I’ve always felt like I’m searching for better people to be around. Not “better” in some shallow status sense, but better in the sense of depth, honesty, curiosity, and character. I want to be around people with stronger ideas, people who understand more, people who are genuinely accepting and capable of thinking beyond themselves. I want to know people who are serious in the right ways, who are thoughtful, open-minded, self-aware, and actually willing to grow. That kind of person feels rare. Most of the time, it feels like people are too distracted by their own lives, insecurities, ambitions, or social positioning to really meet each other in a meaningful way. A lot of people end up drifting into a kind of toxic individualism without even realizing it. Everything becomes about maintaining themselves, presenting themselves, selling themselves, protecting their image, or turning their personality into a product. It feels especially obvious in online spaces, where so many people are caught in some version of branding, performance, or self-marketing. That’s a big part of why I don’t connect with a lot of people who consider themselves VTubers. Too many of them seem to be chasing a dream that feels manufactured, hollow, or disconnected from anything real. It often feels less like self-expression and more like people trying to fit themselves into a role they think they’re supposed to play. That kind of thing has never interested me much, and it’s not something I want to spend my time around. What I do love is the size and giantess stuff, posting about it, creating around it, and meeting people through it. I like the process of finding people through the things I genuinely care about. I like learning who they are, what they think, what matters to them, and what’s actually going on beneath the surface. But that process is slow. It takes time to find people who feel authentic, people who aren’t just mirroring a scene, repeating a script, or performing a personality they think will be rewarded. The more time I spend looking, the more I realize how uncommon it is to meet people who actually know themselves and live from that place. That’s part of what makes all of this frustrating. So many people have convinced themselves that they are authentic, but they never act on it. Or worse, they claim to value individuality while behaving in exactly the same way they were expected to. They use the language of honesty, freedom, progress, or self-acceptance, but the substance isn’t really there. A lot of people are better at lying to themselves than they are at telling the truth to anyone else, and that makes genuine connection feel even rarer than it should be. I guess what I’m really saying is that truly good people are hard to find. Truly good progressive people. Truly good, self-accepting, intelligent people. I still believe those people exist. Every once in a while, I do meet someone who feels real, and those moments remind me why I keep looking. But I’ve also learned to be careful, because some people can seem authentic for a while before you realize they were only performing that too. Even so, I haven’t given up on finding the kind of people I actually want in my life. I still hope that, slowly, patiently, I’ll keep finding the rare ones who are real.