a little history background....

i've been known as the following...  najt, and panfer.

i've been a furry for about 10 years.. always on the outskirts though.. i've had my core group of friends within the community, but i never dived in or sought online groups.. my local furriends were pretty much my only furriends for a long time.. i did have my online furriend here and there, but like i said, i was primarily an in person kind of individual.. even if i was a little.. or a lot shy.. lol.. my online furriends revolved primarily around the online first person shooter gaming community.. i'm not a big mmorpg player.. i just like shooting things i guess. lol.

about 2 years ago i dove into the BDSM community.. unlike my furry lifestyle, it blossomed into awesomeness.. my involvement in the local communities is a near constant.. and i love every second of it.. there is so much i've learned and still have to learn..

this is why i consider myself to be more involved with the BDSM community even though i've been a member of the furry community for 5 times as long.

during my furriness however, i was able to develop sexually.. o_o in a completely not perverse kind of way.. (but there was much perversion, don't get me wrong.. lol) of course, the first step to self discovery was learning what i was attracted to.. (cock lots of big fat cocks everywhere, all of the cocks) guys, i love being held by strong arms against a warm chest(aka: being groped forcefully) with the feeling that i am protected and cared for.(groped) i am attracted to some girls though, so maybe completely biased. i also found that i enjoy knowing that i am effeminate.. not in a perverse way.. in ways that are just too strong for me to ignore.. (i don't like my bits being touched during sex.. wtf? right? not the only reason but these little interjections are meant to be lulzy. >>;) and so i believe i'm also TG.. because i do plan to transition when i'm able to.

if i'm a girl, then i'm the tomboy kind of girl.. cause i love snakes, lizards, spiders, and climbing trees.. i'm not some kind of frilly, rainbows and ponies kind of girl.. i wear classy cocktail dresses and sip wine if i'm a fucking girl, i don't run around in short shorts giggling and guzzling mango margaritas. o; and if i start to lisp, someone smack me, please.

i've grown up with cystic fibrosis, and cough, often.. deal with it. o; during conventions, the coughing + the yelling usually ends up with me losing my voice.. or sounding like i smoke 70 cigarettes a day according to one fur..(i will BREAK you! O:<)

i like faeries, quantum physics, the color purple(black goes good with everything too), and skateboarding.

i like to be witty in conversation, and if i drink enough, i become verbally slutty.. O: (and when i'm not drinking, i'm often thinking what i'd otherwise be saying.. lol.)

My circle is as follows.. o;
 Carenath
 nominus_expers
and i'll figure out the rest on another day lol..