Yeah, actually Happy Anniversary! The PostalRoo was created officially 20 years ago. Ouch! My age~

To be honest, I wasn't sure whether I should be spotlighting this or hiding it.
The moment you show your age, you age yourself. And furry culture is a bit of a Neverland.
I wasn't expecting to see twenty years go by via a kink website. Not the worst possible place, if I'm going to be honest.
But I sure have doodled these horny transformy images for a long time. X3

I'm not sure I grew much as an artist, even after a couple decades.
Still the same physical height, but at least I lost a little weight!

I improved a little on my drawings, in 20 years, though I think I found better tools more than gained many skills.
I still remember the days of having normal number 2 pencils, colored pencils, discarded half-used printer paper, and a barely working scanner, using MS Paint and other old graphics programs to erase scan lines more than color. It was a different time. Learning to mouse draw sucked.

Art sucked back then.

I wasn't expecting to see things go the way they have, with the internet, and with art in general.
I saw art online go
from "amazing yet difficult to find artist websites, amazing kinks each hidden behind an 18+ warning"
to "webrings desperately trying to keep artists in touch with each other"
to "easy search engines to find every one of them and share everything"
to "large databases of high quality art and tags freely shared for comments"
to "extra large databases of questionable quality art sometimes hidden behind a paywall"
to the dreaded "content"
to "content farms"
to "stolen content"
to "artificially generated content slop made from stolen content farms of questionable quality hidden behind a paywall yet still requiring an 18+ warning"

So... progress!?!?!

But the thing that sucks about aging is complaining about aging. Things are always better the way you remember them.

I didn't make as much art as I would have liked time to do. I'm really happy with some of what I've done, but I know that I can do more. And better.

The hard part is the lack of free time. And being almost entirely self-taught.

I had a real think about what I'm about and what I've been up to with this art for the past many years.
I went on a real internal dialogue journey about nostalgia, movies, video games...

It was a meanderingly stupid journey, so I scrapped it. Wait, No! Why did I post it?!

I made the PostalRoo account as an in-joke many years ago, and I'm glad I dropped the edgy deviantArt video-game-centric persona. I'm most embarassed by the username, but that says something given some of the things I've doodled (and deleted). I'm GLAD to discover transformation art as a way to process some of my weirdest thoughts. The history gets murky for what landed me to FurAffinity, but this is one of those communities that stays better than others, even though most online things die quickly.

I have seen a lot of artists, fans, and friendly interactions come-and-go. And I have seen a LOT of CRASH-OUTS (most valid, some a little out there). And I lost a few great folks that inspired my art. Those losses hurt a lot more. And then I lost some in my own personal life and I needed to step away for long periods of time, to deal with those real things. Those hurt the most. But I came back for the community. ^^

So... yeah... I've been here 20 years. I have no plans to leave, even if the age difference is... sometimes awkward.

Real talk: I think a big reason I stay is the same reason I joined a long time ago. I wanted some weird stuff to get through some all-too-real stuff and avoid it for a while. There's a healthy layer of escapism that comes from imagination, where a movie clip is too short and a video game is sometimes way too long.

Images, sequences, and stories have an ability to leave a lot to the imagination, and let your mind wander for a while. I'm happy to still oblige that itch for others going through similar needs or unhandled issues. At least until you find something to better help you out.

Regret nothing. No worries.

I am hugely grateful to those that find my art, find my account, enjoy it for any reason, and to anyone who has stuck around with me for long periods of time. I've been hugely inspired by the creations of other weirdos, and I'm not sure I want to say I'll stick around for another twenty years, but I'm happy to continue making art if it continues scratching that itch or hitting that button for someone else.

Thanks for reading the journals!