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General | Posted 9 years agoSup.
The future of things
General | Posted 10 years ago Not all that recently ago was the anniversary (August 3rd) of my life's biggest change, a change to the way I think, feel, act and conduct myself. In the year since I have buried two friends and re-evaluated some I thought I trusted and through it all, those close to me said it was "for the better" as I was more deserving and blah blah blah. Friends mean well, that is why we keep them close, isn't it? You always want to empathize with someone in pain, but because everyone is different you can never really have the right words, it's just something people figure out for themselves.
But that isn't the point I am trying to make. For a long time I have regarded the furry fandom as, well, exactly that a fandom. I never really stopped to consider the the implications of wanting or having a fursona to really identify with. That is until the "change" happened. After that I found myself connecting with an identity that was what I wanted to be and not who I was. His name was Daren Fenix a husky/mastiff cross anthro and through him I was able to communicate with others of the life style, mindset or whatever it ultimately is on a level where I began to really see why furries can be so extreme in all things be it emotionally, sexually or physically. My appreciation of it all grew and through it I was able to feel a little more like the sheltered personality I formed allowed me to heal some part of the real me.
So because of this, my original account created by someone dear and long gone is going to start being used again. As I no longer have a reason to hide who I am. I want to take the best of what I created with Daren and the best of who I really am and move forward with not only the fursona but also my life cause while you have to take the bad, you can always seek the good and not only did I find enough pieces of myself to work with I had the loving help of someone new, who is dear and near to me. I hope before long to get back to the passion that was my art lost years ago. I hope to connect with all of you wonderful people who took the moment to read this. It means a lot that you'd listen to such a rant. XD
But that isn't the point I am trying to make. For a long time I have regarded the furry fandom as, well, exactly that a fandom. I never really stopped to consider the the implications of wanting or having a fursona to really identify with. That is until the "change" happened. After that I found myself connecting with an identity that was what I wanted to be and not who I was. His name was Daren Fenix a husky/mastiff cross anthro and through him I was able to communicate with others of the life style, mindset or whatever it ultimately is on a level where I began to really see why furries can be so extreme in all things be it emotionally, sexually or physically. My appreciation of it all grew and through it I was able to feel a little more like the sheltered personality I formed allowed me to heal some part of the real me.
So because of this, my original account created by someone dear and long gone is going to start being used again. As I no longer have a reason to hide who I am. I want to take the best of what I created with Daren and the best of who I really am and move forward with not only the fursona but also my life cause while you have to take the bad, you can always seek the good and not only did I find enough pieces of myself to work with I had the loving help of someone new, who is dear and near to me. I hope before long to get back to the passion that was my art lost years ago. I hope to connect with all of you wonderful people who took the moment to read this. It means a lot that you'd listen to such a rant. XD
