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Lucca
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Yosh E. O'Ducky and Celeste Nuthatch are characters that I created to better help share who I am through the use of the creative arts.
Yosh E. O'Ducky came first as my way of truly discovering if I was as unwanted and unliked as I had come to feel after years of being mistreated by people outside of the internet. You could say Yosh was meant to swim into the [Baby Fur] community to see if my truest self was as horrible as my ex-wife, previous employer, and family members had made me out to be. (My father never agreed with what I felt most excited about pursuing after completing High School. He would get upset with me if I did not achieve what he expected of me. He was very good at telling me what I did wrong, how I should be doing it, and never told me he was "Proud of me" until after I had to prompt him over whether-or-not he was truly happy with me being his son..).
My, now, ex-wife was not a whole lot better. She was the first person I ever told about my liking of diapers and diapered cartoon animals. She was not only repulsed by me sharing this part of me, which I was afraid to share given how 'Small Town America' viewed those with such taboo tastes, but continually 'weaponized' this aspect of myself to suggest I had mental health issues that were in dire need of professional intervention. (During the time I went through the major surgeries that quickened the pace in which I lost what was left of my eyesight, I discussed my liking of diapers and diapered cartoon animals with the psychotherapists I could make regular appointments with in order to prevent myself from prematurely bringing my life to a premature end. To date, 6 of the 7 therapists I have had told me that liking what I liked was okay as long as "...it did not cause harm to myself, or others.". This lead my, now, ex-wife to step up her efforts to shame me that would later be cited as to why she cheated on me, abruptly ended our marriage, and told me how I should have known our relationship had been over for a long time.).
***
Thanks to all those who took the time to get to know me since coming out as a diapered dino-duckling in the Fall of 2008, I began to slowly realize how much of my life had been spent trying to please those who did not truly like me for who I was. I had thought they did, but a pattern became quite apparent of how people only liked and supported me as long as I was doing what they wanted me to be doing. The moment I tried to further understand, accept, empower, and try to, within reason, share what made me happy, I found myself shamed, insulted, and threatened until I went back to pretending I was what they expected me to be.
Fortunately, despite having to keep my true self hidden away on Fur Affinity, I was still able to grow a sense of self empowerment, acceptance, understanding, and feel that I was a welcomed part of a community through the friendships I continued to build upon within the [Baby Fur] and other parts of the furry fandom.
Lots of people have been a part of my journey with some still being key players in helping me to feel like I have a genuine purpose and place despite my 7 year descent into total blindness and my forthcoming, 7th anniversary of learning I would never see with my own physical eyesight ever again. (It was on December 15th, 2016 that the team of Glaucoma, Cornea, and Retinal specialists within the hallowed halls of the University of Pittsburgh Medical Center (UPMC) had to inform me that nothing more could be done to save my eyesight.).
***
As I spent 2017 recovering from how I would never physically see the world around me, 2018 learning my marriage had long been one lesbian hookup away from coming to an abrupt end, and 2019 making the most of how I barely got to spend time with my son while being forced out of yet another job, I FINALLY started to give myself the permission necessary to be happy with who I was on the inside. I bought myself diapers, tried out onesies, and found out pacifiers are super-cheap mouthguards to protect my tongue and teeth from what I involuntarily do when I'm feeling extreme levels of stress and anxiety. It was allowing myself to explore these formally forbidden parts of myself that brought me back to consider how I had thought my life would have been if I had been born female instead of male.
***
When I started college / university in 1998, someone made mention of how my disability may not have had such a terrible impact on my overall well-being if I had been brought into this world with female parts instead of male bits. As I thought on this, I came to realize the reason I took joy in diapering a Yoshi plush with handkerchiefs I could find, cuddling said Yoshi plush when I was alone in my first apartment, and fussing over the well-being of my plushie pals made me desire the ability to start a family. However, really and truly, I felt envy for how the female body got that extra 9 months of bonding with their child compared to how the male body was just designed to 'plant the seed'.
Flash forward to 2020, I began to fully explore what it may have been like if I had been born a girl instead of a boy. This lead to a few Rule 63 / Gender Bending images of Yosh as a female instead of his established, male self. This got me to think more and more about being a 'mommy' and how I would have truly liked to have had the chance to be more than just a 'sperm donor' in regard to nature's purpose for my life's existence. (At its most primal / simple definitions, a male and female need to engage in intercourse / sex in order to ensure the successful continuation / evolution of its species.).
Thanks to Lucca, who fully empowered me to do all I could to be happy with who I am both inside and out, I was able to create a true, female counterpart for Yosh. This, of course, being Celeste Nuthatch.
Much of Celeste's character is still being developed through stories, artwork, and my daily adventures as Lucca's 'Disruptive Duckling' / 'Happy, Flappy, Chirpy, Little Birdie'. I look forward to sharing Lucca's influence on my female OC and how she represents those thoughts and feelings that I have never been able to express before. (Yosh will still find himself wearing girl's clothing to feel what it would be like to have been a girl, but Celeste will be the one who brings a whole new world of possibilities, adventures, interactions, etc. as my relationship with Lucca only continues to grow stronger and more positive than I ever experienced with Tina Bear.).
Your Pal,
---Yosh E. O'Ducky ;)
https://x.com/adw12133258?s=11&t=F6RH5AlZaZXKiW3tOqGpVQ
INSPIRED BY:
Lucca----
Yosh E. O'Ducky and Celeste Nuthatch are characters that I created to better help share who I am through the use of the creative arts.
Yosh E. O'Ducky came first as my way of truly discovering if I was as unwanted and unliked as I had come to feel after years of being mistreated by people outside of the internet. You could say Yosh was meant to swim into the [Baby Fur] community to see if my truest self was as horrible as my ex-wife, previous employer, and family members had made me out to be. (My father never agreed with what I felt most excited about pursuing after completing High School. He would get upset with me if I did not achieve what he expected of me. He was very good at telling me what I did wrong, how I should be doing it, and never told me he was "Proud of me" until after I had to prompt him over whether-or-not he was truly happy with me being his son..).
My, now, ex-wife was not a whole lot better. She was the first person I ever told about my liking of diapers and diapered cartoon animals. She was not only repulsed by me sharing this part of me, which I was afraid to share given how 'Small Town America' viewed those with such taboo tastes, but continually 'weaponized' this aspect of myself to suggest I had mental health issues that were in dire need of professional intervention. (During the time I went through the major surgeries that quickened the pace in which I lost what was left of my eyesight, I discussed my liking of diapers and diapered cartoon animals with the psychotherapists I could make regular appointments with in order to prevent myself from prematurely bringing my life to a premature end. To date, 6 of the 7 therapists I have had told me that liking what I liked was okay as long as "...it did not cause harm to myself, or others.". This lead my, now, ex-wife to step up her efforts to shame me that would later be cited as to why she cheated on me, abruptly ended our marriage, and told me how I should have known our relationship had been over for a long time.).
***
Thanks to all those who took the time to get to know me since coming out as a diapered dino-duckling in the Fall of 2008, I began to slowly realize how much of my life had been spent trying to please those who did not truly like me for who I was. I had thought they did, but a pattern became quite apparent of how people only liked and supported me as long as I was doing what they wanted me to be doing. The moment I tried to further understand, accept, empower, and try to, within reason, share what made me happy, I found myself shamed, insulted, and threatened until I went back to pretending I was what they expected me to be.
Fortunately, despite having to keep my true self hidden away on Fur Affinity, I was still able to grow a sense of self empowerment, acceptance, understanding, and feel that I was a welcomed part of a community through the friendships I continued to build upon within the [Baby Fur] and other parts of the furry fandom.
Lots of people have been a part of my journey with some still being key players in helping me to feel like I have a genuine purpose and place despite my 7 year descent into total blindness and my forthcoming, 7th anniversary of learning I would never see with my own physical eyesight ever again. (It was on December 15th, 2016 that the team of Glaucoma, Cornea, and Retinal specialists within the hallowed halls of the University of Pittsburgh Medical Center (UPMC) had to inform me that nothing more could be done to save my eyesight.).
***
As I spent 2017 recovering from how I would never physically see the world around me, 2018 learning my marriage had long been one lesbian hookup away from coming to an abrupt end, and 2019 making the most of how I barely got to spend time with my son while being forced out of yet another job, I FINALLY started to give myself the permission necessary to be happy with who I was on the inside. I bought myself diapers, tried out onesies, and found out pacifiers are super-cheap mouthguards to protect my tongue and teeth from what I involuntarily do when I'm feeling extreme levels of stress and anxiety. It was allowing myself to explore these formally forbidden parts of myself that brought me back to consider how I had thought my life would have been if I had been born female instead of male.
***
When I started college / university in 1998, someone made mention of how my disability may not have had such a terrible impact on my overall well-being if I had been brought into this world with female parts instead of male bits. As I thought on this, I came to realize the reason I took joy in diapering a Yoshi plush with handkerchiefs I could find, cuddling said Yoshi plush when I was alone in my first apartment, and fussing over the well-being of my plushie pals made me desire the ability to start a family. However, really and truly, I felt envy for how the female body got that extra 9 months of bonding with their child compared to how the male body was just designed to 'plant the seed'.
Flash forward to 2020, I began to fully explore what it may have been like if I had been born a girl instead of a boy. This lead to a few Rule 63 / Gender Bending images of Yosh as a female instead of his established, male self. This got me to think more and more about being a 'mommy' and how I would have truly liked to have had the chance to be more than just a 'sperm donor' in regard to nature's purpose for my life's existence. (At its most primal / simple definitions, a male and female need to engage in intercourse / sex in order to ensure the successful continuation / evolution of its species.).
Thanks to Lucca, who fully empowered me to do all I could to be happy with who I am both inside and out, I was able to create a true, female counterpart for Yosh. This, of course, being Celeste Nuthatch.
Much of Celeste's character is still being developed through stories, artwork, and my daily adventures as Lucca's 'Disruptive Duckling' / 'Happy, Flappy, Chirpy, Little Birdie'. I look forward to sharing Lucca's influence on my female OC and how she represents those thoughts and feelings that I have never been able to express before. (Yosh will still find himself wearing girl's clothing to feel what it would be like to have been a girl, but Celeste will be the one who brings a whole new world of possibilities, adventures, interactions, etc. as my relationship with Lucca only continues to grow stronger and more positive than I ever experienced with Tina Bear.).
Your Pal,
---Yosh E. O'Ducky ;)
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Thank you. I feel it is very important for those of us who struggled to find acceptance, understanding, empowerment, and a true sense of community to do all we reasonably can to help others know they are not alone in being able to find that they are far from every being the nightmares that society makes those, like us, out to be.
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Truth be told, if not for the kind folks on here who reached out a caring hand to welcome me into this 'Little' community, I fear for what would have become of my life. I, sadly, may have ended my life as a result of having no place to feel safe and comfort during the worst of my countless eye surgeries between 2011 and 2016.
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I thank you for sharing your thoughts on what I share. It helps me know that, even if in a small way, I am 'paying forward' the kindness that was shown me over 15 years ago. Nobody deserves to ever feel that they are anything derogatory for being just how they were always meant to be. (I tried for 20 years to get myself away from liking diapers and diapered cartoon animals. All it ever did was make me feel worse, more shame, and killed what little self-esteem I was ever able to build in myself as an individual with such a crippling disability.).
***
Truth be told, if not for the kind folks on here who reached out a caring hand to welcome me into this 'Little' community, I fear for what would have become of my life. I, sadly, may have ended my life as a result of having no place to feel safe and comfort during the worst of my countless eye surgeries between 2011 and 2016.
***
I thank you for sharing your thoughts on what I share. It helps me know that, even if in a small way, I am 'paying forward' the kindness that was shown me over 15 years ago. Nobody deserves to ever feel that they are anything derogatory for being just how they were always meant to be. (I tried for 20 years to get myself away from liking diapers and diapered cartoon animals. All it ever did was make me feel worse, more shame, and killed what little self-esteem I was ever able to build in myself as an individual with such a crippling disability.).
First, really nice artwork, congratulations to the artist, it looks simply amazing and really adorable.
Second, it is really interesting what you comment here about your female side. In my case I don't think I have a female side like a biological lack I would like to have, however, I usually feel that my personality is more close to a female personality than a male one. People usually describe me as calm, warm, kind and patient, features usually related to female, at the same time I like more the adorable content, like of course ABDL content or TV shows focused for children as you already know so far. All these feelings inspired me to finally create Goldigony, a female dragon OC which reflects somehow both my male and female sides.
Second, it is really interesting what you comment here about your female side. In my case I don't think I have a female side like a biological lack I would like to have, however, I usually feel that my personality is more close to a female personality than a male one. People usually describe me as calm, warm, kind and patient, features usually related to female, at the same time I like more the adorable content, like of course ABDL content or TV shows focused for children as you already know so far. All these feelings inspired me to finally create Goldigony, a female dragon OC which reflects somehow both my male and female sides.
Thank you for sharing more on what makes Goldigony such a special OC to you, Sweetie. Knowing how she is a creative representation of you and your feelings makes me want to put forth even more effort when it comes to making stories about her adventures within Magic Kindergarten with Spikey-Wikey. :)
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Oh, as I have kept forgetting to share my feelings on Sweetie Dash's family for over a week, I will do so now before I forget...
There is a lot more than I even had come to know from your replies to me when I would comment on pictures you drew of Sweetie Dash and her family.
The first aspect of Sweetie Dash that I foound super interesting is how she is a pony who has a desire to do great things, but is not a character who is given 'Plot Armor' to make sure her journey to meeting her goals is anywhere as easy / supported as those of Twilight Sparkle and other members of the Mane 6. She, like most people in real life, put forth a lot of effort in college / university to be seen as an extra special pony who could change the world before, or soon after, acquiring her education / degree. However, as many people find out after completing college / university, the real world is far harder to find success in than it is for those beloved characters and RL role models who inspired us to pursue the educational and/or career paths that we did.
What I like about Sweetie Dash's journey is how she was able to find a friend and very special some pony through meeting Red Dark. It is very difficult to keep yourself feeling optimistic about where your life is going after learning just how truly hard it is to find success in a professional career you have been so positive and passionate about. Knowing how supportive Red Dark was towards ensuring Sweetie Dash never gave up on herself was a very nice change on the typical story of a male character needing a female character to help him to not give up on living a happy and successful life. His willingness to move to Canterlot, which is primarily populated with Unicorns was also a heartwarming show of his love and support of Sweetie Dash.
***
Knowing that Sweetie Dash's job was created to allow her a chance to show what she could do as part of Canterlot's Ministry was another great part of her tale. There are times that I have known employers to create a job in order to not lose the chance to acquire someone who has a very unique set of talents, education, and skills that have the possibility of improving the overall success of the company, government agency, etc. Giving the role of Ministry of Events to Sweetie Dash was definitely a challnge to succeed in performing, especially since there had not been any ponies in such a position prior to Sweetie Dash, but it also allowed her to show Princess Celestia, Princess, Luna, the other Ministers, Canterlot's Elite / Influential, and average citizen how she had what it took to not just succeed at her position, but be the very first pony to define / set the standard for how The Events Minister should go about their duties.
Knowing how Red Dark found ways to propser in Canterlot was also very endearing. He did not find jealousy of his wife rising to such a prominent position / station in Canterlot's government. He simply put his efforts into doing 'Part Time' and 'Temporary / Seasonal' jobs until he found his calling as being a part of Canterlot's Weather Team. So, just like Sweetie Dash never gave up on her dream of making a difference through her talents, Red Dark proved he really and truly believed in his wife's success by finding a great place to work by remaining both positive and supportive.
For me, it is safe to say that Red Dark and Sweetie Dash are a great example of how two people who truly love each other can make a great life together by doing all they can do to keep their partner motivated while loving them for who and what they are as an individual instead of for their social status, money, and other tangible / physical things that, more often than not, lead to toxic relationships, divorce, and psychological trauma that is very hard to overcome after you may learn that implicit / true love was not the reason your special some pony started a relationship and got married to you.
***
Learning more about Skye and her struggle to find a place where she feels welcome and accepted for being born a Pegasus is also a great tale that continues what was started by Sweetie Dash working with Red Dark to find love and prosperity together in Canterlot. Like her father, Skye has to learn how to love and accept herself and her abilities as a Pegasus even if some of the less educated / bully Unicorns try to single her out as a target for their teasing. I am certain both Sweetie Dash and Red Dark take the time to always remind Skye how life may not seem fair and kind right now, but she will soon show how she is far more than a cruel bully's mean-spirited remarks and actions. There is no doubt that she will grow up to have the passion of her mother along with the determination of her father.
Little Magic is still too young to have to worry too much of how Unicorns, or other ponies in general, may view his social anxiety / shyness along with his weaker than average ability with magic for being a Unicorn of his age. Fortunately, even if Skye may get a little grumpy at him, Magic will always have his 'big sister' to help him never give up on himself simply for taking a little longer to do what other Unicorns his age may be doing. He also has the best mother and father a timid foal could ever ask for in getting through the challenges of growing up.
Thanks, again, for sharing all the story you could to bring me up to current times with Sweetie Dash and her family. It was a heartwarming listen and, if you get time in the future, I hope to see you share more about this family either through journals, picture submissions, and/or having Magic and/or Skye meet up and get to know Goldigony. :)
***
Oh, as I have kept forgetting to share my feelings on Sweetie Dash's family for over a week, I will do so now before I forget...
There is a lot more than I even had come to know from your replies to me when I would comment on pictures you drew of Sweetie Dash and her family.
The first aspect of Sweetie Dash that I foound super interesting is how she is a pony who has a desire to do great things, but is not a character who is given 'Plot Armor' to make sure her journey to meeting her goals is anywhere as easy / supported as those of Twilight Sparkle and other members of the Mane 6. She, like most people in real life, put forth a lot of effort in college / university to be seen as an extra special pony who could change the world before, or soon after, acquiring her education / degree. However, as many people find out after completing college / university, the real world is far harder to find success in than it is for those beloved characters and RL role models who inspired us to pursue the educational and/or career paths that we did.
What I like about Sweetie Dash's journey is how she was able to find a friend and very special some pony through meeting Red Dark. It is very difficult to keep yourself feeling optimistic about where your life is going after learning just how truly hard it is to find success in a professional career you have been so positive and passionate about. Knowing how supportive Red Dark was towards ensuring Sweetie Dash never gave up on herself was a very nice change on the typical story of a male character needing a female character to help him to not give up on living a happy and successful life. His willingness to move to Canterlot, which is primarily populated with Unicorns was also a heartwarming show of his love and support of Sweetie Dash.
***
Knowing that Sweetie Dash's job was created to allow her a chance to show what she could do as part of Canterlot's Ministry was another great part of her tale. There are times that I have known employers to create a job in order to not lose the chance to acquire someone who has a very unique set of talents, education, and skills that have the possibility of improving the overall success of the company, government agency, etc. Giving the role of Ministry of Events to Sweetie Dash was definitely a challnge to succeed in performing, especially since there had not been any ponies in such a position prior to Sweetie Dash, but it also allowed her to show Princess Celestia, Princess, Luna, the other Ministers, Canterlot's Elite / Influential, and average citizen how she had what it took to not just succeed at her position, but be the very first pony to define / set the standard for how The Events Minister should go about their duties.
Knowing how Red Dark found ways to propser in Canterlot was also very endearing. He did not find jealousy of his wife rising to such a prominent position / station in Canterlot's government. He simply put his efforts into doing 'Part Time' and 'Temporary / Seasonal' jobs until he found his calling as being a part of Canterlot's Weather Team. So, just like Sweetie Dash never gave up on her dream of making a difference through her talents, Red Dark proved he really and truly believed in his wife's success by finding a great place to work by remaining both positive and supportive.
For me, it is safe to say that Red Dark and Sweetie Dash are a great example of how two people who truly love each other can make a great life together by doing all they can do to keep their partner motivated while loving them for who and what they are as an individual instead of for their social status, money, and other tangible / physical things that, more often than not, lead to toxic relationships, divorce, and psychological trauma that is very hard to overcome after you may learn that implicit / true love was not the reason your special some pony started a relationship and got married to you.
***
Learning more about Skye and her struggle to find a place where she feels welcome and accepted for being born a Pegasus is also a great tale that continues what was started by Sweetie Dash working with Red Dark to find love and prosperity together in Canterlot. Like her father, Skye has to learn how to love and accept herself and her abilities as a Pegasus even if some of the less educated / bully Unicorns try to single her out as a target for their teasing. I am certain both Sweetie Dash and Red Dark take the time to always remind Skye how life may not seem fair and kind right now, but she will soon show how she is far more than a cruel bully's mean-spirited remarks and actions. There is no doubt that she will grow up to have the passion of her mother along with the determination of her father.
Little Magic is still too young to have to worry too much of how Unicorns, or other ponies in general, may view his social anxiety / shyness along with his weaker than average ability with magic for being a Unicorn of his age. Fortunately, even if Skye may get a little grumpy at him, Magic will always have his 'big sister' to help him never give up on himself simply for taking a little longer to do what other Unicorns his age may be doing. He also has the best mother and father a timid foal could ever ask for in getting through the challenges of growing up.
Thanks, again, for sharing all the story you could to bring me up to current times with Sweetie Dash and her family. It was a heartwarming listen and, if you get time in the future, I hope to see you share more about this family either through journals, picture submissions, and/or having Magic and/or Skye meet up and get to know Goldigony. :)
Thanks for sharing your opinion about my mini podcast about my OCs family. I was a bit worried that you couldn't understand what I was trying to explain there.
I'm not an expert writer at all, but I did my best to create the best possible characters for my story, I'm pretty sure I made tons of silly mistakes and that I used several senseless tropes, but I still think i didn't do it that bad.
Oh, just a quick side note. I know you can't know it of course. Sky is spelled S K Y, you know, like the space up our heads, that sky is how you spell her name. I'm honestly not so good with names I know...
Well, I'm not sure if eventually I will do an artwork featuring those two groups of OCs. For me they are a pretty separated thing, even like different stages or phases of my personality and path as a brony, but maybe, who knows
I'm not an expert writer at all, but I did my best to create the best possible characters for my story, I'm pretty sure I made tons of silly mistakes and that I used several senseless tropes, but I still think i didn't do it that bad.
Oh, just a quick side note. I know you can't know it of course. Sky is spelled S K Y, you know, like the space up our heads, that sky is how you spell her name. I'm honestly not so good with names I know...
Well, I'm not sure if eventually I will do an artwork featuring those two groups of OCs. For me they are a pretty separated thing, even like different stages or phases of my personality and path as a brony, but maybe, who knows
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