01/08/2019
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This Was a dream,
Maybe to be called,
A nightmare,

Fear,
Thats what i have,
Fear

Yesterday I had a dream. (28/07/2019)
And not one of those pretty ones you should say on a historic speech.

I remember I saw two escenarios

Some jet airplanes, they were painted in stripes of blue and red.
And they were falling from the sky.
Their engines suddenly started whizlling, in a sinusoidal way.
Very frightening,
Then Began stalling, and wiggling
The pilots could'nt recover them and both of them crashed.

This is what you see in the painting, they moment when the engines where whizzling,
And the planes stalled
moments before they crashed.

On the second scenario

A plane, I don’t know if immediately after take off,
Inside the airport, or after falling from the sky,
I saw the plane trapped in a metal electrical fence.
A then sparks from the engine, and the plane cought on fire.
I Saw the body of the pilots burning,
The airplanes melting, and exploding,
Sparks everywhere
They coulndt get out of the plane
It was as such,
That the aftermath, was only a barely distinguishable part of the bodyframe.

I only painted what looked to me, the first escenario
Because the second one, was too gory and hard to paint.

And i dont know if this planes had an ejector seat.
But the pilots couldn’t get out.

I have tried to search for the model of the planes

This month, July, Guatemala, tried to buy two airplanes from the Argentina Government.
It seems that the deal, was taken off, (no indirect intentional pun intended)
The planes where these.

IA-63 Pampa III

They buy was heavily critised, since the cost of the planes was about 28 millions dollars,
For a nation, from where thousands are leaving, and many are starving to death.
I don’t know if the buy was completely canceled because of this.
But the planes are a little somewhat similar to what I saw, but continued looking,
And saw other two models that where even more similar.

CASA C-101
From Spain

AIDC AT-3
From China

I don’t know if they are other airplanes out there that are similar to these.

In poetic form I write,
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They crashed on the east,
They crashed on the south.
And on the north.

(not sure if in the same country though,)

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I dont know about what should i do with this things,
Im a poor person…(probrecito yo, dijo un psicologo que conoci…haha)
Not that poor, but, I don’t have much power,
as it is, to post things on a random website on the internet.

And you see, as weird as it is,
People from all over the world is here,
And who knows what kind, and all types of people and persons from all around that exist and inhabit the whole existent universe,
Whether, Rich, Poor, people with power, or people in need.
I mean, I'm from Guatemala,
and wonder if you even ever heard of my country before I came in with my insane craziness,
I myself I know I'm not very rich, and declare myself to be in need and struggling with all kinds of issues.
It seems that this website, is able to unite all of us.
In a weirdo way that is, as weird as our own humanity is.

This things I don’t know and im not sure about.
But, repeatedly see in myself in need to let them come out.
and this the way, and place I find it more easy for me to do it so.
Mostly because there's a lot of furry stuff, and there's a lot of furry paintings coming on the way.
but there's also real life and realistic stuff,
And I see way to difficult for me, only one person,
to find the proper website and place to each painting all by myself,
Besides, it seems there's some continuity to each other..

This is what I meant when I said
"Im running the most Crazy experiment inside my mind"

That is, too proof, if this things that come to me,
have a real value and purpose for someone else.

My objective, was to launch a patreon page, like sakimichan and all….
But always failed, in setting it,
I always wanted to win money from making art.
But was never able to set my mind for doing so,
Comissions, and so on.
It is almost like an invisible wall that does not let me.
Still waiting to unlock that part of the game tho,

Entonces Yo digo,
Si tu pais, no esta en guerra, y ojala que no lo este,
Y sucede que tu pais tiene necesidades, como hambre y pobreza,
Yo diria que deberias de detener tu mano de comprar estos aviones.
Y si ya los compraste, o te parece que tienes en tu mano,
Algun avion similar, lo mejor seria, que lo vendieras, o si estas comprometido a tenerlos,
Revisa sus motores y su funcionamiento, antes de volarlos.
Y si tu eres piloto, todavia te ruego que tengas mas cuidado, y hagas una revisión especial.
No sea que algo salga mal,
Sino mas bien hay que ser, como dijo la abuelita de batman,
"Precavidos…mijoo"

Yo digo y escribo lo que veo.
Y Lo hago por la esperanza que tengo, de que alguien mas lo vea,
Y que sea un mensaje valioso para esa persona.

Yo estoy solo, y no tengo amigos,
y lo que hago,
lo hago en cumplimiento, a lo que recibo.
Porque estas cosas no me dejan estar en paz,
y no tengo otra cosa mas que hacer, que dejar estas cosas salir,
Y de todos modos, no tengo muchas otras cosas mas que hacer con mi vida. :'/

Ademas ya te dije que estoy loko, hehe.
Y yo no es que te quiera meter miedo pues….,
Pero si estas aqui, se supone que ya estas grandesito va vos…

Ademas yo me divierto tanto escribiendo mis malos chistes que es
como mi unico apoyo psicologico para combatir mi depresión.

Ademas es curioso,
Ver como todas las cosas en mi vida tienden apartarse de mi….
Es como, si todo en lo que trato de pertenecer, me rechazara.

"Soy como el aceite en el agua.
Soy como un llorón en el desierto."
- Dichos Super Muy Muy Darks.


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THE TRUTH

I think this is nothing but,
actually a representation of me trying to hide my fear,
Of me crashing and dying on an airplane,
A fear that has followed me since childhood.