So, I've always been really paranoid of having any sort of a job discover my interests, especially if they ever go into the sexual. Despite my personal philosophy about how society encourages, yet punishes people for their sexuality, and I personally feel like it's a power grab, I don't really follow my own beliefs, and I hate that. I would tell anyone that sexuality, and even kinks or fetishes could be considered natural in a sense, where it's all inherently human to be in tune with sexuality (if you feel it, if you don't that's still very human I think). If I wasn't me, I would look at my interests and my want to be true to who I am and encourage myself to be open and proud about anything that doesn't make me uncomfortable for people to know. It's 5:40 in the morning and I wasn't really thinking about what I was going to write, but my point in all of this nonsense is that I had made this account, Marzibarnes, so that I could have my accounts all in tandem. I want to start posting my art, I want to start creating content, and I just want to work on a lot of things and probably start up business one day. So, from a young age to now I have always loved erotic art, fetish art, and drawing it myself. After basically over a decade of shaming and guilt and self-resentment, I decided that it was definite that drawing NSFW was what I loved to do. Nothing inspired or connected me more to art than erotic art. I want to own that fact, and make it proudly. I was always afraid that if I was going to have a business and if I was maybe going to make videos that I needed to keep my identities separate, that's why I closed down this account and moved on. But there is no crime for enjoying NSFW content, and the only risk I have is a potential source of business turning me down. That's fine. I'm disabled anyway, and any business I get is from someone who is not likely to be close-minded this way. I'm tired of trying to keep a lot of who I am behind a wall, when it doesn't even personally matter that much to me anyway. In lieu of that, I'm making Marzibarnes my main and only account.

Now my next thing to tackle is getting the guts and self-worth to post my art. Also sorry if this sounded melodramatic or grandiose, I'm just happy I'm not doing this shit anymore c: