i blocked someone on FA today
I didn't feel comfortable doing that... but I also wanted to have some sense of privacy on FA
does that make sense?
edit: apparently it doesnt even stop them from seeing my posts...
so whats the point of the block?

I feel better when I don't have concept of who's looking
some stranger I don't know or have concept of is one thing~ it doesn't affect me
but someone who has concept of me as a person
I dunno~ i want to be able to make love to this site without feeling reserved or hestitant
omg~ what if that one person sees something I posted and they don't like it #drama!
ig, thats something I have to worry about to some extent
in a community, if one person gets upset, they have the option to channel their upset into a drama
drama is really boring
im lucky that our life doesn't have it front and center
we can tune it out if we want
thats powerful
oh the life of an ancient dragon is the best
junk removers will be here soon
maybe I'll post here more
i tried substack but dont like their system
its convoluted
and they pressure their users to play their game
obviously, playing their little get followers/grow business game doesn't interest me
it's not conductive to making art
it's about being fake, constructed, devised,
business focus means art dies
so no wonder america is such a shithole for art
art isn't valued the way business is...
business comes first in this society
what a bummer
but maybe we can stand out and have a win for art without regard to that business culture shit
its toxic for a person like me
somehow, business minded people struggle to understand
they will call art things like 'a luxury'
or something you can't quantify, measure... based in objectivity...
if I didn't feel confident with my hand
i wouldn't be going all in at the poker table of life
thats real shit for me
i got nothing else to bet on
so... whatelse~ I dont know
My Vn is coming along~ im giving myself more time~ maybe 2 years~ to really see it come to fruition
im looking at non-linear approaches to story telling again,
and basing my story to have only one choice that defines the split
one split,
but ofc, that choice wont come after alot of experience and pain
i discovered the choice first when I made ep2 of a;n
so Im going to craft that choice to be even stronger
and I like the idea of only one major choice
and it makes me think about human condition
the moment the MC said 'no' in the face of the authority
at the risk of their own life
thats a really intense emotional situation to be in
im really drawn to that moment
because I had that experience myself in the Sea Org
alot to figure out
and to even get there have to do alot of writing
I love apophenia with all my heart
and also wafa is breedable