I sit here on this New Years Eve, not only the eve of a new year but the eve of a new era and i am alone.
There will be only me surrounded by strangers for this New Years instead of being surrounded by friends as i have been in years past.
It makes me sad but it is my own fault, I've ended my relationships and burned my bridges of my own accord, all save one: my relationship with Andrew or Rajgin as he known here.
The end of that was not my choice but rather the wish of my friends and family although I was at times unhappy and thought of ending the relationship on my own terms but it was at their urging that i finally did end it and to you Andrew I owe an apology.
I wish you still loved me, i wish i had not turned my back on what we had, I wish we had met a few years down the road where perhaps I would have been wiser.
This is not an attempt to crawl back to you but rather this is me trying to be honest for once in my life.
I am a foolish little girl and i can only pray that you will forgive me so we might at least be friends.
To Lyletherza, I also owe an apology, I overreacted and I am too proud to ask your forgiveness face to face and so i hide behind my keyboard and beg you to forget what i have said and forgive my mistakes.
I know i do not deserve it but hopefully you can be the bigger person.

Happy New Years to everyone and hopefully the new year will be better than this year has been.
Goddess bless and God protect all in the days ahead