Kermit or Khaled, both are same person either ways. I still call myself Kermit from time to time, not the muppet frog btw.

(Long Rant Below
no need to read ,its one of my ramblings)

I guess this drawing is me and my depressed self but they almost the same person, just different versions i guess. I never had anyone but my depression since i was a kid, it’s my only friend who stayed and never abandoned me. When i got into college, i thought it would fun to meet ppl has similar interests but there’s only competition, toxicity and sabotaging. I thought the lectures were open-minded since we are kinda artistic type cos yknow animation but nah… I should’ve stayed dumb or killed myself for being there.

I dont like how i identify as trans male bc it’s dangerous to do so here when ur biologically a girl you get more pressured to be the best and hide more of ur feelings. Maybe thats why i have depression but i dont want the religious doctors to be bitchy about it for talking about my feelings for ONCE. When i have been diagnosed, suddenly my problems isnt important anymore, its not reeaalllll hahahaha how funny is that

They kept calling me im a burden, why do you think i wanna DIE so badly. I wanted to die when i was 10, please someone end my decade long of suffering. Darn- sorry too much there…

I almost killed myself in January and April this year and i guess this month if we count the self-harm… cos yknow… my problems isnt real so its not real, im not real guys, im just a random living ‘thing’. I will always be a ‘Thing’ ahaha im a thing

I never had the time to talk about my feelings to anyone because of everyone else especially boys are wayyyy more important ahaha, yeah whatever i guess cos im a girl and bonus points im ugly too(yes that’s still counts bc ppl still treat others like crap cos of their looks). Im not valid enough to be depressed… but somehow i woke up by telling myself to die everyday, idk thats normal but i guess it is normal in my religion if they tolerate it when ppl want to kill themselves. Tbh we should have like blood ritual then lol

Good thing i still have Teddy, im starting to think he might get bored of me too and leave me like the others… atleast i have my art but its not even good enough so… hm.. I have no idea what to do next

I guess write a journal on how much i hate myself and my art that kept constantly changing