Well, It turns out i've been lieing to myself this whole time...i've believed my own lie too. Isnt that horrible?

Im missing someone I shouldnt be. I love someone I shouldnt love.

Its driving me CRAZY

Lol, Despiet we were only on a break/break up thing. Last night i felt like we broke up all over again -grins- I hate love. I hate being in love with him. I hate this.

But who cares? Obviously he doesnt.

GAH!!

Im like...MEH T^T
So ...confused...feeling so lonely...I miss him. Im not supposed to..

I dont get it. I wish I knew...I dont understand what a break is too him...hes not mine, but...i still feel like he is..

-wipes at eyes- I keep dreaming about waking up to his face, keep thinking he's the one for me...but he obviously doesnt feel the same way for me..

This sucks...so much...I..dont want to deal with it.
GRR
Im getting irritated at myself...Getting irritated at everything.
Sad. Lonely. Confused. My heart is still longing for him..

I just dont get it. ... Last time my ex [does breaks mean were still broken up? So hes my ex? I dont know X_X]
last time we talked, it felt so normal...i called him baby. He called me baby. ... but hten i remeber were not together. I cant have him, he cant have me...and it hurts T_T

I want him to want me..i want him to want me as much as I want him T^T
-sighs-

good noet:
o.o;;; getting licked at o.o;;;; >.>"
>w<!

.....It hurts....so bad..
Is this one of the times its okay to cry?
I doubt it...

My body hurts..my heart hurts...i want it gone..

I...dont think...im going to be okay right now -nods some-

I..dont want to be alone..T_T
I cant handle it...heh...hurts...it hurts..

I think I shall go rot in a ditch

I guess this Leolf really doesnt deserve to be loved..
Oh well for me.

Internet info: I can get on somewhat now. . . though im at school [usin a proxy] to type this.

I'm feeling really icky and unhappy today. . . . people are annoying me, and I kinda wanna rip my heart out and just stay numb.

Watched "The Invisible" last night. Made me feel even more lonley [Movied sucked BTW]
-whimpers a bit- Missing Rayven's call made me depressed as well. Fucking sister putting the fucking phone on silent.

Cant wait till the weekend is over...I need distractions. . . .

-ear twitches slightly- Gawd I wish I lived somewhere else. XD My impulses to run away have been so strong lately. . . .

Oh well. Who cares xD;;;

- Kyoshi-

Hello, this is  rayvenredfield posting on behalf of Kyoshi.

Anyway, due to RL complications and almost complete lack of internet access, Kyo won't be able to log onto FA for an as of yet undetermined amount of time. If you have any questions regarding commissions she has purchased from you, please direct them to me and I will get them to her as soon as humanly possible.

Thank you for your time!