise into the background more, rather than being a distracting, distressing focus. Things will take time, but they will get better.
And if nothing else, we're all here for you, wishing you the best.
And if nothing else, we're all here for you, wishing you the best.
Having something happen that just now is a part of your body sucks. I have started having to deal with an old knee injury I never got properly taken care of; but, I deal with it best I can. Mistakes happen, and like you said, there are much worse things people have had to deal with; but that doesn't really lessen how much tinnitus has affected you.
On the bright side, you can always make some Archer references to bring light to the situation.
On the bright side, you can always make some Archer references to bring light to the situation.
It definitely takes some getting used to. It's usually less of an issue when there's something else in the background to semi-focus on. Warmer times of the year make it easier due to a running air conditioner or fan. A lot of the time I go to bed with the TV set on a timer. If the light tends to bother you, sound machines can work really well, too. During the day I just keep myself constantly distracted with something. XD Doesn't always work, but it does most of the time.
Yeah, it's definitely a distraction game isn't it? Youtube autoplay has been my saviour so far, haha. White noise currently seems to exacerbate it more than help it- my particular tone seems to want to get louder to make sure it always plays on top of any white noise I try to use, unless the white noise is so loud it becomes it's own problem. But people talking seems to give me something else to focus on and really helps pull my attention away from the noise.
Random youtube videos finally helped me get a good night's sleep, even if it was broken into a few pieces, and even that alone has helped a lot. :P
Random youtube videos finally helped me get a good night's sleep, even if it was broken into a few pieces, and even that alone has helped a lot. :P
I wouldn't even say that's needed. I've had it my whole life, to me, it's simply normal. I don't even consider it debilitating. At times it's annoying, but that's the extent of it. You DO get used to it. You'd probably be surprised the degree to which a person can become accustomed. It's like living next to an airport, you'll hear the aircraft, they will be very annoying, but at some point, you'll stop noticing.
For what its worth, doctors or no, treatment or no... it 'does' get easier the longer it goes on. We've had T since we were little. Sitting in silence is maddening, we have to at least have 'some' kind of noise going, whether it's a fan, or music, or hell, sometimes just the hum of the dishwasher going in the next room is enough, but... it does get easier.
Though we've had it for as long as we can remember, a few months ago for... reasons... we did some shooting practice and ended up taking a shot without earplugs. At first it made it so much worse, and we had a similar panic moment that it would stay that bad... but over the last couple months or so it has settled back down a little bit.
We hope the best for you Ru, your stuff has helped keep us sane for a good long time now and we always look forward to your continued existence even if we don't know you on more than an art appreciator level.
Though we've had it for as long as we can remember, a few months ago for... reasons... we did some shooting practice and ended up taking a shot without earplugs. At first it made it so much worse, and we had a similar panic moment that it would stay that bad... but over the last couple months or so it has settled back down a little bit.
We hope the best for you Ru, your stuff has helped keep us sane for a good long time now and we always look forward to your continued existence even if we don't know you on more than an art appreciator level.
Oh no! Sorry to hear you're going through this too, and even more sorry that that happened and it got worse, but I'm glad it at least settled down a bit for you. Hopefully I'll at least see a little improvement over the next few months as well...
The main thing though, taking the time out of your day to share your experience with me to help me get through it, really does mean a whole lot to me. Genuinely thank you. :3
The main thing though, taking the time out of your day to share your experience with me to help me get through it, really does mean a whole lot to me. Genuinely thank you. :3
Hey, we've had our whole lives to get used to it. To us... it's just kinda 'there' and always has been. But the sudden change... that can be scary, we definitely get that, and you are very much not alone. No matter how frustrating it can get at times... as long as your hearing is not damaged in any meaningful way... that's definitely the most important part.
*sends hugs*
Sometimes we need to vent. And I'd say fear not. People naturally feel a need to complain about the disabilities they become inflicted with. Doesn't mean nothing awful about you. Change like that is hard at first.
One of the highest moments of my life was becoming a black belt in Tae Kwon Do.
One week later, diagnosed with type 1 diabetes. I was as healthy as a race horse and I couldn't understand why. I was in my final year of high school so I even had all those confusing teen thoughts too
Take care bud. Always know you have a friend here and my DMs are open.
Sometimes we need to vent. And I'd say fear not. People naturally feel a need to complain about the disabilities they become inflicted with. Doesn't mean nothing awful about you. Change like that is hard at first.
One of the highest moments of my life was becoming a black belt in Tae Kwon Do.
One week later, diagnosed with type 1 diabetes. I was as healthy as a race horse and I couldn't understand why. I was in my final year of high school so I even had all those confusing teen thoughts too
Take care bud. Always know you have a friend here and my DMs are open.
As someone who has a hearing loss AND tinnitus (easily the worst of both worlds), I've found that white noise helps a -ton- with masking tinnitus. It could be a fan in your room or whatever, but I've found this little white noise generator to be very, very helpful. It uses a little fan to make a ton of noise, so it's not just a recording: https://www.amazon.com/Yogasleep-Or.....00HD0ELFK?th=1 I own this exact thing and it's been great for sleeping with.
I'm sorry to hear that, it's definitely not a good time. :<
Currently white noise seems to aggravate mine a bit, it's a super high pitch that most white noise is too low to disguise at all so it makes it feel even louder since I'm just hearing it on top of the white noise, hah. But I'm hoping to work on that and with any luck it will improve over time- and if I do get to a point where white noise is staring to help I'll definitely keep this in mind! Thanks. :3
Currently white noise seems to aggravate mine a bit, it's a super high pitch that most white noise is too low to disguise at all so it makes it feel even louder since I'm just hearing it on top of the white noise, hah. But I'm hoping to work on that and with any luck it will improve over time- and if I do get to a point where white noise is staring to help I'll definitely keep this in mind! Thanks. :3
Well I hope it slowly recovers. If nothing else, there are steroids you can take to help your ears recover from any sudden onset hearing loss (this is the medical term). They are available in both pill form (where you go on a regimen of taking a bunch of pills in the first days, then slowly ween off them) and hopefully where you are, in injection form (a long thin needle through the eardrum). The injection is more-or-less is a desperate shot-in-the-dark type of medication, as the mechanics of hearing is extremely complicated and not very well understood even to this day (my cynical part of my brain believes that it's too complicated to get any form of funding to study to make a profit).
But in my case I was born with a hearing loss and through things outside of my control like viral infections in my ears, my hearing loss has gotten worse, and worst still, it became an asymmetrical hearing loss (one ear could hear better than the other). So if you ever see a car 2 lanes over and 3 car lengths ahead of you vibrating because of the amount of NOISE inside that car that is reverberating way back to where you are, and you feel angry or jealous, I've felt the same thing. Many, many times over. Life isn't fair, and every time I see (or feel, if it's hot and I have my car windows up) one of those assholes with their stupid noise, I still get angry. If you need someone to rant to over how unfair this all is, I'll be happy to listen, because I know just how unfair it can be. And just being able to vent can be so relieving.
I hope you all the best, but I'll be here if you need to vent.
But in my case I was born with a hearing loss and through things outside of my control like viral infections in my ears, my hearing loss has gotten worse, and worst still, it became an asymmetrical hearing loss (one ear could hear better than the other). So if you ever see a car 2 lanes over and 3 car lengths ahead of you vibrating because of the amount of NOISE inside that car that is reverberating way back to where you are, and you feel angry or jealous, I've felt the same thing. Many, many times over. Life isn't fair, and every time I see (or feel, if it's hot and I have my car windows up) one of those assholes with their stupid noise, I still get angry. If you need someone to rant to over how unfair this all is, I'll be happy to listen, because I know just how unfair it can be. And just being able to vent can be so relieving.
I hope you all the best, but I'll be here if you need to vent.
Hey, I'm a drummer who has tinnitus too. I had it very early, and I only started taking it seriously when I realized that it might stop me from drumming. I was feeling a lot of the same things you are. I can tell you from my personal experience that it can suck. But it will absolutely will get better - either by fading, or naturally learning to ignore it by habit. (I also do have some tips/strategies for it which you might find useful.)
Sending lots of hugs. You got this!
Sending lots of hugs. You got this!
I see you're having trouble droning out the ringing with white noise. The real trick is that it's often not about eliminating it through tone-matching - it's providing other noises to distract your attention with. Could be podcasts, music, radio or any other ambient audio a low volume. Also don't discount physical noise-making items in your environment, like ticking clocks or keeping a window open to let outdoor noises in.
Something that does actually help with reducing tinnitus itself is a weird head-tapping exercise. (I have no idea why this works but it does.) Palms on your ears, fingers reaching back to the base of your skull. Give the base of your skull a few taps/drums. It will provide temporary relief on days when it really bugs you.
By now, I often go weeks or months without noticing my tinnitus.
Something that does actually help with reducing tinnitus itself is a weird head-tapping exercise. (I have no idea why this works but it does.) Palms on your ears, fingers reaching back to the base of your skull. Give the base of your skull a few taps/drums. It will provide temporary relief on days when it really bugs you.
By now, I often go weeks or months without noticing my tinnitus.
I know firsthand how frustrating it can be. Mine's been lifelong, though it seems based on your description it seems your variant is a different cause than mine.
(I still recommend seeing an ENT because sometimes they can give you a hearing-aid type device that plays a soft tone that seems to cancel out the noise. Depending on what causes the problem. For my type, i can't sleep without a loud box fan or the sound will make me cry)
(I still recommend seeing an ENT because sometimes they can give you a hearing-aid type device that plays a soft tone that seems to cancel out the noise. Depending on what causes the problem. For my type, i can't sleep without a loud box fan or the sound will make me cry)
Even a general doctor might point you in the right direction. For me, if i'm unable to get enough background noise, rubbing the base of my ear right below the opening sometimes generates just enough noise to soothe the ringing. But there's a ton of causes for it, so my point just is, i want you to be able to live as good a life as you can.
I didn’t post a comment on your original post because I felt that enough good info was already shared. Just want you to know that I’ve been thinking of you and am really glad to see you are doing better mentally. That situation sounds like it took a lot out of you and continues to do so. If it’s any consolation at all, even long term tinnitus, isn’t so bad. That may sound ridiculous, but I’ve come to find in my own experience that we tend to adapt and come to terms with changes like this. There will be a point where you don’t even think about it and that’s the point where you know you’re going to be ok.
Seven years of being a band nerd in middle- and high-school damaged my hearing just a little, so I can definitely sympathize. No tinnitus, but my hearing is definitely not as sharp as it used to be. I know how scary that can be, and that swirl of emotions is very familiar. Unfortunately, I have no advice to give that hasn't already been given, but I'm pulling for you and sending you lots of good thoughts!
I didn't even see that original post. I hope you'll be alright. It absolutely makes sense why this would be super distressing to someone, even if you weren't an artsy person.
The docs' answers just feel really lazy to me though. Don't let yourself feel hopeless, even if it takes a long time. The best relation I can make is when I had a terrible earwax problem that would sometimes cause my ears to get stuck and muffle my hearing in a terrible way, and it lasted for months till I finally went and saw an ear specialist.
The docs' answers just feel really lazy to me though. Don't let yourself feel hopeless, even if it takes a long time. The best relation I can make is when I had a terrible earwax problem that would sometimes cause my ears to get stuck and muffle my hearing in a terrible way, and it lasted for months till I finally went and saw an ear specialist.
Okay I definitely paraphrased the doctors a lot, hah. They were very kind and understanding and were careful to make sure everything looked good with me first, but at the end of the day even though they said it in the nicest possible words, it really does boil down to "you'll get used to it" basically. x3
I'll be alright. Just gonna be an adjustment, is all!
I'll be alright. Just gonna be an adjustment, is all!
I'd say something like perhaps you'll get used to it and the sound will kinda be drowned out by your brain but I don't think you need to be prompted to think about silly maybes and overthink what's going on any more than I figure you have.
It is at least good that you're still able to hear and all despite it.
It is at least good that you're still able to hear and all despite it.
I struggle to talk about it, which is why I didn't comment on the last post. because its embarising and disheartening. But, I've damaged myself. I have to face the fact it will likely not ever get better and it was because I was stupid, which burns me worse. Its always noticeable, I can't not think about it. It sucks. But, its a small part of my life that is effected, and I know other things matter more. So, I think I know what you are going though. I feel I make peace with it a little bit every day, with some ebb and flow to the prossess. Hear is to us making peace with such things, and to anyone else as well.
I'm sorry you're going through that. I've definitely learned first hand how hard dealing with a mistake like that can be. At the end of the day my consequences are relatively minor and it still broke me down for a bit, oi...
Indeed! Hopefully we can all come to terms with things, and move forward. :3
Indeed! Hopefully we can all come to terms with things, and move forward. :3
Best wishes to your hearing health.
I once had an ear impaction from work conditions, and thought I went deaf in one ear for a bit. But thankfully (and quite embarrassingly) had to just get my ear flushed out. A relief to have my hearing restored.
Meeting the effects of loud noise can be disheartening. Only so much one can do to be prepared, I'm sure everyone would encourage you not to stress too hard over it. I hear stress alone can be bad for health.
Stay strong. Get some rest. At least now you are wiser for it.
I once had an ear impaction from work conditions, and thought I went deaf in one ear for a bit. But thankfully (and quite embarrassingly) had to just get my ear flushed out. A relief to have my hearing restored.
Meeting the effects of loud noise can be disheartening. Only so much one can do to be prepared, I'm sure everyone would encourage you not to stress too hard over it. I hear stress alone can be bad for health.
Stay strong. Get some rest. At least now you are wiser for it.
It is... but it's a sucky part of life and I hate it. x3
And sorry to hear about the covid! I didn't know it was even a thing until this happened to me but I found a ton of stories of people losing hearing or gaining tinnitus because of covid. As if it didn't suck enough already, oi!
And sorry to hear about the covid! I didn't know it was even a thing until this happened to me but I found a ton of stories of people losing hearing or gaining tinnitus because of covid. As if it didn't suck enough already, oi!
REAL!!! But it does get easier <3 Its a whole different beast than actually going deaf in any capacity. Hopefully something like those bpm rhythms I saw someone suggest or anything like that helps!!! Music blots out a lot for me, even minor pain.
Any good luck and I hope you keep living it up! Having limits and getting older doesnt stop the party in your heart.
Any good luck and I hope you keep living it up! Having limits and getting older doesnt stop the party in your heart.
I'm a bit late for the original post, but I still saw that. I know how it is, I had something very similar happen to me when I was younger. I spent a whole concert right next to one of the big speakers, and at the end, I was feeling physically sick. It wasn't until I was back home that the ringing made itself unignorable, and I spent probably about 2 weeks being miserable about it. The ringing never fully went away, but at least for me, it just blended into background noise that I could ignore and forget whenever there's any noise at all. I'm sure you'll do good given enough time to deal with this, it just takes a while.
If it helps you with the process, at least you can be confident that there's a lot of support here if you need a healthy outlet to what you feel. It's important, so I'm glad you have that here <3
If it helps you with the process, at least you can be confident that there's a lot of support here if you need a healthy outlet to what you feel. It's important, so I'm glad you have that here <3
I've found that it helps a lot hearing that other people deal with the same things you do. I've had a couple health scares, and seeing that other people get to the other side and live normal lives afterwards gave me the hope and strength I needed when it felt like there was no good end in sight. The psychological aspect is so important, especially with things like this. You'll do well in the end, I'm confident <3
I'm sure it's been said already by others and by doctors, but I know a couple people with tinnitus, and it should mostly become unnoticeable eventually, your brain will learn to block it out, sort of like it learns to block out floaters from your vision. There will still be occasional times you notice it, but it won't be as incessant as it currently is. Focusing on it will make it take longer to block out, but eventually you'll have forgotten about it. There will still be times where you notice it occasionally. I'm sorry you've gotta deal with that, it's surprising that you'd react so strongly to something that everyone else seemed to have no problem with, I wonder if you're more sensitive to it for some reason. I know that we sort of have a mechanism built in our ears to reduce the impact loud noises have, I wonder if yours maybe don't work the way they should. I think I myself may have mild tinnitus cause I've been to a lot of concerts and I notice a ringing in silence when I think about it, but it's never been enough to really distress me.
It's hard to say, I think some people are just literally built different. I suspect when some people suffer loud noises they just kind of quietly lose hearing, while other lose hearing and gain fun new sounds. x3
The only thing that's made it so hard for me to deal with is that sound no longer hides it. I always used to have a tiny little bit but I didn't think about at all because sound would cover it up entirely. Now it's kind of inescapable. But, chatting with folks has really done a lot to help me distract myself and pull up my mood.
So, thanks for being cool. :P
The only thing that's made it so hard for me to deal with is that sound no longer hides it. I always used to have a tiny little bit but I didn't think about at all because sound would cover it up entirely. Now it's kind of inescapable. But, chatting with folks has really done a lot to help me distract myself and pull up my mood.
So, thanks for being cool. :P
I didn't catch the original post but I did leave a reply on it in response to someone else.
It sucks, I don't even know when mine actually started, wasn't made better by repeated ear infections/ruptured eardrums though, that's for sure.
Get a little bluetooth speaker/radio, search Youtube for some white noise to put on for X minutes, and you'll probably nod off quickly. This is one I use: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0pquThjeWa8
It sucks, I don't even know when mine actually started, wasn't made better by repeated ear infections/ruptured eardrums though, that's for sure.
Get a little bluetooth speaker/radio, search Youtube for some white noise to put on for X minutes, and you'll probably nod off quickly. This is one I use: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0pquThjeWa8
I don't remember the types but there's a whole deep dive you can do for different pitches and tones, you might be able to find one that hits perfectly for you.
https://www.soundofsleep.com/white-.....ts-difference/
https://www.soundofsleep.com/white-.....ts-difference/
I've had tinnitus most of my life, for so long that I didn't know it was abnormal. I just had a ringing in my ears that warbled and shifts and plays tricks with my mind. There are days, based on stress and diet, where it is impossible to ignore, and I have to listen to some low music to block it out. It's strange how one sound can ridd you of another. I'm sorry that you suffered such a wound, but you will adjust, I am certain of it. Like you, I can hear just fine. In all my hearing tests I tested above average. Silence for me is just...a constant sound in the background of my soul.
Be happy that the doctors found no damage to your hearing. Do not think that you fucked up, but you tried something. You explored a world full of dangers and came back alive. You may have a scar now, but it will be one you can tell of and teach others.
Be happy that the doctors found no damage to your hearing. Do not think that you fucked up, but you tried something. You explored a world full of dangers and came back alive. You may have a scar now, but it will be one you can tell of and teach others.
Hey, don't be sorry. Like I said, I have had it for so long that I didn't even know it was tinnitus until my first hearing safety video at work. The great think about speed bumps is that when you do get over them, you have to deal with them again unless you choose to go back.
I've had tinnitus since I was a kid, and trust me, one day, sooner than you think, it'll fade so far into the background you'll just completely forget you even have it. Then you'll be a little too dehydrated or stressed out and notice it again, and be like, "Oh, yeah, that's still there," and it'll fade into the background again.
Me and all of my loved ones, it feels like, has gotten a life changing diagnosis that can't be prevented. It never gets easier. It's always devastating. Your reaction was all too relatable. It's even worse when you feel like you did it to yourself. I knew exactly what you were feeling with your first post, and I'm so glad that you no longer feel alone. You never will be.
Just so you know, it is possible that it might get better, though it might not. As you said, it's just ringing in the ears. I've had this in one ear since 2012 and it fluctuates. It's also hard to pinpoint the precise cause of tinnitus or other similar ear disorders; my symptoms don't seem to have a cause, thus they call it "idiopathic."
You will learn to put the sound in the back of your mind. It will get better even if the sound never does go away 100%
You will learn to put the sound in the back of your mind. It will get better even if the sound never does go away 100%
It definitely is possible. But based on the way it's behaving I'm not super hopeful for the volume to actually go down. We'll see, but mainly I'm hoping I'll just learn to ignore it. Seems like most people eventually learn to re-calibrate, I'm sure I can do it too!
Thanks. :3
Thanks. :3
We love ya, Ru <3
Does it suck that it probably won't go away? Yeah, absolutely. But seeing all those comments of people who are in your same spot and have been managing and living with it, leading happy lives, shows beyond a doubt that it does get easier.
Life is full of mistakes, but that's what makes it beautiful! We trip, stumble and get bruised. But we keep walking forwards, and wear our marks with a smile because they show what we've been through, and who we are.
Take the time you need, we're all in your corner <3 You know how to find me if you need to talk!
Does it suck that it probably won't go away? Yeah, absolutely. But seeing all those comments of people who are in your same spot and have been managing and living with it, leading happy lives, shows beyond a doubt that it does get easier.
Life is full of mistakes, but that's what makes it beautiful! We trip, stumble and get bruised. But we keep walking forwards, and wear our marks with a smile because they show what we've been through, and who we are.
Take the time you need, we're all in your corner <3 You know how to find me if you need to talk!
Yeah, it sucks. I've always taken good care of my hearing by wearing earplugs at work and keep my headphone volume low, but about 5 years ago I started getting tinnitus anyway. Mine sounds exactly like the whine of the CRT monitor I used with my 90's computers (15 KHz). It coincides with my high-end range dropping from 18 KHz to 14 KHz during the same time period.
I think it just develops naturally as you get older, so it's not always the result of loud noises. I'm in my late 40's, and that's about when your hearing starts to go.
I sleep with an oscillating fan running, and that helps a lot.
I think it just develops naturally as you get older, so it's not always the result of loud noises. I'm in my late 40's, and that's about when your hearing starts to go.
I sleep with an oscillating fan running, and that helps a lot.
Ah, sorry to hear that. It must be even more frustrating when it's not your fault in any way. :< But, I know how you feel, that's exactly where mine is, or at least where my loudest tone is. It's almost precisely the CRT whine pitch, ~15750hz. I could have done without being permanently stuck inside a CRT, but I guess I'll manage. :P
Yeah, soothing noise is definitely going to be an important part of sleep going forward I think. Thanks for sharing your story!
Yeah, soothing noise is definitely going to be an important part of sleep going forward I think. Thanks for sharing your story!
My very good friend 
Kai The Fox got tinnitus by getting hit on one of his ears... they also told him he would have the thing for the rest of his life and that he would eventually get used to it. but like a couple of months later tho, it went away!!
also in my experience as a car mechanic, I do get around loud noises all the time, and I have got the ringing several times... but it always goes away.. don't lose the faith just yet sweet Ru Q.Q i really, REALLY have the faith it will go away <3
Kai The Fox got tinnitus by getting hit on one of his ears... they also told him he would have the thing for the rest of his life and that he would eventually get used to it. but like a couple of months later tho, it went away!! also in my experience as a car mechanic, I do get around loud noises all the time, and I have got the ringing several times... but it always goes away.. don't lose the faith just yet sweet Ru Q.Q i really, REALLY have the faith it will go away <3
It's been about a week so far, and if anything it's only gotten a little worse. So, it doesn't seem super likely that it's going to clear up on it's own... especially where it's due to loud sound/hearing damage and not an injury to some other part of the ear that might clear up eventually. But, we'll see I suppose, we'll see. Doesn't hurt to hope I guess. :P
Thanks man!
Thanks man!
You're a good person and have created a wholesome fan base. You've inspired me in the past on a previous name and I'll be forever grateful to you.
Make no mistake, this is a loss. You're going to grieve. Loss of function or loss of health is going to cause it. Let emotion out when it comes and talk to those you trust.
Make no mistake, this is a loss. You're going to grieve. Loss of function or loss of health is going to cause it. Let emotion out when it comes and talk to those you trust.
I think grieve is a good word for it, I was thinking of using that word too. At the end of the day the loss might be small, it's just some noise that I can't really drown out so I have to get used to, but it's still a loss, knowing there's no going back. I gotta take some time but I'll get there.
Thanks so much. :3
Thanks so much. :3
I got "lucky" on the genetic roulette and have a type of genetic tinnitus. For as long as I can remember, that ring was just what I thought silence was supposed to be like. Thankfully, it's doesn't seem to be constant, and as long as there is some other noise, I can hear that instead of the tinnitus. I don't really have much advice, but what helps me is having something else to listen to, so that I don't "hear" the tinnitus.
Here's hoping you make a recovery, and that in the event that you do not, that it becomes manageable for you. I'm not too good at the comfort thing, but I've been though multiple chronic health issues, so I speak from experience when I say that you'll get to a point where you don't even notice your condition if it doesn't resolve.
Here's hoping you make a recovery, and that in the event that you do not, that it becomes manageable for you. I'm not too good at the comfort thing, but I've been though multiple chronic health issues, so I speak from experience when I say that you'll get to a point where you don't even notice your condition if it doesn't resolve.
Unfortunately what made this so initially devastating for me is that sound doesn't work anymore. I always had a little ringing but even the lightest sound would make it disappear. Now, even very loud white noise doesn't get rid of it. It's just... there.
Still, sucks that you're going through that, and the other conditions too! Having a body sucks. Unfortunately the alternative isn't much better so we're stuck with it, huh? :P
Thanks!
Still, sucks that you're going through that, and the other conditions too! Having a body sucks. Unfortunately the alternative isn't much better so we're stuck with it, huh? :P
Thanks!
Well, shit. Hate that is the response that it's there and you'll have to get used to it. That utterly sucks and I have no words.
On the stress of one mistake you'll be dealing with the rest of your life... I weirdly have a lot of experience with... multiple broken limbs, more than one growing wrong so years of surgeries and never still quite right, getting older feeling the arthritis hitting those spots and knew that would be the case before I was a teen, and that's with the little aches that come from a foot not quite right with lots of walking. Every bone broken was a choice I made, dumb mistakes, some dumber than others.
It sucks. It absolutely utterly completely sucks. There is no taking away from that. But you said you wanted to start enjoying what life had to offer a little bit more is what lead to this, I'd advise you don't let it push you completely back. Sure, maybe not the loud clubs, but try again. And I am most definitely not saying don't take time to heal, this is distressing and you definitely should take the time you need to process.
^^;; I'm sorry if I go into this, I've spent most my life around those injured if not myself so I tend to go problem solve mode. Above everything, be kind to yourself and take care of yourself.
On the stress of one mistake you'll be dealing with the rest of your life... I weirdly have a lot of experience with... multiple broken limbs, more than one growing wrong so years of surgeries and never still quite right, getting older feeling the arthritis hitting those spots and knew that would be the case before I was a teen, and that's with the little aches that come from a foot not quite right with lots of walking. Every bone broken was a choice I made, dumb mistakes, some dumber than others.
It sucks. It absolutely utterly completely sucks. There is no taking away from that. But you said you wanted to start enjoying what life had to offer a little bit more is what lead to this, I'd advise you don't let it push you completely back. Sure, maybe not the loud clubs, but try again. And I am most definitely not saying don't take time to heal, this is distressing and you definitely should take the time you need to process.
^^;; I'm sorry if I go into this, I've spent most my life around those injured if not myself so I tend to go problem solve mode. Above everything, be kind to yourself and take care of yourself.
Sorry to hear all that- it definitely does suck.
This will definitely be a little setback to my willpower to get out there and try new things, but I don't plan to let it hold me back forever. Just gotta deal with the new shit first, but then I'll get back to it. :P
And no worries at all, I appreciate you taking the time to share your stories and your thoughts. Thank you! :3
This will definitely be a little setback to my willpower to get out there and try new things, but I don't plan to let it hold me back forever. Just gotta deal with the new shit first, but then I'll get back to it. :P
And no worries at all, I appreciate you taking the time to share your stories and your thoughts. Thank you! :3
That setback to your willpower is 100% understandable. No major change won't do that, doubly so for those that cause distress.
And you have this. There was a podcast that had a mantra that is a good one that gave quite a few hope, "Bad times are tough, but not tougher than me." My scars have built who I am so I already had something for that before. And if you ever need an ear, even if it's one just to rage at (trust me, I will only be impressed if you say anything in a rage I didn't hear in the back of an ambulance), feel free to reach out. You have many people cheering for you.
And you have this. There was a podcast that had a mantra that is a good one that gave quite a few hope, "Bad times are tough, but not tougher than me." My scars have built who I am so I already had something for that before. And if you ever need an ear, even if it's one just to rage at (trust me, I will only be impressed if you say anything in a rage I didn't hear in the back of an ambulance), feel free to reach out. You have many people cheering for you.
Some people imagine tinnitus as just playing a high frequency tone, and wonder "what's the big deal?" Except they seriously do not appreciate the ability to simply turn it off.
I said in my other comment, been dealing with it since I was a teen. Some days, the inability to escape it feels like some kind of very deep violation. But many days, I'm able to mostly tune it out.
I said in my other comment, been dealing with it since I was a teen. Some days, the inability to escape it feels like some kind of very deep violation. But many days, I'm able to mostly tune it out.
You'll get there! You've probably guessed this, but stress makes it worse. Which can turn into a death spiral. A slight stress sets me off, I think about the tinnitus, it gets worse, I get more stressed -- etc. General stress management will go a long way, here. Which... is a difficult skill to master. But an important one.
The rush of emotions from a significant change like that is nothing to be ashamed of. I know that I've had many moments like that a well, so don't feel ashamed or embarrassed by that at all.
I am sorry that you're stuck with it now, but as many people have said, it will get better with time. So take it easy and give yourself the time you need to recover and adjust as needed.
As ever, take care of yourself.
I am sorry that you're stuck with it now, but as many people have said, it will get better with time. So take it easy and give yourself the time you need to recover and adjust as needed.
As ever, take care of yourself.
I had really bad short term tinnitus a few months ago. Luckily, it only lasted about 3 weeks but it can really weigh on you mentally, even if it's not hurting you physically.
I hope yours will ease up over time! I know I mostly just lurk but I've loved watching you grow as an artist and I've admired and looked up to you for such a long time (I think it's been like 12-13 years now?). I really hope things look up for you soon <3
I hope yours will ease up over time! I know I mostly just lurk but I've loved watching you grow as an artist and I've admired and looked up to you for such a long time (I think it's been like 12-13 years now?). I really hope things look up for you soon <3
>medical professionals
just wondering.. was it multiple or was that just for flair? Because I have a hard time imagining multiple doctors told you "just deal with it" without even offering counseling or something.
But eh, be it as it may, I wish you the best. And try pink/purple noise as said in my original reply
just wondering.. was it multiple or was that just for flair? Because I have a hard time imagining multiple doctors told you "just deal with it" without even offering counseling or something.
But eh, be it as it may, I wish you the best. And try pink/purple noise as said in my original reply
I was paraphrasing for slight humorous effect. They were as kind and gentle as the could be while delivering the news, and I do have contact information for questions and stuff, but at the end of the day that really is the main takeaway. There's no way to actually fix it, ya just gotta learn to live with it. :P
And thanks, will do!
And thanks, will do!
I'm sure I speak for most all of us when I say take all the time you need, it's something new you have to adjust to and that can be rough. You got this though, we believe in you, and I hope it doesn't put you off from enjoying all the other fun things life gives you the chance to try
You're still a person beyond the art you create. you've given us a lot of joy and the least we can do is offer support however we can.
you ever need some audio that helps counter tinnitus, or at least makes you forget about it for a while. let me know. I've been dealing with three different types for a lot of my life.
you ever need some audio that helps counter tinnitus, or at least makes you forget about it for a while. let me know. I've been dealing with three different types for a lot of my life.
Thank you, both for your comment here and on the other one! Sorry to hear you're dealing with this too- it's definitely rough, and as someone who works with sound for a living I imagine it must be particularly irritating.
I'm still sorta poking around to see what works for me, honestly at this stage most noise kinda hurts my ears a bit so I haven't been listening to anything in particular to mask it yet, but I may take you up on that down the road a bit. :P
I'm still sorta poking around to see what works for me, honestly at this stage most noise kinda hurts my ears a bit so I haven't been listening to anything in particular to mask it yet, but I may take you up on that down the road a bit. :P
it's made me quite useless in dialogue editing to be sure. Having to constantly remind myself 'no, there isn't something in the LFE channel' is annoying. I actually discovered that when I was convinced my house had a power line vibration going on and only when I went on a vacation in the middle of the woods and STILL heard it did I realize it was another form of tinnitus. Much of what gets me through it is mindfulness and meditation to essentially 'tune it out.' I'm sorry you have to endure this. Please don't let it prevent you from going out in the future. Though I recommend some keychain earplugs, lifesavers I tell you.
It's not the same as ear ringing, but I hurt my back very badly about 2 years ago from doing a house move from one state to another. I made it the whole move without hurting it too bad until the tipping point was bringing one microwave up the stairs. I then had three months of crippling agony, mri, got told it just takes time, physical therapy...
And the doctor said it can just happen again and now I just need to be careful and upkeep and flare ups and back pain will just be a normal part of life now. So I understand how horribly demoralizing and frustrating it is to feel like you made one mistake and now your body is against you and your quality of life and how you handle it is going to be so much diferent. I really hope with time your ringing goes away and some of the fixes people mentioned will help! I'm so sorry you tried to do something to be better and get out there and not only did you not have a good time, but it also is like now you got physically punished for it. I send you all my well wishes that it gets easier <3
And the doctor said it can just happen again and now I just need to be careful and upkeep and flare ups and back pain will just be a normal part of life now. So I understand how horribly demoralizing and frustrating it is to feel like you made one mistake and now your body is against you and your quality of life and how you handle it is going to be so much diferent. I really hope with time your ringing goes away and some of the fixes people mentioned will help! I'm so sorry you tried to do something to be better and get out there and not only did you not have a good time, but it also is like now you got physically punished for it. I send you all my well wishes that it gets easier <3
Oof, sorry to hear that, that definitely sucks big time. :< As I find myself saying a lot lately... bodies suck, hah. Thanks for sharing your story, I hope it causes you as little trouble going forward as possible!
It's a bit of a demoralizing blow for me I wont lie, but I'll get myself sorted out soon, I'm sure! Already doing much better thanks to everyone here helping out. :3
It's a bit of a demoralizing blow for me I wont lie, but I'll get myself sorted out soon, I'm sure! Already doing much better thanks to everyone here helping out. :3
I'm sorry, man. I was really keeping 'em crossed you'd get away clean. You've got a lot of good advice from a lot of folks dealing with the "T". It'll get better. Be good to yourself, including giving yourself time to process.
And I apologize if any of my earlier comments came off as brusque.
And I apologize if any of my earlier comments came off as brusque.
Not at all, not at all! You weren't wrong, anyway. :P
While at this point the odds are a bit small, there's still a chance it may fade over the coming weeks... and even if it doesn't, a lot of people have shared stories of adapting to the point where it's barely an issue for them anymore. Sounds like I'll be able to manage it, one way or another!
While at this point the odds are a bit small, there's still a chance it may fade over the coming weeks... and even if it doesn't, a lot of people have shared stories of adapting to the point where it's barely an issue for them anymore. Sounds like I'll be able to manage it, one way or another!
I think I missed the original upload you did, but yeah, you have a massive community that loves you Ru!
I have whats called "pulsitle tinnitus" in my right ear. Basically a wooshing, or pulsing sound in time with your heart beat. It SUCKS. Some days its not bad, but others it gets bad enough that it actually effects my ability to hear out of that ear at all.
I literally just woke up one morning, and it was there. No idea what caused it, no docs can figure out what caused it, or have a solution other than "learn to deal with it as best you can". Its been 4 years since it started.
And I have learned to deal with it! I still have some bad days, where its very noticeable, and loud, and I cant hear anything out of that ear, but those days are getting very few, and very far between now.
So I believe things WILL get better for you, with time. You'll develop little tricks and ways to deal with it, sometimes without even realizing you've done so and some days you'll barely notice it at all, and those days will become much more common than the bad days.
So dont beat yourself up too bad Ru, these things just sometimes happen! Sometimes from a silly mistake or miscalculation, and sometimes just, seemingly for no reason at all! So keep that chin up, use the resources you have available to you, and just do your best to stay strong hun <3
I have whats called "pulsitle tinnitus" in my right ear. Basically a wooshing, or pulsing sound in time with your heart beat. It SUCKS. Some days its not bad, but others it gets bad enough that it actually effects my ability to hear out of that ear at all.
I literally just woke up one morning, and it was there. No idea what caused it, no docs can figure out what caused it, or have a solution other than "learn to deal with it as best you can". Its been 4 years since it started.
And I have learned to deal with it! I still have some bad days, where its very noticeable, and loud, and I cant hear anything out of that ear, but those days are getting very few, and very far between now.
So I believe things WILL get better for you, with time. You'll develop little tricks and ways to deal with it, sometimes without even realizing you've done so and some days you'll barely notice it at all, and those days will become much more common than the bad days.
So dont beat yourself up too bad Ru, these things just sometimes happen! Sometimes from a silly mistake or miscalculation, and sometimes just, seemingly for no reason at all! So keep that chin up, use the resources you have available to you, and just do your best to stay strong hun <3
My advice is to give yourself outside time in quiet areas too. Sometimes it helps to just look around and think, and let visuals overload the ability to hear. If that makes sense.
I also have tinnitus and it's loud in my right ear right now, like a high, high pitched violin string on ice. It sucks, but I've learned to just breathe, take in it, and try to be patient. It's hard, but it goes down on occasion and can be bearable.
You got this, and I believe in you. Moreso, I know you believe in yourself, or you wouldn't be here reading these notes to you.
You got this- and your already adjusting a bit. Be proud of yourself.
I also have tinnitus and it's loud in my right ear right now, like a high, high pitched violin string on ice. It sucks, but I've learned to just breathe, take in it, and try to be patient. It's hard, but it goes down on occasion and can be bearable.
You got this, and I believe in you. Moreso, I know you believe in yourself, or you wouldn't be here reading these notes to you.
You got this- and your already adjusting a bit. Be proud of yourself.
My outdoor exercise of choice is biking- it definitely helps to get outside for a bit. Doing stuff and seeing the sights takes the mind off it a little, and all the outside noises don't hurt either, for sure!
I'm sorry to hear you're also dealing with this, it's definitely no fun. Hopefully we can both get as much peace as possible going forward. And thank you. :3
I'm sorry to hear you're also dealing with this, it's definitely no fun. Hopefully we can both get as much peace as possible going forward. And thank you. :3
The fox is supposed to go ringringringringdingering! Not your ears. But I really hope you at least adjust to it and still hopeful somehow it goes away someday...I'm a really optimistic fox. And if you ever need a friend, note me. We can chat if you just need to scream or vent or junk! o7
My family would blast loud metal music in the car when I was little, I would be crying, holding my ears, telling them the sound hurt. Sometimes they would turn it down a little but usually not enough to make it stop hurting.
In my pre-teen/early teen years, I didn't have a fan or AC in my room and at night, with my tv turned low, that's when I really noticed the ringing (I was also traumatized by the X-Files and I kept thinking about that episode where people died from hearing a high pitched sound, so I was scared in general too) and it made it difficult to sleep.
I started to notice it all the time after that. But, now it doesn't bother me at all, its like... just part of the background. Ive done hearing tests and, thankfully, even at almost 36 I still have the hearing of a teen (I can still hear far into the "mosquito" range that most people lose in their 20s).
Its only in pure silence that I really notice it now and I feel like my brain has just gotten used to it. Its kinda like going nose-blind to something.
I do wonder though, how good would my hearing be if my parents didn't try to blow my eardrums out when I was a kid xD
Anyways, there is hope; As with a lot of things in life, it takes time and the in-between is the hardest par but, one day, it will probably not even be a thought in your head.
Don't give up! We love you and you can get past this <3
In my pre-teen/early teen years, I didn't have a fan or AC in my room and at night, with my tv turned low, that's when I really noticed the ringing (I was also traumatized by the X-Files and I kept thinking about that episode where people died from hearing a high pitched sound, so I was scared in general too) and it made it difficult to sleep.
I started to notice it all the time after that. But, now it doesn't bother me at all, its like... just part of the background. Ive done hearing tests and, thankfully, even at almost 36 I still have the hearing of a teen (I can still hear far into the "mosquito" range that most people lose in their 20s).
Its only in pure silence that I really notice it now and I feel like my brain has just gotten used to it. Its kinda like going nose-blind to something.
I do wonder though, how good would my hearing be if my parents didn't try to blow my eardrums out when I was a kid xD
Anyways, there is hope; As with a lot of things in life, it takes time and the in-between is the hardest par but, one day, it will probably not even be a thought in your head.
Don't give up! We love you and you can get past this <3
It's honestly surprising what the human body and mind is capable of adapting to, especially in extreme conditions. We're soft of squishy and break relatively easily, but at the same time, we're extremely durable and adaptive.
Also, what in the ever loving fuck?! Holy shit! I'm so sorry you had to endure that. What the fuck?! Just...
Also, what in the ever loving fuck?! Holy shit! I'm so sorry you had to endure that. What the fuck?! Just...
Trust me, this is the LEAST of the BS I have gone through with them and other members of my family.
I like to say its like a bad daytime TV Soap Opera.
Like, they finally got divorced last year... after he moved next door with a girl that worked with him since she was 14 (shes 2 years younger than me, so 34 now) and got her pregnant. Leaving my epileptic mother months before her brain surgery.
Before we found out this girl was pregnant, he kept trying to tell me to get my mother to sign the divorce papers asap, he isnt going to try and fight us for the house, he doesn't want to see us homeless ect, ect.
Papers come, anonymous letter (still haven't found out who sent it) came also, telling my mother that this girl is pregnant and in the divorce papers he was 100% going to fight us for the house, he was just trying to butter me up, finally trying to have a "good" relationship with me.
And this is just the latest shit, its been a nonstop nightmare since I was little xD
I like to say its like a bad daytime TV Soap Opera.
Like, they finally got divorced last year... after he moved next door with a girl that worked with him since she was 14 (shes 2 years younger than me, so 34 now) and got her pregnant. Leaving my epileptic mother months before her brain surgery.
Before we found out this girl was pregnant, he kept trying to tell me to get my mother to sign the divorce papers asap, he isnt going to try and fight us for the house, he doesn't want to see us homeless ect, ect.
Papers come, anonymous letter (still haven't found out who sent it) came also, telling my mother that this girl is pregnant and in the divorce papers he was 100% going to fight us for the house, he was just trying to butter me up, finally trying to have a "good" relationship with me.
And this is just the latest shit, its been a nonstop nightmare since I was little xD
Wooow, you've been through some stuff, for sure- I'm so sorry for all that! But thank you for sharing your stories, hearing other people go through rough times and come out the other side okay definitely helps.
I hope your life will let up with the soap opera act sooner rather than later, you deserve good times. :P
I hope your life will let up with the soap opera act sooner rather than later, you deserve good times. :P
It's surprising how helpful it is to just let it out, and to have someone across the proverbial table who will, at the very least, acknowledge what you've said, and even be able to share and sympathise.
I'm glad to hear that you're feeling... well, not as bad as you were, at least. Take whatever time you need. And may things improve in the future. :)
I'm glad to hear that you're feeling... well, not as bad as you were, at least. Take whatever time you need. And may things improve in the future. :)
start with airforce proceed to a lot of band work (weekends)while doing steel work and running grinders and related... yup got the ol screaming ringing
now ive had this for at least 40 years . two things happen. you start to get used to it and it starts to ease up to the point you dont notice it unless you think about it.
going forward protect your hearing so you dont make it worse .
now ive had this for at least 40 years . two things happen. you start to get used to it and it starts to ease up to the point you dont notice it unless you think about it.
going forward protect your hearing so you dont make it worse .
You burrito up for as long as you need to, Ruaidri. Feeling so... helpless and terrible about something like this, especially given how it happened... I get it. I truly hope that it does at least fade a bit with time, and that it doesn't disrupt your life nearly as badly as it feels like it might.
Hey Ru.
I just want to let you know that you could be suffering from something called a vestibular migraine too. I get them from time to time. They're not quite like a normal migraine. You don't get the crippling pain and they tend to center around the ears rather than the eyes. They usually last about 4-5 days. The most pronounced symptom is severe tinnitus, but I usually experience sensitivity to loud noises, sometimes experience loss of equilibrium and light sensitivity too. The other symptoms usually don't last more than 4 days or so but the tinnitus can sometimes last a little longer. I only started getting them a few years ago. Reducing caffeine intake helped some, but I also had some luck using a melatonin supplement to improve sleep. If you wear headphones that put a lot of pressure on the sides of your head, supposedly this can aggravate the vascular conditions related to the migraine. Stress and anxiety are strong migraine triggers, so it absolutely could make sense that the stress of being in an intense social situation with intense and uncomfortable volume levels could have triggered one.
I just want to let you know that you could be suffering from something called a vestibular migraine too. I get them from time to time. They're not quite like a normal migraine. You don't get the crippling pain and they tend to center around the ears rather than the eyes. They usually last about 4-5 days. The most pronounced symptom is severe tinnitus, but I usually experience sensitivity to loud noises, sometimes experience loss of equilibrium and light sensitivity too. The other symptoms usually don't last more than 4 days or so but the tinnitus can sometimes last a little longer. I only started getting them a few years ago. Reducing caffeine intake helped some, but I also had some luck using a melatonin supplement to improve sleep. If you wear headphones that put a lot of pressure on the sides of your head, supposedly this can aggravate the vascular conditions related to the migraine. Stress and anxiety are strong migraine triggers, so it absolutely could make sense that the stress of being in an intense social situation with intense and uncomfortable volume levels could have triggered one.
I appreciate the thought! But based on how it's behaving I really don't think that's it. Stress, anxiety, caffeine, my mood, nothing like that seems to particularly affect it. It's remarkably stable, just kinda always there. And with the timeline of events, where it started immediately after going to a too-loud place for too-long, I think it's a pretty clear case of hearing damage, unfortunately.
But, if I'm wrong and it clears up over the next few days I'll come right back here and you'll be the first to know! :P
But, if I'm wrong and it clears up over the next few days I'll come right back here and you'll be the first to know! :P
I should clarify, a migraine is going to tend to stick around a while regardless, these suggestions are more about prevention, like, actionable stuff you can do to reduce the risk of recurrence. I always have a laugh when a doctor tells me "You have to reduce your stress levels." That's cute. That's like telling me I have to be taller or stop having to breathe so much.
I do hope it clears up though, but I have a feeling it probably will. All bodies are different, of course, but this is a pet topic of mine because I'm a musician and sound engineer/producer. I don't mean to be condescending, I just want to offer whatever reassurance I can.
It would be unusual to experience anything resembling acute hearing damage even after a few hours in a night club at full-send drum & bass set volume levels of about 100-110db. If that's not a great reference for you, imagine a full sized gas powered chainsaw running at full throttle in your hands, and that's right around 100db. That's the kind of volume level we're talking about. OSHA rates your safe exposure levels to that sort of sound at about 30 minutes a day, about five days a week, indefinitely, without hearing protection, to avoid long-term hearing loss.
Again. I don't want to downplay your concerns. I was absolutely terrified when I had the first of the migraines I was describing. I thought I was having a stroke. So please don't take it that way.
I do hope it clears up though, but I have a feeling it probably will. All bodies are different, of course, but this is a pet topic of mine because I'm a musician and sound engineer/producer. I don't mean to be condescending, I just want to offer whatever reassurance I can.
It would be unusual to experience anything resembling acute hearing damage even after a few hours in a night club at full-send drum & bass set volume levels of about 100-110db. If that's not a great reference for you, imagine a full sized gas powered chainsaw running at full throttle in your hands, and that's right around 100db. That's the kind of volume level we're talking about. OSHA rates your safe exposure levels to that sort of sound at about 30 minutes a day, about five days a week, indefinitely, without hearing protection, to avoid long-term hearing loss.
Again. I don't want to downplay your concerns. I was absolutely terrified when I had the first of the migraines I was describing. I thought I was having a stroke. So please don't take it that way.
I do hope you're right. I'm not super expecting it to get better, what with it not changing at all up to now, but you never know I suppose!
No worries, I didn't sense any condescension from that at all. Or downplaying or anything of that nature. You're good!
That's the funny thing, my hearing seems to be more or less fine. Damage in that front seems minimal, so technically they're right... It's just the dang ringing I'm left with that's a problem. But, it's not out of the question that it does get better yet. I've seen timeframes in the weeks, months, even years and then it eventually cleared up. Who knows. :P If that day ever comes I'll be sure to celebrate it here with everyone!
No worries, I didn't sense any condescension from that at all. Or downplaying or anything of that nature. You're good!
That's the funny thing, my hearing seems to be more or less fine. Damage in that front seems minimal, so technically they're right... It's just the dang ringing I'm left with that's a problem. But, it's not out of the question that it does get better yet. I've seen timeframes in the weeks, months, even years and then it eventually cleared up. Who knows. :P If that day ever comes I'll be sure to celebrate it here with everyone!
I'm damn sorry nothing seems doable, especially after knowing what you did just to go out and have a good time. I can say things will get better and you will learn to deal with shit you never thought you could.
I'm speaking from having a similar experience, nothing like T, to be fair. I have a horrible needle phobia, and I woke up one day unable to hold down water, unable to eat, and was rushed to the ER, I was told I had Diabetic Keto-acidosis, Apparently over the last X months I had developed diabetes, and never knew it until I almost died from it.
I'm still terrified of needles, but the ones that inject my insulin every day before every meal aren't so bad. I miss the foods I used to enjoy some of which I can never have again. But you adapt, you learn to deal. And..sometimes eventually things do improve a little bit. You can get through this.
I'm speaking from having a similar experience, nothing like T, to be fair. I have a horrible needle phobia, and I woke up one day unable to hold down water, unable to eat, and was rushed to the ER, I was told I had Diabetic Keto-acidosis, Apparently over the last X months I had developed diabetes, and never knew it until I almost died from it.
I'm still terrified of needles, but the ones that inject my insulin every day before every meal aren't so bad. I miss the foods I used to enjoy some of which I can never have again. But you adapt, you learn to deal. And..sometimes eventually things do improve a little bit. You can get through this.
All roads are walked one step at a time, sometimes it's down hill, sometimes it's a struggle, but it's all part of the journey. Walk slowly now, save your energy as you struggle up the climb, your time to run free will come again.
Now, is a time that more than most, we all need to support one another, and, hard though it be, find things to love inside our selves, things that are worth fighting for. We have dark days behind us, dark seas surround us, and dark times yet lie ahead. Shelter your flame, it is one, and though small, as a community, flickering and fragile, together our candles can light the world.
Now, is a time that more than most, we all need to support one another, and, hard though it be, find things to love inside our selves, things that are worth fighting for. We have dark days behind us, dark seas surround us, and dark times yet lie ahead. Shelter your flame, it is one, and though small, as a community, flickering and fragile, together our candles can light the world.
Dang dude. You've got quite the way with words! I'm not quite as vocabulisticly gifted, but I love the sentiment. Now more than ever with the world seemingly going to hell, it's important to have community of some type. Maybe we can all help each other keep going. I've learned that firsthand as of late. :P
I get told that sometimes c.c... Just how I am...
I guess... to speak is to convey, to acknowledge, to express... Words, when someone suffers, can be so inadequate to convey your concern. To put thought, image, heart, within your words, is a way of giving a gift, how ever small. I will never be an artist in the way that you are an artist, I have tried, I do not have the... drive, for it. But we all have our gifts.
Thank you for seeing that so many people do care about you, for being open to their concern. Stay strong.
I guess... to speak is to convey, to acknowledge, to express... Words, when someone suffers, can be so inadequate to convey your concern. To put thought, image, heart, within your words, is a way of giving a gift, how ever small. I will never be an artist in the way that you are an artist, I have tried, I do not have the... drive, for it. But we all have our gifts.
Thank you for seeing that so many people do care about you, for being open to their concern. Stay strong.
I had tinnitus since infancy, I was so used to it for the longest time I thought everyone had lil ringing in their ears, just a noise your head makes or something. Sleeping with a fan or youtube videos in the background is a must for me lol. I understand your ringing is a lot more high pitched, so I can try to offer a little story.
Sometime last year I had a bad ear infection, and it made the ringing in my ear bad, like really bad, the worst I ever experienced. So high pitched nothing drowned it out, so I just laid in bed grabbing my head begging for it to stop. Trying to watch videos to distract myself. It took a couple days for it to finally be that normal dull ring tone. Since then that was the biggest scare I ever had.
So I can hope the high pitched ringing is only temporary and your ear heals to a more dull ring like mine. I got noise canceling headphones on rn but no videos playing so my ringing is especially prominent yet I hardly notice it if I don’t focus on it, so it is possible to get used to it.
Sometime last year I had a bad ear infection, and it made the ringing in my ear bad, like really bad, the worst I ever experienced. So high pitched nothing drowned it out, so I just laid in bed grabbing my head begging for it to stop. Trying to watch videos to distract myself. It took a couple days for it to finally be that normal dull ring tone. Since then that was the biggest scare I ever had.
So I can hope the high pitched ringing is only temporary and your ear heals to a more dull ring like mine. I got noise canceling headphones on rn but no videos playing so my ringing is especially prominent yet I hardly notice it if I don’t focus on it, so it is possible to get used to it.
Tbh I've sometimes wondered if I might have tinnitus cuz whenever its quiet I hear what can maybe be described as a ringing noise but like....idk if that's what it is or if its just my nerves kicking up because silence is wierd or what. I've literally never known any different so if it is a form of tinnitus its been as long as I can remember so...
Honestly not entirely sure where this comment is going, yours just induced rambling I guess.
Honestly not entirely sure where this comment is going, yours just induced rambling I guess.
That's probably a little light tinnitus, yeah. That's what it was like for me, before all this happened. When it was very quiet I could hear some ringing sounds, but any level of noise, even really quiet ones, would make it go away.
I wouldn't let it freak you out, I made it quite far before it finally came to bite me and it was because I did a dumb, but it may mean you're more predisposed to tinnitus and more likely to run into tinnitus if you get into a loud situation for too long. Again, I was in a club that was so loud nobody could hear each other for several hours, so don't worry about occasionally dropping a plate or something, but if you ever plan to go to a concert or anything... get some good earplugs. Don't make the same mistake I did. :P
I wouldn't let it freak you out, I made it quite far before it finally came to bite me and it was because I did a dumb, but it may mean you're more predisposed to tinnitus and more likely to run into tinnitus if you get into a loud situation for too long. Again, I was in a club that was so loud nobody could hear each other for several hours, so don't worry about occasionally dropping a plate or something, but if you ever plan to go to a concert or anything... get some good earplugs. Don't make the same mistake I did. :P
I'll have to keep that ib mind if I ever go to a proper concert then. Loudest thing I've gone to is FWA, and even there I'm more often with friends rather than directly part of the main crowds, and the few times I'm alone I tend to wear headphones that are pretty good at filtering out external noise.
Hopefully yours settles back down eventually though, having it at all times sounds like it'd be miserable.
Hopefully yours settles back down eventually though, having it at all times sounds like it'd be miserable.
Hey, I've been offline the last few days and I'm just playing catch up. A little while ago I was working on a game jam, and in the middle of it I was trying to make some classic 8 bit music and sound effects. Well for whatever reason the website I was using to generate effects kept resetting the sound level, even though I kept turning it down, and down and down. But it kept reseting. After doing this for like 2 hours, I decided to call it a night and took off my head phones.
My ears were throbbing.
I could hear this rumble of sound, it was like the 'flash bang' sound I'd hear every once in a while (Again, my own flavor of tinnitus). But this was worse, louder. I went upstairs, my wife was already asleep, but she had the TV going. She normally listens to stuff in bed kind of loud, so I was hoping that'd drown out the dull roar.
It didn't.
It took a couple of weeks for me to get either used to the sound, or for it to get better. I didn't go to a doctor cuz A. American, but B. All the research that I did basically showed that no doctors were going to make it better. And I'm much the same way you are. I...don't want my body to be ruined by something I did. I'm terrified to use power tools but I do all the time, even though I hear stories of people fingers getting cut off because they were careless or other such actions. But how could I be so stupid, I ruined my hearing, I was going to have to live with it forever...
I guess my point is, I've been in the same place you are. I get it, it's scary, especially in the moment. But please give us an update in a couple of weeks. Hopefully it's better by then and hopefully you've found something to drown out the dull roar while you sleep. I ended up having to dig out a blindfold that had a couple of headphones in it. It helped drown out the dull roar a bit, definitely a lot less noticeable, and I could actually sleep.
Hope to hear from you, and hope that maybe some people's stories, experiences, or recommendations can help. Take it easy, take all the time you need. I'll always be a supporter and I'm not going anywhere.
My ears were throbbing.
I could hear this rumble of sound, it was like the 'flash bang' sound I'd hear every once in a while (Again, my own flavor of tinnitus). But this was worse, louder. I went upstairs, my wife was already asleep, but she had the TV going. She normally listens to stuff in bed kind of loud, so I was hoping that'd drown out the dull roar.
It didn't.
It took a couple of weeks for me to get either used to the sound, or for it to get better. I didn't go to a doctor cuz A. American, but B. All the research that I did basically showed that no doctors were going to make it better. And I'm much the same way you are. I...don't want my body to be ruined by something I did. I'm terrified to use power tools but I do all the time, even though I hear stories of people fingers getting cut off because they were careless or other such actions. But how could I be so stupid, I ruined my hearing, I was going to have to live with it forever...
I guess my point is, I've been in the same place you are. I get it, it's scary, especially in the moment. But please give us an update in a couple of weeks. Hopefully it's better by then and hopefully you've found something to drown out the dull roar while you sleep. I ended up having to dig out a blindfold that had a couple of headphones in it. It helped drown out the dull roar a bit, definitely a lot less noticeable, and I could actually sleep.
Hope to hear from you, and hope that maybe some people's stories, experiences, or recommendations can help. Take it easy, take all the time you need. I'll always be a supporter and I'm not going anywhere.
Gosh, I'm sorry you went through that. That moment of "Oh I fucked up" is definitely not a great feeling. I'm glad your situation improved though- maybe in time mine'll clear up too. If I ever notice any significant improvement, trust me I'll be celebrating it all over the place, you won't be able to avoid hearing about it. :P
Thanks so much man!
Thanks so much man!
Assuming T is the looming ringing. I have it as well. Mine is not constant. it acts up sometimes. and some things aggravate it. I have my regrets. I wasn't always careful, but I am also mad at times.. I tried a lot. I did try to care for my ears. but (i normally don't like talking about this fact) I was in the military. I was around some of the loudest heavy machinery in the navy. for literally more than half my physical time. regardless of the protection i used it affected me.
Long story short. I understand you a bit. I'm lucky mine isn't as bad as it could be. but it's weird, I have to work harder to listen to people. I mishear people all the time, and asking them to repeat stuff when im only in my early 30s is very embarrassing and it will never get better. I'm scared of how much worse it will get in my later years. I dont know, part of who i am know. I take it as part of the life experience I have done and try to caution others who chide me for trying to help them. It doesn't make you any less, just different. and different is good, makes us unique : 3
Anyways (been drinking a little). my own rambling over. I hope you are doing better. I've always enjoyed your art, and the few times I've poked you, you have been extremely friendly. I love sharing your art and usually followed by a "they are so talented in soo many fields, and super nice and friendly"
Long story short. I understand you a bit. I'm lucky mine isn't as bad as it could be. but it's weird, I have to work harder to listen to people. I mishear people all the time, and asking them to repeat stuff when im only in my early 30s is very embarrassing and it will never get better. I'm scared of how much worse it will get in my later years. I dont know, part of who i am know. I take it as part of the life experience I have done and try to caution others who chide me for trying to help them. It doesn't make you any less, just different. and different is good, makes us unique : 3
Anyways (been drinking a little). my own rambling over. I hope you are doing better. I've always enjoyed your art, and the few times I've poked you, you have been extremely friendly. I love sharing your art and usually followed by a "they are so talented in soo many fields, and super nice and friendly"
Yeah, the military seems to be particularly bad about protecting the hearing of it's members. Half the videos about it I saw have been aimed at vets because it's such a common way to end up with tinnitus. Damn shame. :<
It's for a bit of a different reason, but I know how you feel and can sympathize about struggling in conversation... my hearing is fine, pretty good for my age even despite the recent incident. But I seem to have a bit of an auditory processing issue. Someone will say something to me and I'll very clearly hear everything they said, but it's like my brain just can't sort out the words fast enough. I end up having to try and get by on the one or two words I understood, relying on context and tone of voice to sort of fill in the gaps. I don't always get it right, and it's usually pretty embarrassing when I don't. Part of the reason I've been a hermit person so long. x3 I feel for ya!
Anyway. Ringing is still present, but doing dramatically better mentally thanks to all you folks. So, thanks for speaking up, it means a lot. D'aw, and for the super kind words too, thank you! :3
It's for a bit of a different reason, but I know how you feel and can sympathize about struggling in conversation... my hearing is fine, pretty good for my age even despite the recent incident. But I seem to have a bit of an auditory processing issue. Someone will say something to me and I'll very clearly hear everything they said, but it's like my brain just can't sort out the words fast enough. I end up having to try and get by on the one or two words I understood, relying on context and tone of voice to sort of fill in the gaps. I don't always get it right, and it's usually pretty embarrassing when I don't. Part of the reason I've been a hermit person so long. x3 I feel for ya!
Anyway. Ringing is still present, but doing dramatically better mentally thanks to all you folks. So, thanks for speaking up, it means a lot. D'aw, and for the super kind words too, thank you! :3
I them to repeat all the time because I hear enough that I think they say one thing but it makes absolutely no sense, so I know I heard it wrong because enough of the words are muffled. A lot of time I can pass and people don't realize, I look a lot younger than I am as well so I always get weird looks.
Besides this the actual ringing is pretty rare now thankfully.
Glad you have a lot of support :3
Besides this the actual ringing is pretty rare now thankfully.
Glad you have a lot of support :3
Tinnitus is horrible and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. But, like so many others have said, you really do learn to live with it. Music or any other background noise helps drown out the ringing. Doesn't have to be a lot, even just a fan running helps mask the ring. And it's easier said than done, but try not to think about it. I can't say I notice mine much day-to-day, but reading your post and typing out this reply has made me acutely aware of the ringing lol.
I'm sorry it happened to you. It really will get better, we promise c:
I'm sorry it happened to you. It really will get better, we promise c:
I've had tinnitus for just on five years now, brought on by cervical stenosis. Thankfully I don't have it every day, but when it hits I know exactly how you feel.
For both our sakes I hope there are advances in medical science that can relieve this. It's made my quality of life a lot poorer, and by the sound of it yours too.
For both our sakes I hope there are advances in medical science that can relieve this. It's made my quality of life a lot poorer, and by the sound of it yours too.
I understand the overwhelming emotion. I recently shared some of the... mental hang-ups I've been going through, and got a lot of positive comments and well wishes, and it hits. I know most of us are just names online and little more, but we do care. I'm glad to have been one small part of helping.
I do hope that the situation clears up for you. Often times, it is only temporary, and I hope it is that for you. If it's not, we will still be here. Sudden things that alter your life are... terrifying. But you are not alone. Be well.
I do hope that the situation clears up for you. Often times, it is only temporary, and I hope it is that for you. If it's not, we will still be here. Sudden things that alter your life are... terrifying. But you are not alone. Be well.
It really does help a lot. This has been quite the little group therapy session, hah. Thanks for taking part!
The odds of it going away for good aren't great at this point, but there's still a chance, we'll see how it goes. If it does you'll see me here celebrating! But in the meantime, thanks. That really does mean a lot. :3
The odds of it going away for good aren't great at this point, but there's still a chance, we'll see how it goes. If it does you'll see me here celebrating! But in the meantime, thanks. That really does mean a lot. :3
I was heartbroken for you to read what you're dealing with. Gosh, my sympathy goes out to you. I'm glad nothing is physically damaged but that emotional weight you're dealing with is no small injury. I hope things get better for you. I don't know much about tinnitus but I do know that some therapies exist that show promise. Not sure how feasible that is for you but it's something to look into. Wishing you the best and be sure to treat yourself gently while you deal with this change. *big hugs* <3
You've got this! I've got a special form on tinnitus where I can hear the bloodflow/my pulse in my right ear all the time! It gets way, way louder when I think about it though, I used to have some days where I'd hear it all the time and it would make people on my right side harder to hear, but nowadays now that I've gotten it checked out, know that's what it is, and have accepted it I usually only notice it at night going to sleep and I've accepted it as a companion noise rather than an interrupter of my silence
I understand that that's wayyyy harder with a high pitched ringing, but I've every confidence you'll get to a place where it's not near as distressing as it is right now!! Hang in there
I understand that that's wayyyy harder with a high pitched ringing, but I've every confidence you'll get to a place where it's not near as distressing as it is right now!! Hang in there
Ah, pulsatile tinnitus- I read about it a few times while looking up stuff for my own condition. Bit different but definitely no less irritating I imagine! Sorry to hear that, but I'm glad it's not too disruptive to you these days.
I'm already starting to catch myself having tuned it out from time to time, which is a good sign it won't bug me forever. I still need to get beyond the stage where I notice myself not noticing it and ruin it, but baby steps, baby steps. x3
I'm already starting to catch myself having tuned it out from time to time, which is a good sign it won't bug me forever. I still need to get beyond the stage where I notice myself not noticing it and ruin it, but baby steps, baby steps. x3
I've got tinnitus for about a year now after I got an ear infection.
At the beginning it was very difficult to live with and sometimes I didnt even want to anymore.
I've slowly gotten used to it and it's sadly something that is part of me now, the downside with it is that I seems to be hearing less when others talk to me, but no changes in hearingrange of hertz
What I figured out is that music can drown it out most of the time or being completely focussed on something makes me almost forget I have it.
It will take time to get used to it and yes it will spike every so often, but it can also go softer for a while. Don't give up.
At the beginning it was very difficult to live with and sometimes I didnt even want to anymore.
I've slowly gotten used to it and it's sadly something that is part of me now, the downside with it is that I seems to be hearing less when others talk to me, but no changes in hearingrange of hertz
What I figured out is that music can drown it out most of the time or being completely focussed on something makes me almost forget I have it.
It will take time to get used to it and yes it will spike every so often, but it can also go softer for a while. Don't give up.
Best advice I can give from someone who had god knows how many ear surgeries and problems and has tinitus out the ass; When the ringing starts getting really bad, it means your blood pressure is probably really high, which means you're probably stressed out, and the two tend to feed off one another.
So the best thing you can do is stop whatever you're doing, step away from it for a minute, and breathe, and listen to something else.
Im so sorry about this friendo, but I have this feeling you'll find a way to manage in the end. You got this! :D
So the best thing you can do is stop whatever you're doing, step away from it for a minute, and breathe, and listen to something else.
Im so sorry about this friendo, but I have this feeling you'll find a way to manage in the end. You got this! :D
To be perfectly honest, I haven't really noticed that effect myself yet so far; doesn't seem to matter if I'm relaxed or anxious or stressed, caffeinated or not, it's always just kinda the same. Could be because it's still new to me and always at the same level though. I'll definitely keep this in mind going forward. :P
But yeah, thank you! Hearing so many other people go through the same thing and turn out just fine definitely helped me snap out of it. It's not the end of the world, I'll be alright, heh.
But yeah, thank you! Hearing so many other people go through the same thing and turn out just fine definitely helped me snap out of it. It's not the end of the world, I'll be alright, heh.
I get cases so bad my teeth start to hurt (not common at all), it's something I've been living with most of my life, that and chronic ear infections. Unfortunately though, I can't really say I have much in the way of advice... I wish you the best and hope it heals, good luck and God speed.
Im sorry i havent seen the other post but i'll comment it here.
For me its the radio, i carry one pocket radio with me everywhere, with a soft headset i always wear on the left side (bad side) leaving the other side free.
It helps alot lets you ignore that pesky little sound.
Any frequency works, i do enjoy talk shows alot, you end up having fun if you find one you like during the day.
Bed time is even easier i do listen to audiobooks and even before having the T i needed noise to sleep.
For me it happened too young on my early cook days, long story.
For me its the radio, i carry one pocket radio with me everywhere, with a soft headset i always wear on the left side (bad side) leaving the other side free.
It helps alot lets you ignore that pesky little sound.
Any frequency works, i do enjoy talk shows alot, you end up having fun if you find one you like during the day.
Bed time is even easier i do listen to audiobooks and even before having the T i needed noise to sleep.
For me it happened too young on my early cook days, long story.
People talking has definitely been the best thing for me too. White noise just kind of makes it feel louder because I can hear it on top of all the noise, but talking seems to actually pull my attention away from it. Youtube's helped me a lot these days. :P
I'll definitely have to look into audiobooks, that's a good idea...
Sorry to hear you're dealing with this too, but thanks for the ideas! :3
I'll definitely have to look into audiobooks, that's a good idea...
Sorry to hear you're dealing with this too, but thanks for the ideas! :3
It's okay nothing to be sorry about, it is what it is, loud jobs.
But yeah about audiobooks, its not about "white noise" that's even worse just as you said makes it awfull, but as mentioned before, for me its, voices, someone talking, the late night radio with those deep voiced fellah's talking about whatever, its just enough to mask that annoying beeeee that's constantly following us around.
You'll be fine trust me.
Its just like my stepdad says (Old retired Navy sailor with Tinitus due to the ship's cannons), you get used to the company of the memories of what you did.
Whenever you're quiet you dont hear a annoying sound, you dont fight it off just go with it, sometimes its not because why it happened, more like what you've got to do.
Its... hard, i'll admit it, but, for me my T its all about memories, whenever i get annoyed by it i think to myself "Hey those where good years on those stoves wherent they?"
But yeah about audiobooks, its not about "white noise" that's even worse just as you said makes it awfull, but as mentioned before, for me its, voices, someone talking, the late night radio with those deep voiced fellah's talking about whatever, its just enough to mask that annoying beeeee that's constantly following us around.
You'll be fine trust me.
Its just like my stepdad says (Old retired Navy sailor with Tinitus due to the ship's cannons), you get used to the company of the memories of what you did.
Whenever you're quiet you dont hear a annoying sound, you dont fight it off just go with it, sometimes its not because why it happened, more like what you've got to do.
Its... hard, i'll admit it, but, for me my T its all about memories, whenever i get annoyed by it i think to myself "Hey those where good years on those stoves wherent they?"
I am kinda in the same boat with you...had some factory work back in 2019, without proper ear protection. After my shift it snapped in.
Thing is, the intensity of the ringing is somewhat mental in my unprofessional opinion. As in, when I start thinking about it AND focusing on, it gets worse, however when i can distract my attention with anything else, it falls down to a tolerable level.
Thing is, the intensity of the ringing is somewhat mental in my unprofessional opinion. As in, when I start thinking about it AND focusing on, it gets worse, however when i can distract my attention with anything else, it falls down to a tolerable level.
I'm sorry that happened to you. It's unfortunate that life is often so unfair. However, I'm glad to hear you got checked out by medical professionals and are taking the small steps needed to take care of yourself. I hope you continue to do so, and I'm excited to see what you come up with next when you're good and ready
I think one of the biggest things to take away from this experience (and posting about it) is to try not to get stuck in an inward spiral. In almost every situation I can think of, it is better to get feedback (and advice) when you are having trouble processing an experience.
Too often we tend to just "go with it, and hope for the best" when something happens that can have lasting effects (and sometimes be harmful if left unchecked). I'm guilty of this myself. I can't figure out if it's some form of embarrassment, pride, guilt, ignorance...or everything plus more. But reaching out to your network of support (all of us, your biggest fans ^_^ ) shows that you have some level of trust, and are willing to be somewhat vulnerable. This is a *good* trait, and something to be encouraged.
I'll throw in an example of something that just happened to a friend a couple of days ago. He was on a vacation trip to Hawaii, went out on an ATV excursion, and then travelled home to California. However, the next day he said he started seeing spots in his eye (quoted as saying "it looks like rain drops"), but initially he thought it's nothing to worry about. But that night the "drops" started turning into spots of light. After checking with others, they encouraged him to see the eye doc immediately and get checked out. Turns out he suffered a tear in his eye and had some interocular bleeding. The doc said if he would have waited even 2 days he might have suffered a detached retina. He got a procedure done to repair the tear and is healing up now. Not sure what long term effects there may be, but he can see out of both eyes.
The point I'm trying to get across is that you should never have to feel like you can only face problems alone, and that asking for help somehow makes you a lesser person. Many, many people have expressed a willingness to be there and listen if you ever need to talk over something. I've done this with others I've known and it can be a tremendous resource.
We care about you, and you are not alone. Hope you get whatever relief you can from the tinnitus soon.
Too often we tend to just "go with it, and hope for the best" when something happens that can have lasting effects (and sometimes be harmful if left unchecked). I'm guilty of this myself. I can't figure out if it's some form of embarrassment, pride, guilt, ignorance...or everything plus more. But reaching out to your network of support (all of us, your biggest fans ^_^ ) shows that you have some level of trust, and are willing to be somewhat vulnerable. This is a *good* trait, and something to be encouraged.
I'll throw in an example of something that just happened to a friend a couple of days ago. He was on a vacation trip to Hawaii, went out on an ATV excursion, and then travelled home to California. However, the next day he said he started seeing spots in his eye (quoted as saying "it looks like rain drops"), but initially he thought it's nothing to worry about. But that night the "drops" started turning into spots of light. After checking with others, they encouraged him to see the eye doc immediately and get checked out. Turns out he suffered a tear in his eye and had some interocular bleeding. The doc said if he would have waited even 2 days he might have suffered a detached retina. He got a procedure done to repair the tear and is healing up now. Not sure what long term effects there may be, but he can see out of both eyes.
The point I'm trying to get across is that you should never have to feel like you can only face problems alone, and that asking for help somehow makes you a lesser person. Many, many people have expressed a willingness to be there and listen if you ever need to talk over something. I've done this with others I've known and it can be a tremendous resource.
We care about you, and you are not alone. Hope you get whatever relief you can from the tinnitus soon.
I also started getting tinnitus about two years ago and just figured I had to accept this as a new fact of my life. It's definitely alarming and disheartening at first but you'll adapt. You'll eventually just be able to tune it out most of the time. It'll still be there, but it won't be so overwhelming anymore coupled with some of the reduction practices other have mentioned
Just did a dumb thing, ears now ringing, doesn't seem to be getting better. Didn't handle the initial moment of realizing I fucked up in a way I may never recover from particularly well, hah. Doing better now though, at least mentally.
Sorry to hear you're going through it too, it sucks indeed. But thanks! :3
Sorry to hear you're going through it too, it sucks indeed. But thanks! :3
One thing I've found that weirdly works is a hot shower/steaming.
Something about the pressure change when you're in a room full of steam really helps, maybe since it helps clear the sinuses/internal parts of your skull, it moves your eardrum/bones a bit. There's been some interesting research done about Tinnitus recently, hopefully it leads to some good results in the near future.
Something about the pressure change when you're in a room full of steam really helps, maybe since it helps clear the sinuses/internal parts of your skull, it moves your eardrum/bones a bit. There's been some interesting research done about Tinnitus recently, hopefully it leads to some good results in the near future.
Hey Ru. Just wanted to say - hang in there. You got this.
I don't have much on the side of insight or advice to offer, but I wanted to just throw out a message of support. You got this!
I have some degree of tinnitus, and it's been there long enough (I can't really even remember when it started...) that my brain has learned to filter it out anytime there is other stuff going on, music or conversation or what have you.
I hope yours is just temporary - an acute response to loud exposure. But, if it turns out to not be... your brain will figure it out, and it's going to get better and feel less intrusive. It just takes time <3
I don't have much on the side of insight or advice to offer, but I wanted to just throw out a message of support. You got this!
I have some degree of tinnitus, and it's been there long enough (I can't really even remember when it started...) that my brain has learned to filter it out anytime there is other stuff going on, music or conversation or what have you.
I hope yours is just temporary - an acute response to loud exposure. But, if it turns out to not be... your brain will figure it out, and it's going to get better and feel less intrusive. It just takes time <3
I know it's hard and scary when you first get to it. Things I do to help with that issue is whenever I'm at my computer, to put headphones on and keep my main volume down to 25% or so and turn down games and other apps to like 50%. I basically force myself into listening to quieter things and it helps. I'm in loud environments all day, so actually getting to enjoy those things that I do enjoy and even having it quiet, is a treat. I know that's not your situation, but it also helps me in my daily life where my partner is always quiet, so it's difficult to hear at first, but as I relax from the day and listen to even quieter stuff, then I can hear her fine after an hour or two. It's there, it's annoying, it's hard, but the biggest thing is, it will be okay 💜Take care of yourself and know that you can get through this 💜
While ringing in the ears does suck to get used to, be glad that's the worst that happened. If someone was screwing around with a laser projector with the music and not being careful, a powerful laser can cause blind spots in an instant and that is not something you could get used to.
If you don't mind, I have two bits of advice. First, always watch noise levels and wear hearing protection reliably so the ringing doesn't get any worse. Second, don't let this unpleasant outcome discourage you from getting out and mingling with other furs and making new friends. Not every get-together will be as loud as a jet engine, and if one gets loud again you can always leave early and wait for the next one. There are a lot of awesome furs out there to make friends with and being socially withdrawn sucks, so the more you can get out there the more comfortable you'll be with socializing.
If you don't mind, I have two bits of advice. First, always watch noise levels and wear hearing protection reliably so the ringing doesn't get any worse. Second, don't let this unpleasant outcome discourage you from getting out and mingling with other furs and making new friends. Not every get-together will be as loud as a jet engine, and if one gets loud again you can always leave early and wait for the next one. There are a lot of awesome furs out there to make friends with and being socially withdrawn sucks, so the more you can get out there the more comfortable you'll be with socializing.
Yup! I definitely understand what you mean, and the whole "one mistake" thing came to mind for me too when you mentioned it being hard to explain why it hit you so hard.
Sharing from myself again (sorry, it's just how I relate things in conversation), when I was 22, I was working as a line cook. Busy lunch, new shoes, one slip, and my body weight went into my left shoulder. Took me a little bit to realize my shoulder was busted, but ever since that fall, I can't raise my arm all the way up, and although a chiropractor fixed my lower back, my upper back is still messed up. Even though I can maybe do things to help lessen the pain, i'm likely stuck with it for the rest of my life. Almost 30 now, and I am not looking forward to getting even older, because I know it's just going to get worse. It's actually the reason my fursona has cybernetics! They are sort of a representation of this permanent pain I have to live with, and although i've gotten used to it, I had to come to terms with it being a part of me.
Kind of a harsh way to put it, but...yeah, you just kind of have to deal with it and do your best to remain optimistic and try not to dwell on the past. Definitely no way to sugar coat it; it is what it is, shit happens, etc.
Best of luck to you, Ru! ^^
Sharing from myself again (sorry, it's just how I relate things in conversation), when I was 22, I was working as a line cook. Busy lunch, new shoes, one slip, and my body weight went into my left shoulder. Took me a little bit to realize my shoulder was busted, but ever since that fall, I can't raise my arm all the way up, and although a chiropractor fixed my lower back, my upper back is still messed up. Even though I can maybe do things to help lessen the pain, i'm likely stuck with it for the rest of my life. Almost 30 now, and I am not looking forward to getting even older, because I know it's just going to get worse. It's actually the reason my fursona has cybernetics! They are sort of a representation of this permanent pain I have to live with, and although i've gotten used to it, I had to come to terms with it being a part of me.
Kind of a harsh way to put it, but...yeah, you just kind of have to deal with it and do your best to remain optimistic and try not to dwell on the past. Definitely no way to sugar coat it; it is what it is, shit happens, etc.
Best of luck to you, Ru! ^^
Man I cannot imagine what it must be like to life your life experiencing the world one way and then a single mistake changes that forever...
I would probably be just as panicky as you were, tbh.
But... hang in there, yeah? People with tinnitus often do say it gets better. Lots of people with it swear they lose track of it and dont even notice it anymore unless they focus on it. There are cases of tinnitus going away within a year. You never know.
We drown out noises all the time, the chattering of passers by, the clinking of dishwear, the rumble of motors, our brain knows to filter out thousands if not hundreds of thousands of noises that dont contain useful information to us. Just think of all the background noise you have probably been exposed to that you never even registered. Its entirely possible this will become that too.
I would probably be just as panicky as you were, tbh.
But... hang in there, yeah? People with tinnitus often do say it gets better. Lots of people with it swear they lose track of it and dont even notice it anymore unless they focus on it. There are cases of tinnitus going away within a year. You never know.
We drown out noises all the time, the chattering of passers by, the clinking of dishwear, the rumble of motors, our brain knows to filter out thousands if not hundreds of thousands of noises that dont contain useful information to us. Just think of all the background noise you have probably been exposed to that you never even registered. Its entirely possible this will become that too.
Awe, I wish I could magically make you feel better. I don't like finding out that someone I hold dear to me is suffering. If it makes you feel any better, I have the opposite problem where I can't hear much of anything anymore.
Anyway, I think you are neat and I hope this gets better for you dear
Anyway, I think you are neat and I hope this gets better for you dear
Hey Ruadiri,
I have Tinnitus, randomly, so yes I know it can be crazy and annoying.
My Grandpa had too, he got a little ear devices (Imagine Apple AirPods) what made a little sound, what he had to set up the level to he just barely hear it, and lower and lower it. Don't ask me the method how it work against the Tinnitus, because I am a Computer Engineer and not a Doctor, but it worked for him.
One of my ex Co-Worker (he is around his middle 30, around 36 +/- 1 year) has similar problem, he get some medicine, something like what the old people get for better thinking and reminding, and it worked for him.
Soo maybe you can get a good method too. Maybe it will never gone fully, but maybe they can bring it down so low level to you can live your life without problem, just Lift up your head and Don't Give up!
I have Tinnitus, randomly, so yes I know it can be crazy and annoying.
My Grandpa had too, he got a little ear devices (Imagine Apple AirPods) what made a little sound, what he had to set up the level to he just barely hear it, and lower and lower it. Don't ask me the method how it work against the Tinnitus, because I am a Computer Engineer and not a Doctor, but it worked for him.
One of my ex Co-Worker (he is around his middle 30, around 36 +/- 1 year) has similar problem, he get some medicine, something like what the old people get for better thinking and reminding, and it worked for him.
Soo maybe you can get a good method too. Maybe it will never gone fully, but maybe they can bring it down so low level to you can live your life without problem, just Lift up your head and Don't Give up!
I went to (exhausting) work last year with a cold, my immune system freaked out, and now I'm left with a numb foot and finger, we all carry the scars of our actions and there was really no reason for you to know that there would be any negative consequences of your actions.
Still hope you will fully recover from that!
Still hope you will fully recover from that!
Sorry to hear that you have this as well. Over due time you will find ways to over look it. Only time I really hear it myself is when I am in a silent room. I constantly have something running to keep my mind off it honestly. I prefer water noises like a river or water front when I am sleeping. Helps ease it a little bit! Just tinker a round with a few things you enjoy to help ease it for you Ru. I wish you the best of luck <3 Been dealing with mine for a very long time far as I can remember honestly.
I didn’t see the original and I’m sorry for that but I can say, I had a similar experience growing up. I didn’t know I had PTSD, let alone that it increases your chance of getting tinnitus, but I went to one concert without earplugs, stood in the back, and like…15 years later I’m still hearing that ringing! And you were right, it’s not a HUGE disability, it’s not chronic pain or something but like…it fucking blows. It’s still awful and while I can ignore it sometimes, that doesn’t stop the fact that it sucks! But as a real long time haver…I’m sorry that this happened, and I am hoping and praying that you have as many good days with it as possible…I’m sincerely sorry it happened but we will both persist, and also be happy, I know it <3
Also we used to chat a billion years ago in the age of YIM and I miss ya!
Also we used to chat a billion years ago in the age of YIM and I miss ya!
Ack, that really suck, sorry to hear you're going though it too! It's not the worst... But not the most pleasant experience ever either. Coulda done without it, haha.
Ah well. Thanks! Hopefully both of ours will go easy on us now and then, hah.
And hey, I haven't gone anywhere! You're more than welcome to drop a note anytime, even just to shoot the breeze. :3
Ah well. Thanks! Hopefully both of ours will go easy on us now and then, hah.
And hey, I haven't gone anywhere! You're more than welcome to drop a note anytime, even just to shoot the breeze. :3
Ironic (to me) you're also having hearing issues now, and in a somewhat similar circumstance to me as well.
Example being: I'm not a fan of conventions, especially not furry ones. For the first time ever, I went to one (MFF), and during my return flight, I caught the newest strain of covid. Guess what? It gave me perm hearing loss in my right ear. Never knew covid could ruin your hearing til it happened.
Hits harder when music is a daily, hourly part of your life.
Example being: I'm not a fan of conventions, especially not furry ones. For the first time ever, I went to one (MFF), and during my return flight, I caught the newest strain of covid. Guess what? It gave me perm hearing loss in my right ear. Never knew covid could ruin your hearing til it happened.
Hits harder when music is a daily, hourly part of your life.
Heyo, i have some tinnitus time to time and realised that mine get stronger if i listen it in particular. I know this in not a universal solution and u have surely tried but , did u try to lissen some calm music with a lower volume just to give somthing to ear in ur ears?
I've heard somewhere that tinnitus is kind a secondary effect of ur brain thinking that u get like deaf because of high volume changes and it try to compensate this.
Hope u will get fine as soon as possible and enjoy the rest of ur life :3
I've heard somewhere that tinnitus is kind a secondary effect of ur brain thinking that u get like deaf because of high volume changes and it try to compensate this.
Hope u will get fine as soon as possible and enjoy the rest of ur life :3
You are very much welcome Ru.
I for one don't think you handled it poorly at all. Realizing that something as innocuous as attending a party caused potentially life long negative consequences would easily shake most people. And I don't hold it against you, but I hate when people discount their suffering just because it could be worse.
It doesn't matter if it's physical or mental, visible or not, treatable or not - it made your life worse and you have every right to react however it feels for you. Sure, it's best if you can keep it together and focus on moving forward, but don't ever let anyone tell you you're overreacting when it comes to your quality of life.
As for why it hit you this badly, honestly there might not be a "good" reason. I'm generally not too bothered whenever I have an issue - chronic depression and anxiety kind of toughened me up for most shitty stuff that happens to me - but there are two things that always get me. If it's dental or gastric, I'm going down a misery spiral instantly. A broken bone will just make me frustrated and even serious illness I'll just tough it out through, but if I get a tooth ache or an upset stomach I'll be a whining and bitching to the heavens "why is this happening to me?"
So please, don't worry about 'overreacting'. I'm sorry to hear it is what it is, but I'm glad you're in a better head space, even if just a tad. I'm glad the outpouring of support happened and that it helped you and I for one will gladly keep shoving supportive comments in your face for as long as you need them if they help in any way, shape or form.
Don't stress about getting back to normal asap. Take your time. There's no 'normal' amount of time to come to terms with stuff like this. Sometimes letting yourself feel like shit is the best thing you can do to stop feeling like that. Don't rush through this. Take care of yourself and many of us will be patiently waiting for whatever incredible art you end up producing once you're back in it.
I for one don't think you handled it poorly at all. Realizing that something as innocuous as attending a party caused potentially life long negative consequences would easily shake most people. And I don't hold it against you, but I hate when people discount their suffering just because it could be worse.
It doesn't matter if it's physical or mental, visible or not, treatable or not - it made your life worse and you have every right to react however it feels for you. Sure, it's best if you can keep it together and focus on moving forward, but don't ever let anyone tell you you're overreacting when it comes to your quality of life.
As for why it hit you this badly, honestly there might not be a "good" reason. I'm generally not too bothered whenever I have an issue - chronic depression and anxiety kind of toughened me up for most shitty stuff that happens to me - but there are two things that always get me. If it's dental or gastric, I'm going down a misery spiral instantly. A broken bone will just make me frustrated and even serious illness I'll just tough it out through, but if I get a tooth ache or an upset stomach I'll be a whining and bitching to the heavens "why is this happening to me?"
So please, don't worry about 'overreacting'. I'm sorry to hear it is what it is, but I'm glad you're in a better head space, even if just a tad. I'm glad the outpouring of support happened and that it helped you and I for one will gladly keep shoving supportive comments in your face for as long as you need them if they help in any way, shape or form.
Don't stress about getting back to normal asap. Take your time. There's no 'normal' amount of time to come to terms with stuff like this. Sometimes letting yourself feel like shit is the best thing you can do to stop feeling like that. Don't rush through this. Take care of yourself and many of us will be patiently waiting for whatever incredible art you end up producing once you're back in it.
Your initial reaction was perfectly understandable. After all it's the potential permanence of changes that tend to scare us the most, regardless of the actual severity of them.
That being said, I do wish you best and hope that the noise still fades away with time, or at the very least gets easier to ignore.
That being said, I do wish you best and hope that the noise still fades away with time, or at the very least gets easier to ignore.
When I was working at sea there was always noise there. Sometimes loud, sometimes quiet. But even when I was in my cabin I heard some noise from generators and main engine. 5-7 months in a row. Then when I came back to home I had ringing in my ears for a couple of weeks. I gave 10 years to this work and every time I came back home it was the same and I know how unpleasant it may be. But, as I see your experience is much worse and I really really hope you can get rid of it sooner or later. Do not push yourself to draw, have some rest. And never blame yourself. It was definitely not your fault. Such things just... happen.
Please get well. We all love you <3
Please get well. We all love you <3
(((Hugs, if o.k.?)))
Hon., while our extended Furry 'Family' may be the literal definition of 'Dysfunctional,' in so many varied ways? There is still a very strong sense of 'Community' that survives with the tenacity of the Herpes Virus! (aka, Chicken Pox/Shingles, and other not-so-fun infections I won't elaborate on further. At this time.)
;-P
You're hurting/annoyed/distressed, and YOU have done so much, contributed so much, not just of your life, time, energy, focus and passion(s)! This might sound like hyperbole, but in the immense pond that is Furry Art, YOU cast some mighty big ripples when you share something!
It's only fair to give YOU some of our own time/energy/focus, in trying to help you get through a difficult time/affliction!
Take your time, be patient, continue to give your ears/hearing breaks, but don't 'Starve' your sense of Hearing. Give it other, softer, soothing stimuli to shift attention on. I honestly believe you will surmount this, and look back and shake your head (And perhaps a few lewd gestures?!) at it!
Hon., while our extended Furry 'Family' may be the literal definition of 'Dysfunctional,' in so many varied ways? There is still a very strong sense of 'Community' that survives with the tenacity of the Herpes Virus! (aka, Chicken Pox/Shingles, and other not-so-fun infections I won't elaborate on further. At this time.)
;-P
You're hurting/annoyed/distressed, and YOU have done so much, contributed so much, not just of your life, time, energy, focus and passion(s)! This might sound like hyperbole, but in the immense pond that is Furry Art, YOU cast some mighty big ripples when you share something!
It's only fair to give YOU some of our own time/energy/focus, in trying to help you get through a difficult time/affliction!
Take your time, be patient, continue to give your ears/hearing breaks, but don't 'Starve' your sense of Hearing. Give it other, softer, soothing stimuli to shift attention on. I honestly believe you will surmount this, and look back and shake your head (And perhaps a few lewd gestures?!) at it!
I'm glad that they didn't find anything damaged or worrying. I've also suffered with tinnitus for many years now. And believe me when I say, you will definitely get used to it.
When I first got it, I was in the same boat as you. Sleepless nights, scared, and so forth. But now, most of the time I don't even think about it. It's just background noise to me. What really helped me out is getting a sound app on my phone. When the ringing got to be too much at night, I would turn the app on and put on some rain sounds or the sounds of the coqui frogs chirping (I grew up in Puerto Rico where those frogs are native). It was a serious relief and helped me get at least some sleep.
Tinnitus sucks, there's no doubt, but it will definitely get better with time.
When I first got it, I was in the same boat as you. Sleepless nights, scared, and so forth. But now, most of the time I don't even think about it. It's just background noise to me. What really helped me out is getting a sound app on my phone. When the ringing got to be too much at night, I would turn the app on and put on some rain sounds or the sounds of the coqui frogs chirping (I grew up in Puerto Rico where those frogs are native). It was a serious relief and helped me get at least some sleep.
Tinnitus sucks, there's no doubt, but it will definitely get better with time.
Words from my Grandmother: * I write it to you in German because my English skills are limited may you find someone who could translate it among your incredible awesome fan community. *
Das Leben ist eine Aneinanderreihung von Hürden, die man meistern, oder an denen man scheitern kann. Die Kunst dabei ist, über den Erfolgen nicht den Boden unter den Füßen zu verlieren, um nicht über den Niederlagen zu verzweifeln.
You will get used to it just keep your head up.
Das Leben ist eine Aneinanderreihung von Hürden, die man meistern, oder an denen man scheitern kann. Die Kunst dabei ist, über den Erfolgen nicht den Boden unter den Füßen zu verlieren, um nicht über den Niederlagen zu verzweifeln.
You will get used to it just keep your head up.
I missedthe last post but i read up on it.
I personally deal with what is like a temporary version? not sure how to call it but basically every once in a while my ears just decide to ring on me and it lasts for a few seconds to maye a minute or two.
I hate it when it happens casue I already deal with a high pitch sound issue so when they do that it makes it so much worse. (for example if you have a crt tv i could hear it turn on from like the next house over)
I personally deal with what is like a temporary version? not sure how to call it but basically every once in a while my ears just decide to ring on me and it lasts for a few seconds to maye a minute or two.
I hate it when it happens casue I already deal with a high pitch sound issue so when they do that it makes it so much worse. (for example if you have a crt tv i could hear it turn on from like the next house over)
Part of my disability pay from active duty military service is permanent tinnitus thanks to having to constantly wear headphones for analyzing signals as well as voice comms for years as well as constantly being exposed to high-noise environments that are part of shipboard life (the hum of 3-phase 400Hz electrical power was EVERYWHERE). It never stops, never goes away; just that constant high-pitched ringing in both ears. But it is at the point now (been like this for years at this point now actually) that throughout much of the day, I either forget that it's there or I just move on with doing all of my other day-to-day things that it sort of fades into the background and I don't even notice it. Even while I sit at my computer and just watch videos or play games, I'll just 'forget' that it's there until I hear it again later.
I just want to give you the biggest warmest hug i can!
I want to say that you built a great community. Like honestly - that’s a testament to YOU - to the connections you’ve made, the art you’ve shared, the person you are that in the time of need so many of us came to help with advice and encouragement. People care because👏 you 👏matter👏. Let that love sink in UvU
As for the art - be patient with yourself. There is no need to push yourself or white knuckle it. Just rest. If all you can manage right now is a couch burrito - that’s alright and absolutely nothing shameful in that, promise.
Again - sending you so much warmth and permission to be a sad burrito as long as you need~
I want to say that you built a great community. Like honestly - that’s a testament to YOU - to the connections you’ve made, the art you’ve shared, the person you are that in the time of need so many of us came to help with advice and encouragement. People care because👏 you 👏matter👏. Let that love sink in UvU
As for the art - be patient with yourself. There is no need to push yourself or white knuckle it. Just rest. If all you can manage right now is a couch burrito - that’s alright and absolutely nothing shameful in that, promise.
Again - sending you so much warmth and permission to be a sad burrito as long as you need~
Hey- I know it's been a bit but I still come back to these whenever I'm feeling a bit bummed. All the comments here help a lot.
Thank you so much for the super encouraging words. :3 Still dealing with some sads, got a little ways to go yet, but I'm starting to bounce back!
Thank you so much for the super encouraging words. :3 Still dealing with some sads, got a little ways to go yet, but I'm starting to bounce back!
Youve had a lot of supportive comments here so ill just add a hug to it :), you got a community here looking out for you. Ill wish for the best in that hopefully itll improve over time, but if it doesnt then you have everyone supporting you as you adapt to it. Ive recently messed up with my knee, i did bad stuff to it last year when i knew better, i knew i should not have knelt for work in a certain way, and now i think ive damaged it and theres no going back once you mess up your cartilage. Sucks but gotta take it one day at a time. Hang in there :)
Hey- I know it's been a bit, but I still come back here from time to time when I'm feeling a bit down, the comments here help a lot. The hug is appreciated. :3
I'm sorry to hear about what happened to your knee! Hopefully it'll bounce back a bit... and if not, hopefully it won't cause you too many troubles. I know knee issues can be a bitch!
I'm sorry to hear about what happened to your knee! Hopefully it'll bounce back a bit... and if not, hopefully it won't cause you too many troubles. I know knee issues can be a bitch!
Hey Ru, I'm so sorry you have to deal with this. I'm personally also careful about hearing damage so I get why one misstep messing things up forever really hits hard. The closest I got to the feeling of panic you describe is when I suddenly had floaters in the middle of my vision, never going away, seemingly impossible to ever ignore. The doctors here did not even want to look at it and also told me to live with it. The brain is pretty good at finding ways to deal with these things, even if they never truly go away and even if it takes years. Hang in there.
I mean, if this was you falling off your bike, people would come check you're okay! Maybe take ya to the hospital or whatever!
T might not be visible, but a lot of people still know the struggle and would wanna help out!
It might be a struggle at first, but you can make it through!
T might not be visible, but a lot of people still know the struggle and would wanna help out!
It might be a struggle at first, but you can make it through!
Glad you're doing a bit better. Also realized I didn't actually specify which soundscape was the one that actually worked for me, but it's one on the MyNoise app called Stardust. It has a blend of tones that shift/fade in and out which works a lot better than white noise to properly mask the tinnitus, and it has mixing sliders that let you adjust the volume of every individual pitch involved or disable them entirely. No idea if it would work for you but just in case.
Honestly, I don't think you handled it badly or that you need to explain why it hit you hard. It's an awful thing to have happen, and I'm genuinely aghast that what sounded like a temporary injury has been assessed as something that you'll have to deal with going forward. For what it's worth, I hope they're wrong or overlooked something, or that the intensity at least reduces with time. Or that there are further medical advancements down the road that will help.
I'm glad you're beginning to deal with it. It will get easier as you adapt. But in the meantime, I think your reaction was completely warranted. You've experienced something devastating and unexpected, and it's okay to freak out when that happens.
I wish you the best for the future.
(P.S. You don't really seem the sort of person who would want to take this route, insofar as you turn blame inward rather than outward, but it might be worth looking into whether you can receive some sort of compensation. There may be safety standards in place prohibiting music from played at a level that causes physical injury, especially without some kind of warning to attendees. You had no reason to expect that this would happen to you.)
I'm glad you're beginning to deal with it. It will get easier as you adapt. But in the meantime, I think your reaction was completely warranted. You've experienced something devastating and unexpected, and it's okay to freak out when that happens.
I wish you the best for the future.
(P.S. You don't really seem the sort of person who would want to take this route, insofar as you turn blame inward rather than outward, but it might be worth looking into whether you can receive some sort of compensation. There may be safety standards in place prohibiting music from played at a level that causes physical injury, especially without some kind of warning to attendees. You had no reason to expect that this would happen to you.)
These things are different for different people of course. The way you got the tinnitus sounds scary. I can't pinpoint when I got mine. Been decades at this point, and for me it's always there, but I manage to filter it out most of the time. I hope it will be the same for you, unless it's a temporary thing from the music.. I don't know if that's possible even? but that would be ideal.
But I do know the frustration, anxiety and despair one can feel from this.. and the sudden onset must make those worse.. but you will get through it! I'm hoping for the best for you.
My way of dealing with it when I can't block it out is background noise. Nothing loud, just playing some music, enough to drown out the ringing, or at least give my brain something else to focus on.
Get better!
But I do know the frustration, anxiety and despair one can feel from this.. and the sudden onset must make those worse.. but you will get through it! I'm hoping for the best for you.
My way of dealing with it when I can't block it out is background noise. Nothing loud, just playing some music, enough to drown out the ringing, or at least give my brain something else to focus on.
Get better!
I didn't comment on the last one, somehow worried I'd say the wrong thing and make shit worse.
But honestly I'm glad to hear your okay, honestly sorry that a con coursed this, and you can't be placed at fault for this happening, I doubt most of us think of such a scenario.
Again though, I'm glad your doing better, and please keep safe.
Idk if your in the states or somewhere else where medical or other such things can be a bit costly, but if you need any financial aid in that area, I'll gladly tip in.
But honestly I'm glad to hear your okay, honestly sorry that a con coursed this, and you can't be placed at fault for this happening, I doubt most of us think of such a scenario.
Again though, I'm glad your doing better, and please keep safe.
Idk if your in the states or somewhere else where medical or other such things can be a bit costly, but if you need any financial aid in that area, I'll gladly tip in.
First: you're very welcome.
Second: i just hope my comment didn't fkd things up with my encouragement ^^" And it's totally fine, you don't have to respond to each and every comment, right? Take care of yourself, at most. Rest and sleep is really what you need rn, some stress relief and the time itself.
Third: as much as I want to say do not brake yourself for mistake or don't feel guilty... It's also a part of the progress. So yeah. Admitting a mistake been made is ok, as long as you accept it and don't overdo the self-torturing part. It happened. It could be worse. It could've not happen. But it did. And it's ok. It's life. That's why it's so valuable. That what makes you valuable for yourself.
Second: i just hope my comment didn't fkd things up with my encouragement ^^" And it's totally fine, you don't have to respond to each and every comment, right? Take care of yourself, at most. Rest and sleep is really what you need rn, some stress relief and the time itself.
Third: as much as I want to say do not brake yourself for mistake or don't feel guilty... It's also a part of the progress. So yeah. Admitting a mistake been made is ok, as long as you accept it and don't overdo the self-torturing part. It happened. It could be worse. It could've not happen. But it did. And it's ok. It's life. That's why it's so valuable. That what makes you valuable for yourself.
Man this story reminds me of when i first got braces. May seem unrelated but i had the exact same reaction the day after i got them, what the fuck have i done? How am i going to live with this for the next few years!? Why did i do this to myself? I cant sleep! Its so uncomfortable and i just cant see myself getting used to it!
But, i did get used to it, quicker than i would expect. Would have hardly noticed i had them after long enough time.
I can sincerely hope that this is the same for you, it might be rather shocking in the moment but the human brain is excellent at phasing things out that don't contribute to your life.
As for the club, well, you can't not live your life. Theres a surprising range of things that could damage your hearing that we just accept every day. Lawnmowers, power tools, vacuum cleaners, motorcycles/cars, going to the movies. Hindsight is 20/20 and its readily apparent as you see literally nobody wears hearing protection in clubs, even though its highly recommended.
Sharing your experience is GOOD though, if this convinces just ONE person to wear hearing protection, you've saved someone the same bad experience you've gone through.
Ave a good one mate, and relax <3
But, i did get used to it, quicker than i would expect. Would have hardly noticed i had them after long enough time.
I can sincerely hope that this is the same for you, it might be rather shocking in the moment but the human brain is excellent at phasing things out that don't contribute to your life.
As for the club, well, you can't not live your life. Theres a surprising range of things that could damage your hearing that we just accept every day. Lawnmowers, power tools, vacuum cleaners, motorcycles/cars, going to the movies. Hindsight is 20/20 and its readily apparent as you see literally nobody wears hearing protection in clubs, even though its highly recommended.
Sharing your experience is GOOD though, if this convinces just ONE person to wear hearing protection, you've saved someone the same bad experience you've gone through.
Ave a good one mate, and relax <3
It feels wrong to say "you learn to live with it", but as someone who's been dealing with his own ringing for over a decade now (same situation, actually - one loud concert too many despite being as far away from the speakers as possible), you do have my sympathies.
And if me talking about my own experiences with it helps in any way... sometimes I forget it's been there? Yes, it might be that one constant reminder of that one mistake (I had that same feeling of waking up the next day, immediately hearing it and just going "oh.... fffffffuck"), but I've also had to learn to be resilient and have had to bounce back from even worse things, so like... I can only carry on, y'know? It might not be pleasant (and as much as I don't want to make assumptions, I can only guess it's still a little "raw" for you right now), but it does get easier... at least, from my own admittedly very isolated experience.
And if you feel a need to just step away from things just to try and process everything... I'll at least still be waiting.
And if me talking about my own experiences with it helps in any way... sometimes I forget it's been there? Yes, it might be that one constant reminder of that one mistake (I had that same feeling of waking up the next day, immediately hearing it and just going "oh.... fffffffuck"), but I've also had to learn to be resilient and have had to bounce back from even worse things, so like... I can only carry on, y'know? It might not be pleasant (and as much as I don't want to make assumptions, I can only guess it's still a little "raw" for you right now), but it does get easier... at least, from my own admittedly very isolated experience.
And if you feel a need to just step away from things just to try and process everything... I'll at least still be waiting.
Haha, thanks! I don't draw him nearly enough. These days I mostly think of him as a goofy little cartoon critter though, not super appropriate for most of what I do. :P
But yeah. Definitely not a fun experience. The tinnitus is moderate, at worst. The "I permanently fucked up" moment hit way harder, haha. Ah well, live and learn. Thanks. :3
But yeah. Definitely not a fun experience. The tinnitus is moderate, at worst. The "I permanently fucked up" moment hit way harder, haha. Ah well, live and learn. Thanks. :3
i understand the frustration and the anger. tinnitus is something that never really gets any better, and there will be days where it seems to be so much worse, so much louder and more present than normal.
those days pass.
you adapt, you learn, like with anything. but it takes time.
so take your time. we'll be here when you get back :)
those days pass.
you adapt, you learn, like with anything. but it takes time.
so take your time. we'll be here when you get back :)
Tinitus will always be here, but so is breathing.
Very annoying first but at some point the brain gets used to it and you'll only realize it's there sometimes. Just like sometimes you remember you're breathing unconsciously and breath manualy for a short while. And then it's gone. Tinitus will also genuinely atenuate with time, but not entirely !
You'll be alright, take the time to rest and you'll prevail this tough experience
Very annoying first but at some point the brain gets used to it and you'll only realize it's there sometimes. Just like sometimes you remember you're breathing unconsciously and breath manualy for a short while. And then it's gone. Tinitus will also genuinely atenuate with time, but not entirely !
You'll be alright, take the time to rest and you'll prevail this tough experience
>I made one mistake, and I might be dealing with the consequences of that mistake for the rest of my entire life.
"But you fuck one goat.."
I'm usually comment-averse unless I think I can add something (which often winds up just being dumb jokes--see above), and when I see a buttload of comments already, especially if they've already covered anything I might've contributed, I tend to figure it'd just be pointless and annoying to the OP to add to the bloat. The notion that it'd give a sense of support didn't even occur to me. So here's my commiseration story: Busted a knuckle a few years ago which never healed right, leaving the joint sticking straight out and unable to bend, constantly sore, and painful if I try to use it. Which sucks 'cause it's my fretboard hand. So I get that bit about one brief accident affecting the rest of your life.
"But you fuck one goat.."
I'm usually comment-averse unless I think I can add something (which often winds up just being dumb jokes--see above), and when I see a buttload of comments already, especially if they've already covered anything I might've contributed, I tend to figure it'd just be pointless and annoying to the OP to add to the bloat. The notion that it'd give a sense of support didn't even occur to me. So here's my commiseration story: Busted a knuckle a few years ago which never healed right, leaving the joint sticking straight out and unable to bend, constantly sore, and painful if I try to use it. Which sucks 'cause it's my fretboard hand. So I get that bit about one brief accident affecting the rest of your life.
So sorry I missed that story, but I am glad you seem to be doing better. I have some similar feelings. I'm a bit of a homebody and I have trouble getting out. Loud noises and crowds are really hard for me to handle, so that doesn't help, and when something goes wrong whenever I do try to socialize or go to gatherings just makes me feel like a fool for even trying. I definitely relate to your story.
You have my sympathies, tinnitus sucks. I've never had it bad, but these days I wear hearing protection on airplanes because I'm not wild on gradually building up hearing loss.
It's extra unpleasant when you're someplace fun but they're playing the music way too damn loud. I went to a sodding camping furry convention and was surprised by 2kW speakers the size of a car - what the fuck are those there for, were out in the woods? Never heard anything so loud in my life. They only played one night after realising they had a room full of traumatized people who couldn't get away from the noise.
I really hope you can find some things to help ease the noise, and also some therapy to help ease the distress. Not today sure but I think one or two aspects of Cognitive Behavioural Therapy might help?
I'm glad you're at least feeling some love from the comments here. Everything hurts a bit less with others.
It's extra unpleasant when you're someplace fun but they're playing the music way too damn loud. I went to a sodding camping furry convention and was surprised by 2kW speakers the size of a car - what the fuck are those there for, were out in the woods? Never heard anything so loud in my life. They only played one night after realising they had a room full of traumatized people who couldn't get away from the noise.
I really hope you can find some things to help ease the noise, and also some therapy to help ease the distress. Not today sure but I think one or two aspects of Cognitive Behavioural Therapy might help?
I'm glad you're at least feeling some love from the comments here. Everything hurts a bit less with others.
I don't know what I expected when I posted that... I think I just needed an outlet.
Hey, don't be harsh on yourself, we are all on same ship. Some make art, some fix industrial machines, but we are all still just people and have own needs. And if it helped, don't be shy about it. Mental health is way more important than some people think.
burrito of sadness
Aww! I'm sure I'm not only one who would like to get close and help in some way, like to just sit on floor and talk about things outside of this topic.
(edit) ....sadly I am in Europe...
Hey, don't be harsh on yourself, we are all on same ship. Some make art, some fix industrial machines, but we are all still just people and have own needs. And if it helped, don't be shy about it. Mental health is way more important than some people think.
burrito of sadness
Aww! I'm sure I'm not only one who would like to get close and help in some way, like to just sit on floor and talk about things outside of this topic.
(edit) ....sadly I am in Europe...
Hey, I know it's been a bit, but I keep dropping by these posts when I'm feeling down, they help keep me going. Just wanted to thank you for your kind responses to both of them. Very sorry to hear about the migraines, I hope those have gone and don't come back! Headaches of all varieties are pretty tough.
So far no improvement physically for me, ears still a ringin', but it's getting a tiny bit easier to handle every day. I can at least sleep relatively normally now, which helps a ton just by itself!
So far no improvement physically for me, ears still a ringin', but it's getting a tiny bit easier to handle every day. I can at least sleep relatively normally now, which helps a ton just by itself!
Hey! I completely forgot to answer (aaa!) so better late than never. Did I say I love this kind of occasional sketches? You can feel different energy bursting from them, it's so simple and yet so full of emotions :) If you ever have mood for some quick sketch, I'm sure I'm not only one which would want to see more! Also I should thank YOU for even spending your time replying to my comments, I'm always flattered when someone as awesome as you answers! And I'm really sorry for replying after so long time, I thought I have answered already.
About headaches (I guess I mentioned them in other comment on previous picture?), they are luckily gone and especially last week of home office helped a lot, I'll have to do it more often if boss allows me to.
Also in previous months I finally bought proper mattress and base, even while it's still sitting on ground, my sleep was so greatly improved I can't even believe it. It's so weird to sleep properly after 30 years of sleeping on bad mattresses, definitely the best investment I did in last decade.
And why am I replying now? Because I was at The Offspring concert two weeks ago (my first big event in my entire life) and it reminded me of you. After concert I heard something like white noise in my head when I was in quiet places, the quieter place the stronger it got. Going to sleep at morning was so annoying! I got really scared it might turn into tinnitus like you have, luckily it slowly disappeared after two or three days but really got me scared. And since that day I have one task on my mind - to ask Ruaidri if your situation got any better. Because I am really curious and want to know how you're dealing with this and if you're fine. So, is it any better? Worse? Same? Did you find some ways to deal with it so it's at least less annoying?
Thank you for your time in advance! <3
(also yeah, I'm that one which commented about rolling footrest at e6)
About headaches (I guess I mentioned them in other comment on previous picture?), they are luckily gone and especially last week of home office helped a lot, I'll have to do it more often if boss allows me to.
Also in previous months I finally bought proper mattress and base, even while it's still sitting on ground, my sleep was so greatly improved I can't even believe it. It's so weird to sleep properly after 30 years of sleeping on bad mattresses, definitely the best investment I did in last decade.
And why am I replying now? Because I was at The Offspring concert two weeks ago (my first big event in my entire life) and it reminded me of you. After concert I heard something like white noise in my head when I was in quiet places, the quieter place the stronger it got. Going to sleep at morning was so annoying! I got really scared it might turn into tinnitus like you have, luckily it slowly disappeared after two or three days but really got me scared. And since that day I have one task on my mind - to ask Ruaidri if your situation got any better. Because I am really curious and want to know how you're dealing with this and if you're fine. So, is it any better? Worse? Same? Did you find some ways to deal with it so it's at least less annoying?
Thank you for your time in advance! <3
(also yeah, I'm that one which commented about rolling footrest at e6)
Good to hear the headaches are gone! Amazing what a good night's sleep can do, hah.
I would say you should consider this a warning shot- might be worth considering a nice set of musicians earplugs for situations like that in the future. Keep doing things like that and one of these days the noise might never go away. Ask me now I know. :P
As you can probably guess from that statement, no change for me. Still just as much eeeeeeee as ever. It gets easier to deal with- it's kind of just a nuisance rather than anything really bothersome, it's not destroying my life by any means, but it sure would be nice if it would stop all the same.
That's kinda where we're at for now. Life is fine, but very very slightly worse than before, and it didn't have to be. Wear earplugs. :P
I would say you should consider this a warning shot- might be worth considering a nice set of musicians earplugs for situations like that in the future. Keep doing things like that and one of these days the noise might never go away. Ask me now I know. :P
As you can probably guess from that statement, no change for me. Still just as much eeeeeeee as ever. It gets easier to deal with- it's kind of just a nuisance rather than anything really bothersome, it's not destroying my life by any means, but it sure would be nice if it would stop all the same.
That's kinda where we're at for now. Life is fine, but very very slightly worse than before, and it didn't have to be. Wear earplugs. :P
Yeah, sleep does a lot! Even while in last two weeks I have it shifted so much that I go to sleep with sunrise (it's 6 at morning rn, yikes!), that bed still does wonders! Actually even lying on foldable sofa bed for last year was huge improvement compared to my previous bed on which I slept for entire life. And now it's peak, no back pain, no neck pain, I can sleep well on back or side, however I want and I always sleep perfectly! Now I just need to figure out how to force myself to go to sleep at evening and not hours later at night or even at morning.
I will definitely grab at least cheap earplugs which are provided at our workplace (nobody wears them, it's not so loud at most places) and use them in case it gets intensive at Friday - because my brother talked me into going to Parov Stelar too. But this should be some "music club", smaller and I guess also quieter....I hope. At least there should be option to just move further away, we'll see, never been here. And then I'm probably not attending any concert for another thirty years as I know myself :D On other hand, that Iron Maiden next year sounds like something I shouldn't miss, if tickets aren't already sold out...
Oh no, I really hoped it got better! D: So you basically just learned to ignore it but it's still here, tearing you apart, right? :(
Reminds me of my friend, but her tinnitus disappears and then randomly strikes back at full force, usually triggered by loud or high pitched sounds. Yours is at least constant from what you described, right?
I really wished for better outcome but you seem to take it fine, which is important. And I promise I'll grab earplugs with me and wear them if it gets loud ;)
I will definitely grab at least cheap earplugs which are provided at our workplace (nobody wears them, it's not so loud at most places) and use them in case it gets intensive at Friday - because my brother talked me into going to Parov Stelar too. But this should be some "music club", smaller and I guess also quieter....I hope. At least there should be option to just move further away, we'll see, never been here. And then I'm probably not attending any concert for another thirty years as I know myself :D On other hand, that Iron Maiden next year sounds like something I shouldn't miss, if tickets aren't already sold out...
Oh no, I really hoped it got better! D: So you basically just learned to ignore it but it's still here, tearing you apart, right? :(
Reminds me of my friend, but her tinnitus disappears and then randomly strikes back at full force, usually triggered by loud or high pitched sounds. Yours is at least constant from what you described, right?
I really wished for better outcome but you seem to take it fine, which is important. And I promise I'll grab earplugs with me and wear them if it gets loud ;)
I just read about it and feel bad for you. You really don't deserve this. I sadly can not give any advice nor help in any way more then "Whatever you do, we are with you and we support and love you".
As you stated from all the helpful comments you get, I hope that reading through all of them gives you at least a moment of relief and joy.
We are there for you, we love you. It's not the end of the world. It is a setback yes, but you are strong. I wish I could hug you right now. In fact I wish you are in a huge pile of all of us. Burried deep in a sea of love and compassion.
Stay strong, stay positive and we wish you all the best~
As you stated from all the helpful comments you get, I hope that reading through all of them gives you at least a moment of relief and joy.
We are there for you, we love you. It's not the end of the world. It is a setback yes, but you are strong. I wish I could hug you right now. In fact I wish you are in a huge pile of all of us. Burried deep in a sea of love and compassion.
Stay strong, stay positive and we wish you all the best~
I'd missed the original post you made about this, but as it seems like you've seen, we're all here for you if you need help, support, or whatever else. <3
At least from my experience by comparison, I suspect what may have been a plausible reason that you're affected so hard by the music's volume may be due to lack of previous exposure to similar, but lesser, environments before going straight into that. What I mean is, as I was growing up, I'd often go to open area/outdoor venue concerts (Warped Tour, Rockfest, etc), so steadily got used to loud music. Even later on, I'd go to indoor venues, rarely get stuck with a spot RIGHT next to the speakers for the whole thing, and without earplugs (never used them for any concerts I've been to). After those times, my hearing would be slightly muted for a day or two, but right back to normal afterwards.
Even with all of that, maybe once in a blue moon I'll get a completely random ringing in my ears for less than a minute.
It could be still something like physical differences I'd have no way of accounting for, I'll absolutely admit that (I'm no doctor, after all, haha). But, by the sound of it, it kinda sounds like your body not having been exposed to loud environments like a club or concert in that way, so it wasn't ready for just how LOUD a club can be. This miiiiight be a terrible comparison, but kind of like people who enjoy eating ungodly spicy peppers. Without working your way up to them, you're going to be in hell going straight to them. But, if you practice and work your way up to them, it makes them more tolerable to you.
Anyway, regardless of all of that analytical stuff, I do hope you get to feeling better soon. Whether it's hopefully having it fade away and go back to normal, or even just fading enough to no longer be the issue that it is now.
At least from my experience by comparison, I suspect what may have been a plausible reason that you're affected so hard by the music's volume may be due to lack of previous exposure to similar, but lesser, environments before going straight into that. What I mean is, as I was growing up, I'd often go to open area/outdoor venue concerts (Warped Tour, Rockfest, etc), so steadily got used to loud music. Even later on, I'd go to indoor venues, rarely get stuck with a spot RIGHT next to the speakers for the whole thing, and without earplugs (never used them for any concerts I've been to). After those times, my hearing would be slightly muted for a day or two, but right back to normal afterwards.
Even with all of that, maybe once in a blue moon I'll get a completely random ringing in my ears for less than a minute.
It could be still something like physical differences I'd have no way of accounting for, I'll absolutely admit that (I'm no doctor, after all, haha). But, by the sound of it, it kinda sounds like your body not having been exposed to loud environments like a club or concert in that way, so it wasn't ready for just how LOUD a club can be. This miiiiight be a terrible comparison, but kind of like people who enjoy eating ungodly spicy peppers. Without working your way up to them, you're going to be in hell going straight to them. But, if you practice and work your way up to them, it makes them more tolerable to you.
Anyway, regardless of all of that analytical stuff, I do hope you get to feeling better soon. Whether it's hopefully having it fade away and go back to normal, or even just fading enough to no longer be the issue that it is now.
Hey dude… *hug and caring smile* <3
I wanted to say that I feel you. Kind of a want, a kind of curiosity, to try something new you think you could like. You had your hopes up for the event, maybe get in contact with people that have similar interests and such, but then the situation just ends up in a blender. And it gets totally teared up.
May I offer some advice/insight? I cannot offer any more advice for tinnitus you have already found, but I can offer an another pov.
I understand your possible situation, the event as a whole feeling kind of much. You know, having to deal with all that stimuli at once. There was meeting new persons, propably much talking, new things…and the loud music on top of all that.
The way you described your trip to the event… May I ask you a question?
Are you a highly sensitive person? Because I seriously get the vibe <3
I do not have social anxiety.
But I am an hsp, and learning of what it means for me has changed my life positively. And some points, like when you said you cannot tell why this hit you so hard, might give that you are an hsp as well.
Please consider looking into that possibility. Do not feel like a wimp about it :) Remember: you are you :)
If you feel like it, there’s a good website, called Highly Sensitive Refuge, that has many different articles discussing high sensitivity. For ease, here’s a link https://highlysensitiverefuge.com/
And if there’s any thing you’d like to ask or talk, please do <3 If my comment takes you anywhere please keep in mind that you can always approach me
While tinnitus is a physical symptom mostly, a reason why I’m also saying this, is that the body and mind is also one entirety, and are linked together. That is, they affect each other, as one. If the body is ill, it can drag the mind down some bit, and other way ’round if the mind isn’t feeling at ease, it can affect the physiology.
If anything, please be aware that I and many really care about You. <3
I wanted to say that I feel you. Kind of a want, a kind of curiosity, to try something new you think you could like. You had your hopes up for the event, maybe get in contact with people that have similar interests and such, but then the situation just ends up in a blender. And it gets totally teared up.
May I offer some advice/insight? I cannot offer any more advice for tinnitus you have already found, but I can offer an another pov.
I understand your possible situation, the event as a whole feeling kind of much. You know, having to deal with all that stimuli at once. There was meeting new persons, propably much talking, new things…and the loud music on top of all that.
The way you described your trip to the event… May I ask you a question?
Are you a highly sensitive person? Because I seriously get the vibe <3
I do not have social anxiety.
But I am an hsp, and learning of what it means for me has changed my life positively. And some points, like when you said you cannot tell why this hit you so hard, might give that you are an hsp as well.
Please consider looking into that possibility. Do not feel like a wimp about it :) Remember: you are you :)
If you feel like it, there’s a good website, called Highly Sensitive Refuge, that has many different articles discussing high sensitivity. For ease, here’s a link https://highlysensitiverefuge.com/
And if there’s any thing you’d like to ask or talk, please do <3 If my comment takes you anywhere please keep in mind that you can always approach me
While tinnitus is a physical symptom mostly, a reason why I’m also saying this, is that the body and mind is also one entirety, and are linked together. That is, they affect each other, as one. If the body is ill, it can drag the mind down some bit, and other way ’round if the mind isn’t feeling at ease, it can affect the physiology.
If anything, please be aware that I and many really care about You. <3
Hrm... I don't know if I quite fit that description. My hearing may be fairly sensitive, but as a person I'm not sure. Maybe a Fairly Sensitive Person at most, haha. Just hit a bit of a low point is all, I think. :P It was definitely frustrating screwing up something so silly in a way that leaves me wish such lasting effects. But, I'll get over it, with time!
Thank you, though! That really does mean a lot to me. :3
Thank you, though! That really does mean a lot to me. :3
Please please please do not give up on doctors or just go with the advice of one if they shrug their shoulders and say nothing can be done.
I don't have tinnitus, but I so have insane allergies that make it almost impossible to eat. Within a YEAR of being diagnosed with this stuff, a new treatment for this got FDA approval and I have been living a far better life now than I have been in years.
Talk to a specialist. More than one if the first doesn't seem to care or doesn't know anything about recent trends.
If you need help with the insurance side of things let me know, my day job is helping doctors get paid so I know a few tricks.
I don't have tinnitus, but I so have insane allergies that make it almost impossible to eat. Within a YEAR of being diagnosed with this stuff, a new treatment for this got FDA approval and I have been living a far better life now than I have been in years.
Talk to a specialist. More than one if the first doesn't seem to care or doesn't know anything about recent trends.
If you need help with the insurance side of things let me know, my day job is helping doctors get paid so I know a few tricks.
My ears ring at different frequencies - the left rings higher than the right. I remember after it started, a few months later, of just 24/7 ringing, feeling absolutely destroyed, like I was being tortured. So I get where you were at, mentally, in your last post. I promise, with time, you learn to live with it. I’m laying in bed with my ears ringing like a bastard right now, actually. Ha. It’s pretty much 24/7, ever since 2015. Again, you get used to it. I promise.
My coping mechanisms are, strangely, AirPods. They don’t directly fix anything, of course, but cutting down on aural stimulation with noise cancellation seems to calm my ears down a bit.
My coping mechanisms are, strangely, AirPods. They don’t directly fix anything, of course, but cutting down on aural stimulation with noise cancellation seems to calm my ears down a bit.
One think I'll say.. it is no mistake.. so no, not ones fault and consequences.. the "T" is a happenstance.. like a rock from space or lightning.. it happens.. awfull bad luck indeed..
while mine (small "T") might be due to work (offshore, the tune is very close to the "eeee" of ventilation and eletric motors).. my stepmother was hit by a loud ringing, from nowhere.. she went to doctors and got a similar response.. and is getting used to (she have other concerns.. and already sleep with the TV on so, "white noise").. I guess the old brain might tune it out after a while ?
mine lessens with less exposure (mighty hard on a hot summer) and rain helps a lot.. forgot what "colour" noise that is..
overall.. dont blame yourself for "bad luck".. the "T" is not yet fully underestood.. from old greece to today, science is trying but is yet to find a "cure" (and a "cause")..
if not fully recover.. may it be less annoying to ye ^.^
while mine (small "T") might be due to work (offshore, the tune is very close to the "eeee" of ventilation and eletric motors).. my stepmother was hit by a loud ringing, from nowhere.. she went to doctors and got a similar response.. and is getting used to (she have other concerns.. and already sleep with the TV on so, "white noise").. I guess the old brain might tune it out after a while ?
mine lessens with less exposure (mighty hard on a hot summer) and rain helps a lot.. forgot what "colour" noise that is..
overall.. dont blame yourself for "bad luck".. the "T" is not yet fully underestood.. from old greece to today, science is trying but is yet to find a "cure" (and a "cause")..
if not fully recover.. may it be less annoying to ye ^.^
Glad to see you have gotten through the worst parts of the grieving process. I'm only guessing (not a psychiatrist), but it sounds to me like you reached "depression". Sounds bad when I put it like that, but your 4/5 steps through, and acceptance is a whole lot less stressful (it's where Gale is, and look how well he is doing ;D)
"It's... hard to explain exactly why this hit me so hard."
I can relate. You try so hard to keep everything so nice for so long, but then you get blindsided by something you weren't educated on or prepared for and BOOM, irreversible consequences. I've had tinnitus since I was 14. Too many times to the local dirt track with no ear protection surrounded by unbaffled exhausts on race cars running full tilt.
The worst I experienced it though was a Noisia concert back in 2019 in Atlanta. I had hearing LOSS for 3 days. If a person tried to talk to me in a normal volume, all I could hear were Charlie Brown trumpets. Taking ear plugs to concerts, clubs, and venues is something only a niche of the population know. It's poorly educated on. I made friends over the last year that work in audio/video (AC, FWA, MFF, MCFC, so on and so forth), and they told me to get custom molded silicone ear plugs (and to get a tiny canal drilled down the middle of them. Passive hearing protection has come a long way).
I also learned mine amplifies with stress, to the point that it overpowers EVERYTHING that I'm hearing. On one hand, it's a pain to deal with it when it flares up, but on the other hand it ironically acts as a nice audible alert informing me that I need to just stop and breathe for a minute. Have an edible, have a beer, step out and go for a walk, put on a video game and go offline for 5 hours, whatever I need. It's like gaining a "check engine" tone for your brain as a shitty superpower.
I just wish it was something that was mandatory to be taught about in elementary school, similar to how fire safety, eye / hand / labcoat protection, or personal hygiene was. Hearing protection is so far in the backseat of safety that it's practically in the trunk.
You're not alone. There's millions of us already dealing with it. All we can do now is our best to keep it from progressing forth. It's gonna be a rough adjustment, and you're gonna learn to love keeping a fan on at night to generate some white noise to keep the ringing sated. Personally I like to put on white noise, brown noise, and ambient drone music while working too because of this. Cryo Chamber, Iron Cthulu Apocaylse, Dystopian Soundscapes, etc have been a godsend the last 10 years of my working life.
I can relate. You try so hard to keep everything so nice for so long, but then you get blindsided by something you weren't educated on or prepared for and BOOM, irreversible consequences. I've had tinnitus since I was 14. Too many times to the local dirt track with no ear protection surrounded by unbaffled exhausts on race cars running full tilt.
The worst I experienced it though was a Noisia concert back in 2019 in Atlanta. I had hearing LOSS for 3 days. If a person tried to talk to me in a normal volume, all I could hear were Charlie Brown trumpets. Taking ear plugs to concerts, clubs, and venues is something only a niche of the population know. It's poorly educated on. I made friends over the last year that work in audio/video (AC, FWA, MFF, MCFC, so on and so forth), and they told me to get custom molded silicone ear plugs (and to get a tiny canal drilled down the middle of them. Passive hearing protection has come a long way).
I also learned mine amplifies with stress, to the point that it overpowers EVERYTHING that I'm hearing. On one hand, it's a pain to deal with it when it flares up, but on the other hand it ironically acts as a nice audible alert informing me that I need to just stop and breathe for a minute. Have an edible, have a beer, step out and go for a walk, put on a video game and go offline for 5 hours, whatever I need. It's like gaining a "check engine" tone for your brain as a shitty superpower.
I just wish it was something that was mandatory to be taught about in elementary school, similar to how fire safety, eye / hand / labcoat protection, or personal hygiene was. Hearing protection is so far in the backseat of safety that it's practically in the trunk.
You're not alone. There's millions of us already dealing with it. All we can do now is our best to keep it from progressing forth. It's gonna be a rough adjustment, and you're gonna learn to love keeping a fan on at night to generate some white noise to keep the ringing sated. Personally I like to put on white noise, brown noise, and ambient drone music while working too because of this. Cryo Chamber, Iron Cthulu Apocaylse, Dystopian Soundscapes, etc have been a godsend the last 10 years of my working life.
Good lord that must of been terrifying! I hope you got most of your hearing back at least.
So far mine doesn't seem to be particularly reactive to anything, just hums right along at the same volume all the time. No check engine light for me, but maybe in time it'll start calming down and I'll unlock the super power. :P
But yep, definitely in my plans to get some nice quality earplugs and keep them with me everywhere. Once was enough, never making this mistake again. Hopefully I can at least avoid making it worse or adding new noises to it.
Thanks for sharing your story! It's a cliche I know, but just knowing other people are out there tackling the same thing and having them share their support really does help. :3
So far mine doesn't seem to be particularly reactive to anything, just hums right along at the same volume all the time. No check engine light for me, but maybe in time it'll start calming down and I'll unlock the super power. :P
But yep, definitely in my plans to get some nice quality earplugs and keep them with me everywhere. Once was enough, never making this mistake again. Hopefully I can at least avoid making it worse or adding new noises to it.
Thanks for sharing your story! It's a cliche I know, but just knowing other people are out there tackling the same thing and having them share their support really does help. :3
I'm glad you're feeling better.
I felt the exact same sort of irreversible self-despair and panic when I started taking romance seriously and realized how I had basically skipped the first whole 20 years of my life without ever having the experience of dating or flirting with someone.
Like, there are things that I just won't ever know and experiences I will never have because of that. My early life has a permanent hole that continues to eat at me even now.
I've mostly come to terms with it. But I'm still disgusted at myself and I keep wondering why I chose what I did, and how much happier I would be now if I did something else.
Life really kinda is just nail-everything-first-try.
I felt the exact same sort of irreversible self-despair and panic when I started taking romance seriously and realized how I had basically skipped the first whole 20 years of my life without ever having the experience of dating or flirting with someone.
Like, there are things that I just won't ever know and experiences I will never have because of that. My early life has a permanent hole that continues to eat at me even now.
I've mostly come to terms with it. But I'm still disgusted at myself and I keep wondering why I chose what I did, and how much happier I would be now if I did something else.
Life really kinda is just nail-everything-first-try.
Thank you so much for getting checked out. I wish they had better news to offer, but in the very least you know you're not alone and we're all here in support. I'll put a pot of coffee, or bourbon at the burrito entrance, got plenty to share.
There are a lot of things you can do on the stress side of things, a lot of stuff you can find online to help mitigate and meditate. I would recommend a therapist as well, when you find the right one they are worth their weight in platinum.
Looking forward to your grandiose return, and hope you center yourself and go visit places and do things again. You're luved, valued and appreciated. For what it's worth, you're by far my favorite 3d animator. The expressions you use and the texturing are just next level in my opinion. Take your time, be well, feel free to reach out whenever the mood strikes.
There are a lot of things you can do on the stress side of things, a lot of stuff you can find online to help mitigate and meditate. I would recommend a therapist as well, when you find the right one they are worth their weight in platinum.
Looking forward to your grandiose return, and hope you center yourself and go visit places and do things again. You're luved, valued and appreciated. For what it's worth, you're by far my favorite 3d animator. The expressions you use and the texturing are just next level in my opinion. Take your time, be well, feel free to reach out whenever the mood strikes.
Aw, thank you so much for all the kind words! Absolutely thrilled you like my work so much. :3 Fortunately the most stressful part of it seems to be over. Not really dealing with a lot of stress anymore, now mostly just trying to accept how things are and move on, so I don't think therapy will be super necessary, but I'll keep it in mind at least!
Finally started feeling well enough to start fiddling with blender again just today... will be a bit yet, but hopefully that grandiose return is not too far away now. :P
Finally started feeling well enough to start fiddling with blender again just today... will be a bit yet, but hopefully that grandiose return is not too far away now. :P
I didn't respond right away because I saw you were getting responses from people who were able to directly relate and empathize, but now I feel comfortable sending in a virtual hug. I sympathize hard with what you're going through on a more general basis; I also made a first-time one-time mistake that has pretty much had, to the best of my knowledge, lasting physical repercussions. It absolutely sucks and I totally get where you're at mentally. 💜
I sympathize, I got sudden onset low-mid level tinnitus for no discernible reason a couple years back, I can only presume it was medication-triggered. You mentioned having tried white noise to mask it without much luck, but what worked for me quite well was using carefully band-limited noise to precisely target the sound I was experiencing -- not trying to cover the tinnitus but numb my senses to it. For me it was around that same 16 kHz, so I made a clip of white noise, steeply bandpassed it to 15-17 kHz and then just loop it forever in the background at a low volume.
It took over a year to settle into a level that is not "back to how I used to be" but very minor. I still prefer to have the tinnitus help noise going at all times, at a barely audible volume, but I can manage without and sleep even in full silence now.
It took over a year to settle into a level that is not "back to how I used to be" but very minor. I still prefer to have the tinnitus help noise going at all times, at a barely audible volume, but I can manage without and sleep even in full silence now.
Just messed around with it a bit, and white noise with a high-pass filter leaving only stuff above ~13000hz or so was actually the first thing to obscure the sound of the ringing in my head, somewhat. And not a terribly unpleasant sound either, just a gentle kind of hissing, like pressurized air leaking out of something.
It also hurt my ears a little bit even at lower volumes so I think I'm not quite ready for that, but once things have fully healed this will be very useful knowledge to have. :P Thanks for sharing!
It also hurt my ears a little bit even at lower volumes so I think I'm not quite ready for that, but once things have fully healed this will be very useful knowledge to have. :P Thanks for sharing!
Hey fluff ❤️
i can promise you eventually you'll even be able to forget it's even there at times ❤️
I've had this since i was very young sadly, at times its unbearable, but it's important to remember that despite it may not go away ever, there's always going to be better days ❤️
in fact with myself ive noticed good sleep and being calm helps a lot, where as stress does the opposite.
Im here for ya if you need someone to talk to about it ❤️
i can promise you eventually you'll even be able to forget it's even there at times ❤️
I've had this since i was very young sadly, at times its unbearable, but it's important to remember that despite it may not go away ever, there's always going to be better days ❤️
in fact with myself ive noticed good sleep and being calm helps a lot, where as stress does the opposite.
Im here for ya if you need someone to talk to about it ❤️
It's a little my fault, I thought about earplugs before going and they even had some there, I was just too dumb to actually get some because I figured, everyone else seemed fine, I will be too. But thank you, honestly. I appreciate you trying to make me feel better. :P
Yeah being mortal can suck, and such simple things can change us permanently. For me it was losing a tooth because I was eating popcorn, and a seed got in the way. I had such perfect teeth, and still do. but I lost one tooth and can never get it back. But just have to get used to it. Ringing ears may be a bit different, but for me, I often times forget I have that one missing tooth.
But best wishes for you.
But best wishes for you.
Welcome to the T-club!
Population: A lot of us actually!
Dont beat yourself up too badly over your decision. From the sounds of it this was something that was bound to come up eventually, and its honestly better that it did sooner rather than later, so dont kick yourself thinking that you made some kind of mistake.
On the positive side it came up during a time that you had a lot of support from your fanbase and others. Who knows what could have happened if it came up at a time that you didnt have access to us!
You'll get used to it though, and hopefully this revelation wont ruin your desire to be less of a hermit. Get out there and enjoy yourself Ruaidri. You deserve that much. ♥
Population: A lot of us actually!
Dont beat yourself up too badly over your decision. From the sounds of it this was something that was bound to come up eventually, and its honestly better that it did sooner rather than later, so dont kick yourself thinking that you made some kind of mistake.
On the positive side it came up during a time that you had a lot of support from your fanbase and others. Who knows what could have happened if it came up at a time that you didnt have access to us!
You'll get used to it though, and hopefully this revelation wont ruin your desire to be less of a hermit. Get out there and enjoy yourself Ruaidri. You deserve that much. ♥
I don't like this club. This club sucks. :(
Hah, but thanks though. The community here really did help out on this one. Yourself included, with this very comment! I really appreciate it. :3
I'll get back to 'er. Gonna curl into a ball and avoid everything in mental recovery mode for a while, but I'll get back to 'er. x3
Hah, but thanks though. The community here really did help out on this one. Yourself included, with this very comment! I really appreciate it. :3
I'll get back to 'er. Gonna curl into a ball and avoid everything in mental recovery mode for a while, but I'll get back to 'er. x3
I've got very weak forms of tinnitus as I can only really hear it when its really silent but I find actually getting complete silence helps an absolute ton.
Using ear plugs helps but also using motorcycle earplugs when in loud events helps a lot too, they come in a small metal cylinder for your keychain, they block out a lot of sound while letting you hear normal conversations.
Using ear plugs helps but also using motorcycle earplugs when in loud events helps a lot too, they come in a small metal cylinder for your keychain, they block out a lot of sound while letting you hear normal conversations.
I've dealt with tinnitus for as long as I can remember (in my early 30s now, its been an issue at least since high school) and none of the normal strategies have worked for actually halting the ringing for me. What I've learned to do (and depending on your living situation this may be easier said than done, but it helps with coping) is to... basically just have at least some kind of white noise going at all times. I don't remember when there was a moment in my apartment without at least a fan turned on so there was a noise to help direct my attention away from the ringing, and when there's more involved sounds like a TV show, or if I'm talking to someone on the phone, I honestly can't even hear the ringing that much unless I REALLY listen for it.
Its taken a long time for me to come to terms with this as something I'm probably going to have to deal with forever, but once you get in the habit of coping mechanisms, it doesn't really feel like such a major source of distress anymore. Honestly writing this comment is the first time in at least a month or so that I've even really thought about the ringing.
You'll get the hang of it - just takes some time. <3
Its taken a long time for me to come to terms with this as something I'm probably going to have to deal with forever, but once you get in the habit of coping mechanisms, it doesn't really feel like such a major source of distress anymore. Honestly writing this comment is the first time in at least a month or so that I've even really thought about the ringing.
You'll get the hang of it - just takes some time. <3
Yeah, I feel like I probably reminded a lot of people about their own tinnitus by doing all this, hah. Sorry! But thanks. :3 I pretty much always already had some kind of white noise going on in my life, so at least it'll be a pretty easy adjustment for me to just keep that going!
I just have general Tinnitus since I started to remember, so forever, which also gets higher with stress that it sometimes sound like a grenade blast off next to my ear, I had been told that while it most likely there is no physical treatment for me, just psychological, and overall it is, for the lack of a better word for me, to push it in the background of the head.
I really wish you the best, I really wish I could help you more. But you can do it, it will get better over time and I believe in you. We all will be here for you <3 Always
You are awesome and great. <3 A really awesome purrson. <3
I really wish you the best, I really wish I could help you more. But you can do it, it will get better over time and I believe in you. We all will be here for you <3 Always
You are awesome and great. <3 A really awesome purrson. <3
Pretty sure I'm in the same boat, there's no getting rid of it, so now I just gotta learn to ignore it. It'll take time, but so many people here are facing the same thing and living happy live, so I'm sure I can too in time! But really, genuinely, thank you. Means a lot that people care. :3
Hey, a lot of people care about you, Ru. I've been a fan for a damn long time. Watched you grow in skill. You're still one of my favourites.
I just really had nothing to say that hadn't been said already. I hope this clears up for you, and the sooner the better.
Just know that you are loved.
I just really had nothing to say that hadn't been said already. I hope this clears up for you, and the sooner the better.
Just know that you are loved.
It's really unfortunate that furries enjoy hearing damage at their parties. That's why I can't go to most of the things even if the music is actually good. Some cons I can't get even near the dance floor doors. As I was born deaf and lucky enough to acquire hearing. Even a miracle that the operation was so successful that I don't need hearing aids. Which means I take it more serious then most. The first six years of my life are a silent movie in my memories. Still remember when I was able to hear for the first time. Hell even working construction I'm one of the few that makes sure I got hearing protection in before starting loud tasks.
Hopefully you can regain some of your hearing back in time. As I can't imagine having that ringing sound being louder then it normally is when you sit in silence as that drives me nuts :( that's why I need white noise like rain or fans going to sleep.
Hopefully you can regain some of your hearing back in time. As I can't imagine having that ringing sound being louder then it normally is when you sit in silence as that drives me nuts :( that's why I need white noise like rain or fans going to sleep.
I can't speak to your situation, but I had something VERY similar happen a few years ago -- I was panicked and exhausted from the nonstop tinnitus for a few weeks, but eventually my brain adapted and/or my ears healed, and it disappeared altogether. May I ask how long ago this happened? I legitimately think it may get better over time. In any case, we're all here and we all love you and hope you'll be okay!
It's been a week so far. Recovery is still a possibility, though it's already less likely after having taken this long. I guess only time will tell. I'll be sure to let everyone know if it ever does clear up though. :P
Glad to hear yours went away! That must have been a big relief.
Glad to hear yours went away! That must have been a big relief.
As someone whos had High teir Tenitus, it Does eventualy lessen abit, its Verry new for you so your mind will focus and amplify it, but as time passes your mind will unconsiously start to dim it out or even at times mute it fully but as you said, it never goes away, it Does get better, Mine is from when i had a tumor in my ear removed as a todler, theres times its all i hear, but ive delt with it sence i was a baby so im more used to the level you described, it will take a long time, no way to say How long. but your mind Will slowly get used to it and tune it out better, kind of like a perpetual ache, its always there, but you get used to it, and your body stops registering it as much due to how used to it you get.
I got tinnitus from ruZZian missiles (yes, multiple) landing outside of my apartment in Ukraine, coupled with all the air-raid sirens that are going off pretty much non-stop with the frequency of their spontaneous non-targeted terror bombings and attacks. I suffered for over 2 years under near-daily missile, kamikaze drone, and even bomb&artillery attacks before I managed to relocate to a quieter place, but just like in your case the damage has already been done. It's been over a year since tinnitus got bad enough for me to start hearing it 24/7, and it hasn't gotten better either... I've read that if it doesn't disappear in about a month or two then chances of it being chronic drastically increase. But since yours wasn't caused by anything too extreme, perhaps you will be lucky and it will recover or at least lessen with time.
I am not sure what's worse, doing this to yourself on accident or having it inflicted on you on purpose by a bunch of chauvinist fascists... But regardless of all that, the last thing you need right now is to go into a loop thinking your life is over. I've been there, it makes it worse as depression and anxiety makes your brain notice the sound more, sabotaging the habituation efforts of your mind, which in turns strengthens depression and anxiety. It is a vicious cycle. I've read plenty of articles establishing this link, and had doctors essentially tell me the same they told you. Just try to distract yourself from it and hope for the best, there really isn't much else one can do in this situation...
Who knows, maybe there will be a scientific breakthrough in our lifetimes and they will come up with a way to combat these phantom noises, be it by fixing the damage permanently or by applying targeted nerve stimulation to counteract it in a similar way to how they started doing recently to combat tremors for older folk and people with the Parkinson's disease.
I am not sure what's worse, doing this to yourself on accident or having it inflicted on you on purpose by a bunch of chauvinist fascists... But regardless of all that, the last thing you need right now is to go into a loop thinking your life is over. I've been there, it makes it worse as depression and anxiety makes your brain notice the sound more, sabotaging the habituation efforts of your mind, which in turns strengthens depression and anxiety. It is a vicious cycle. I've read plenty of articles establishing this link, and had doctors essentially tell me the same they told you. Just try to distract yourself from it and hope for the best, there really isn't much else one can do in this situation...
Who knows, maybe there will be a scientific breakthrough in our lifetimes and they will come up with a way to combat these phantom noises, be it by fixing the damage permanently or by applying targeted nerve stimulation to counteract it in a similar way to how they started doing recently to combat tremors for older folk and people with the Parkinson's disease.
Gosh, you've been though so much and here I am losing it over a little ringing in the ears. Forget me, I hope you are doing okay! At least, as okay as possible given the circumstances. Truly a tragedy. Fuck that whole stupid war of his, with a big rusty spike.
I'll be alright. Frankly I'm a little embarrassed about how badly I handled it given when folks like you are going through, heh. I've been working on doing exactly as you say- just trying not to think about it and focusing on other stuff. Honestly, does seem to be helping already.
All the same, doesn't hurt to hope they find a way to take care of this nonsense sometime in our lifetime. Fingers crossed. :P
I'll be alright. Frankly I'm a little embarrassed about how badly I handled it given when folks like you are going through, heh. I've been working on doing exactly as you say- just trying not to think about it and focusing on other stuff. Honestly, does seem to be helping already.
All the same, doesn't hurt to hope they find a way to take care of this nonsense sometime in our lifetime. Fingers crossed. :P
I've had tinnitus sens around 2002 or so, it's pretty loud. but i also suffer from moderate hearing loss. this was caused by the job i had in the navy. i fixed engines on F-14's and then F-18's, most of the time i was one of the green shirts final checking aircraft on the flight deck of carriers.
I know what your going through, I know what you feel like right now. It feels hopeless. I wont make promises that it'll get better over time, because mine did not. But i believe in you, you'll make it through this. and all of us will be there with you as you do.
I know what your going through, I know what you feel like right now. It feels hopeless. I wont make promises that it'll get better over time, because mine did not. But i believe in you, you'll make it through this. and all of us will be there with you as you do.
Oh man reading your first post just now hit hard. I can relate too much . I recently got hurt at work and now a couple joints on one side act up . The job was loud and I’ve also noticed ringing in my ears, but that bit is mild and I can’t say for sure it’s new or worse from before that job. The joint/limb issues are the problem.
Regardless I’ve been pissed lately that I have damaged my body permanently for a shit employer. The kicker? After my injury they cut me from full time hours to literally zero for a month straight so that I’d have no choice but to sign the severance release.
I need to take a walk and calm down now. When I get back I’ll join you in brooding in the corner. Like an orgy of despair. Fffffuuuuuccccckkkkk.
Regardless I’ve been pissed lately that I have damaged my body permanently for a shit employer. The kicker? After my injury they cut me from full time hours to literally zero for a month straight so that I’d have no choice but to sign the severance release.
I need to take a walk and calm down now. When I get back I’ll join you in brooding in the corner. Like an orgy of despair. Fffffuuuuuccccckkkkk.
Ugh, yeah. I could rage forever about how businesses have no problem chewing up their employees and spitting them out, leaving them permanently broken in order to make a few more dollars. Permanent rage.
Sorry you're going through that man. Plenty of room in the brooding corner, you're welcome here. :P And I hope things somehow look up for you in the future!
Sorry you're going through that man. Plenty of room in the brooding corner, you're welcome here. :P And I hope things somehow look up for you in the future!
I have the same issue. It started, when I was playing with a band in a cellar and we drunk lots and played loud music. The ringing never went away but I paniced hard at first. It became endurable with time. I am a person that needs a quiet environment to sleep.
Later in life I encountered some real stress (it was a hidden infection) totally unrelated to my T but the stress made my T unbearable and they send me into a hospital. First I thought I have something in my head, and they said my blood values are bad.
The root cause was somewhere else entierly. So If your T goes totally out of whack this might be a hidden stress level you can not explain.
I can recommend white noise (or a variation closer to the T frequency) to help battle it. Also I figured that headphones/headsets make it worse, so I prefer speaker if I can.
Wish you the best \o/
Later in life I encountered some real stress (it was a hidden infection) totally unrelated to my T but the stress made my T unbearable and they send me into a hospital. First I thought I have something in my head, and they said my blood values are bad.
The root cause was somewhere else entierly. So If your T goes totally out of whack this might be a hidden stress level you can not explain.
I can recommend white noise (or a variation closer to the T frequency) to help battle it. Also I figured that headphones/headsets make it worse, so I prefer speaker if I can.
Wish you the best \o/
Fortunately I already do most of my listening on speakers so should be good on that front. White noise has mostly just made it feel louder in my head so far, but higher pitched white noise does seem like it might have some promise... We'll see!
Sorry you've also head to deal with this, it's no fun. But I do really appreciate you comin' out to share your story, see other folks manage to handle the same thing really does help a lot. Thank you!
Sorry you've also head to deal with this, it's no fun. But I do really appreciate you comin' out to share your story, see other folks manage to handle the same thing really does help a lot. Thank you!
Dear author!
I don't know how good the medicine is in your area, but I strongly advise you to consult a medical specialist who deals with ears.
In Russia, I received a detailed description of the necessary diagnostics and treatment methods. This is much more than what was told to you "nothing can be done about it".
In any case, I wish you health.
I don't know how good the medicine is in your area, but I strongly advise you to consult a medical specialist who deals with ears.
In Russia, I received a detailed description of the necessary diagnostics and treatment methods. This is much more than what was told to you "nothing can be done about it".
In any case, I wish you health.
Shit Ru, I am so terribly sorry for what you are going through!
Read the whole think and let me send you a genuine hug my friend. That shit is an unsufrable torture. Had it once, it lasted a few days then thankfully it stopped. Thats one motive I dont go to club parties or anywhere were thay have loud music, whats the deal with that I dont know.
PLEASE READ THIS PART > Two ideas you could consider.
I dont have exactly what you described, but I do have other ear problems. I went through some of the comments, and varius suggestions, and I dunno if anybody have allready sayed this, but it sometmes have worked for me before. That is to go for a swim if you happend to have a swiming pool in your house or nearby, and do varius alternations of swiming styles and also dome quick swiming underwater. This not only plays with the orientation of the head ( that migh help calm or sometimes re-adjust the whole internal structure of the inner ear) but also plays with pressure differences that might do something as well. I am no doctor or specialist but from what you say to varius responses, and when the usual give you no solutions, one has to start thinking out of the box.
I tend to be very consious of my body, so doctors are a "must go" in a lot of cases, I first try to kinda test what the causes of the problems are before deciding to go to a doctor.
But now that you've been to several, there is no certainty that it will help or fix the thing, but it just might help to ease it.
ALSO, I dont have any proof or have tested this myself, but it accurs to me that useing a pair of good earplugs for enough time, might just do the trick as well. Of course this is not to give false hopes, I just think its not too silly to test things cientifically. It might help that blocking esxternal sound waves long enough could give the ringing time to go back to base line. Some would say this is just stupid to do cus, if so, it would be a wide known solution, but we often get different results from different persons. So those are my two recomendations to try. (1) Swiming in varios ways and do erratical movements over and under water like an otter, and (2) useing earplugs and/or cancelling noice headphones for like a week or so. See if it does something.
After 400+ comments, Im not gonna add much to it, but Im 34 years old, living with a life long inmune inflamatory condition, so Ive learn a thing or two about talking to your body. I know it is insanly hard to overcome posible outcomes of a particular event in ones life, but let no thing such as this, distroy your desire to do things, and experience life while you are still young. Its a constant inner discussion for me as well, belive me. But trying and doing (within what we slowly allow ourselfs to), are often way better than the opossite, but just as this think you did ruined many things Im sure, others might add much more to your life as well, trying things is always a sort of rulette ...just now I was philisophying about theese things so at the risk of writeing you a whole pages of thoughts I will stop myself here. Dont want it to be too much.
I truly hope these bref words find their way to you. Ive been were you are for different reasons, and being alone, or feeling alone, didnt make things much better when dealing with the issue that out you there. You have given me so much fun and ,ehem, healthy distractions through your work (and to others as well Im sure) that if you find these words somewhat helpful, Im totally open and available to support / advice, if you need to share some not-so public struggle or personal difficulty you are stressed or aflicted by.
Remember that behind the icon and some words on a web page, there are dozens of people that might not be right there with you to give you a huge phisical hug, but are thinking and truely careing about you. We dont need to be friends (we the followers XD), we dont have to know eachother in person, or be chating on a regular basis, but if you need any of us, WE ARE HERE FOR YOU.
Read the whole think and let me send you a genuine hug my friend. That shit is an unsufrable torture. Had it once, it lasted a few days then thankfully it stopped. Thats one motive I dont go to club parties or anywhere were thay have loud music, whats the deal with that I dont know.
PLEASE READ THIS PART > Two ideas you could consider.
I dont have exactly what you described, but I do have other ear problems. I went through some of the comments, and varius suggestions, and I dunno if anybody have allready sayed this, but it sometmes have worked for me before. That is to go for a swim if you happend to have a swiming pool in your house or nearby, and do varius alternations of swiming styles and also dome quick swiming underwater. This not only plays with the orientation of the head ( that migh help calm or sometimes re-adjust the whole internal structure of the inner ear) but also plays with pressure differences that might do something as well. I am no doctor or specialist but from what you say to varius responses, and when the usual give you no solutions, one has to start thinking out of the box.
I tend to be very consious of my body, so doctors are a "must go" in a lot of cases, I first try to kinda test what the causes of the problems are before deciding to go to a doctor.
But now that you've been to several, there is no certainty that it will help or fix the thing, but it just might help to ease it.
ALSO, I dont have any proof or have tested this myself, but it accurs to me that useing a pair of good earplugs for enough time, might just do the trick as well. Of course this is not to give false hopes, I just think its not too silly to test things cientifically. It might help that blocking esxternal sound waves long enough could give the ringing time to go back to base line. Some would say this is just stupid to do cus, if so, it would be a wide known solution, but we often get different results from different persons. So those are my two recomendations to try. (1) Swiming in varios ways and do erratical movements over and under water like an otter, and (2) useing earplugs and/or cancelling noice headphones for like a week or so. See if it does something.
After 400+ comments, Im not gonna add much to it, but Im 34 years old, living with a life long inmune inflamatory condition, so Ive learn a thing or two about talking to your body. I know it is insanly hard to overcome posible outcomes of a particular event in ones life, but let no thing such as this, distroy your desire to do things, and experience life while you are still young. Its a constant inner discussion for me as well, belive me. But trying and doing (within what we slowly allow ourselfs to), are often way better than the opossite, but just as this think you did ruined many things Im sure, others might add much more to your life as well, trying things is always a sort of rulette ...just now I was philisophying about theese things so at the risk of writeing you a whole pages of thoughts I will stop myself here. Dont want it to be too much.
I truly hope these bref words find their way to you. Ive been were you are for different reasons, and being alone, or feeling alone, didnt make things much better when dealing with the issue that out you there. You have given me so much fun and ,ehem, healthy distractions through your work (and to others as well Im sure) that if you find these words somewhat helpful, Im totally open and available to support / advice, if you need to share some not-so public struggle or personal difficulty you are stressed or aflicted by.
Remember that behind the icon and some words on a web page, there are dozens of people that might not be right there with you to give you a huge phisical hug, but are thinking and truely careing about you. We dont need to be friends (we the followers XD), we dont have to know eachother in person, or be chating on a regular basis, but if you need any of us, WE ARE HERE FOR YOU.
I get it. The whole, "this is permanent, this is life now" thing. I have PDD. Nothing to do. This is my life now. I'll never not be depressed. I can take medication but it does little to nothing and eventually I'll just build up a tolerance. It's just how it is now. It feels incredibly unfair.
Who knows. Maybe in the future they can fix this. Maybe in the future they can fix tinnitus. We don't know.
The asthma I was born with was severe enough to have been fatal just a decade before. The medication I had to deal with the first ten years was awful and now it's like, I use an inhaler every morning and evening and that's it. Ten years from now, who knows?
So yeah, you're stuck with the tinnitus.
For now.
You'll manage.
Who knows. Maybe in the future they can fix this. Maybe in the future they can fix tinnitus. We don't know.
The asthma I was born with was severe enough to have been fatal just a decade before. The medication I had to deal with the first ten years was awful and now it's like, I use an inhaler every morning and evening and that's it. Ten years from now, who knows?
So yeah, you're stuck with the tinnitus.
For now.
You'll manage.
I had a headache that lasted 3 years. Your reaction was and is entirely reasonable, and reaching out to your followers was an appropriate and thankfully effective way to manage the emotional distress of this. I'm so sorry this has happened to you. I hope it won't dissuade you from trying to reach out again.
As someone who has had consistent ear infections since I was a child, this hit too close to home. I’m deeply sorry that all this happened to you, someone whose art has kept me entertained and eased in the stresses of life and one whom I believe is the best of us.
All I can offer you is money and emotional support. I wished I could offer you more than that, but like your doctors, I was always told that I had to deal with what I have ;-;
Keep fighting Ruu, you’re not alone,
- True
All I can offer you is money and emotional support. I wished I could offer you more than that, but like your doctors, I was always told that I had to deal with what I have ;-;
Keep fighting Ruu, you’re not alone,
- True
I hope that burrito of sadness gets traded for a hamburger of happiness. (Sorry, I haven't had dinner yet.) Keep your chin up, old son. I'm glad that your ears didn't get KO'd entirely.
Don't let this set-back make you afraid to leave your home. I'm a five-star recluse, but even I have to reach out every once in a while.
Don't let this set-back make you afraid to leave your home. I'm a five-star recluse, but even I have to reach out every once in a while.
I can't lie and say I know what you're going through so the most I can say is I hope it gets better and that you find ways to manage it.
All I can say are the things that you probably already know to at least help manage the stress as well. Hydrate, rest, breath, and self love. You've got this Ruaidri, take your time and do what's best for you. You have a great community behind you who will all wait patiently and excitedly for you.
You got this king~
All I can say are the things that you probably already know to at least help manage the stress as well. Hydrate, rest, breath, and self love. You've got this Ruaidri, take your time and do what's best for you. You have a great community behind you who will all wait patiently and excitedly for you.
You got this king~
When you said: "It's just... how helpless and absolute it is. I made one mistake, and I might be dealing with the consequences of that mistake for the rest of my entire life. There's no going back, there's no re-dos, it's extremely possible that there's no getting better and that this is just my life now. There's a lot of frustration, and anger, and sadness, and panic that comes with a realization like that. And the fact that I did this to myself in my very first attempt to improve my life, to get out and try new things, was just the cherry on top. I didn't... exactly handle it well, heh."
- That there is exactly why it hit so haard, and it makes so much sense. I'm a little bit similar, when I go out of my comfort zone to try something to improve myself or explore something new, and something goes wrong, I feel like I am punished, that I shouldn't have done all this, that I don't deserve it and that it wasn't my place to want that. I don't know what thought process you went through, but I can understand exactly why you felt so bad about it.
I'm glad the comments have helped you some. Wish you all the best with it <3
- That there is exactly why it hit so haard, and it makes so much sense. I'm a little bit similar, when I go out of my comfort zone to try something to improve myself or explore something new, and something goes wrong, I feel like I am punished, that I shouldn't have done all this, that I don't deserve it and that it wasn't my place to want that. I don't know what thought process you went through, but I can understand exactly why you felt so bad about it.
I'm glad the comments have helped you some. Wish you all the best with it <3
I really don't know what to say that hasn't been said better by others. Naturally, I hope that it diminishes with time and everything goes back to normal, though I don't know how realistic that is. I think the most I can wish is that it bothers you as little as possible for as long as long as possible.
It's unfortunate, but we all have acccidents and mistakes. I had my own similar situation where I went to a live rock music bar with a friend without concert earplugs, stood infront of a massive wall of amps and cabinets and got blasted for about an hour and 30 minutes. Ended up losing a bunch of my hearing, walked funny for a week and also got tinnitus. Took awhile to get used to, but you do eventually get used to it and it just becomes a part of life you worry about less and less. You're not alone and you'll eventually come to find your own way of dealing with it too :3
You know.. your problem litteraly makes me angry because, like, I think I always had permanent ringing in the ears, and as my doctor said, I hear perfectly fine.
The thing is, it makes me so confused, did I make an error when I was young that made me have permanent ringing ? Was it from the beggining? I never really listen to music for too long or kept being near a speaker where there was loud music, so why do I have that when people around me listen to music so much louder and never complained about anything.
I guess I'm lucky, because tinnitus never really made me feel bad since I'm so used, but idk, I can't find peace within myself to stop asking myself if I did something wrong, if I should lower volume, if it's just because some people have more sensible ears than others... Makes me so confused, and I would honnestly feel as bad as you if I were in your situation, especially when we actually wanted to avoid the problem from the beggining.
Of course I wish you all the best, and I hope you'll find peace about it.
The thing is, it makes me so confused, did I make an error when I was young that made me have permanent ringing ? Was it from the beggining? I never really listen to music for too long or kept being near a speaker where there was loud music, so why do I have that when people around me listen to music so much louder and never complained about anything.
I guess I'm lucky, because tinnitus never really made me feel bad since I'm so used, but idk, I can't find peace within myself to stop asking myself if I did something wrong, if I should lower volume, if it's just because some people have more sensible ears than others... Makes me so confused, and I would honnestly feel as bad as you if I were in your situation, especially when we actually wanted to avoid the problem from the beggining.
Of course I wish you all the best, and I hope you'll find peace about it.
Unfortunately, like a lot of bodily issues, it's one of those things that can just kinda happen. Sometimes it's due to exposure to loud sound like me, sometimes it's because... bodies just suck and go haywire sometimes. An unfortunate reality of life.
You did nothing wrong, just drew the short straw unfortunately! I'm sorry to hear you've got it too, but I'm glad it's not a huge impediment on you. And thanks. :3
You did nothing wrong, just drew the short straw unfortunately! I'm sorry to hear you've got it too, but I'm glad it's not a huge impediment on you. And thanks. :3
A tl;dr of a similar scenario -- I VERY much get the make a mistake once, punished forever situation you're in. Childhood neglect led to very bad teeth. I haven't had a cavity for four years straight because my hygiene has been significantly improved for the last 20ish years but the amount of anxiety I have every time I talk to my dentist that she'll say I have a new cavity and no amount of proper care will keep my teeth good forever because they didn't have good care for a few years as a teenager is absolutely awful. I don't wish this sort of situation on my worst enemy.
I really do hope your hearing repairs at least somewhat. Fingers crossed if it doesn't go away it at least reduces to tolerable levels.
I really do hope your hearing repairs at least somewhat. Fingers crossed if it doesn't go away it at least reduces to tolerable levels.
I've come to really look forward to your art and animations, you do some amazing work and I hope you recognize that. I'm sorry you ended up with this while trying to do something different and outside your comfort zone. It's hard to make a change and it takes a lot of bravery to do that even if it's something small. Hope you can get more comfortable with this and I'm looking forward to you feeling better and making more masterpieces.
Just remember, Ape Together Strong
We all suffer in various ways, and our ability to survive the traumas and share our experiences is what helps not only ourselves, but each other to move forward. The fandom often looks after each other, and you are no exception from the love and care.
Take the time you need to recover and find your feet again, we will be here when you are ready to return fully <3
We all suffer in various ways, and our ability to survive the traumas and share our experiences is what helps not only ourselves, but each other to move forward. The fandom often looks after each other, and you are no exception from the love and care.
Take the time you need to recover and find your feet again, we will be here when you are ready to return fully <3
I’ve been a rocker since I was in my tweens,.. standing feet from the stacks of speakers, whole body vibrating with the music!
The raw power of watching a top fuel dragster hit 300mph in just 1/4 mile…. Again an experience that isn’t as much witnessed and heard,.. as it is just FELT!! Those engines are soo loud they literally shake your bones as they pass by!
Ohhh, and guns,… lots of gunfire (hundreds of thousands of rounds) most of it with ear protection,… but I’d say a couple hundred rounds now without it…
Worst of all of them was when I accidentally made an oxy/acetylene bomb out of a beer bottle and it went off just a few feet from me… literally knocked all hearing out for about 30 seconds,…
Long enough for me to crawl out from under the truck where it detonated, and walk into the garage wondering why the stereo turned off before my hearing faded back in. (Yeah, the scenes in “Saving private Ryan” are pretty true to form)
Yeah,… I live with Tinnitus
Soft white noise, like a fan running is one of the best things that helps me ignore that constant high pitched squeal…
I still live a fairly loud life, so tinnitus is generally overpowered by the rest of the racket in life.
I only really notice it in times of silent meditation.
The raw power of watching a top fuel dragster hit 300mph in just 1/4 mile…. Again an experience that isn’t as much witnessed and heard,.. as it is just FELT!! Those engines are soo loud they literally shake your bones as they pass by!
Ohhh, and guns,… lots of gunfire (hundreds of thousands of rounds) most of it with ear protection,… but I’d say a couple hundred rounds now without it…
Worst of all of them was when I accidentally made an oxy/acetylene bomb out of a beer bottle and it went off just a few feet from me… literally knocked all hearing out for about 30 seconds,…
Long enough for me to crawl out from under the truck where it detonated, and walk into the garage wondering why the stereo turned off before my hearing faded back in. (Yeah, the scenes in “Saving private Ryan” are pretty true to form)
Yeah,… I live with Tinnitus
Soft white noise, like a fan running is one of the best things that helps me ignore that constant high pitched squeal…
I still live a fairly loud life, so tinnitus is generally overpowered by the rest of the racket in life.
I only really notice it in times of silent meditation.
I’ve had two near death experiences, I’ve seen beyond the veil and have no fear of what’s coming at the conclusion of this life.
I want to do as much as I can while I am here this time.
It may hurt on the way out, but I’m hoping to skid in sideways to that!
Half drunk and guns blazing! 👍🥃
I want to do as much as I can while I am here this time.
It may hurt on the way out, but I’m hoping to skid in sideways to that!
Half drunk and guns blazing! 👍🥃
Please remember that you are wonderful and loved, and you have fans, friends, and loved ones who will always support you no matter what.
As someone with the "T" who went through these very same emotions, I promise you it will get better. Taking some used to, but better. You got this~ <3
As someone with the "T" who went through these very same emotions, I promise you it will get better. Taking some used to, but better. You got this~ <3
I was born with malformed inner ears. I have worn hearing aids since I was a few months old. It wasn't until I was 17 that I discovered that, no, the high pitched ringing that I hear in the absence of other sounds wasn't the "sound of silence" that Simon and Garfunkel sang about.
I can't say that it gets better, but you will get better at ignoring it. I've learned tp stay away from psytrance and synthwave music, for some reason they make my tinnitus much worse.
Hey, on the bright side, you don't have exploding head syndrome 🙃
I can't say that it gets better, but you will get better at ignoring it. I've learned tp stay away from psytrance and synthwave music, for some reason they make my tinnitus much worse.
Hey, on the bright side, you don't have exploding head syndrome 🙃
Gah, that suuucks, sorry dude!
But yeah, could always be worse. Honestly, as far as permanent conditions go, what I'm dealing with is pretty easy. There's some horrific conditions out there, heh. If this is the worst I have to deal with in my life, I got off easy. :P I'll manage!
But yeah, could always be worse. Honestly, as far as permanent conditions go, what I'm dealing with is pretty easy. There's some horrific conditions out there, heh. If this is the worst I have to deal with in my life, I got off easy. :P I'll manage!
Could your problem be psychosomatic? If so, the ringing should be switched off by willpower, perhaps a neurologist can help you. In general, I am familiar with this: people in cities are accustomed to a constant background noise. And when a person from the city comes to a village where it is so quiet that you can hear a wristwatch ticking five meters away from you, he begins to experience hallucinations, as the brain tries to fill the suddenly empty flow of acoustic data. A whistling or noise in the ears occurs, some hear indistinct conversations. Usually this goes away over time (about a week). Another similar effect is observed if you put up a tent near a babbling river. A person from the village will hear babbling water all night, and a person from the city will hear people talking all night. I myself encountered this when I lived in the city and went to the forest for the summer. I am not sure that this story will help you, but it may give you some ideas. Try to increase the number of noisy objects around (wall clocks, refrigerator, chargers) they will create an additional background and your consciousness will stop generating whistling (this is in theory, I am not a doctor, but it helped me)
I can't say no for certain, but I highly suspect that's not the case. The chain of events is pretty clear- no tinnitus, loud sounds, suddenly tinnitus. Pretty clear case of hearing damage. And it's not like I was panicked about tinnitus from the jump, it didn't even hit me that this was going to be permanent until like three days in, hah. So I don't think it's a psychological effect. My mood or anxiety or attention doesn't seem to affect it even the slightest, it's just always there. When I use white noise it mostly just makes the ringing feel louder 'cause I hear it overtop the noise.
Still- I acknowledge it's hard to know about these things from the inside, so I'll keep these thoughts in mind as I move forward, you never know what'll end up helping in the long run. :3
Still- I acknowledge it's hard to know about these things from the inside, so I'll keep these thoughts in mind as I move forward, you never know what'll end up helping in the long run. :3
I'm sorry that you are going through this, but you certainly aren't walking this path alone. I have minor tinnitus due to a young, dumb me enjoying shooting without proper ear protection. It's gotten to the point where it doesn't usually bother me outside of just realizing "oh! I'm having a grey out!" When I suddenly realize that I can't hear anything but the ringing. I hope you are able to acclimatize to it, and find ways to help prevent further loss.
https://www.dictionary.com/e/transl.....limmbesserung/
Verschlimmbesserung
it really sucks. the panic that suddenly sets in that youve really fucked it hurts. having anxiety doesnt help. knowing that this was supposed to be a first step towards self betterment really doesnt help either.
it...happens. thats the best i can describe it. they are lifechanging, you just dont know how or when. some of those things may have happened to you as a child and youll only realize it later. comes with the whole getting older wisdom phase, and maybe your adult existential crisis later (i am assuming you've had your adolescent crisis already).
sometimes these actions drive me into an anxiety attack when i realize how bad there are. this too shall pass..but for the moment, its always rough and can take days or weeks...or even months for me. in the end i seem to move on, but share with others my experiences, and do my best to avoid making the problems worse....though therapy helps to come to terms with my life altering mistakes with no do-overs. i have been building these grievances into my fursona to try and express them as part of the character, applying lore and meaning to the designs (this is partially why im only starting physical design after 9 years of development). This aspect of self expression seems to help a little bit too.
suffering not shared is suffering wasted.
great job seeking professional help. i dont know to what extent therapy of some sort might be able to help you acclimatize quicker and less insanely, hopefully theres something out there (that is backed by science ofc).
Verschlimmbesserung
it really sucks. the panic that suddenly sets in that youve really fucked it hurts. having anxiety doesnt help. knowing that this was supposed to be a first step towards self betterment really doesnt help either.
it...happens. thats the best i can describe it. they are lifechanging, you just dont know how or when. some of those things may have happened to you as a child and youll only realize it later. comes with the whole getting older wisdom phase, and maybe your adult existential crisis later (i am assuming you've had your adolescent crisis already).
sometimes these actions drive me into an anxiety attack when i realize how bad there are. this too shall pass..but for the moment, its always rough and can take days or weeks...or even months for me. in the end i seem to move on, but share with others my experiences, and do my best to avoid making the problems worse....though therapy helps to come to terms with my life altering mistakes with no do-overs. i have been building these grievances into my fursona to try and express them as part of the character, applying lore and meaning to the designs (this is partially why im only starting physical design after 9 years of development). This aspect of self expression seems to help a little bit too.
suffering not shared is suffering wasted.
great job seeking professional help. i dont know to what extent therapy of some sort might be able to help you acclimatize quicker and less insanely, hopefully theres something out there (that is backed by science ofc).
My Tinnitus is weird. Sometimes one ear will just "reset". I lose all hearing then it comes back over 5-7 seconds with a faint ringing that goes away and then I can hear just fine again. White noise from a fan has helped me sleep since I was a child.
Despite wearing ear plugs, the military still diagnosed me with tinnitus based on the above since it started years after joining, haha. I do got to metal concerts fairly often, as well. Always wear ear plugs. People seemed surprised when I tell them the music sounds better and clearer when your ear drums aren't being destroyed.
Despite wearing ear plugs, the military still diagnosed me with tinnitus based on the above since it started years after joining, haha. I do got to metal concerts fairly often, as well. Always wear ear plugs. People seemed surprised when I tell them the music sounds better and clearer when your ear drums aren't being destroyed.
I read your first post about this and couldn't really think anything helpful to say.
Now that I've thought about how I've dealt with my whine for the past eternity, even though it might sound dooming, but you will eventually get used to it and finding some sort of white noise to take the focus out from the ringing will help too. I've surrounded myself with lots of noise for a long time that makes it easy to ignore the tone, like fan noise, idle feedback from the speakers, that ever worsening coil whine from my 2nd monitor.. sounds that I can hear coming from somewhere else instead of my own eardrums.
Now that I've thought about how I've dealt with my whine for the past eternity, even though it might sound dooming, but you will eventually get used to it and finding some sort of white noise to take the focus out from the ringing will help too. I've surrounded myself with lots of noise for a long time that makes it easy to ignore the tone, like fan noise, idle feedback from the speakers, that ever worsening coil whine from my 2nd monitor.. sounds that I can hear coming from somewhere else instead of my own eardrums.
The response might have surprised you but it just shows exactly the opposite of everyone's fear: you are not alone with this. There are many many people, even on this small sliver of humanity on this website who has to deal with such kind of things.
I not have exactly the T but the effect that I hear every bone misalignment in my body I got over the years. I had an accident as I was 7 that someone jumped after me in the pool and hit me with his heels right between the shoulders. I had a fixed neck for over 6 months snd always looked sideways to the left. Nowadays I have the feeling I'm an owl while left-turning my head but like a tank has to realign his body whenever something is right hand of me.
And every turn of my head sounds in my head like this skeleton head movement sound they use. I got used to it but it felt the first times like I break my neck or something when turning. I had to learn that I am not falling apart cause of it.
I not have exactly the T but the effect that I hear every bone misalignment in my body I got over the years. I had an accident as I was 7 that someone jumped after me in the pool and hit me with his heels right between the shoulders. I had a fixed neck for over 6 months snd always looked sideways to the left. Nowadays I have the feeling I'm an owl while left-turning my head but like a tank has to realign his body whenever something is right hand of me.
And every turn of my head sounds in my head like this skeleton head movement sound they use. I got used to it but it felt the first times like I break my neck or something when turning. I had to learn that I am not falling apart cause of it.
Ooh, gosh that sounds rough, I'm sorry! People really gotta be more careful at the pool...
Hope you're doing alright these days, that must have been a traumatizing experience! And here I am breaking down over a little ringing in the ears. I gotta learn to toughen up. :P
Seriously though, thanks for sharing your story and for the encouragement. It really has helped!
Hope you're doing alright these days, that must have been a traumatizing experience! And here I am breaking down over a little ringing in the ears. I gotta learn to toughen up. :P
Seriously though, thanks for sharing your story and for the encouragement. It really has helped!
Hi there. I've been enjoying your art ever since I discovered furry! I'm 32 and I started DJing in the fandom a couple years ago, and I've also been to a number of concerts and things throughout the years. Wanted to share my experiences with tinnitus and hoping it's helpful to you.
One time when I was in college, I was out with other students and we ended up at a nightclub where the music was STUPIDLY loud. I didn't actually want to be there, I was just following the other students around, but I stayed because I didn't want to just leave by myself. When we finally left, everything was muffled and I had LOUD ringing in my ears. My ears and my tinnitus weren't perfect before, but I had never experienced anything like that. Years of struggle with tinnitus afterwards would drive home how not worth it that experience was - for a boring night out where nothing happened, with people I'd never see again. It wasn't even like I was seeing a musician that I liked. I resolved to never let that happen ever again.
That was over ten years ago. At various points, I remember desperately searching for treatment options, trying some at-home online things, and just making myself depressed by focusing on the tinnitus, making it louder and louder in my head in a vicious cycle. Ultimately, what I really ended up doing was just taking care of my ears and trying my best to not fixate on it. Easier said than done - it's a major psychological struggle to not think about something that's so immediate and ever-present - but eventually, over the years, I thought about the tinnitus less and less, and I don't think I've thought about it in a major way for the last few years. It's still there, of course, but it's improved a lot and, when I do think about it, I just acknowledge that it's there and then move on. It may not be an easy or fast process to get to that point, but it's possible. I definitely think having other things in your life to occupy your mind can help, so don't stop doing your thing and putting yourself out there.
I did do a hearing test with an audiologist a few years ago, which ended up being better than expected - I did only slightly worse than what someone my age is supposed to. Even though it didn't lead to any treatment or life changes, I think it did give me some psychological relief - knowing that things weren't as bad as I thought helped me think about it less. You might find it helpful to go in every few years to see how you hold up as you get older.
It's true that very few people wear earplugs. They're more common in certain music/dance circles, but in furry it seems that it's mostly people wearing them for sensory reasons. Though that's as good a reason as any for us to make them more popular and accepted! (And to push for events with more controlled volume - there are way more furries who want that than it seems.) If you ask people why they don't wear earplugs, they might not think it's a problem, or they think it'll make the music not sound good. Or they think it makes them look stupid, lame, or weak, because they have some kind of macho self-image to uphold - even though only the worst kind of person fixates on what other people choose to wear. I'm sure you realize how stupid and shortsighted this is. No one is immune to hearing damage, and being able to tough it out doesn't mean it's not happening. I want to enjoy music, to dance, and to DJ for as long as I can - into my 60s, into my 80s, until I die. I don't want to be the grandpa who's always yelling "WHAT?", or worse, not able to understand people at all, and I certainly don't want my tinnitus to get worse. What other people think doesn't stop me from running around in a big carpet pretending to be a hyena, so it's certainly not going to stop me from protecting my ears.
Part of the problem might be that people only know about foam earplugs - useful in a pinch, but not really acceptable from a musical standpoint. Find some concert earplugs/musician's earplugs that you like. I got my current pair of Earasers for $40 a few years ago. The super nice option is to get custom-molded earplugs made for a few hundred dollars, but I'm quite satisfied with what I have. Music sounds just as good, just without the pain, and I can walk right up to the subwoofers to feel the bass shake my body. Counterintuitively, it's easier to hear people talking over loud music with the earplugs than without. Be careful when listening to music at home too - it's easy to get carried away with headphones or in a car, because louder does sound more exciting. But as a DJ, I have to listen to a lot of music, in a sustainable way, which means having the discipline to train my ears to listen at a lower volume than I might naturally want to. Hearing damage is a function of both loudness and duration, so we have to address both our everyday listening as well as the concerts and shows.
Side note: be careful with noise-cancelling headphones - some of them worsened my tinnitus.
I hope some of this helps. It hasn't been very long since it happened to you, so there's still lots of time for things to get better. Give your ears a chance to heal, and be patient with yourself as you adjust. And protecting your ears means you'll be better set up to enjoy music, the sounds of nature, and the voices of others for decades to come.
One time when I was in college, I was out with other students and we ended up at a nightclub where the music was STUPIDLY loud. I didn't actually want to be there, I was just following the other students around, but I stayed because I didn't want to just leave by myself. When we finally left, everything was muffled and I had LOUD ringing in my ears. My ears and my tinnitus weren't perfect before, but I had never experienced anything like that. Years of struggle with tinnitus afterwards would drive home how not worth it that experience was - for a boring night out where nothing happened, with people I'd never see again. It wasn't even like I was seeing a musician that I liked. I resolved to never let that happen ever again.
That was over ten years ago. At various points, I remember desperately searching for treatment options, trying some at-home online things, and just making myself depressed by focusing on the tinnitus, making it louder and louder in my head in a vicious cycle. Ultimately, what I really ended up doing was just taking care of my ears and trying my best to not fixate on it. Easier said than done - it's a major psychological struggle to not think about something that's so immediate and ever-present - but eventually, over the years, I thought about the tinnitus less and less, and I don't think I've thought about it in a major way for the last few years. It's still there, of course, but it's improved a lot and, when I do think about it, I just acknowledge that it's there and then move on. It may not be an easy or fast process to get to that point, but it's possible. I definitely think having other things in your life to occupy your mind can help, so don't stop doing your thing and putting yourself out there.
I did do a hearing test with an audiologist a few years ago, which ended up being better than expected - I did only slightly worse than what someone my age is supposed to. Even though it didn't lead to any treatment or life changes, I think it did give me some psychological relief - knowing that things weren't as bad as I thought helped me think about it less. You might find it helpful to go in every few years to see how you hold up as you get older.
It's true that very few people wear earplugs. They're more common in certain music/dance circles, but in furry it seems that it's mostly people wearing them for sensory reasons. Though that's as good a reason as any for us to make them more popular and accepted! (And to push for events with more controlled volume - there are way more furries who want that than it seems.) If you ask people why they don't wear earplugs, they might not think it's a problem, or they think it'll make the music not sound good. Or they think it makes them look stupid, lame, or weak, because they have some kind of macho self-image to uphold - even though only the worst kind of person fixates on what other people choose to wear. I'm sure you realize how stupid and shortsighted this is. No one is immune to hearing damage, and being able to tough it out doesn't mean it's not happening. I want to enjoy music, to dance, and to DJ for as long as I can - into my 60s, into my 80s, until I die. I don't want to be the grandpa who's always yelling "WHAT?", or worse, not able to understand people at all, and I certainly don't want my tinnitus to get worse. What other people think doesn't stop me from running around in a big carpet pretending to be a hyena, so it's certainly not going to stop me from protecting my ears.
Part of the problem might be that people only know about foam earplugs - useful in a pinch, but not really acceptable from a musical standpoint. Find some concert earplugs/musician's earplugs that you like. I got my current pair of Earasers for $40 a few years ago. The super nice option is to get custom-molded earplugs made for a few hundred dollars, but I'm quite satisfied with what I have. Music sounds just as good, just without the pain, and I can walk right up to the subwoofers to feel the bass shake my body. Counterintuitively, it's easier to hear people talking over loud music with the earplugs than without. Be careful when listening to music at home too - it's easy to get carried away with headphones or in a car, because louder does sound more exciting. But as a DJ, I have to listen to a lot of music, in a sustainable way, which means having the discipline to train my ears to listen at a lower volume than I might naturally want to. Hearing damage is a function of both loudness and duration, so we have to address both our everyday listening as well as the concerts and shows.
Side note: be careful with noise-cancelling headphones - some of them worsened my tinnitus.
I hope some of this helps. It hasn't been very long since it happened to you, so there's still lots of time for things to get better. Give your ears a chance to heal, and be patient with yourself as you adjust. And protecting your ears means you'll be better set up to enjoy music, the sounds of nature, and the voices of others for decades to come.
Oh thank you! I'm flattered to hear you've been sticking around so long. :3
Sounds like your story is real similar to mine. I mean, it was kinda okay, but the music wasn't my thing, and nothing terribly exciting happened, super not worth the permanent hearing issue. Oh well...
I'm sorry you've also had to deal with this, but it sounds like you're doing fairly well these days at least on the tinnitus front- I'm glad. I'm hoping I can get to the same point eventually... I suspect I'm stuck with this for good, but it's hopeful to hear that it may reach a point where I just don't care much about it some day.
I definitely agree, anyone in an environment as loud as that should definitely be wearing earplugs. I'm honestly kinda mad at myself for not doing it, I'm usually quite careful with my hearing but I figured one time wouldn't be that harmful... turns out yes it can, hah. Wear earplugs people.
I dunno if I'll ever go to a place like that again, I might be permanently scarred, haha. But if I do, gonna be getting some of those nice earplugs for sure. I'm fuckin' done with this hearing damage thing, not letting it happen again if I can help it.
Thanks for taking the time to come share your story and write all that out for me. I know I'm sounding a bit like a broken record with all the comments here, but it really does mean a lot to me, seeing so many people come out and share their stories and give encouragement and stuff. Really helping me get through the early days. So, thank you! :3
Sounds like your story is real similar to mine. I mean, it was kinda okay, but the music wasn't my thing, and nothing terribly exciting happened, super not worth the permanent hearing issue. Oh well...
I'm sorry you've also had to deal with this, but it sounds like you're doing fairly well these days at least on the tinnitus front- I'm glad. I'm hoping I can get to the same point eventually... I suspect I'm stuck with this for good, but it's hopeful to hear that it may reach a point where I just don't care much about it some day.
I definitely agree, anyone in an environment as loud as that should definitely be wearing earplugs. I'm honestly kinda mad at myself for not doing it, I'm usually quite careful with my hearing but I figured one time wouldn't be that harmful... turns out yes it can, hah. Wear earplugs people.
I dunno if I'll ever go to a place like that again, I might be permanently scarred, haha. But if I do, gonna be getting some of those nice earplugs for sure. I'm fuckin' done with this hearing damage thing, not letting it happen again if I can help it.
Thanks for taking the time to come share your story and write all that out for me. I know I'm sounding a bit like a broken record with all the comments here, but it really does mean a lot to me, seeing so many people come out and share their stories and give encouragement and stuff. Really helping me get through the early days. So, thank you! :3
yipee! x3 enjoy feeling good, just gonna.. https://youtube.com/shorts/O0MJJvWp.....W_HCQNPF_bmzx5 , boop :3
I didn't chime in before, because I don't have any personal experience with tinnitus.
But...I do know that it can be wildly annoying to deal with, and "annoying" means a lot when you're dealing with it 24/7. It's constant sensory input, and that is overwhelming and upsetting even if it is "just some ringing in the ears." So please don't feel sheepish about being shaken by it. Stuff can absolutely suck ass without being physically dangerous, ya know? Let yourself feel your feelings about it....but try not to beat yourself up about how it happened. It's a bit of bad luck that could have happened to anyone. It's not like you went out on a motorcycle without a helmet and then crashed--now that would have been asking for a mishap! You just went to an event, like lots of other people did, and your ears chose violence. It's not your fault. Bodies are assholes sometimes.
I hope it improves. And even if it doesn't, there are so, so many people living with it. I see a lot of then giving you great advice! You will be ok
But...I do know that it can be wildly annoying to deal with, and "annoying" means a lot when you're dealing with it 24/7. It's constant sensory input, and that is overwhelming and upsetting even if it is "just some ringing in the ears." So please don't feel sheepish about being shaken by it. Stuff can absolutely suck ass without being physically dangerous, ya know? Let yourself feel your feelings about it....but try not to beat yourself up about how it happened. It's a bit of bad luck that could have happened to anyone. It's not like you went out on a motorcycle without a helmet and then crashed--now that would have been asking for a mishap! You just went to an event, like lots of other people did, and your ears chose violence. It's not your fault. Bodies are assholes sometimes.
I hope it improves. And even if it doesn't, there are so, so many people living with it. I see a lot of then giving you great advice! You will be ok
I got distracted and completely forgot to comment on the original thread. Although I don't think I'd have had any insight not already covered by the myriad of people that supported you during that, still I'm glad you got to check with medical professionals and also that so many people looked out for you!
I deal with sensory stuff- not ringing, but lots of noise not fun for sure, tho more recently its been light thats a real killer. Just ambient bright light bothers me, but going outside, where every reflective surface stabs me in the eyes; cars, windows, windows on cars, pale buildings just being bright- it just hurts more and more and makes me agitated :T so like-
point being, sensory stuff you can't control is HELL, so I get where you're coming from dude, so so much. I'm sorry that all you can do is get used to it- and getting used to that kinda shit isn't easy, and even when you're "used to it" like I am with my shite, sometimes all I can do is try and mitigate the effects or put time aside to tuck away from light/loud noise to calm down.
I hope you can find your ways to self-soothe with ringing bull, and can move thru life happily again Mx Ruaidri. <3
((fast edit to say I love your art! your art and animation are so cool, you're one of my favorite artists on here! Take however long you need to recupe from everything!))
point being, sensory stuff you can't control is HELL, so I get where you're coming from dude, so so much. I'm sorry that all you can do is get used to it- and getting used to that kinda shit isn't easy, and even when you're "used to it" like I am with my shite, sometimes all I can do is try and mitigate the effects or put time aside to tuck away from light/loud noise to calm down.
I hope you can find your ways to self-soothe with ringing bull, and can move thru life happily again Mx Ruaidri. <3
((fast edit to say I love your art! your art and animation are so cool, you're one of my favorite artists on here! Take however long you need to recupe from everything!))
That's the plan! Gonna stick to quiet places as much as possible for a while and see what happens. And invest in a nice pair of ear plugs to keep on me at all times in case I do find myself someplace loud again! I do have a little tiny wisp of hope it'll fade over time, but even if it doesn't I'm not gonna willingly let it get worse, hah.
That sucks to hear, genuinely. You're one of the artists I look up to, and to hear you're suffering is heartbreaking.
I wish you well, and that it may only be a temporary impairment. If not, and since it seems to be a stable tone, there are ways to counter that frequency so you won't hear it.
I wish you well, and that it may only be a temporary impairment. If not, and since it seems to be a stable tone, there are ways to counter that frequency so you won't hear it.
Aw, thank you. <3
I'm doing much better now! Even if it doesn't go away, the idea of living with it doesn't seem devastating the way it did at first. The first few days it was impossible to ignore, but even though it's still always there, I've already hit a point where I go decent chunks of time without noticing it if I'm focusing on something else. I think I'm gonna be just fine!
I'm doing much better now! Even if it doesn't go away, the idea of living with it doesn't seem devastating the way it did at first. The first few days it was impossible to ignore, but even though it's still always there, I've already hit a point where I go decent chunks of time without noticing it if I'm focusing on something else. I think I'm gonna be just fine!
Sorry just saw this post :P glad it was not physical.
Pitch is annoying, it's like a wood piece stick in a figure. But some day when you wake up, it's gone like never happened. You will NOT be bother with that pitch in the rest of your life. I had many rather serious injuries but I either overcame it or just live with it without noticing. Something I found helping me when sinked in trama:
1. Be "dumb". Start to care less about tiny things that bother you in life - you wont even remember the thing after 1 year or so afterall.
2. Appreciate small things in life. Find 3 things that made your day
3. Do hobbies. Do anything you like. Eat a decent meal, spend $1000 to get a craving thing.
Life is good afterall, and after a decade someone would just laugh at their current self being trapped in small things.
P.S. big fan of you arts here, love them!
Pitch is annoying, it's like a wood piece stick in a figure. But some day when you wake up, it's gone like never happened. You will NOT be bother with that pitch in the rest of your life. I had many rather serious injuries but I either overcame it or just live with it without noticing. Something I found helping me when sinked in trama:
1. Be "dumb". Start to care less about tiny things that bother you in life - you wont even remember the thing after 1 year or so afterall.
2. Appreciate small things in life. Find 3 things that made your day
3. Do hobbies. Do anything you like. Eat a decent meal, spend $1000 to get a craving thing.
Life is good afterall, and after a decade someone would just laugh at their current self being trapped in small things.
P.S. big fan of you arts here, love them!
It's on my maybe list. I don't really use my 'sona for adult stuff these days and it feels weird to have a second opossum character for some reason... but not out of the question. I could occasionally be useful to have a self-insert character from time to time. We'll see. :P
Life is a complex web of fate. The smallest decision, the smallest thought process can change sooo much in life. But you did the right thing to seek out help, and by the evident number of comments, you have so many people that are here to support you. Many may not talk to you directly, or say something often, but myself and everyone here, is here to support you.
Healing, physically and psychologically takes a while. It is perfectly fine to take your time and heal, to feel better and get your state where YOU want it. I learned that myself over the last few years.
Take your time, people aren't going anywhere. Your happiness and safety is very important. When you are ready to get back at it, people will be here for you.
As well, don't let a bad experience fully keep you from improving your life. Things will get better, you will have better opportunities to do more. But take your time, do not rush it, you will figure out your limits in time.
Healing, physically and psychologically takes a while. It is perfectly fine to take your time and heal, to feel better and get your state where YOU want it. I learned that myself over the last few years.
Take your time, people aren't going anywhere. Your happiness and safety is very important. When you are ready to get back at it, people will be here for you.
As well, don't let a bad experience fully keep you from improving your life. Things will get better, you will have better opportunities to do more. But take your time, do not rush it, you will figure out your limits in time.
Hey Ru, most tinnitus from exposure to loud noises or music is temporary, although it will take days to weeks for it to go away, especially if it's bad. Please do not try to "drown it out", your ears need rest. Try to stay away from loud music and noise, eat plenty, drink plenty, sleep plenty. Sleep is especially important for healing. Try not to freak out, try not to let it bother you. I recommend looking into mindfulness practice and meditation if you're having trouble with that. I've skimmed through the comments and most people seem to jump into giving advice on how to handle permanent tinnitus or things involving more hits and noise to the ears, which I think is jumping the gun and unhelpful. Most likely it's going to go away in weeks at worst. Take care!
I hope you're right, but I have to be honest I'm not optimistic. There are countless stories of people who had one exposure to loud sound and have had ringing in their ears ever since, 10, 20 years later or more. And the fact that it has, if anything, only gotten worse since the intitial onset isn't making me feel great about those chances either. It's already been two and a half weeks, and it's not going well so far.
I'm fairly certain I'm not on the road to recovery, but am instead on the road to just learning to deal with it until it doesn't bother me. :P
I'm fairly certain I'm not on the road to recovery, but am instead on the road to just learning to deal with it until it doesn't bother me. :P
I have absolutely terrible Tinnitus, and I use an app called MyNoise, because it has tons of different sounds that you can mix & match and modify a lot (right down to removing certain sounds or pitches from a particular noise, if it's not the vibe you're looking for but the rest of the sound is) and I do find that to be quite helpful! Anker Soundcore Sleep A20 headphones are very comfy to sleep in and have great battery life, and even though I am a side sleeper I didn't find them putting too much pressure on my ears and stuff.
I'm so sorry you're going through all this and I hope it improves quickly for you! I will say that in my experience even though my Tinnitus never goes away and is a constant that I do have to deal with, over time it has faded into something that I don't always focus on. It sucks having to just get used to something so debilitating, but I'll cross my fingers for you that it goes away entirely, or at least recovers to a manageable level! Take care <3
I'm so sorry you're going through all this and I hope it improves quickly for you! I will say that in my experience even though my Tinnitus never goes away and is a constant that I do have to deal with, over time it has faded into something that I don't always focus on. It sucks having to just get used to something so debilitating, but I'll cross my fingers for you that it goes away entirely, or at least recovers to a manageable level! Take care <3
Thanks! I'll have to check those out. And thanks for the encouragement too, I needed that today, bit of a spike in severity today for some reason, oi.
Sorry to hear you're also dealing with this. It's not a great time, I gotta say. But, I'm hopeful I'll learn to handle it too, eventually. Thanks. :3
Sorry to hear you're also dealing with this. It's not a great time, I gotta say. But, I'm hopeful I'll learn to handle it too, eventually. Thanks. :3
I've had tinnitus to some extent on and off in my life. It started being constant, then it "went away" and sometimes it comes with stress or just, randomly.
Point being, we are built to adapt, our brains have a certain level of plasticity in regards to making sure we function, for good and bad it helps us filter out things, this includes anything from loneliness, hunger and in my and a couple of friends experience, tinnitus.
My family has a history of chronic illness, and I have some myself, and the way I approach the.. "finality" of something being "permanent" is.. its permanent today, it might not be tomorrow.
Things we had no answer for in the past, are barely worth noticing today. So as hard as it is right now, know that it can and will get better, either through research and advancement, or through your brains own innate ability to reassure your body into a state of functional comfort <3
Point being, we are built to adapt, our brains have a certain level of plasticity in regards to making sure we function, for good and bad it helps us filter out things, this includes anything from loneliness, hunger and in my and a couple of friends experience, tinnitus.
My family has a history of chronic illness, and I have some myself, and the way I approach the.. "finality" of something being "permanent" is.. its permanent today, it might not be tomorrow.
Things we had no answer for in the past, are barely worth noticing today. So as hard as it is right now, know that it can and will get better, either through research and advancement, or through your brains own innate ability to reassure your body into a state of functional comfort <3
Thanks for the encouraging words. I do hope you're right- it's still too early to be 100% certain this isn't going to go away or at least reduce significantly. Though admittedly the odds aren't great at this point, you never know. :P And, there's always the outside chance someone will finally figure out how to actually treat it too. Work on that front does seem to be picking up in the last few years, from what I can tell.... who knows!
Hey Ru, Long time, no chat!
I'm not sure if anyone else has talked about this yet, but your high-pitched "T" is something that some folks experience due to electronics being on/electricity flowing through things at higher Khz/voltages. I've struggled with that high-pitched part for my whole life, and things that I have found that help:
Swimming: The water pressure in my ears while doing some nice, underwater swimming is surprisingly peaceful, all the more so when I have goggles and you get a chance to see the light from above dancing along the bottom of the pool/lakebed. Watch out for swimmer's ear though, as that always triggers my 'tism and the ringing something fierce for a couple days
Lo-fi music played through speakers, not a headset: there's something about the lo-fi/calming music playing in the background that helps the room not feel so "empty" and that helps the ringing feel less obnoxious. I have noticed that using my headset with a bass-boost that helps to accentuate the lower tones is good for a little while, but too long with it and I can "feel" the ringing in my dominant ear. This normally goes away after a decent amount of sleep, but sleeping can be a chore.
Small fan noise while trying to sleep: I've found that since I run a bit hot, I normally turn a fan on or have my window AC unit running, and that subtle hum from a smaller fan really helps me sleep, because it feels like the noises of the fan match just enough of the tonal resonances of the ringing that it seems to cancel it out. I have a few rec's for smaller fans you can get through Amazon that have been a godsend to help when the ringing is really bad.
Hope any of that helps, and feel free to reach out if you think any of the fan recs might help, my DM's are always open.
I'm not sure if anyone else has talked about this yet, but your high-pitched "T" is something that some folks experience due to electronics being on/electricity flowing through things at higher Khz/voltages. I've struggled with that high-pitched part for my whole life, and things that I have found that help:
Swimming: The water pressure in my ears while doing some nice, underwater swimming is surprisingly peaceful, all the more so when I have goggles and you get a chance to see the light from above dancing along the bottom of the pool/lakebed. Watch out for swimmer's ear though, as that always triggers my 'tism and the ringing something fierce for a couple days
Lo-fi music played through speakers, not a headset: there's something about the lo-fi/calming music playing in the background that helps the room not feel so "empty" and that helps the ringing feel less obnoxious. I have noticed that using my headset with a bass-boost that helps to accentuate the lower tones is good for a little while, but too long with it and I can "feel" the ringing in my dominant ear. This normally goes away after a decent amount of sleep, but sleeping can be a chore.
Small fan noise while trying to sleep: I've found that since I run a bit hot, I normally turn a fan on or have my window AC unit running, and that subtle hum from a smaller fan really helps me sleep, because it feels like the noises of the fan match just enough of the tonal resonances of the ringing that it seems to cancel it out. I have a few rec's for smaller fans you can get through Amazon that have been a godsend to help when the ringing is really bad.
Hope any of that helps, and feel free to reach out if you think any of the fan recs might help, my DM's are always open.
Been a minute, hasn't it? Hah, good to see ya.
Still too cold to swim here unfortunately, but I did always enjoy a good swim so I'm sure I'll give it a shot at some point! As for music and background noise, I've pretty much always got something going anyway, I never did like silence much so that should be a pretty easy adjustment. Already got lots of fans and ways to make white noise so I should be good on that front!
Thanks for taking the time to reach out! :3
Still too cold to swim here unfortunately, but I did always enjoy a good swim so I'm sure I'll give it a shot at some point! As for music and background noise, I've pretty much always got something going anyway, I never did like silence much so that should be a pretty easy adjustment. Already got lots of fans and ways to make white noise so I should be good on that front!
Thanks for taking the time to reach out! :3
You might be able to get the same effect by taking a bath and dunking your head that way, but I'm normally too tall for a lot of the tubs down this way. It's still a bit too cold here for swimming as well, but wanted to mention it regardless, as I have found it to be helpful during the (admittedly few) months that we can swim around here.
Admittedly, I *should* have reached out sooner, but ADHD go brrrr. It's good to see that you have so many folks wanting to help out, and if you're inclined to play "catchup", we should sometime.
Admittedly, I *should* have reached out sooner, but ADHD go brrrr. It's good to see that you have so many folks wanting to help out, and if you're inclined to play "catchup", we should sometime.
Just to add my two cents to what everyone else already has...
It's... hard to explain exactly why this hit me so hard.
You don't have to, though you did, and very well:
It's just... how helpless and absolute it is. I made one mistake, and I might be dealing with the consequences of that mistake for the rest of my entire life. There's no going back, there's no re-dos, it's extremely possible that there's no getting better and that this is just my life now. There's a lot of frustration, and anger, and sadness, and panic that comes with a realization like that.
That really hit home. My body has picked up a few problems over the years, including slight hearing loss in one ear. I know that I should just accept them, but thinking about them depresses me, because of precisely what you said. It feels like I failed, I messed up, and as you say: there is no going back.
I wish I had better advice for you than "try to not be like me" (which really is good advice, but not too helpful,) but at least know that your reaction to what happened is entirely understandable, and valid. And I really do wish you the best for the "T" diminishing, or at least becoming less difficult to live with.
It's... hard to explain exactly why this hit me so hard.
You don't have to, though you did, and very well:
It's just... how helpless and absolute it is. I made one mistake, and I might be dealing with the consequences of that mistake for the rest of my entire life. There's no going back, there's no re-dos, it's extremely possible that there's no getting better and that this is just my life now. There's a lot of frustration, and anger, and sadness, and panic that comes with a realization like that.
That really hit home. My body has picked up a few problems over the years, including slight hearing loss in one ear. I know that I should just accept them, but thinking about them depresses me, because of precisely what you said. It feels like I failed, I messed up, and as you say: there is no going back.
I wish I had better advice for you than "try to not be like me" (which really is good advice, but not too helpful,) but at least know that your reaction to what happened is entirely understandable, and valid. And I really do wish you the best for the "T" diminishing, or at least becoming less difficult to live with.
Yeah, that moment of "oh I fucked up forever" is a tough one to take. I've fucked up before, but never in a way that I thought would be sticking with me until I die, and that just hits different, haha.
Sorry to hear you're also having troubles though. It's definitely rough. I similarly have no useful words here, but I do hope things get easier for you over time, if not physically, than at least mentally!
Sorry to hear you're also having troubles though. It's definitely rough. I similarly have no useful words here, but I do hope things get easier for you over time, if not physically, than at least mentally!
Yeah, that moment of "oh I fucked up forever" is a tough one to take.
Absolutely.
It would help if these problems were earned in better ways, right? Like rescuing orphans from a horde of bears or something. "At least little Timmy is safe and growing up to be a neurosurgeon," not "I can't believe my toe is forever messed up from a water slide" or "I have to hear this forever because of a party." :-/
One piece of hope I can offer is that it won't weigh on you all the time. Of course it will at times, I don't know if that ever stops happening, but while I don't want to say "you get used to it," those times do become less frequent and a little less painful.
Absolutely.
It would help if these problems were earned in better ways, right? Like rescuing orphans from a horde of bears or something. "At least little Timmy is safe and growing up to be a neurosurgeon," not "I can't believe my toe is forever messed up from a water slide" or "I have to hear this forever because of a party." :-/
One piece of hope I can offer is that it won't weigh on you all the time. Of course it will at times, I don't know if that ever stops happening, but while I don't want to say "you get used to it," those times do become less frequent and a little less painful.
I know right? Like, some people have tinnitus because they were using firearms defending the freedom of their country or something. I got it by actually leaving my house and trying to socialize one time. Frankly I'm embarrassed. x3
But honestly, I do think I'll be able to look back and laugh once I get over the suck factor, at least it's kind of a funny story. :P
But honestly, I do think I'll be able to look back and laugh once I get over the suck factor, at least it's kind of a funny story. :P
At least you were trying something new? (And hopefully the consequences don't discourage you from trying more new things, but that's another difficult topic.)
And if you want a funny story, say you were working on an animation and accidentally had the volume up too loud. Tinnitus by snu-snu. :P
And if you want a funny story, say you were working on an animation and accidentally had the volume up too loud. Tinnitus by snu-snu. :P
My experiences with Tinnitus aren't like yours (unless you count the wooshing tinnitus I had after I got in a fight, that was scary). Tinnitus is "part of the job" for me, and I fully expect to reach horrid levels one day. But the feeling of one mistake sticking around, when it's not even your fault? I'm too familiar with that, and God I wish I wasn't.
Maybe it's not relatable - maybe I'm seeing connections where there isn't (I hope not), but dealing with something that feels like it'll be a permanent part of your life is hard. Wish I could be like you in this situation and put my heart out to this community.
But as a not very emotionally intelligent stranger on the internet? I'm wishing you the best of luck, you'll get through this. I'll offer my discord DMs/notes/etc if needed, your posts struck a chord with me I didn't know I had. If I can return that I'd be more than happy to help.
Maybe it's not relatable - maybe I'm seeing connections where there isn't (I hope not), but dealing with something that feels like it'll be a permanent part of your life is hard. Wish I could be like you in this situation and put my heart out to this community.
But as a not very emotionally intelligent stranger on the internet? I'm wishing you the best of luck, you'll get through this. I'll offer my discord DMs/notes/etc if needed, your posts struck a chord with me I didn't know I had. If I can return that I'd be more than happy to help.
I'm definitely lucky to have so many folks who wanted to reach out, even just to wish me well. Unfortunately I can't provide that for everyone, but I can provide myself at least, and for what it's worth I do hope things get better for you, or at least, get easier to manage. It's definitely not a great experience. :<
I've been responding to as many of these comments as I can so I feel I'm pretty much all out of things to say, and pretty firmly in the 'just gotta deal with it' stage, but on the flipside if you need someone to get it off your chest with, my notes are similarly open. I can't promise I'll have anything terribly useful to say, but happy to listen and do my best if just getting it out there will help. :P
I've been responding to as many of these comments as I can so I feel I'm pretty much all out of things to say, and pretty firmly in the 'just gotta deal with it' stage, but on the flipside if you need someone to get it off your chest with, my notes are similarly open. I can't promise I'll have anything terribly useful to say, but happy to listen and do my best if just getting it out there will help. :P
<3 Haha yea, there's a *cough* few *cough* comments here, but the support I see here is breathtaking, and I'm sure everyone here understands if they don't get a reply - I'd be so overloaded if I got this many comments on one post! My unimaginative bird ass would not be able to handle replying to absolutely everyone without sounding like a broken record. Lord knows I'd personally appreciate every single comment anyways.
Maybe I'll take you up on your offer. Right now life is moving very fast for me, I got some responsibilities, and I'm having trouble putting emotions into words atm (not to mention you probably have a lot of people in your DMs right now). Maybe I could talk about my first fur con, could be helpful. For now I'm just focusing on my education, modelling and etc. Thankfully art is a good way to clear the mind.
And if it's anything, since I don't think I'll get a chance otherwise, thanks for all the awesome artwork you make. You're a big inspiration for me to keep modelling.
Maybe I'll take you up on your offer. Right now life is moving very fast for me, I got some responsibilities, and I'm having trouble putting emotions into words atm (not to mention you probably have a lot of people in your DMs right now). Maybe I could talk about my first fur con, could be helpful. For now I'm just focusing on my education, modelling and etc. Thankfully art is a good way to clear the mind.
And if it's anything, since I don't think I'll get a chance otherwise, thanks for all the awesome artwork you make. You're a big inspiration for me to keep modelling.
And this is the second picture, haha. People left so many comments that I had to make this post about how there were so many I couldn't respond to them all, and then they did it again on this one! Even though I genuinely mean it, I simply cannot respond to so many comments without resorting to pasting a repetitive "thank you" kinda response, so I'll just leave it implied I think.
Focusing on art does seem to help. Things are still a bit recent for me so it's a little hard to keep my attention on it still, but when it works it's nice to be able to really sink into a project for a few hours and forget everything else.
Oh, thank you so much for the kind words! I took a peek- you seem to be doing pretty good with your own modelling, keep it up!
Focusing on art does seem to help. Things are still a bit recent for me so it's a little hard to keep my attention on it still, but when it works it's nice to be able to really sink into a project for a few hours and forget everything else.
Oh, thank you so much for the kind words! I took a peek- you seem to be doing pretty good with your own modelling, keep it up!
I'm sure everyone understands lol, this kinda stuff can get super overwhelming. Makes me wish FA had somekind of reaction system, would love to be able to give out a little bird heart reaction. That kinda stuff helps me a lot at least in discord - love me my bird emotes.
And I feel that with art. I've been in sorta in a idea slump but that recent beakjob render was a lot of fun to do, and I'm proud of it! I'm by no means a good 3d artist and have a long way to go. Tbh maybe I should read some books on composition and lighting, rather than ornithology books. But thank you! It means a lot.
And I feel that with art. I've been in sorta in a idea slump but that recent beakjob render was a lot of fun to do, and I'm proud of it! I'm by no means a good 3d artist and have a long way to go. Tbh maybe I should read some books on composition and lighting, rather than ornithology books. But thank you! It means a lot.
Tinnitus sucks. I've been living with it for years. Some days it's worse than others, and sometimes it makes me wince with how intense it is. But like you said, it doesn't hurt, and I'm mostly able to ignore it. After a while, you'll get to the point it's just a mild annoyance. Or even forget it's there, until you have a really bad day. Even now, I'm sitting here listening to it now that I'm thinking about it. Even with music on, I can hear the ringing >,<
I do feel kind of bad about that, I feel like I reminded a lot of people about their own ringing ears when I made these posts. Sorry! :P But thank you. Honestly during the day it's already getting to a point where, usually it's not super bothersome. I can hear it, but I can distract myself from it relatively well.
Sleeping is still pretty troublesome though. White noise does very little so there's not much I can do to distract myself from the ringing while I'm trying to sleep. Gonna be a bit before I get a real good night's sleep again I think, hah. Ah well... all things in time.
Sleeping is still pretty troublesome though. White noise does very little so there's not much I can do to distract myself from the ringing while I'm trying to sleep. Gonna be a bit before I get a real good night's sleep again I think, hah. Ah well... all things in time.
You are welcome, having any sort of matter that can not be easily 'fixed' or 'cured' is a heavy load to ones mind and soul, but try an hang in there. It will take time but I hope you get the means to deal with it the best you can. Do not push yourself as stress will likely only make of the symptoms worse. Find your pace and your comfort, you do not need to blame yourself for trying to push yourself or blame yourself for what was ultimately an accident. Wishing you well as you can be in this time and age.
I was really saddened to hear about what you’re going through. It really hits close to home because in some ways, the worst part is knowing you yourself are the cause of your own affliction. A similar situation happened to me when I was cleaning out my ear with a water syringe and I guess used a little too much force which ended up giving me eustachian tube dysfunction. It caused my hearing in that ear to sound kind of muffled, with internal sounds like talking, eating, or humming sounding loud and weird. I went to an ENT, did a hearing test, and at the end they basically told me the exact same thing they told you, there’s nothing they can do and you have to learn to live with it for the rest of your life. If it had happened due to events beyond my control, it would be easier to cope with. All it takes is one easily preventable mistake and you’re potentially stuck with something for life. No undos. The nature of it feels so unfair, it’s such a harsh lesson to learn. So it’s going to take a lot of time before you’ll be able to stop beating yourself up over it, I know it did with me, it took me roughly a full year to adjust. I know what I have is different from what you’re going through, but I can greatly empathize nonetheless. Things are always the worst when they’re new, and it basically takes you through all the stages of grief. But just know, whether the situation improves or not, it will get better, our bodies are made to be adaptable. Wishing you all the best.
Aw, I'm sorry to hear you're going through that. :( It really is a tough punishment. One mistake and you get to deal with it forever. Oi.
Technically, there's still a chance for me to improve. I've heard of cases of tinnitus from loud sound exposure clearing up after 3, 6, even as much as 24 months. I have some hope for that... not much, but holding on to a little hope helps.
But, even if it doesn't, it's helped a lot to hear of people adjusting and getting on with life just fine, even if it takes a while. I'm not gonna lie, I'm still struggling, but I do think I'll get there eventually. :3
Thanks for taking the time to share your story with me!
Technically, there's still a chance for me to improve. I've heard of cases of tinnitus from loud sound exposure clearing up after 3, 6, even as much as 24 months. I have some hope for that... not much, but holding on to a little hope helps.
But, even if it doesn't, it's helped a lot to hear of people adjusting and getting on with life just fine, even if it takes a while. I'm not gonna lie, I'm still struggling, but I do think I'll get there eventually. :3
Thanks for taking the time to share your story with me!
As someone who probably gave themselves pretty bad eye floaters 6 months ago, I just wanna say I really empathized with your entire chain of feelings, especially the utter existential panic and the thought that "I fucked up".
I don't have any real advice; heck I'm still stressing constantly over it, but I hope to share my experience in case anything is relevant to you. Sorry for the long message / if any of these are obvious or turn out to not apply to you. For my 6 months since it started:
1) there are bad mental health days and there are good mental health days, and the sixth month is a lot better than the first month. I still have bad days and panics, don't get me wrong, but not as bad. I still occasionally look up floaters online out of restlessness to do something, but a lot less than at the start when it consumed my days and I could do nothing else.
2) I think acknowledging it irl, like letting friends know about it can help cope; I discovered that one of my classmates had similar floaters and one had tinnitus. Of course, also be prepared that most don't, and have the emotional preparation to explain what it's like.
3) it's a weird line between acknowledging it enough to cope, and also trying to forget it enough to cope. I'm still working that out, but my current thinking is that a person needs to do a bit of both, at a pace that feels slowly more normal. When it first started, I tried to take it on by putting myself in situations where I would be forced to confront it, and will myself to ignore it. That just made me panic and unproductive at a time when I needed to perform. Instead, I finally but the bullet, adapted my life to some extent and am trying to take it one step at a time. I still hope to one day not notice it at all, but the road to that (if it even exists) isn't by slamming myself into a brick wall hoping it will break before I do.
4) even though in some sense, I did this to myself, at least for now I don't think it objectively makes sense to regret it in the same way as if I had stabbed myself in the eye or something. Many people do what I did, and were fine; I think the circumstances that lead to this happening to one person and not another are so complex that it doesn't make too much sense to focus on the precise action that caused it. As in, it would be like getting hit with shrapnel during a war, and beating yourself up for not predicting the exact shrapnel pattern beforehand and standing two inches to the left.
I hope you get through this, so we can all get through this ;w;
I'm very inactive here so no promises, but feel free to talk and I'll respond if I'm here. Hugs man
I don't have any real advice; heck I'm still stressing constantly over it, but I hope to share my experience in case anything is relevant to you. Sorry for the long message / if any of these are obvious or turn out to not apply to you. For my 6 months since it started:
1) there are bad mental health days and there are good mental health days, and the sixth month is a lot better than the first month. I still have bad days and panics, don't get me wrong, but not as bad. I still occasionally look up floaters online out of restlessness to do something, but a lot less than at the start when it consumed my days and I could do nothing else.
2) I think acknowledging it irl, like letting friends know about it can help cope; I discovered that one of my classmates had similar floaters and one had tinnitus. Of course, also be prepared that most don't, and have the emotional preparation to explain what it's like.
3) it's a weird line between acknowledging it enough to cope, and also trying to forget it enough to cope. I'm still working that out, but my current thinking is that a person needs to do a bit of both, at a pace that feels slowly more normal. When it first started, I tried to take it on by putting myself in situations where I would be forced to confront it, and will myself to ignore it. That just made me panic and unproductive at a time when I needed to perform. Instead, I finally but the bullet, adapted my life to some extent and am trying to take it one step at a time. I still hope to one day not notice it at all, but the road to that (if it even exists) isn't by slamming myself into a brick wall hoping it will break before I do.
4) even though in some sense, I did this to myself, at least for now I don't think it objectively makes sense to regret it in the same way as if I had stabbed myself in the eye or something. Many people do what I did, and were fine; I think the circumstances that lead to this happening to one person and not another are so complex that it doesn't make too much sense to focus on the precise action that caused it. As in, it would be like getting hit with shrapnel during a war, and beating yourself up for not predicting the exact shrapnel pattern beforehand and standing two inches to the left.
I hope you get through this, so we can all get through this ;w;
I'm very inactive here so no promises, but feel free to talk and I'll respond if I'm here. Hugs man
Yeah, if you do happen to come back to see this, I was actually going to ask the same question as the above commenter. If you're interested in sharing your story, anyway! No worries if you don't want to.
I feel you quite strongly on number 3 in particular. In my case there are sounds I can play to help hide the noise inside my head, and they help a bit but also I feel like I'm never going to adjust to the new sounds if I'm trying to hide them all the time, so I keep bouncing back and forth between masking and just kinda living with it and haven't quite decided what the best approach is.
And fortunately, in terms of number 4, I'm doing okay on that front. Yeah, it was a dumb mistake in my case, but an honest one. It happens, and while I definitely wish I could take it back, I'm not gonna beat myself up about it too much. Just gotta learn from the mistake and push forward!
I'm doing alright, and I think I'll be okay in the long run. And should you end up seeing this, I hope you are too. Thanks for sharing your thoughts! :3
I feel you quite strongly on number 3 in particular. In my case there are sounds I can play to help hide the noise inside my head, and they help a bit but also I feel like I'm never going to adjust to the new sounds if I'm trying to hide them all the time, so I keep bouncing back and forth between masking and just kinda living with it and haven't quite decided what the best approach is.
And fortunately, in terms of number 4, I'm doing okay on that front. Yeah, it was a dumb mistake in my case, but an honest one. It happens, and while I definitely wish I could take it back, I'm not gonna beat myself up about it too much. Just gotta learn from the mistake and push forward!
I'm doing alright, and I think I'll be okay in the long run. And should you end up seeing this, I hope you are too. Thanks for sharing your thoughts! :3
A weird thing I've noticed, as I've gotten older my hearing has gotten more sensitive. I used to listen to music at 40% but now I only go for 30% at most using the same hardware. Things that I used to have no issues with make me flinch with pain. Popping balloons, desk bells, people shouting, children's toys, etc. when I was in elementary I thought people were being dramatic during fire drills but when my old work had one I could barely hear my manager talking to me once outside.
The most frustrating part is when I have to turn a video up because the uploader made it whisper quiet then open the next and not notice it's too loud and get ringing in my ears. What helps me personally is to use autogain to bring what I'm listening to up to an audible level and an aggressive limit for loudness so pops and constant loud noises are reduced.
When I do get ringing from one thing or another, it's best if I try to relax the best I can. Staying relaxed as best as you can helps your body heal regardless if it's all in your head or if it's actually hearing damage because stress tells your body to divert that energy to fighting or flying. Even if it's a little bit it helps.
What also helps me is to make sure I brush my teeth and floss regularly. It helps me relax my jaw which takes stress off those nerves which are closely linked to your ears. In fact an infection or swelling in your teeth and gums can cause tinnitus and dead nerves in your jaw can cause deafness.
Love your work <3
The most frustrating part is when I have to turn a video up because the uploader made it whisper quiet then open the next and not notice it's too loud and get ringing in my ears. What helps me personally is to use autogain to bring what I'm listening to up to an audible level and an aggressive limit for loudness so pops and constant loud noises are reduced.
When I do get ringing from one thing or another, it's best if I try to relax the best I can. Staying relaxed as best as you can helps your body heal regardless if it's all in your head or if it's actually hearing damage because stress tells your body to divert that energy to fighting or flying. Even if it's a little bit it helps.
What also helps me is to make sure I brush my teeth and floss regularly. It helps me relax my jaw which takes stress off those nerves which are closely linked to your ears. In fact an infection or swelling in your teeth and gums can cause tinnitus and dead nerves in your jaw can cause deafness.
Love your work <3
Kids are freakin' invincible, I don't know how they do it. I remember taking falls as a kid that I just laughed off, that I'm pretty sure would just kill me if I did now, haha. I guess the same may apply to hearing! I have been in a few noisy situations in the past when I was younger, and didn't have even a tiny issue with them, I guess I may just be too old to get away with that kinda thing now.
Some good advice in here... staying relaxed in particular has been key. Anxiety and stress definitely make the ringing worse, so I'm trying to learn to not care about it as fast as possible, haha. Thanks for sharing your thoughts! And for the kind words at the end there. :3
Some good advice in here... staying relaxed in particular has been key. Anxiety and stress definitely make the ringing worse, so I'm trying to learn to not care about it as fast as possible, haha. Thanks for sharing your thoughts! And for the kind words at the end there. :3
Physically, no change, as far as I can tell. Still a nice sharp ~16K ringing being played directly into my brain 24/7, as well as something around 1.5K that I can hear unless there's a decent noise floor, like a nearby running fridge or something. I think there might be a couple of other tones that bubble up from time to time too. If I put on hearing protection in a quiet room there's a whole cacophony of noises happening but fortunately most of them disappear at any appreciable noise level, heh.
Mentally though, doing a lot better. I think I'm mostly over the initial shock of 'dear god I've fucked up my life forever' and well into the part where you start to just deal with it and get on with living. Can't change what's done, but I can choose what I do next and I plan to get back to drawing furry filth and having a good time!
And avoiding loud bars and clubs for the rest of my life. x3
Mentally though, doing a lot better. I think I'm mostly over the initial shock of 'dear god I've fucked up my life forever' and well into the part where you start to just deal with it and get on with living. Can't change what's done, but I can choose what I do next and I plan to get back to drawing furry filth and having a good time!
And avoiding loud bars and clubs for the rest of my life. x3
Hi!
First of all, I want to say that I know your work as a very cool artist, but I didn’t know that such an unpleasant situation happened to you, and I sympathize very much. And I want to say a few words (sure you’ve already been through a lot, tried a lot, you’ve already been advised a lot, there have already been so many comments, but nevertheless).
First of all, you haven’t ruined anything: a mistake is something you can control. What happened to you is an accident, and an accident can happen at any moment. Please, don’t blame yourself and don’t think that you can’t do anything new anymore, so as not to make a mistake again.
Secondly, don’t despair. The human body is a delicate thing, many conditions are interconnected. It could be neurological overload, auditory hallucinations, or a pinched nerve, or inner ear tension, or something else. Don't just wait for it to go away or just rely on doctors: read some medical literature about similar cases. You can also ask the AI chat (I know you might not like them, but they are a large knowledge base, including medical ones, and have already helped many). At least you might understand that a doctor of a different medical specialty will help you.
The last, I want to say that I also had tinnitus for a while. Not loud, but it lasted for several years, and really annoyed me. It would increase or decrease when I turned my head, and I came to the conclusion that it was somehow related to nerves.
I couldn't get rid of it right away, but some time ago I started doing regular exercises, including neck turns and general body warm-up. I don't know what exactly helped and when, but now there is no more tinnitus.
I wish the same for you!
First of all, I want to say that I know your work as a very cool artist, but I didn’t know that such an unpleasant situation happened to you, and I sympathize very much. And I want to say a few words (sure you’ve already been through a lot, tried a lot, you’ve already been advised a lot, there have already been so many comments, but nevertheless).
First of all, you haven’t ruined anything: a mistake is something you can control. What happened to you is an accident, and an accident can happen at any moment. Please, don’t blame yourself and don’t think that you can’t do anything new anymore, so as not to make a mistake again.
Secondly, don’t despair. The human body is a delicate thing, many conditions are interconnected. It could be neurological overload, auditory hallucinations, or a pinched nerve, or inner ear tension, or something else. Don't just wait for it to go away or just rely on doctors: read some medical literature about similar cases. You can also ask the AI chat (I know you might not like them, but they are a large knowledge base, including medical ones, and have already helped many). At least you might understand that a doctor of a different medical specialty will help you.
The last, I want to say that I also had tinnitus for a while. Not loud, but it lasted for several years, and really annoyed me. It would increase or decrease when I turned my head, and I came to the conclusion that it was somehow related to nerves.
I couldn't get rid of it right away, but some time ago I started doing regular exercises, including neck turns and general body warm-up. I don't know what exactly helped and when, but now there is no more tinnitus.
I wish the same for you!
I'm doin' alright. Still very annoyed with myself for doing something so dumb that I'll have to live with the consequences for the rest of my life, but that's how it goes sometimes. But day to day, it's alright. If it gets too annoying I just put on some music and get on with doing something, and usually I've forgotten about it relatively quickly after that.
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