Well, first a little back ground. Everything here is going to be about my mom's side of the family. My grandpa and grandmother got divorced back in 87 and now my grandma lives in Regina near my parents and my grandpa lives in Ontario with his wife, Lynn. My mom's brother, Doug, and his family live in Houston Texas. He has one son who is my age and a set of male twins, Jeff and Scott. Both 19.
For the last week or so I have been in Ontario visiting my grandfather. It was a decent trip and I was going home on Monday. Well on Sunday as we (my mom, grandpa, Lynn and I) were eating at a very nice restaurant. As we were finishing off desert the server came up to us and told us there was an emergency phone call. My grandpa took the call. My cousin Jeff had died. It was a head on car accident. My mom broke down into pieces. We had to take her to the bathroom to calm down. My grandfather was stoic and Lynn was worried about his soul. I still dont really feel anything, I never really knew him that well. It has been 8-10 years since i saw him. Due to my time in the states and other things I have not been able to get to the family holidays. At any rate we had to spread the news to the rest of the family. My grandma in regina is crushed. My sister could not talk, she is in shock. My uncle, well he is barely holding on. It is horrible. it is as if an atom bomb just went off in our family. Everyone is headding to Houston now. My mom and I flew back to our homes yesterday as planned. My dad mom grandma and little sister are flying as I type, my grandpa and Lynn are already there (they got a very early flight today). My older sister is flying down from New Hampshire where she just finished off with Barak. I cant get down there. The tickets from Canada at this kind of notice are $2000. I dont have that kind of money. I cant ask my dad to pay. I am moved and saddened by the ordeal, but not because I knew Jeff, but because I know my family. I am upset for my family... for all thoes that loose a loved one to an untimely event. I want to be there, but I dont know if I have a place there right now for such a cost. I just got off a trip for which my dad payed, and I took time off work. I go back to work tomorrow.

This is so completely surreal.... Just.... unimaginable...

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