I remember in 2023 I visited a commercial gun range in our town area.
I planned to see a local military/police/border guard fair and try some real life shooting first time in my life. Watched and assembled/dry fired/reloaded guns (smh, shotguns) .
But it was a secluded area and in general I was unable to even get by to actual shooting range. Even going to the place to grab ear protectors was impossible.
No one was affected except me. I could not endure the gunshots sounds, even from far area. No. It was painful boing like seansation.
In general I'm terrible over sensitive to sudden loud sounds(screams, explosions, cars roaring).
Now I know that it might be an autism thing.
I can't do many things due to sensory issues (driving, swimming etc) - I freak out, my brain is melting. I still wonder how people are able to live in so active and intense way - driving, travels, sports. Multiple relationships, demanding jobs. Parties and stuff. I just want to take care for my kid, do bare necessities/chores and sit/lie in silence.
This is a source of conflict and stir in my marriage as my wife wants to have fabulous life (going out, parties, company) while I'm just emotionally and physically exhausted.