I need to rip the bandaid off- I'm stopping public commissions for the foreseeable future

-PRIVATE ONES i'll still do
-CURRENT PIECES i'm working on will still be completed
-ANYONE STILL IN MY QUEUE still will still be seen and have their works still drawn

I'm really sorry, i feel like i'm letting so many people down and it hurts a lot knowing I am, I'm legitimately sad typing all this, it hurts- so many people are interested, even people I like and look up to, but this whole thing is just falling apart for me and it's not fair to the clients at all

Comm work stopped being just a source of income and became my *entire life*, literally day to night thinking and planning and working so often while our economy just implodes on itself- it stopped being fun and turned into something to survive this current econ hellscape and AI art rise

Doesn't help that i **literally** i think haven't drawn anything for myself for 2 years. Nothing. Maybe some sketches but nowhere near the stuff that I made before- Drawing is taxing now and it sucks, my hand hurts and I know each time i slow down I'm letting my clients down, and that's inexcusable

Maybe I'm being a little too over-emotional about this but it does hurt knowing my output is getting worse, i'm getting sloppier, and I have literally no time to really practice or draw for myself

My clients matter to me. A lot. I care deeply about ideas they care about and to know I'm not delivering for them increasingly is absolutely inexcusable

I'm sorry, i just feel a lot of pressure and it's literally only MY fault, none of yours- I feel like i haven't been able to really live a life for 2 years now

Many of you are my friends, and even if not, I take my job (perhaps too) seriously because you matter to me, this community matters a lot to me, i don't want to wreck that trust or my friendships, and I'm honestly really sorry