Hey guys n´gals and everthing inbetween. How´s it going?

Just thought I should try and uh... talk a bit about what´s happening with me and my life, or why I´m hardly posting or creating art, to anyone who cares.
I really don´t know if anyone cares, cause besides trying to tell people who´s art I love on here, ...that I love their art, I´ve not been talking on FA at all. So here goes.

So... I have been diagnosed with Dysthymia a couple years ago (depression as an artist... what a shocker right? lol) and I can´t really get out of it.
Some days have been and still are very rough, but I´m glad I think, that these dark days didn´t escalate too much. After all I´m still here.

I´m taking medication to dull it, but it´s still hard for me, to even do the most simple things in my day to day life.
Drawing included. It´s been one of the most complicated things for me to get a grip on or kinda... deal with it? Sometimes I wanna draw and then I can actually get something really small done.
But most of the times I can´t draw at all. Which sucks.
I´m frustrated beyond belief, that I cannot kinda "control" or get over it and just draw what I want.
The whole thing makes me feel helpless, sad and angry, so I mostly try and ignore or distract myself with other things like playing games, to prevent myself from falling down that hole too deep again.
Still... really sucks that I am this way and might never get better. I have a lot of other shitty things going on in the health department as well (might be suffering from a form of ADHD for example), but
I feel like my depression is the one really hindering/preventing me from getting into creative moods nowadays, or rather for years, the most.

So yeah. That´s been bascially why I haven´t posted much and won´t post as much in the future as well. I´ll try to get better and post more anyway, but I really don´t know what the future brings
or what my life looks like in the next few years. I´ll try and update a bit more for anyone who cares and/or want´s to know why I´ve not been doing much here.

That said... have a great day everyone and see you soon <3
byebye~