Something from two days ago I think.

It felt like some kind of cold hand was squeezing my heart and pouring tears out. Like the heartbreak after being thoroughly dumped, minus a single source.
Not feeling too proud to admit all I really felt like I wanted was a hug. But so sad, angry, jealous that everyone I know has that kind of support. It felt like it was just something I don't get to have when right now I need it the most.



My doctor told me to take ibuprofen several times a day, because she thought something was inflamed between my rib cage. It did work, I haven't felt any sharp pains. But after a few days I started to notice more discomfort in my chest. I didn't know if it was related to the ibuprofen so I stopped taking it. I only really notice it when I'm in bed. Not pain just.. discomfort, pressure, tightness, especially if I lay down on my side. And, still not what I'd describe as pain, I've felt a discomfort in the center of my chest. You know, the heart. So I just.. have no way of knowing if it is just stress manifesting itself with physical symptoms, of if there is a different problem. And, that adds to the stress because I can't stop spending my time looking stuff up online. It's going to be a long week before I can find out what's up.