"For hours a day do I find myself standing by my window, or out in the back yard staring out at the horizon or up at the night sky. I've been told I'm simple for admiring what looms above us every second of the day, whether it be grim, dark clouds that promise a noisy night of chaotic crackling, or the beautiful gradient of hues through our atmosphere as the sun sets and rises.

Though not always is it that I'm standing there, admiring the calm of nature.

I stand in silence more often than not, my gaze locked viewing beyond the colours and sight of our sky as thoughts run through my mind. Not very deep and not very bright I'm often called. Big, goofy, silly, cuddly. Simple. Though what goes on behind my forehead is that of contemplation.

Plagued with what could have been. Wrestling with guilt from how my actions and words may be perceived. I know it's not right to do, but I spend weeks, months, burying myself in games and conversations when a large problem arises to keep my emotions at by, save myself from having to stare myself in the eyes and confront my doubts and negativity.

I wish, as much as I could, to be able to right all the wrongs I've made, but I know I can't. I know that no matter how hard I tried there are things that can't be changed. People that will not hear you out. Even though there's the knowledge that you can't do anything, that negativity can build and break you.

In the end, I'm only able to stand and stare, let these thoughts and feelings run throughout me before they subside to rest again, able to take off my mask and smile for myself.

Once all that's said and done, I'm left with nothing but the beauty of the sky, of nature to greet me."

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I honestly have no idea. Just kinda bleh for personal reasons. So I drew something up and got lazy. CBF'd properly finishing this. Wanna do more adorb stuffs.