when it comes to drawing, i have a constant feeling of inadequacy, that my drawings don't improve, that i don't practise enough and the little i do is directionless. some 1-2 years ago i purchased an access to Marc Brunet's art school but i have made little progress with it. in his art school course he has this daily 'quest' of 5 minutes of observing something to build a visual library, and even that i struggle with.

i have great ambitions regarding my art goals, yet picking up the pen is the most difficult thing. i wish i could draw as much as i have free time. but getting myself to draw every day, as much as i can, is not a good goal to have - i need to start thinking myself as a person who likes to draw every day. i just need to figure out how to do that.

i want to say thank you to everyone who has given me encouraging words regarding drawing past year. my wicked mind can't convert those positive words into motivation to start drawing more, but i will appreciate them nonetheless.

i'm not really good with new year's resolutions so i will not make any for 2026. instead i just want to say i aim to see my own art in more positive light this year than i did in 2025.