This is more of a way for me to vent but I'm down to take advice or converse if anybody has anything they'd like to toss in. But my current issue at this moment in time... is my future. Now, tons of my friends have opted for the like...common, everyday, ya know plan. Graduate from high school, go to college for a degree in whatever while working some shitty job so that they can get a better job in the future. I'm an artist. I'm friends with a BUNCH of other artists. Its nothing but tough in this industry and people don't have time to cater to those who can't quite keep up? And while I've never though ill of my friends, that kind of life doesn't sound appealing to me. It never has. I don't mind trying to find a way to make money but I haven't lived. I haven't EXPERIENCED ANYTHING. I've traveled, sure. But I was young, and seeing the basic things I suppose. I still think of myself as incredibly blessed for the opportunities I've had to get out and go explore but those weren't for my sake. However, the things I learned traveling and the memories I've made are things I'll never forget. I want more of those memories.

That's what I want to do with my future. I want to see the world. I want to experience the good things life has to offer. I don't want to go to the extravagant restaurants and live a life of luxury. I wanna bust my ass and work hard so we have enough gas money to just get from place to place. I don't wanna sit still. I wanna see it all. I want some small shack in the middle of nowhere to be my home so that after the year and a half of time I've spent wherever, I can go home, read a book, recharge, then get right back out again a week later.... I haven't really told anybody about any of this because I'm fearful nobody will take me seriously or believe that I'm capable of something like this... But this is all I've wanted for the past year and I think this summer is finally my time to go.