Well im just doing this one for updates for anyone that would like to read or comment on, as well as find out anything new about comms and what not.
To start this off is i have some great news, i have officially and finally put my two weeks in at krogers near my house in ohio. I've made this decision because i honestly feel like the job is not working well, i am not paid enough to keep going, even with my full time casino job, it being part time, only getting paid $100 a week isnt great. And even when i was full time at krogers it still wasnt paying enough, it was 450 a week. PLUS, there policies, and methods are just messed up, they dont pay for overtime, they micro-manage constantly, they do not reward for a good job with working (they thinking feeding us is good enough).
Where as, the casino feeds us, rewards us monetarily for a good job, and makes sure we are doing a good job. AND the staff and managers kick ass and are really cool, a lot of them are really nerdy which is cool.

With this going, i have been going to the gym every day or every other day and its been helping a lot, ive gained more energy, i feel stronger, plus more awake. My weight training has been going well to where i try to change it up a small bit every time i go in, i do a machine i havent done in a while, i increase the weight a bit, i go a bit longer than desired, i even do more sets if possible. In a nut shell heres my gym routine:

3 sets 30 pull downs 75lbs
4 sets 30 pec fly 40lbs
3 sets 50 calf ext 115lbs
3 sets 30 leg press 90lbs
6 sets 30 core scrunch
4 sets 30 abs press 85lbs.
3 sets 30 rows 85lbs

The only thing i gotta get back on now is to start eating better again -____- yeah i kinda slipped..

Commission wise is going good, its just slow moving still because i need to time to advertise and draw more on a daily basis, just to keep activity going as well as do more YCH's. So with this, once i get the job done and over with. ill be going to the tattoo shop and doing more art as planned because of increased time open. So yes commissions are still going on, ive got some YCH's planned and redraws going as you can see from my posting. So if anyone wants a YCH done, or anything i am more than happy to do them!! :D

Mentally i am doing ok, like with the gym feeling a lot better and all that. Plus im doing small things for myself again to where i feel good, got a haircut, shaved, increased activity, improving at the shop, getting things done around the house. As well as this even with me doing ok mentally i am talking to someone, but i dont think its going great, especially on my end. Even though i do feel good with this person to a degree, i do not feel love like they do, they are all about it, head over heels, etc. With me i do not feel love like they do and i do not feel like there's really a connection, there is barely or not too much in common, other than a physical one. And yes we both like to crochet, but thats about it. They have issues going on that i am unable to help with, and even though they are in the same state as i am, its a situation to where its still a long distance relationship, plus communication sucks to where i am unable to talk at all or barely at all, and we really dont have too much to talk about, so yes she talks and controls a lot of the talking. And YES I KNOW, i said it too early, i said THE THING, at first but after a month it does not feel that way. And i felt at first it was going to go well. And ive tried to talk and end it but they, and i guess their aunt kept me in. It feels like a situation-ship. I honestly feel like i am in something that was good on paper, but execution wise it needs to be abandoned because nothing can be forged from it. And personally i feel drained mentally and emotionally. Yes i know i caused part of it, but still i do have feelings about this as well as her. So i dont know what to do other than talk, stand my ground, and end it.