I was really hoping this year would be at least a little less insane but already the US is regressing another two decades in one ugly fell swoop, my mom had a thankfully false positive health scare, and the fear of never owning a home absent direct financial support from my mom is crystallizing. Like... why did I spend so long getting an amazing credit score when I'm unable to work the hours it takes to build savings of note? My health makes every single day a moving target and this is likely to be a lifelong condition. I'm not unhopeful though. Life has a lot to offer at every turn. I'm more creative than ever and a more active and skilled software developer than ever. I live with my best friends even if we do have to rent. The warhammer 40k bug bit me again and I derive immense enjoyment from building miniatures. I'm just scared that no matter how the midterms shake out, the US has broken to a point that will take 50 years to fix if it can be done at all. Trump is the cancer of our collective body to be sure, but the fact remains that the conditions that gave him power to piss all over our laws and ideals came about organically. I don't feel very safe. The only thing I know to do is what I recommend to everyone: stay close to the people you care about and take care of each other. We may not be okay sometimes, but we don't have be not okay alone.