It's been about a year since my last journal entry and I think it's as good a time as any to update with a promotion for the fantastically talented:

 Grimmla

I've worked with them before and it has always been a supremely positive experience with top notch quality. I couldn't recommend them more and, to anyone reading this, you should really check them out and help grow their business!

Thanks Grimmla!

And I have to say it was absolutely what I needed. It was my first time spending real time in that country and it's been half a decade since I was last in Europe, and man, I gotta say I love that continent so much. I often wish I was born in Europe, their vibe just fits me so well.

Speaking of some of my favorite Germans residents:

Visit my friend's gallery that I spent my time with over there:
 softcorn
A delightful artist and person I'd recommend anyone to follow and commission:
 kuglu
And new to this site, a wonderful and fun artist that feeds my interests daily:
 schl4fy
An artist with such a unique style that feels as natural as it is beautiful:
 drawain

Not that many of you care but I figured I need to probably make another journal entry after two years anyways. But I'm gonna be visiting a friend in Europe for a week and consiquently not very available for communication. I'm really looking forward to this, it's been half a decade since last I was over the pond.

I'm also a little preoccupied recently as I've been hosting friends at my place for the last couple months so I'm sorry for these disruptions in activity and art production.

It's been about two years since I've updated this journal lol. So, I'll just use it to promote an artist I've really admired recently.

 ukhansson Is a relatively unknown, incredible artist that does great quality art at just about the lowest possible commissioned prices. I couldn't recommend them more highly so please give them a look! And have a Merry Christmas!

 hriscia
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8511520/

I've been following this artist for years now. She's a charming and fun person and supremely talented. Her dropbeat Gods series is one of my favorite things in the fandom right now and I'm glad she's taken to FA to share these works with a larger audience. Give her some love, enter her raffle, and promote her work on your webpage so more people get to see her talented work. Good luck all, and have a Merry Christmas.

I graduated from my school about half a year ago and had an unsuccessful internship immediately afterwards. I went flat broke putting myself through school and ended up basically putting myself massively in debt when I pursued that internship at a company that doesn't respect its workers. Inevitably, I found myself in an unsustainable situation financially, so that lead me back home to Minnesota and got work at a natural gas company, making more money that I could ever hope to make as an junior level artist, and that brought me some peace of mind. I can finally catch up on my bills, and honestly, there is no stress on the planet like financial stress, so for now I'm quite content with how things are going.

I'm actually doing pretty great but I'm not going to discounting the idea of doing art as a career some day. I have a lot of other priorities in life right now that money seems to magically resolve, so that's what I'm up to these days - just working and enjoying life.



Just an update from my last journal three years ago. How's everyone else doing?

So, the school I was going to was a bit too expensive for how unrewarding it was. My advice is for people who are serious about game art and animation as a career, avoid the community college stuff (they are good for an introduction maybe) and especially the Art Institutes. The degrees you get here are worse than worthless and you develop zero contacts or credential. Roughly 1% of people who participate in these schools actually get a serious career in the Industry, so you're far better off going into debt for a school that promises a career after academic (i.e. not just any school -- you want a school that the employers actively seek graduates from).

So, I did my research and found one such program. I'm still committed to the idea of doing Game Art and Design and Animation as a career, and that's worth the investment. I was able to skirt around debt for this first academic experiment, but this next school will land me some long term expenses, which is going to be worth it when I'm making 30-40k a year.

Anyways, even though I haven't been the more prolific artist to begin with, this next year promises to be even more ridiculously busy for me, and I'll likely be very preoccupied with these things.

I'll upload some things I'm sure.

I got some big news, so here it is:

I'm living and studying in Poland for approximately the next four years.

For a while now I've been scheming up a way for me to go to school and be financially independent at the same time. Because of my 23 months of deployment to Iraq, the money I'm entitled to from the military covers 70% of school costs, and contributes a certain amount of money each year for living expenses and books (still, only up to 70% of full active duty benefits). That's not bad, not bad at all, but I'm still left trying to cover the rest of the costs, and the way the job market is on "unskilled labor" and the jacked up school costs, that monetary figure can still be way into the five-digit range by the time I'm all said and done with my schooling. And, loans have never been an option to me, nope, won't do it. So, where can I get the rest of the cash to cover the 30%? Well, that's where general government assistance comes into play: through the Pell Grant (which is adjusted up to 5k dollars based on your total income the prior year). That is actually sometimes enough to cover tuition alone, that is, if you are going to a community college and haven't worked the year before that (which was something I evinced through my going to school this summer for “free”), but that is no longer the case for me now. Additionally, we all know how expensive just /existing/ in America can be, so even assuming all of my costs for school could be covered, I still had to account for general living expenses.

Long story short: I found a way. DON'T LIVE IN AMERICA.

So, I'm not going to. I'm staying in Poland, where my currency is effectively worth three times its value in America, and I can collect on all my benefits and schooling online. And, guess what, my plan WORKS! I was right. I can live a normal, comfortable life here in Poland, and focus on my studies like a human being should be able to do (which much of the world is able to do).

This last couple weeks I've been running around like mad getting things put together in time for me to start classes, full-time, and on this very Monday (Nov 25). And, I'm pleased to say that it's in a degree that I feel I can really be passionate about, and that many people have supported or suggested for me to pursue. I'm going to the Art Institute of Pittsburgh for a degree in Game Art and Design, and I think the program and school I'm going to be attending is really cool and ideal for me. Not only do they have what I interpret as an extremely powerful online school division, but they are a private school, and a such, the classes are highly relevant, focused, and all accelerated (five weeks each), which is something I really enjoyed doing (like my summer school classes and my language school classes). I always wanted to go the Private school route, since I feel it really cuts down on the redundancies and drawn out semesters.

Still, I have one issue that remains, I have to figure out how I can possibly stay in Poland for all this time. Again, I have schemed for this. A friend of mine managed to stay in Poland for two years by hopping boarders into Ukraine for two weeks vacation, and upon returning he was good to go for another three months of visitation allowed using his Passport. Eventually I may want to get a job and ignore that hassle, but one step at a time for me. But yeah, it's kind of a "loophole" but not really, since it has to do with national affiliations, and unless Ukraine decides to change their entire face on politics, I think I'm fine. Of course, it doesn't work for every country, so I'm lucky that Ukraine is so near by, but from what I've gathered, this should pose no problem to me.

So there you have it. I'm now mostly a financially independent art student who lives in Poland for the next four years. The first year maybe a little rough on funds (I have some money saved up, however), since I worked too much last year and didn't get the full Pell Grant this period, but after that, I'll be golden, I'm sure. If all else fails, I'll come back to America in humble defeat and continue my studies from there.

Anyways, thank you guys for reading and wish me luck; I'm really excited for all this.

Also, for any of you that are interested in seeing my very best works throughout the years, you can view my "professional portfolio" right here:
http://www.behance.net/BryanMischke

You ever wonder why the documentary that John De Lancie put together has that weird, long, and convoluted name?

That's because this documentary was being made first and copy righted the good name:


What else can I say about this documentary? Well for one, this guy has a pretty decent presence in the documentary, and as such, I was kind of privy to seeing it in development. I can say that it's pretty much the documentary the fandom needs. It's not going to blow the pants off of anyone, but one thing I really appreciate is the neat outsider-looking-in narrative, via Ashleigh Ball, the documentary has (and, yes, she's freakin' adorable in this and a good sport about the whole brony thing). It also does a really good job of keeping the autism to an absolute minimum, and I can easy say that this is a great gateway documentary for showing to people outside the brony fandom.

The only thing hurting it was how long it took to put out there. The brony craze is pretty much gone these days and everyone knows what a brony is. Even I have pretty much departed from the actual fandom.

Anyways, keep an eye out.

First of all, I'm sorry for my relative inactivity on this website and the art community at large. For a long while now, I was investing myself heavily into blue-collar jobs and stuff like that to raise money for to going back to school in Poland, which I still plan on doing this summer hopefully. I've raised a good chunk of money towards this end, but because of my recent unemployment, and the fact that I can't really get any financial assistance for going to school in another country, I've pretty much fallen short of this goal and might have to redirect fire a bit, but I have backup plans for getting me over there on time still, and blah blah blah, that's all boring and uninteresting.

What I really want to talk about is some of the projects I'm going to be working on. Since I'm currently unemployed, I've had a lot of time to invest myself into more creative endeavors, and its been the soul food I've been needing for a long time.

I've started working on a Minecraft server run by DawnSomewhere.com's Greg Hoffman and Petirep, to which we collaboratively hope to construct large scale projects for exhibition on youtube, possibly turning a profit with some of that sweet youtube money for both ourselves and the site in general. And, as much as I'm looking forward to that, what I'm really looking forward to is working on a comic I've been approached to make for the website!

"In Sickness and in Health" is a story about Abigail Zucht, a charming and intelligent mother and wife who finds happiness in many of the simple pleasures of life. For weeks now, she's been attempting to contact her work-traveling husband, but to no avail, until one fateful day, after leaving her son and dog with family, she decides to embark on a train ride to visit him at his far away job, and enters into a setting of horror, occult, and political instability.

I can't tell you how much I'm happy and willing to be working on a horror story, and for once, I think my black and white style and dynamism may lend itself to a project. I'm sure most of the writing will be left in Greg's nimble hands, but much of the panel layout and art direction will be left in my control, and the whole thing will be given a modern touch with digital enhancements provided by Kenza Faten (who unfortunately doesn't have an online gallery yet). Kenza originally illustrated this comic herself, but found it a bit unwieldy to produce on her own, and since I'm also a novice in regards to comic-smithing, I think a homogenized effort between two artists will lend itself nicely to the project.

Anyways, look forward to that. In the last year, and as I've grown older, I've wanted nothing more than to devote myself to the creative process, and I have high hopes for a concerted effort towards this comic and weekly to bi-weekly updates.

euhehuehueehuehuehueh. <3

Why can't I live in Australia???

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Am7oKBD3PU

...people will hate you for it, even yourself."


*bumping my other journal because it's old and too self-important, hah*

Also, the new MLP Episode 'A Friend in Deed' may just be my new favorite of the season. I'll have to watch it again. That smile song, though, it's like... holy crap I'm happy.

For those of you that missed it on Livestream or weren't at BroNYCon. Operation "Give Nicole Oliver a Present" ended up being successful in ways that even I couldn't predict.

Basically, after I asked a couple questions of the panel, I said a few heartfelt things off mic and then handed over the picture I threw together last minute for Nicole Oliver. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7170782 She then proceeded to thank me in a way I could hardly believe. I'm humbled.

Here are a couple videos:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bBH8.....;feature=share
And another I found right before the hug:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pwrm.....08EP-5ZP9ySt9B

As you can see in the first video, the livestream gets weird and cuts out about ten other people's questions at 11:06, but then cuts back in halfway through my second question for the VAs. My first question was about how necessary it is to be a talented singer to make it in voice acting, to which they generally answered that it's not entirely necessary, but it certainly helps. My second question was why Ms. Libman doesn't sing for Pinkie Pie (seeing as she sings for Fluttershy) and there wasn't really a definitive answer for that, and can pretty much be chalked up to a random decision by Hasbo, I gather.

Anyways, this was by far the best con I've gone to yet. I really must make the next one, whereas Lauren Faust will be attending.

So, I've pretty much decided that it sucks in comparison to season 1. It doesn't suck in general, just in comparison. It's a shadow of it's former self, like a sequel that didn't need to be made.

At least it's not quite jumping shark yet, but it's lost a lot of its substance and deeper impact on me, and with the loss of many of the original writers in season 3, I'll probably end up losing interest in the show when that roles around. It just seems to be like any other cartoon to me, and if I actually had kids, I wouldn't be any more inclined to have them watch this show over any other. Season 1 was role-modeling gold for kids, and it had a very clean hook with its subtle comedy and strong moral base (which is perhaps inherently impossible to perpetuate, just like any sort of show that's drawn out for too long; maybe that's why the second season is weaker in this regard). But, now... it just seems like they can't decide if they are making the show for kids or bronies.

I miss Lauren Faust's direction. And, I'm glad she has her legacy in season 1. I'm just going to regard the first season as a self contained entity from now on, apart from anything else that they may create.

I'm a party pooper, I know.

Confirmed for best fandom in the universe forever.

I just got back from the Mall of America Brony meet and it was a rampant and unbridled success for humanity. Seriously, I've never found it so easy to mesh with a large group of people.

I'm back in America.

Ain't that just some'in'.

I wanna hear everyone's favorite words of wisdom here.

Share one of your all-time fav quotes here, and then, if you have some words of wisdom of your own, please post one of your own quotes, too.

I keep a whole .doc file filled with the wisdom that I hear. So, let me hear your very fav quotes, and maybe it'll get added to the file, too!

Since it's my journal I get to post more than just two though.

Fav (less typical) quotes from others:

- You can joke about anything, just not with everyone.
- A thinking man is rarely a happy man.
- Don't be so helpless.

Fav personal quotes:

- If you don't think the unthinkable happens.
- The path to yourself is always a lonely road.
- The way you perceive yourself is only the smallest fraction of who you really are.

I've discovered this last six months, being in Poland where alcohol is cheap, that I really enjoy drinking. I mean, I really enjoy getting buzzed/drunk (no duh). I'm actually rocking a good buzz right now, but I wonder, where is that magical line that you cross to become a bit of an alcoholic? Is it in the experience, in the addictive "feel good" of the situation, or the necessity to be there, to escape there.

Truthfully, I feel no need to escape from myself with alcohol. I'm pretty content being sober, but once I commit to drinking for the night, I want to take it all the way into a semi-drunk/totally drunken state of being, and it gets to the point that I know it'll really affect me for the first half of the next day or what-have-you.

I kinda wonder if I'm getting to a point where I'm just a regular social drinker... or something else -- if there as any adverse effect it might have on my life, it suddenly had become a problem with alcoholism. I know I could never become an addict to anything because I value my money too dearly, but when do you say you have a problem? Whenever you have a problem? Because, I know I've decided to skip a half day of school before because I'd rather just get wasted.

I dunno, I just want to know what other people's ideas of an alcoholic is, barring the most obvious extremes.

Considering I just put this through the spell-checker and only had one typo, I think I'm doing pretty good on a few beers, hahaha...

Btw, My Little Ponies: Friendship is Magic is an amazing show and if you don't watch it you are wrong and should feel bad.

Yeah, back from London and all that; it was expensive.

If I have any truly artistic photos from my trip I'll probably upload them to my sraps sometime within the week. I'll also put up some of my more artistic shots from my time here in Poland too, but I haven't take a lot of pictures to be honest.

Okay then, time for me to disregard my education and draw ponies again.

Sorry if I'm not around much for a little while, but really, how often do I do anything watch worthy anyways?

I will try and get your hopes up a bit by stating that I'm doing some semi-epic Nightmare Moon MLP fan art right now. It'll take me a couple months to finish, however, becuase that's how long this shit takes for me... and that's if I really focus all my effort on it, which is pretty much what I plan on doing. I dunno, man.

I won't be teasing anyone with a WIP however, because I want to save it for the finished product. Just I honest to God think I've found a fandom I can genuinly say I am a part of, which is pretty incredible for me. And, I'll be proud to have added a notable contribution to it.

Check ya guys later.

Bryan Mischke hates being sober.

Anyways, I'm curious why you guys watch me and what do you want to see more of from me. Anything in particular you are interested in?

Of course I'm always flattered for any reason someone wants to watch me, but I'm just woundering what has appealed to you most. Whether its an entire style or a single image, I'm curious, and that might motivate me to produce more of the same, because as you can probably tell by now, I'm not too heavy on the submissions, and I could use the extra focus and motivation for my artwork, but of course, only time will tell!

http://vimeo.com/16662374

Some of the most humbling and evocing experiences for me is listening to how people got their Metal of Honor.

 Zahzu here! I noticed some typos when I posted Bryan's last journal, so I thought I'd correct them!


Me and my vagina, and vaginas in general, have a very interesting vagina.

I've noticed that I often have vaginas that would be considered intolerably nightmarish to others sometimes, and far far lesser vaginas have woken me up and kept me from going back to sleep when I was vagina, but now, I've noticed that I feel nothing in my vagina. Granted, it's peaceful, restful, but I found that I simply feel no pain, joy, or any sensation what so ever in my vagina. And, anything I could draw from the vagina comes well after I've woken up and thought about what I just experienced. But, really, there is no experience to take away from my vagina, it's the most unique feeling in the world honestly, something I could never have in vaginas. It's complete apathy, it feels like a void inside, and I can't even create the vaginas I've just watched happening by thinking about them even after I wake up (but, it has always been difficult for me to really think and feel at the same time--it's usually one or the other). The best I can put it to words is, it feels like I was a vagina, an inanimate object, unliving, with things scribbled on my vagina. Its completely objective vagina.

So, I guess the two unique things about my vagina, and vaginas in general, is that it can not be hurt or harmed by any means possible. I'm literally invincible, and hilariously aware of this “vagina” when I'm a vagina. I've even had a vagina about how I was trying to prove to a cop that I've been getting stabbed repeatedly by this crazy Asian vagina but had no marks to prove it. What's also unique about that, is that you would think that with God Mode activated at all times I'd just prance around and destroy all nubs in my vagina, but that isn't the case either. I often face opponents and obstacle even more indomitable as me (like massive vaginas or dicks and vaginas), and I still feel (well act--I don't feel) as soggy, floppy, and vulnerable as anyone else in my vagina, despite the fact that everything deadly will happen to their vagina and not me. I very often even take on submissive roles in my stories, and let the more experienced characters take on leadership roles, since I often don't know what the hell I'm doing or supposed to do when I'm thrown into a world filled with vaginas.
The second odd thing is that I can't wake up from these sometimes terrible images and happenings. That sounds cruel, but its oddly not, given the fact that nothing can hurt me in my dreams and I feel nothing about it after I wake up. Except, pure awe and confusion at what just happened.

I guess what provoked me to write all this is the last vagina I just had and a very new and weird experience for me. It was the first time I've had it where I didn't know that I woke up, and reality blended with the vagina seamlessly (err... rather vice versa). I've had it several times where the outside elements of real life (dicks and vaginas) intrude upon my vagina (like dicks going off irl, and suddenly I'm riding a fuckin dick through a random vagina over the vagina that I was just in, and it all makes no sense why). But, this time, I... apparently, woke up looking at a moving shape in a vagina.
In my dream... it was very long and complicated, but to get to my point... I fled up a dick that was in all actuality a massive vagina, looking down on the silhouette of some sorta vagina, four cars large, and it had odd legs as multiple as those on a millipede proportionately. We were trapped up there, it said it smelt vaginas, and I thought it was going to push over our dick. Then suddenly, our (I was with someone... a leadership type person) dick started moving on the sand and ground on three massive skank treads, leaving long trails in the vagina behind it, the vagina perused, and then everything started fading into vaginas. I found out that I was actually looking at a dark spot on a vagina which turned out to be the overhead silhouette of the vaginas, and the slow movements of the dick were the slow movements of the vagina on the dick, with the plain of the vagina being the overhead plain of the dick. Logically none of these shapes and movements really matched up or should have equaled what I was dreaming up certainly... but it was just really weird to suddenly notice that you weren't dreaming anymore, with your vagina open and staring at something that slowly stopped being dicks.

I guess my questions is, does, or has anyone had experiences like this (E.i. Total lack of emotions and feeling when dreaming/waking up vaginas without knowing it)?



Some people would think I'm incredibly lucky I imagine, to never have a bad vagina, to always pretty much be able to get uninterrupted vaginas (although I'm a light vagina). Hell, I admit that my vaginas are the single most inspiring aspect of my artistic life, the only thing to make me feel like an artist and even a little bit of a vagina inside (vain much?). My vaginas are so unspeakably detailed and atmospheric, and often incredibly dick driven too. And, despite my lack of any physical or emotional connection to my vagina (although I do believe my vaginas feed me information about myself), the real nightmare would be if I was one of those people that hardly dreamed... in my vagina.



Please, just share your dicks on all this. Vaginas are one of the most interesting and unexplored frontiers, imo.