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General | Posted a year agoHey everyone! I just wanted to let you into what's been going on with me lately.
I had some major health revelations that have led to me finally getting the correct medication, after having been on the wrong one for two years!!
I was diagnosed in 2020 with two hormone conditions which have finally illuminated the cause of my erratic emotions, overthinking, and constant anxiety.
I was put on medication for these conditions, and all was well for a wee while, until I moved down to the South Island.
I went to a new doctor in the new suburb I lived in, and I informed her of my medications, but she insisted I try a different route.
I had a full 6 months of back and forth blood tests while we "tried to find the right formula", meanwhile my mood became very unstable, I was crying constantly with no real reason why, I was antagonistic and aggressive and I had a lot less self control. Those who know me know, I am quite a passionate person lol. I'm very protective of those I care about, and that can manifest negatively into anger. But, this was a new level of unstable.
I had been on the wrong medication until October of last year. When I requested my new doctor in my current location to go back to the old medication, she looked at me befuddled I had been on the other medication in the first place! I did fight tooth and nail to tell the first doctor that I wanted to stick to my current medication, but she instead insisted in me getting more expensive medication + a bunch of unnecessary blood tests. I have a really bad needle phobia, so you can imagine how that went lol.
Now that I am back on the correct medication, I am finally calm. Now that I look back at my past and how sensitive I was, I probably had these conditions since my teenage years and it was never noticed. I just assumed (justifiably) that I was simply an emotional person, lol. I look back now and think, "man, I could have had this solved all those years ago and avoided so much shit." but you can't go back in time.
The first few days on my updated medication were very eye opening. I felt very zombie-like for a bit, and became moderately anxious because I was no longer constantly overthinking and constantly ruminating. I even went to my close friend and asked her if I was crazy for being weirded out by it, and she laughed and told me; "No, you're just normal now!"
It feels very strange to be able to calmly handle issues, and to not panic and feel stressed over every tiny thing. I have my moments of course, everyone gets overwhelmed, but this life changing for me. I can actually THINK. I don't read into things too much anymore. I can actually use my logic now. It's scary for me lol! But, in a good way! It's definitely been an adjustment, but one that has definitely made my life much better and much more enjoyable.
I'm very relieved to finally be the true me, as my friend put it. I also want to extend thanks to all those wonderful people who showed me kindness and understanding even when I was very unhinged. They helped me become able to control my anger and learn coping mechanisms, they're just fantastic. I owe so much to all of you, and I'm very grateful.
Here's to a fruitful 2025!! Let's make it a good one aye?
- Nemu x๐ฉ๐๐๐๐๐๐
General | Posted a year agoI've created a Bluesky, but it's more of an "every OC" one! I probably will create a Hawthorn dedicated one at later point in time.
My Bluesky is here!
โ๏ธHi, I'm alive!!
General | Posted 3 years agoIt's been a long journey, but I am finally in my new home and settled. Finally, I can have my own space and privacy like I've wanted for years ; u;
Move in day was today, hence the lack of communication & commission posting, but I will be doing my best to play catch up!
Here's to a new beginning, and a fantastic rest of 2023!
Thank you so much, everyone, for your patience with me. I hope that now, I can finally relax and not be all on edge about the move anymore! ; ;
- Nemu xYearly Update time!
General | Posted 3 years agoHiya everyone, I hope you had a wonderful New Years and I wish you all the best for this year.
2022... wow, what a year. It was full of everything from heartbreak to elation. The best thing that happened was definitely more growth as a person. Bit by bit my angry former self is fading into more of a "not my problem, not my business" sort of outlook, lol. I've always been nosy and have a tendency to stretch myself too thin with my patience, and it caused a bit [a lot] of trouble with my mental state, so a lot of 2022 was about defining what I am okay to deal with. It turns out, not as much as I thought. I have little tolerance for bullshit, and it's becoming lesser and lesser by the year.
2022 also brought with it a very scary Covid experience which was terrible to deal with. I have auto immune issues so it wiped me out, I had a fever for the first night and after that it became more flu-like, but I still have the Covid cough. = u=;
My house is still in process sadly, as we had a Covid wave hit New Zealand which kinda wiped out the workforce. I am at a new job which I...am trying to like, truly. I just don't enjoy it and I plan to leave when the house is completed this April [I hope]. I have been preparing for the prospect of living alone and have been purchasing houseware etc, which has made me very excited to move in and get started. My biggest purchase this year so far has been a standing desk which will hopefully aid my back pain which has been caused by a desk that is waaaayyy too low for me.
Honestly, the main thing that changed during 2022 was myself. My outlook on things has shifted. I was always kind of a firecracker and the type to hold grudges, but now I'm growing older and maturing, I realise it's time to let go of the things and the people who are bad for me. Be less trusting and more aware. It's time to let go of the fanciful, young-at-heart self I was and time to step into adult's shoes, this time fully.
I hope you all have a fantastic year. I have a feeling this year is going to be one of great change and adjustment, and I'm looking forward to it.
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MERRY CHRISTMAS
General | Posted 3 years ago
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๐ ๐ฏ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฏ๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐!! ๐
Finally caught Covid
General | Posted 3 years agoIt took 2 years to get me but it finally did. I'm actually doing pretty okay, I was worried going in as I have a history of bronchitis and issues surrounding that. I've had like 3 people from the NZ Ministry of Health call me to monitor my symptoms lol.
Apart from feeling like I've been smacked over the head I'm alright. Don't worry frens c: will bounce back no worries.Understanding the Star
General | Posted 3 years agoโญ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐โ๐ฆ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐ก๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ - ๐โ๐ ๐ฟ๐๐ก๐ก๐๐ ๐ต๐๐๐. ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐'๐ ๐๐๐๐โ๐ก๐๐ ๐ก ๐ ๐ก๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ , ๐กโ๐ ๐๐๐๐กโ๐๐๐ ๐๐ก๐๐ ๐คโ๐๐โ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐'๐ โ๐๐ ๐ก ๐ ๐ก๐๐ & ๐ถ๐๐๐.
โญ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ - ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐๐๐๐กโ๐๐๐ ๐๐ก๐๐ - ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ด๐๐๐ก๐๐ ๐ ๐ก๐๐, ๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐ฆ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐๐๐๐กโ ๐๐๐๐. ๐โ๐๐ โ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ข๐๐ก๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐โ๐๐ โ๐๐ ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ โ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐ก, ๐๐ข๐๐ ๐คโ๐๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐ก ๐คโ๐๐โ ๐๐ ๐ฃ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐โ๐ก๐๐, ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ โ๐๐ ๐๐๐ก๐ข๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ค๐๐๐.
โญ ๐ด ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐'๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐โ๐ฆ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐ก๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐โ๐ โ๐๐๐๐ก, ๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ข๐. ๐ผ๐ก ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ข๐๐ก๐๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐กโ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ก ๐๐๐ค๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ค๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ก ๐๐ ๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐. ๐ผ๐ ๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐โ๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ฆ๐๐ ๐๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐ข๐๐ก๐ ๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐. ๐๐๐๐ข๐'๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐ - ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ ๐ ๐ก๐๐ - ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐-๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐, ๐คโ๐๐โ ๐๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐ค๐๐กโ ๐๐๐ฆ๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ .
โญ ๐๐๐ ๐ก ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐กโ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐บ๐๐๐๐ฅ๐ฆ ๐ถ๐๐ข๐๐๐๐๐. ๐๐ก ๐ค๐๐ข๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐ข๐๐ ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ โ๐๐ก๐ก๐๐ ๐กโ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ฆ ๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐'๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐.
โญ ๐๐๐๐ข๐'๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐-๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ค๐๐๐๐๐ค๐ ๐ก๐ โ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐. ๐โ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐, ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ก๐๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ โ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐.
โญ ๐๐๐๐ข๐'๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐ข๐๐ ๐๐ ~๐ถ.๐ธยฐ๐ถ.
โญ ๐๐๐๐ข๐'๐ ๐๐๐ก๐ข๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐ท๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐โ๐ก๐๐๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ โ๐๐ ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ โ๐๐ ๐ ๐ข๐๐๐๐๐๐-๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐, ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ก ๐กโ๐ ๐๐ด๐
๐ธ ๐๐๐๐ก ๐๐ ๐๐๐โ๐ก๐๐๐๐.
โญ ๐๐๐๐ข๐'๐ ๐๐๐ค๐๐๐๐ , ๐ก๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ โ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ โ๐ข๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐โ๐ก ๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ ๐ โ๐๐๐ ๐คโ๐๐โ ๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ ๐คโ๐๐ ๐ โ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ฅ๐๐๐ก๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐โ๐ก๐๐๐๐.
โญ ๐ป๐๐ ๐๐ฆ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐กโ โ๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ก ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ฅ๐ฆ.
โญ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐ค๐๐กโ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ , ๐๐๐ฆ๐๐๐๐๐๐ , ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐โ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐ . ๐โ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐กโ๐ค๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐โ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ข๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ฃ๐๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐กโ๐๐๐ .
โญ ๐ผ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ , ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ข๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐โ๐๐ก๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ , ๐กโ๐๐ข๐โ ๐กโ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ข๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ฆ.
โญ ๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ก๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐ค๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐ค๐๐กโ ๐ ๐๐๐โ๐ก๐๐๐๐, ๐กโ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ข๐ ๐ข๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ฆ๐๐๐๐๐๐ง๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ฆ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐, ๐๐ ๐คโ๐๐โ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐ค๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ฆ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐คโ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ฆ.
โญ ๐โ๐ ๐ค๐๐๐ ๐ค๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐ก ๐กโ๐๐ ๐ ๐คโ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ค๐๐ก๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ก ๐กโ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ข๐๐๐๐. ๐๐ ๐กโ๐๐ ๐ ๐ข๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ก๐ข๐๐ ๐๐๐ก๐๐ก๐๐๐ , ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐-๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ข๐๐ ๐คโ๐๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐.
โญ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐ ๐ก๐ข๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ก๐๐๐, ๐ โ๐ ๐ข๐ ๐๐ ๐กโ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ข๐๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐ค๐๐กโ ๐โ๐๐๐๐๐๐'๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ .
โญ ๐โ๐ โ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ข๐๐๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ฆ โ๐๐โ ๐๐ฅ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ก๐๐๐ ๐๐ โ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ โ๐๐ ๐๐๐ก๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ โ๐๐ ๐๐ค๐ ๐ค๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ ๐กโ๐๐ ๐ ๐ โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ก๐ . ๐ผ๐ก ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ก๐๐ข๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ก.
โญ ๐ด๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐ฆ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ , ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ป๐ฆ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ , ๐ธ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ , ๐ผ๐๐ก๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ [๐๐๐๐ค๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐], ๐น๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ข๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ .
โญ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ ๐ข๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ฆ, ๐ โ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐ข๐ ๐๐ โ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ค๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ ๐ข๐๐๐๐๐ข๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ค๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐ ๐ค๐๐๐.
โญ ๐โ๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ โ๐ฆ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐.
โญ ๐ป๐๐ ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ข๐๐๐ก๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐, ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ข๐๐๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ข๐๐๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ก ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ก.
โญ ๐โ๐๐ข๐โ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ ๐บ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ โ๐๐ ๐๐ค๐ ๐๐๐โ๐ก, ๐๐๐๐ข๐ โ๐๐ ๐๐๐ก๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐คโ๐ ๐ค๐๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ก๐ข๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ก๐ข๐๐๐๐๐ฆ, โ๐๐ค๐๐ฃ๐๐ ๐๐ฅ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐๐ฆ, ๐๐ฅ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐ ๐๐๐ค๐๐ฆ.
โญ ๐๐๐๐ข๐'๐ ๐ค๐๐๐๐๐ - ๐ฟ๐ข๐๐๐๐ฆ - ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐ข๐๐ ๐๐๐ฆ๐ ๐ก๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐คโ๐๐โ ๐๐๐ ๐ โ๐๐๐๐ โ๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐ก๐ ๐ ๐๐ฆ๐๐, ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ฃ๐.
โญ ๐๐๐๐ข๐'๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ ๐ก ๐ค๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ฅ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐๐ , โ๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐ก๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐โ๐ก.
โญ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ โ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐ฟ๐ข๐๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐ข๐๐ก, ๐๐๐ ๐กโ๐๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ข๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฃ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐โ๐ก ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐โ๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ข๐๐๐๐โ๐ก. ๐ฟ๐ข๐๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐ข๐๐ก ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐คโ๐๐๐ ๐ก ๐กโ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐ข๐๐ก ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐โ๐ฆ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ก๐ก๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ค๐๐ ๐ .
โญ ๐๐๐๐ข๐'๐ ๐โ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐กโ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐กโ๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก ๐ ๐๐๐กโ๐๐๐ข๐โ ๐๐๐ค๐ ๐คโ๐๐โ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ข๐โ ๐๐ โ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐คโ๐๐๐ ๐ก ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ก. ๐โ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ โ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐ ๐ฃ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐โ๐ก. ๐ด๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ ๐ฃ๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ข๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐๐ - ๐กโ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐โ๐ก, ๐กโ๐๐ข๐โ ๐๐ก ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐. ๐ท๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐'๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐กโ๐ข๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ป๐ข๐ โ, ๐ โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ข๐๐๐ก ๐๐ ๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐โ๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ก๐๐๐.
โญ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ฅ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐๐ข๐๐ ๐๐๐ โ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐. ๐๐๐ ๐ก ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐กโ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐กโ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐ ๐๐ ๐กโ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ก. ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐ท๐ธ๐ฟ, ๐คโ๐๐โ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ โ๐๐ ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐กโ.
โญ ๐ป๐๐ โ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ฃ๐๐๐ข๐๐๐๐๐ข๐ , ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐'๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ ๐๐ โ๐๐ค ๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐ค๐๐ข๐๐ ๐๐๐๐. ๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ก๐ ' ๐๐๐ข๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ โ๐๐ ๐ ๐ก๐๐ก๐๐ ๐โ๐๐๐๐.
โญ ๐๐๐๐ข๐'๐ ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก ๐ค๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ โ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ก๐๐๐กโ๐๐. ๐๐๐ก๐๐๐กโ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ก๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐กโ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐กโ๐๐ก โ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐ค๐๐ฃ๐๐ ๐กโ๐๐๐ข๐โ๐๐ข๐ก ๐๐๐๐ข๐โ๐ โ๐ข๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ข๐ โ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ฆ. ๐โ๐๐ ๐ ๐กโ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ก ๐๐ข๐ ๐ก ๐๐๐๐๐๐กโ โ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐, ๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ก'๐ ๐๐๐๐ค๐ , ๐ข๐๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ข๐๐ค๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ข๐ ๐ก ๐๐๐๐๐๐กโ โ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ . ๐โ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐ ๐ข๐๐ โ๐๐๐กโ ๐๐๐ ๐ โ๐๐๐กโ ๐๐ข๐๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ฆ, ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ก๐๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ฆ. ๐๐๐ก๐๐๐กโ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ข๐ก ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐โ๐ก, ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ก โ๐๐โ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ฃ๐, ๐๐ข๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐กโ๐ฆ. ๐ผ๐ก ๐ค๐๐ข๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐ก๐ก๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ โ๐๐ฆ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐ข๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ข๐๐; ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ฆ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐ก๐ค๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐กโ.
โญ ๐โ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ข๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ก๐๐๐กโ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ฆ. ๐ด๐ ๐๐๐ก๐๐๐กโ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ข๐๐๐๐๐, ๐กโ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐ฃ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ฆ๐, ๐๐ก ๐๐๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ก ๐ค๐๐๐. ๐ผ๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐ค๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ โ๐๐๐๐ ๐ค๐๐กโ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐ , ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ก๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข๐ ๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐ค๐๐กโ๐๐ข๐ก ๐ฆ๐๐ข๐ ๐๐๐๐ค๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข๐ ๐๐๐๐๐กโ๐๐๐๐, ๐๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐กโ๐๐๐ข๐โ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐ข๐๐ก๐ .
โญ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ ๐๐โ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ค๐๐๐ โ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ค๐๐๐๐๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐ โ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ค๐๐๐๐ .
Kiriban Winner!!
General | Posted 3 years agoCONGRATULATIONS SelianneKiriban Rules
General | Posted 3 years agoHoly crap you guys are close so rules time!!
The rules:
IF YOU ARE THE 33333rd viewer of my page, screenshot it and send it to me via note. The first to do so will receive an art piece together with any of my OCs. This is on the house! You do not have to contribute a cent~!
ANYONE can enter this! (As long as I don't have you blocked etc), so don't be afraid and give it your best shot!
I will be judging the winner based on the first to send me the screenshot, and I will also be checking the properties of the image to confirm the correct timing.
ONLY SCREENSHOTS SENT VIA NOTE WILL BE COUNTED
๐พ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐ฆ๐๐!KIRIBAN AT 33333 VIEWS
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KEEP AN EYE OUT!Music Commissions??
General | Posted 3 years agoHiya! So I've been wanting to commission a custom theme for my OCs for EVER! I just don't know where to look or begin to find someone who does it. Does anyone have any recommendations??Page Update + Nemui
General | Posted 3 years ago
Hi there everyone!
You may know me as Hawthorn and Seraph. and I've been focusing a lot on everyone other than Nemui.
This is largely because a few years ago I disconnected from Nemui after some personal things happened in my life, and it made me question my bond with her.
At the moment Kiramori owns Nemui but we have a mutual agreement that I am free to use her too, so don't worry there's no art theft or OC theft on either end!
From the beginning, Nemui has been a wish fulfilment character. I wish I was airy and dreamy and calm, not always an outspoken person. Honestly, I think I've become much calmer and dreamier over time, because I definitely have a lot of Nemui's traits now more than ever.
Personality wise, however, I am more like Hawthorn. I'm a firecracker who has a lot of trauma and a tendency to isolate. Seraph, meanwhile, is a totally isolated individual with wild madness brought on by a desperate wish to change the past which I'm sure we can all resonate with.
Realistically though, I've come to realise that Nemui and Hawthorn are two sides of the same coin, they have the same base belief in duty, and the same base belief that they're the only one who can do their job.
One is fire, one is ice, they're two toned versions of that same virtue.
With this in mind, I have decided to put a bit more work into Nemui and I want to make her a bit more substantial whilst cutting down her massive biography to be more streamlined and use terms that people can understand without a glossary.
People seem to know me first and foremost as Nemui, despite my focus on Hawthorn, and I want to cherish and honour that. Being Nemui has opened so many doors I never knew existed. I'm so grateful for all the experiences, good and bad, this name and account has brought me.
Thank you all for following me and for inspiring me to continue to grow. I've been on this account for five years now and it warms my heart to see the love that my silly ideas have received. From working in a gift shop and being inspired by a temperature reader (yes, this is literally what inspired Nemui) to in a call centre working from home until 6am, I have been allowed to invent and create (when my mind lets me). The fact it is engaging enough to have followers and fans blows my mind. So, thank you.
Instead of focusing on one over the other, I will embrace both. I'm too old for identity crises over pixels now, lol.
I also made a huge update to this page, I wanted to reflect on the changes Nemui is going through and wanted to make it a bit simpler while adding more pretty shiny decor. Feel free to share your thoughts on it, and let me know if you think it's too much or too bright etc, I'd love some feedback! Huge shoutout to PetiteMimi for the beautiful icons which she made for me, which I hope to add more of to the page eventually!
Thanks everyone, have a wonderful day/night, and may the stars always shine down upon you. โฅ
๐ฝ๐ข๐ ๐ก ๐ ๐๐๐ก๐...
General | Posted 3 years ago๐ฎโ ๐จโ๐ฆโ๐ณโ ๐งโ๐ชโ ๐ฎโ๐ณโ๐จโ๐ทโ๐ชโ๐ฉโ๐ฎโ๐งโ๐ฑโ๐พโ ๐ซโ๐ดโ๐ทโ๐ฌโ๐ชโ๐นโ๐ซโ๐บโ๐ฑโ ๐ผโ๐ฎโ๐นโ๐ญโ ๐จโ๐ดโ๐ฒโ๐ฒโ๐ฎโ๐ธโ๐ธโ๐ฎโ๐ดโ๐ณโ๐ธโ ๐ฆโ๐ณโ๐ฉโ ๐ผโ๐ฎโ๐นโ๐ญโ ๐ทโ๐ชโ๐ธโ๐ตโ๐ดโ๐ณโ๐ฉโ๐ฎโ๐ณโ๐ฌโ ๐นโ๐ดโ ๐ณโ๐ดโ๐นโ๐ชโ๐ธโ๏น
๐ตโ๐ฑโ๐ชโ๐ฆโ๐ธโ๐ชโ ๐ซโ๐ชโ๐ชโ๐ฑโ ๐ซโ๐ทโ๐ชโ๐ชโ ๐นโ๐ดโ ๐ตโ๐ดโ๐ฐโ๐ชโ ๐ฒโ๐ชโ ๐ฎโ๐ซโ ๐ฎโ ๐ฉโ๐ดโ๐ณโฮ๐นโ ๐ทโ๐ชโ๐ธโ๐ตโ๐ดโ๐ณโ๐ฉโ๏น
๐ฎโ ๐ผโ๐ดโ๐ทโ๐ฐโ ๐ฆโ ๐ซโ๐บโ๐ฑโ๐ฑโ ๐นโ๐ฎโ๐ฒโ๐ชโ ๐ฏโ๐ดโ๐งโ ๐ธโ๐ดโ ๐ฎโ ๐จโ๐ฆโ๐ณโ ๐ดโ๐ซโ๐นโ๐ชโ๐ณโ ๐ฑโ๐ชโ๐ฆโ๐ปโ๐ชโ ๐ณโ๐ดโ๐นโ๐ชโ๐ธโ ๐ดโ๐ตโ๐ชโ๐ณโ ๐ฆโ๐ณโ๐ฉโ ๐ซโ๐ดโ๐ทโ๐ฌโ๐ชโ๐นโ ๐นโ๐ดโ ๐ทโ๐ชโ๐ตโ๐ฑโ๐พโ๏น ๐ฎโฮ๐ฒโ ๐ทโ๐ชโ๐ฆโ๐ฑโ๐ฑโ๐พโ ๐ธโ๐ดโ๐ทโ๐ทโ๐พโ๏น ๐ฎโ๐นโฮ๐ธโ ๐ณโ๐ดโ๐นโ ๐ฎโ๐ณโ๐นโ๐ชโ๐ณโ๐นโ๐ฎโ๐ดโ๐ณโ๐ฆโ๐ฑโ๏นSeraph Account!
General | Posted 4 years agoDecided to make Seraph a dedicated account for fun c: plus I enjoy playing around with new aesthetics and coding!
Happy New Years + Updates!
General | Posted 4 years agoHi everyone!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR โ
I've successfully moved into my temporary home while my new house is being built about an hour away and should be done by Spring (NZ time). My absence is in large part due to having to store my PC for 3 weeks during which time I temporarily worked in retail & stayed with some friends who had a very rambunctious toddler which - in all honesty - stressed me the fuck out ๐
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It was also super hot, so there was just no reprieve! But Christmas & New Years was great. I left Auckland on the 31st and stayed a couple of nights in a hotel to recover before completing the 12 hour drive & ferry crossing from Auckland to Christchurch! Despite being tiring, it was a fantastic adventure. It really made me appreciate the beauty of the country I call home. Every time you turned a corner there was a sight which was postcard worthy!
For those unaware, Auckland is quite humid and muggy. Christchurch is much cooler & has dry heat so Ill suffer much less, but I am starting to get a bit of a summer cold I think ๐. Apart from that I plan to catch up with people who have been trying to get a hold of me and finally play some FF14!
I also plan on slowly shifting to Hawthorn too! I will still post here but I'd like to have Hawthorn as my main account.
SO, a slightly belated MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU โกโกโก
Thank you for your patience & understanding and I wish you all the best โก!!Life Changes
General | Posted 4 years agoApologies if Im a bit hard to het a hold of! Currently going through some important changes including moving house! My PC is all packed so only on phone currently and I am a total noob at phones lol. Please have some patience with me! I'll be back on PC and speedy by New Years โก
Merry Christmas everyone! Stay safe!Not in a good mental state.
General | Posted 4 years agoHey everyone. I'm sure you've noticed my posts have been somewhat sporadic and my stories have pretty much come to a stop.
I've been feeling really unhappy with my writing and my quality lately. I've been having increasing amounts of nightmares and a crapton of work dumped on my head.
Everyone has been leaving from our team and it's been falling to me to cover the gaps. I'm exhausted, because I don't work a normal shift. I cover the graveyard shift, generally 10pm-6am. This, bearing in mind that I am on doctor's orders to have earlier shifts or less in general.
So I get my wish to go to earlier shifts, but now my sleep schedule has been entirely flipped around because of how sporadic and crazy the shifts are. I'm not handling the change to my pattern well and it's causing me to sleep too early or wake up too early, which makes me exhausted halfway through.
For example, the past 3 days I've been doing 7pm-3am or thereabouts, but tonight I'm doing 11pm-6am. That would be fine, if they hadn't asked me to work the same shift tomorrow, then 7pm-11pm the day after. Plus my boss is extremely hypocritical. When I got my second vaccine dose I was incredibly sick and asked to finish early, but she said I should use it for when I'm "actually sick". I was so sick I couldn't stop shaking. My teeth were chattering so bad I couldn't even drink. I finished an hour early. A few days later I got a bunch of errors (mistakes picked up by a team) back, and she went mad at me because I didn't take sick leave...
...you told me not to...?
Work isn't the only thing causing this stress and unhappiness. It's a lot of personal things. Drama. Dealing with the fallout of things. Trying to be there for everyone, while trying to sort my own stuff out. I'm trying really hard to keep myself together for everyone elses' sake. I'm trying to put space between me and others so that I don't lash out, because when I am exhausted I tend to be like a dog in a corner and bite the hand trying to feed me out of fear. I don't like burdening others with my issues, so I just kind of...suck it up.
Now all of my IRL friends are stressed due to the announcement of the government today, so...unfortunately I am soaking up the feelings of everyone around me. I don't want to explode. So I'm just typing out my feelings and hoping people get why I might be a bit grouchy x ux.
Sorry to kind of dump everything, but I know if I don't, I will blow up on someone I care a lot and I really don't want to. I'm probably going to look at attending virtual therapy sessions so I can get this under control, given my tendency to cave in to anger in the past. I'm much better but I want to avoid going back to old habits.
I'll be alright, it's just...hhhh, stress...Moving to Hawthorn!
General | Posted 5 years agoAlright! The voices have spoken! I've wanted to do this for months, in all honesty, but I was worried it would annoy people.
I will still be checking here for notes and such as I do all of my commissioning here, but if possible it would be great to move them to Hawthorn!
Don't worry, this isn't the 'end' of Nemui, just a small shift to somewhere I feel a bit more me c:
So please go ahead and follow 
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Hawthorn Account
General | Posted 6 years agoSo I ended up caving and making Hawthorn her own character account. I know, I know, I said I wouldn't but I really love Hawthorn and want her to stand out ; u;
Don't worry! It's not some impostor claiming to be me c:
This account will remain my main, don't worry! No need to go clamoring to ANOTHER new account.
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