I just wanted to show that I am working on stuff. QUITE a bit of things. I am working on more than one thing, and I have had to push back things over and over again for a very long time.
I am showing some of those things now.


1 -- A mesh I was working on for SL. I wanted to start again with a business on there, but before that, I invested in a whole sim. It was going to be for testing, but I wanted others to come over and have fun.
No one came over except for wanting stuff, everything fell apart again, it was a failure. Again. Ended on January 13


2 -- A head I was working on for a friend. Started on March 2nd, but didn't even upload it until May 2 because it kept being pushed back by other stuff. At the last minute, the UV map had to be redone.
So, the texture I made for it didn't fit that well. I remapped it, but it didn't come out right on the poles. Technically I still have work on it. I need to redo the texture, make a better mouth and teeth, and rig it.


3 -- A personal project. Started on March 7, but kept pushing it back over and over, and haven't touched it since April 23. A bigger submission I was working on, but it's not done. Only about half done.


4 -- The Seaduck. I originally made this over 2 years ago, and someone asked if I could finish the inside of it. But I have been pushing this back more than anything else on this picture, for nearly 2 years.
It is not fair to the person who's been asking and waiting on this. Most of what I have to do is the console, and then give it a texture. But I want to do everything for it.


5 -- Another plane. Quite some time ago,  Chucky, the creator of the Chucky comic, was looking into getting into 3D modeling, so he wouldn't have to keep drawing his plane over and over.
Decided he would just deal with it, but I offered to make it for them. It didn't even take a week to get to this point, but had to keep pushing it back over and over. I'm so tired of that, and it's so embarrassing.
I started this on October 24, but haven't really touched it since November 12.


6 -- A random basket model. Was just practice, and couldn't even finish that. November 8


7 -- Another personal project. I had wanted to try and create a banner for FA for a couple of years now. I had a few ideas, but I figured I'd try to make a fall themed one during fall last year.
Kept getting delayed with stuff, and fall past me by, so I figured I'd make a winter one. Started this December 9 to make a random house, but decided to use it for the winter theme banner idea.
Yet again, kept getting pushed back over and over, and now it's nearly summer 2016. I haven't touched this since March 30.


8 -- Something I made for someone I used to know. Technically not finished because it was made for their SL character, but for some reason their character broke this outfit. Works on every other person.
That, and there were a few tweaks I had to make. This shouldn't have taken so long, being I started on September 24. But I had to wait and wait for a long time. Finally didn't touch it in December 26


9 -- A sliding door cabinet I made for a game. Failed I guess. February 20


10 -- Another personal piece. A sword I designed for myself, though not exactly as I envisioned. There was more work done to it, but I haven't touched it since December 26


11 -- My attempt to create the great swords of the character Ramlethal from the game Guilty Gear Xrd. Started on December 31, but haven't touched since January 7 because got pushed back.


12 -- A concept of a school I attempted for a game. Sort of a collaboration between me and  Trooper036. Failed I guess. Worked ans streamed on it for 3 days, stopped on January 29.
The center section wasn't yet finished. Came with 3 floors, 2 sections, somewhat enclosed area, etc. The roofing and outer wall details weren't finished yet. Had stairs and elevator on both sides. Bathrooms, etc.


13 -- A plant I made for a game. Failed I guess. Was one of 4 different plants I was to make. This plant happens to be called Massangaena Cane. February 15


14 -- A window I made for a game. Another failure. I wasn't sure which window to make, since there are many designs of windows, blinders, etc., so I made the one next to me, which I figured was fairly common.
Started on February 21, but ended on March 3


15 -- A CFL bulb I made for a game. Failed. There are a few flaws, but I did what I could. January 21


16 -- A WIP (not a final product) of a bull character. Made from scratch, but again, WIP, which is why it looks off. Was conceptualized by  Trooper036, and attempted by me. Another failure. March 10 to March 30


17 -- Another personal project. Something to replace the park area mesh I made for SL. This is a grassy area with streams, a giant rock, a cave, and waterfall. Kept pushing back for other things. March 27


18 -- The current thing I'm working on. Attempting a "tiger man". I've now remade this entire thing about 4 times now trying to get it right. This is what takes up a lot of my time currently.
Though I started it about a month ago, and got quite far in a week, I got quite busy also, and can't keep pushing every single thing back indefinitely.


19 -- Already done, but showing how I made the hose for a previous submission. While everything is colored (using mouse), I modeled this one thing to try and make it look right.





I find it rather disgraceful that I attempt to do all of these things for people, and continuously get the butt end of their... opinions. Now, I'm not trying to make people feel bad about free work.
I've said that before. Getting free work isn't a bad thing. Pretty cool actually if people like you enough for that. It's when you start to abuse the person that's doing it that's the problem.

I've been told that I don't work, that I'm lazy, that my stuff sucks, that all I do all day is play games, or chat and paw off and nothing else. Among other things. Less than a third of the time do I get a thank you.
I am always thinking of things I "need" to make others. While eating, while at work, even when trying to sleep or enjoy myself when I'm out an about. I don't talk to much people at all.
I rarely get comments on anything. I'm hardly on IMs. When I TRIED to talk to people, they avoided me. Hard.
Whether I was simply asking for help (more detail) on their request, or asking for just a few minutes of their time, it was the same.
I really don't understand where all of these implications and rumors come from. As far as pawing, I maybe do it once every 2 or 3 weeks.



What I've shown here isn't all of the things I've worked on in the past few months. It's about a third, if even that. These are just some, not all, of the things I've had to push back many times to finish things.
Instead of the person who's been waiting forever getting their stuff, I stop everything for certain people. I don't ask for ANYTHING in return except maybe a few minutes of their time and credit, and can't even get it.

I'm well aware I'm not the best modeler on here. I can see some of the flaws from here, and while I am usually faster than some, I can take quite some time. I often get distracted and fall into big ruts.
What many people don't seem to realize is that they are mostly responsible for those feelings. Why would anyone think the horrible way they treat others will make them work better? What were they thinking?
It's not even the fact that some of my stuff gets rejected, or that some less than nice things are said about my work. It's the way I get treated for it. Often times while still being demanded to do more.

Often times, I feel like a microwave dinner. I get thrown in the back so someone can set me and forget me. They come back at a later time expecting grand results when they walked away to let me burn.
Sometimes looking for something, anything to hold over my head, treating me unfairly and giving me unfair expectations, yet in the same amount of time couldn't even do a quarter of what I'm doing.
Stop trying to fake care when it's obvious you don't just to get free stuff.



I...don't like ranting. Never really did. Makes me sound angry and angsty when that's not true. Or, I don't want it to be true.
I just want to show that I'm more than just a *thing* that produces stuff. I'm a real person. I don't mind some freebies. Though as you can see, I have quite a bit waiting.

By the way, if I haven't mentioned it already, this isn't everything. As far as stuff I've made in this time frame, this is barely third. As far as things I've pushed back, this is about half.
I also don't seem to get a lot of chance to really go all out on some pieces, so you only see what I was told to do or forced to do, as opposed to what I really wanted to do.