sorry for lack of art suddenly
I started working full time again
I miss haveing enough time to draw

home is so stressful
i feel like a kicked puppy
slinking around hoping people will notice and talk to me and show me they care
but afraid to go up to people for fear of being emotionally struck

i dont know if you want me to leave you alone because I have been
I dont know if youve wanted me to talk to you because ive tried
i dont feel like you care about me anymore
and i dont know if thats going to change

i know you just think im lazy
and that im just a baby who complains
but i dont say things if i dont mean them even a little
my hands are shaking
im having trouble focusing
i can hardly go up and doen the stairs
i cant even draw straight lines
im eating one meal a day and working 10 hours
when will you start caring about me again
when will i stop feeling like you hate me
what DID I DO?????????????