I think sooner or later everyone starts thinking that he is living an empty life. He achieved nothing, did nothing, and he was stuck, unable to do better or worse. But I think we are always able to overcome our fear. We are stronger than we seem to ourselves. I was terribly depressed once, and I had something similar... As if I wasn't me. But it's fine now, heh... If you want to talk, to speak a little about your problems, you can write to me, and I won't mind a dialogue. In any case, I am sure that everything can be turned for the better!

Thanks, I appreciate the response. I'm sorry to hear you went though something similar, but I'm happy you're doing better now at least. I have my ups and downs, but sometimes the downs overstay their welcome.

"All I think about lately is how I'm spending my limited time on this planet and how it's being wasted. I lack the motivation to change or learn anything new, and it's hindering my ability to approve in my art, and myself as a person. I feel like a husk of a human being with no interests or ambition, and it makes it hard to want to talk to other people/artists who are the complete opposite. All it does is make me feel jealous."

- I understand that very well. In the past decade all I received was major health issues caused by traumatic experiences. Needless to say the backstabbing and lies by people that were very close to me including family. This "open minded and welcoming" fandom had a hand in this as well. I'm sick of being excluded because others egos grow skyhigh only because they've got a fucking fursuit, have reached a certain amount of followers or I no longer fit in their ideology.

There are so many fake people here and it shows. People act like highschoolers and repeat some half-arsed wisdom and forced optimistic quotes. Sometimes I wish Musk would delete twitter. A lot of people need a hit from reality.

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"Death is my biggest fear because there's so much I want to do/wish I could do but probably never will because of my mental shortcomings. It's why I never learned to drive, because I'm terrified of the possibility of killing myself or others in a gruesome car accident. I'm scared to go out and try new things, so I just sit inside most of the time. I keep saying that I need to see a doctor/therapist to talk about these issues but then I never actually go do it. I feel stuck."

- After almost dying in two car crashes with my own car I understand that as well. I'm seeing a psychologist and psychiatrist regularly since July 2015. It's no shame to go there. What annoys me is that I'm dependent on medication to get through the day and night. That also doesn't make me less of a human being than anyone else but it does have that "I need medication to function - feeling". If you ever want to talk about anything, feel free to message me. I read a lot about psychology and went through enough pertaining this. I hope I could help you a little.

I'm sorry to hear you went through such trauma. I wish I knew how to help, but if you want someone to talk to I'm open as well. Though I'm bad at offering advice I'm willing to at least lend an ear. I will say you seem like a cool/kind person with some lovely art and I look forward to seeing more of it. <3 And thank you for the response.

This hit me so much, especially the thing to drive, I don't really what to do with my life, a friend ask me "How do you imagine in 10 years" and I didn't know what to answer, and I am ashamed to see that I have not progressed much as I wanted and that I have made bad decisions, Im really scared what will become of me in the future. I never go to a doctor or therapist, I really want see one when I have the resources in the future.

I dont really how to help you, I just want to say that you're not alone, sounds generic but is true.

I don't expect anyone's help, it just feels good to vent and see people's responses now knowing I'm not alone at least. I do hope for the best on your end and that you can get the help you need. I'm open for talking if you ever need to.

I'd say you're doing pretty well artistic-wise from what I've seen, ^^ though I know it's hard to see that in your own art sometimes. I'm still nowhere near where I want to be in mine.

Dude, we're a mess I guess xD

Got you the most from the last part of the first paragraph; looking around overwhelms me so hard, looking how fast and how good does others do and work around me, not just at an artistic level...even in simple human doing day by day.....is...maybe not harsh...I do really admire a lot of them, or feel general affection for them...but precisely the thing that gets on me is..simply jealousy...feels dirty to think about it...and in general terms...it makes so hard for me to like interact..or even make any try or for looking any best for myself...totally got ya...
About the second part...well..I've never felt anything like that...but!..I do remember back on the day one of my friends asked me how long I was pretending to live, back then I said 100, and he said "I'm fine to get to 23 and that's all, something quick that can take my life away and we are done" (yeah, I know, such a bunch of clowns..) but curiously..he is still here, as well as me...and..ok, probably this doesn't works for all, but at least for me, what keeps me up when I get to this kind of feelings...is like...finding the goods on the small things....the most elemental, basial things does the job, like an amazing use of red, or charming cool expressions and grinning characters, or a beautiful use of shadings and black spaces, ya know, things that YOU have on YOUR side, small beautiful things that, makes other really really happy, and makes them care, just by the slight...and if you don't trust me, just look at the comment line...

So sorry to hear you're going through similar feelings. I hope it at least helps knowing you're not alone. And thank you so much for the kind words about my art. I still have a lot to learn but I'm always happy seeing people enjoying it. Your art and characters are really cute and I love your lighting and line work in them. <3

yeah, it really helpful to empathize with someone else feelings, helps a lot to leave the feeling of loneliness ^^