So. my last journal update was like, 2 years ago. Crazy. So, lets see if I can update folks. So, the Bottom surgery thing fell through. Was never able to reach out to anyone and I got fed up with it. In time I wanna get it done but for now, I have other pressing issues and worries. One of the worries I have is well... the current state of the Nation. I hope I am not the first to I am terrified of how close to World War two Germany we are right now. Every bloody week it is something new that the Fanta Fash and his Goonies are trying to shove down the pipe line. I really need to get my passport in order. Outside of that, Had some Job troubles. Management values Profit over people and tried to force me to work three machines at the same time. I said no, took a pay cut and left for another position. Bad mistake. They did everything they could to set me up for failure. After a trip to the Coast with a wonderful Canadian friend and my BF, I made the choice to switch up my career. Oh yeah, I have a BF now. Well, We have been dating for like a year now but yeah. When I first met him, he was Identifying as something else. It has been a journey and he is finally meds and help he needs. I am so proud of him. Anyway, yeah, made the leap and went to Driver's School to become a Truck driver. Honestly, every step of the way was a challenge but, I had support. I really do not think I could of done this without my friends. I got my CDL Class A and I am officially a Truck Driver now. I am making roughly $1300 a week which, feels really nice since I had Zero Income for like, three months. While in school, I met some wonderful people and I feel lucky to meet such wonderful people. Friends I hope to hold onto for a while. The Trucking job is temporary honestly. I do not see myself doing this for the rest of my life. I just wanna stack up my money again, and get a House, my surgeries done, and have enough money to afford being able to go to school and become a Radiology Nurse. That is the plan anyway. Where exactly me and my BF choose to set down roots is still up in the air but, that is the goal for now. Depression and Anxiety are still an everyday struggle. I know I am a lot at times but, I am managing. One day I hope I can let go of all the trauma, all the pain, off the regret. On the plus side, I don't have to pretend like I am normal anymore, I don't have to deal with dickhead Managers, I can wear what I want (within reason). Honestly, the hardest part of my job now is looking out for other drivers who don't realize that a Truck of sixty thousand pounds or more can not stop on a dime like in a regular vehicle. That and the Loneliness. I miss my soft BF when out on the road. I try and get as much time with him as I can. Love him to bits. Outside of some minor things, I really think he might be the one. We mesh so well, we communicate so effortlessly. I have screwed up so many relationships in the past but, I think I might of finally found my people, I might of finally found my other half. Wild how life is y'know? One Moment you are up high, the other you are down low, next you can be somewhere completely different then you ever imagined.

When it comes to my relationship with the Furry Fandom, Honestly, I don't fully align myself with it anymore. It was a huge part of my life for like 15 years now but, I feel like one day I am gonna just Scrub the Internet of all the art, and ve gotten, drew, and paid for. I enjoyed my time as Angel. She helped me get to where I am now and I will forever treasure the people and moments I made as her. I just feel like one day, I will finally spread my wings and bloom into something new, something more... Me. That's a little hint as what my Fusona is now. If anyone cares to guess that is. I doubt anyone actually reads these. As always folk...

Peas and Carrots!