Hello there, Foxer here with a new journal and, my god, 7 months, OVER HALF A YEAR without showing any signs of life, but here I am back and before you read this, if you want to go directly to my new account, you can Click on the link: https://www.furaffinity.net/user/panchiphat/, but I highly recommend reading this entire journal so you can find out about:

Why a new account?, What happened to me in these 7 months?, Will you continue with the same fetishes in your drawings? And finally, what will happen to Foxer and your other characters?

All these questions will be answered throughout this text, so, without further ado, I am going to start.

Why a new account?
Starting with this, I already know that many will be telling me: "What a bullshit, you could only change your image, it was not necessary" or "Why did you change it if you already had a fan base?". Of course, I understand that this account had a number of followers, that my drawings had a good reception with your comments and favorites, and also that I had artist friends who loved what I did, BTW, those who followed me on Twitter and those who I had added in Discord they will be asking me: "WHY THE FUCK DID YOU REMOVE YOUR TWITTER AND DISCORD SUDDENLY AND WITHOUT NOTICE?".

I know, I know it was something so son of a bitch of my part, something very unforgivable especially for my friends that I had in discord, that, if after reading this they don't want to know anything about me, I understand perfectly, I understand perfectly that they have me resentment, that they do not forgive me for this because I scared them thinking that something had happened to me or in the worst case, thinking that I was dead. I will explain this point in the “What the hell happened to me?” question.

Coming back with the new account, I create it three months ago so I can focus on a fursona I had when Foxer was the main fursona, WHICH EVEN that fursona is older than Foxer himself. This fursona is a skinny brown cat named Panchi and, since Foxer was already the FURSONA OF THE ACCOUNT, I decided better to create another one to dedicate it to Panchi, yes, I still draw fat furries, but I will clarify that later.
Now, why didn't I include Panchi in Foxerbun? Well, because I also wanted to start from scratch, start letting new people know Panchi from the beginning, of course I regret not having notified you guys from day 1 that I created my account, but I will clarify it in a moment.
Long story short, I'm currently drawing on a new account where fat furries are still the main theme of it.

What happened to me in these last 7 months?

The golden question, the most important in the text since it involves me and what has been happening with myself for more than half a year.

Here I go.

"Why did you delete your Twitter and Discord suddenly and without warning?", "Why didn't you leave a note or something?", "Why did you leave us abandoned?" The answer to all this is: BECAUSE THE MIND IS A SON OF A BITCH.

Let me explain, two weeks before I left so suddenly I was under a lot, but when I say a lot I mean A LOT, A LOT of anxiety, emotional problems, lack of sleep, lack of motivation, impotence and, on top of that, a pathological gambling problem that never seemed to go away of my head, the result of that, my mind was very shattered and screwed up, so much so that there were nights when I hardly slept at all or just couldn't.

Thanks to all this mental mix and bad habits that, fortunately, I did not fall into worse vices such as drugs or alcohol, I had days when I had horrible mental crises in which the main symptoms were: Intense anxiety attacks, impotence, lack of strength of will and blocks, menaing that I did actions without first thinking about the consequences. Among those actions was the one where I deleted my twitter and discord and, of course, leaving Foxerbun.

Now, you may be wondering: "Well yes, you deleted your social networks, but, even so, why didn't you notify on your FA about it?" Back, because I was in a fucking mental breakdown that prevented me from having the guts to take responsibility for what I did that morning.

“Did you ask for help?”, “Did you talk to your family about it?” Fortunately yes, because a day came when I couldn't take it anymore, between tears I told my mother everything that was happening to me, who is a saint who always listens to me, understands and looks for solutions so that her son doesn't get disturb with anything in life.
After telling her about my situation, she helped me get therapy with a psychologist which lasted approximately four months. It should be noted that I started going to therapy about three months after deleting my social networks and forgetting my FA account.

It was three long and intense months that, honestly, I don't wish would happen to anyone, because having a mental crisis is horrible. I take advantage of this section to tell you that, if you have a situation like this, ASK FOR HELP AND GO TO A SPECIALIST, that's what these people are for, they will be there to listen and find the best solution to the problems you have.

Returning to the subject, after therapy the psychologist prescribed me some Sertraline pills, perhaps some of you know it as "Zoloft", an antidepressant that has really helped me a lot in recent months. The dose basically consists of: 1 tablet per day, preferably at bedtime and for life, but that does not bother me since I prefer that to having all those problems again.

As I mentioned before, the therapy was really a great choice, since nowadays I feel much better in terms of my mood and motivation, obviously being an artist I will continue to have the famous "ARTBLOCKS" from time to time, but that's something totally different which I will take care of myself.
Thanks to my regaining motivation and willpower, my gambling addiction is under control, I no longer feel those urges or the ravages of withdrawal and, thanks to the same willpower, I wrote this to inform you of everything that happened to me in the second half of the 2021.

I am happier? Well, obviously like any human being YES, but I also have my moments of sadness, nostalgia, anger, etc. Believe me while I was writing this journal I had so many mixed feelings.

Nostalgia because 7 months without posting anything and remembering my old followers and friends, which, in the same way that it makes me nostalgic every time I remember them thinking about "What are they doing now?" I also feel sadness for, well, more than sadness it is regret for not notifying them, for letting them suddenly abandon us like that, among other things that I do not want to cover more deeply so as not to cause a possible forced sorrow.

Concluding this question, nowadays I feel much better in my moods and with myself.

Will you continue with the same fetishes in your drawings?

Short answer: YES, BUT NOT ALL. That is to say, I will continue with fetishes related to fat and curved bodies such as “Facesitting”, “Butt Squashing”, “Breast Squashing”, “Butt Crushing”, “Breast Crushing”, “Bellies” and “Erotic”.
BUT, and this will be possible bad news for some of my followers, FART FETISH, GOODBYE. As you have just read, I have stopped making drawings with Fart Fetish, because I no longer find the same as attractive as before, so, for my followers and friends who love fart fetish, I am very sorry to disappoint you.
However, the fetishes mentioned above will still be part of my drawings on my new account.

And, finally with the last question:

"What will happen to Foxer and your other characters?"

I thought for a long time about an answer, coming to the conclusion that, I CAN ADD THEM but obviously I would have to remove the fart fetish from them. Will your company of fat models continue? BUT OF COURSE YES, Only it has a new name: Soft Voluptuous Anthro Girls (S.V.A.G). So... yeah, Foxer, Jennie, Landria, Johann and all my OC'S will be still appearing on the new account. Of course I haven't draw them because well, I made the journal today and before start writing it, I was still doubting if I would add them or not, but the answer is: YES, THEY WILL STILL APPEAR, so, FOXER IS NOT DEAD.

Once these questions have been answered, all that remains is to say THANK YOU. Thank you for all the support you gave me over the years in this old account, it may sound somewhat hypocritical because that abandonment of me for many was interpreted as a bad thank you from my part, and I totally understand you, I would have interpreted it that way too.

Thanks for the favorites, for the comments, for everything and sorry for so little of my part.
If you want to give WATCH to the new account, go ahead, you are totally welcome, and if not, no problem, it is not mandatory that you do it, I do not force you to do it.

And a message for my friends that I had, if you want to communicate with me again via discord, you are also welcome to send me a NOTE in THE NEW ACCOUNT to pass on my ID, and if you don't want to know anything, go ahead, I understand perfectly.

THANK YOU SO MUCH TO THOSE WHO STAYED TO READ THE ENTIRE JOURNAL, AND I HAVE NO OTHER THAN TO TELL YOU THAT WE WILL SEE YOU THERE AND REMEMBER: “ALWAYS LOVE BIG AND CHUNKY”

LINK AGAIN: https://www.furaffinity.net/user/panchiphat/