There's something that always bothered me. Back when I was a teenager(I'm 27 now), my friends started to get interested in other people. Sexually atracted, I mean. I didn't get the grasp of it. "How can you get atracted to someone you don't know or barely know?"

I only felt something for a friend... 3 years afer knowing them. I felt like I needed to know someone before feeling "that". That needing... or desire.

I was frustrated. For a long time, I thought there was something wrong with me. I didnt' get things such as "Look at that ass", "I'd like to be inside their pants", "Sexy" and all of that. I felt ashamed. Weird. Left apart from society. Of course I can say when someone's pretty. But that's all. I don't feel atracted towards it. That's why flirting seems awkward to me. I was furious at myself. Why couldn't I be "normal"?

I've always been kinda anxious. And quite depressive as well. Then, some months ago, I had the worst emotional breakdown of my life. I was being bullied at work. My sister has had an eating disorder... for 10 years back then. She still has it. And, of course, there was Covid. And beneath all of that, I felt alone in this world. "Why can't I be happy?" "Why am I different?" "I'm done with this". I felt like giving up. I almost did.

But then I started going to my current and fabulous psychologist. I quitted my job. And I started thinking about myself. About my feelings. Then, I started researching and reading. And then, after some time, I found it.

"DEMISEXUAL"

That was it! That was me! For the first time in my life, I started to feel at ease with my inner self. With my true self. And I'm still working, but everyday is better than the previous one.

I'm not sure if demisexuality is part of the LGBT+ spectrum. I think it is. Please, correct me if I'm wrong. But after this year, I feel proud. I went through a long way. I suffered, both because of my feelings and what happened with my life. But now... now I'm stronger. And I feel proud. I feel proud of myself. And I feel proud of a world where, step by step, more people can be true to their feelings, and they can be proud of it.

Happy Pride 2021