Hi.

Last journal, a long time ago, I was pondering about making a new account, just for the sake of changing my name and starting anew, maybe drawing more too!
In the end, it is.. complicated. Ever since Artfight 2021 ended, I was unable to draw new things, because from august 2021 on, I must go to (unpaid) work (the usual reasons... giving me "day centre" {also apparently another typical swiss and austrian thing? this word? even in english?}). But yeah, ever since that I am way too tired and unmotivated to draw anything. Whenever I'm home after that work, I'm just too tired and want to play games and whatsoever. Same with weekends and vacation. I dont feel like spending 4 or 6 hours a free day drawing art and then noticing that a big chunk of my free time is gone and have to work soon again x-x. So, uh... that where I'm currently working at is ending at the end of june, buuuut they (social welfare office) is just gonna put me in a different place to work at. ohwell. I mean, I'd like to have a real paid job and all that, sure. Just saying tho that I apparently cant find my inner peace and draw anymore, even if I had a real job, I guess. Because drawing is still rather exhausting for me and the only motivation I ever had for drawing was to see peoples happy faces when I present them my art gifts @w@ aaaaa.

Ah but maybe. Maybe someday that art motivation is coming back. Someday~
For now I'll just leave this account the way it is and not make a new one.
May, depending on my finances, still commission other artists to draw stuff and upload it here then too.