youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TviLDjWx4BQ&feature=youtu.be



You see, this means a lot more than it looks, and it looks a lot. Legion and I have talked about having children for awhile, and agreed that we wanted two kids, and if we had a son that we would name him Xavier Leo Williams. It's our dream, when I graduate my senior year of college that we can finally start a family. But later it was discovered that I have an over 50% chance of being a carrier of M.E.N 1 syndrome, due to my mom being a carrier and we never had me checked to get prevented action starting at 3, because it is a hereditary condition. So in worry of this, when the time came, we took the steps for me to have a non-hormonal birth control. I have the Para-guard, but I have been in agonizing pain, and I was bleeding large amounts the first month and a half. That is when it was told to me that it was not recommended to have this non-hormonal birth control unless you have already given birth, and have been named "The Scrapers" because they will scrape and scuff the uterus so much to the point that the patient will no longer be able to bare kids. I still have this in, because Legion and I do have an intimate relationship, and we want to wait to have kids, but at the same time now I am scared so much that we will no longer be able to have the children we hope and pray for.
Even now, I am still in terrible pain, and I am bleeding intermittently. But I do not have other options, and yes, absence is not an option.

It will be the most beautiful thing in the world, and the most joyous moment when Legion can finally, one day, hold our son in his arms, and I hope one day that this will be able to happen.