Friends and fans of Foxbolt, With a heavy heart I regret to inform you that the original owner of this account died in a drunk driving accident Just over 3 months ago. I recently came across his computer and found passwords along with other online accounts about him. I brought it upon myself to inform anyone who still wondered where he went during his time of silence.

As for him personally, he was someone I really didn't know very well, considering he was distant family that was looking to get his life back in order. My family took him in after becoming homeless and he was successfully building his life up from there before his life was taken from him. I don't wish to post his full name, but I'll just post the first considering he was very secretive with his online information. If anyone knows his name on this site I wish for you to keep it to yourself for him.

R.I.P. Justin

Just so you know I'm handing over both my characters to a good friend of mine. Both of them are being give to  miko-chan Since I highly doubt I'll ever go about commissioning artists again. There all yours girl.

It's been too long since I last visited this site. I disappeared due to things that couldn't be avoided. One being learning the pain of being homeless as only the tip of it all. Thankfully I got back on my feet thanks to my extended family. I want to go into detail of everything, but just thinking about it makes me want to cry.

Concerning me and this site. Lets just say art is a luxury I'll never be able to afford anymore nor feel the need to buy. Wish it the other way around but buying commissions was a BIG hit and miss for me back then. Too much drama and stuff I don't want to deal with anymore. I'll most likely give up my characters to who ever wants them.

Honestly forgot it was coming up until I took a good look at the date. Feels good being 22. 1 year older and a bit more wiser. Or so they say....

Stumbled upon this little thing called ClixSense a month back and started using it to earn a few extra dollars for commissioning. Safe to say I actually earned enough money so far to buy a few line-arts from some artists I love. If you want some extra money or need a few extra bucks in your Paypal I say give it a try.
http://www.clixsense.com/?4006590

Or should I say winners! Remember when I said posting a journal doubles your chances? Well journal posters went to a 2nd draw. The 2 winners are:

1.  DaryusMackos
and
2.  Faolan

As for the rest of you. Don't worry I got a 10k kiriban coming up for you to try your luck again!

Anyhow wasn't expecting so many replies to my journal it kinda surprised me. I saw a lot of unique sonas that I had grabby hands for. Hope for the future I can get some of you to partner up with me for a commission or 2!

This recently came to my attention: http://i.imgur.com/iogo5.jpg
This was not me. I was gone on that day until I got back about 30 mins ago. Seems someone decided to take my account for a joyride and said a few things. I'm pretty pissed off about this. This makes me look bad so who ever did this clearly has something against me.

DING DING DING!!! FREE ART CHANCE HERE!!!

Finally getting back into the groove of commissioning again and I've been itching to get a M/F or H/F commission featuring Tori for some time now. Post some refs and I'll draw a random number in a week or so. Though it's not needed you can actually double your chances if you post a journal advertising this journal. I'm not forcing any journal posting so it's your choice if you want too or not. You also must be watching me because the more the better :D

RECAP:
post refs
Make journal (if you want too)
+watch me.

Simple enough right? Let's see some refs shall we.

EDIT: Shemales are welcome for this as well, I just kinda forgot about them last night. It was 4 in the morning so I have an excuse :3

Not ready to part ways with my characters yet. My computer is fixed and I'm actually feeling better despite the world seemingly collapses around me.
Still not fully better though since I'm seeing people get depressed around me. I think of the words to comfort them but they just never get out. Makes me helpless in a way. Talking is and always will be a thing I will be bad at. I always did prefer to let my actions speak for me.

If I were to sell both my characters Chase and Tori, would anyone be interested? Just throwing it out there to see if anyone is or was interested in having them.

Also to my friends on skype my main computer got busted and I got stuck using a friends computer on a few occasions. He doesn't have skype on this computer so I lost connections without being able to tell anyone quickly enough :(

Went out this weekend hoping to get my mind off my stuff going on with me and I came back to more heartbreak.My 5-month kitten that I had the privilege of watching being brought in this world died of cancer. Before I left I took her to an animal hospital because I couldn't figure out why she wasn't eating at all. I received a call from them I think yesterday saying that she passed away there. Since then I haven't eaten or slept because I have questions gearing through my head: *Why? Why did something so young have to die from something like cancer? Why couldn't I save it? Why couldn't I be their in it's final moments? Why me?
The real kicker about all this is it just started to grow affection for me. On the last night I had her at my house she was all nice and comfy on her pillow right beside me and she looks like the happiest kitten in the world. The mere fact I wasn't there at her final moments kills me so much. I don't think I'll try and rise anymore pets from all these deaths I've witnessed. I can't take the heartbreaking pain anymore.

As I look back on my commissions I realize just how much money I put into them, yet realize most of them I was never truly happy with. The lingering thoughts of stopping have started to cross my mind. Why buy something that you're not happy with? All that extra money could have went to other artists or even things for myself. Or maybe it's something else.

Maybe I just couldn't bring out my characters more. Times are tough right now and where I thought it would get better. It only gets worse. They sit there begging to be drawn yet I lack the means of getting that done. I'm tempted to scrap everything and give them to someone who can actually do something with them. Yet I worry what they will subject them to or just letting them sit idly as I did.

These thoughts have been crossing my mind for some time and I just wanted to get them out of my head and onto a screen so I could hear thoughts and reactions of others.

Had to think other somethings I've been going through, mainly where I'm going with my life. Made a few choices that I hated but they needed to be done. Gotta find a job again since I had a college related mix-up, which really screwed-up my year. Bunch of my year long plans went down the drain. Thankfully my dad has offered me a bit of work though I only get paid at the end of the month. So yeah, don't expect any commission posting for a bit (Other then what I got now to post) I really want things to improve for me this year. Well now that's out of the way time to go through a lot of submissions and journals.

Also as a reminder for myself: BE MORE SOCIAL!

2011 was indeed a very interesting year for me. It was the best yet the worse year of my life and now it's all a distant memory. I can't wait for what 2012 throws at me. What ever it hits me with I'll be ready for it.
Also happy new year to everyone else. I know I'm a day late but that's only because a few old friends took me out on a night I won't forget.

Well holy shit. I decided to step out of my house for some fresh air and a smoke when I heard a faint mewing sound from some where. I followed the sound until I came to a turned over garbage can. I turn it over and I see this kitten that looks like it's no more then a few months old. Poor thing was limping and very skinny. Took it inside and tried to feed it. Little guy devoured the food in the dish so fast. It also seems to get along with my other cats for the time being so pretty sure I'm going to keep it since it looks like my cat that died a few weeks back. She even acts like him when he was a kitten. In a way I think I'm getting a second chance. So now the fun part of thinking of a name for it. It's a female so I'm clueless for names.

Also wanna say sorry to my friends that I've been distant the last few days. Life went crazy again as I heard an old friend of mine committed suicide and another one seems to be heading down the same path. Also getting ready for college as it is eating my time as well and on top of that my car broke down permanently so It's kinda draining me mentally.

So as a way to spread a bit of love around the site, I've decided to note lots of random people something nice. Be it wishing them a happy new year coming up or even a nice comment about them. I encourage you to do the same. Who knows you might even put a smile on someones face who's having a bad day. Spread some love!

Man I wish this would go away. It's getting so bad I don't even want to leave my house much alone my room. I've barely been eating in the last few days and my family is starting to worry about me because of it. The only reason why I even get up is to work, yet I now finally done my job so I'm wasting away until I head to college. Lately just been staring at my roof all day with the occasional internet break. Wish I could just get over everything that's been happening lately. Blah *goes to lay down*

Pass few days have been interesting for me to say the least. I'm slowly regaining myself and resuming my daily activities to the best I can. I just wanted to thank the people who helped me through my dark time and even complete strangers who offered aid to me. Without you guys I would no doubtingly still be a wreck beyond saving. It was hard for me to deal with this early on when I had no friends to talk to or any shoulders to lean on. I thought I was going to fall victim to the crippling pain of it all. Then suddenly someone came to me and gave me support. Tat kept me standing. Then shortly another one came to my aid and then another one. You probably getting tired of me saying this but I thank you from the bottom of my heart. All that support gave me strength and hope.

I also wanna thank an anonymous person for sending me an interesting movie to watch. (I encourage you to watch all 9 parts)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l8f4S3XMWNc
They told to me to watch the all the movie links and when the very last part came up they said *think of your cat and those final words, you both loved each other. You'll see each other again one day. Until then be strong and let your memories keep you going.*

At 3:03 P.M. on Friday, December 2, 2011 my cat, who stuck by me for 5 great years finally passed away. I promised myself to stick by him till the end. It was indeed hard losing a friend for the first time ever like this and it's seems so overwhelming to me. I wish I could have done something more for him. I felt useless sitting there watching him leave me. Never thought it would so hard to let him go. But I'm also happy. He's finally at rest. Took me awhile to say my good byes but it's for the better. I got my memories and a little kitten of his running around my home.

Most likely going to feel like crap for the next while but I'll be strong. I got people who helped me through this tough time and I am forever grateful for that. If it wasn't for you. I don't know what I would be doing right now.

R.I.P. Fluffy
November, 20, 2006-December 2, 2011
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOz_3PsDO_Y

Seeing as December has came out of no where. ( I thank the lack of snow for that) I thought to make myself a wishlist of all the artists I hope to commission for next year and maybe for this month if I get lucky enough.

The list!
Iontoon- colored
dossun- colored
lintu- colored
black-kat- colored
A_blue_deer - colored
lilyness- colored
caltroplay- colored
Fluff-kevlar - colored/sketch
Kathy-lu- lines
kanel- colored
jeso- colored. SO. BADLY.
miles-df- lines
Strype- ANYTHING
Tsampikos - colored
Satsukii - colored

Will add more to this as I go. Wonder how many I'll get to knock off...

Finally got all that negative energy out of me. Finally coming to terms with my situation. Everything is getting better and now I can focus on getting ready for college in January. Kinda wish my little cat could get better but he is too far sick to be cured. I got the tears out of my system and have come to terms with it. I have my memories and a little kitten of his running around my house playful as he was. When it is over and done with, it will be the end of a dark chapter in my life. One I can look back and remember and say *Hey, I got through that.* Still a little rough now but it's getting better.

I got nothing left. My best friend who suck with me for so long is in his final days. I can't save him, I don't got the money for it. No one in my family can help since we can never get any extra money saved for things like this. Almost all my friends either can't help or don't care. To make matters worse my boss owes me 2 paychecks and refuses to pay off for reasons beyond me. I've asked so many people for help and everyone just laughs and turns me away. I'm just giving up on humanity all together.

If you read my last journal you will have noticed I said I have only 1 little friend. Well seems life wanted to put me down some more.
Went to the vet today because my 4 year old cat started being less active a few weeks ago. I just thought it was just the fact that we moved that slowed him down. Turns out his left kidney is swelled to a large (but treatable) point, though If I don't get it treated soon he will not last to Christmas. Still need to take him for a few more blood tests which will cost $200 per visit like today's was. Doc also said if he needs to get surgery it could be VERY costly for me.
Really sucks for me since I gotta use pretty much all my gift shopping money to save him. Just hope my family can help me with this.

*sigh* Seems I've landed in a rut in life that I fear was coming. Everything seems so depressing lately. I got commissions I wanna post but just don't feel up to it for some reason... I have pretty much no friends to talk to. I'm thankful for one thing though and that's my cat, who seems to always cuddle up to me when I'm depressed, heck even as I sit here he is sitting on my lap watching me type this. Maybe I'll start writing stories again. I always felt good after writing something. Wonder why I stopped in the first place.

Maybe I'll feel a bit better after some sleep. Still wish I had someone to talk to.