A dear and beloved family member of mine  AshleyFableBlack is performing a series of charity commissions for donating to COVID-19 relief charities. I'd ask anyone that can manage the time or money for such a cause go to her journal and put some lovely eyes on this. Sharing positivity and money if you happen to have some to spare in these hard times.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9490183

Its the same thing every year. A pause to remember those of the T in this great LGBT family. THE family because often those of us in it have lost anyone else we might call such. So we choose a new one rather then struggle for the old one. That old one is just a happenstance of birth.

So we remember them through the love we had for them. The happy moments we shared. The pains we had together and the pains of their passing.

We'll likely never fully be past the pain of their loss. Or the hate of those that took them from us. Yet we will move forward carrying their flame with us. As their fire will eternally be a part of our own. And so we remember. For those we have lost and those we might yet save.

https://www.lgbtqnation.com/2019/11.....1bm8GiV6aPk4FI

I would think that the title of the day makes what its about clear.

I day to remember those taken by violence for simply being themselves. These were not things done out of any kind of justice. Just acts fueled by Hate, Prejudice, and Ignorance. Sweet and promising lives ended before their time. Treasures removed from this world by people who'd gladly see their light snuffed out.

This is a day born of the need and desire to remember these. To look back upon those painful moments and learn from them. To also remember those people with love and caring. The love we held for them in life and still hold onto them during their afterlife.

While I've never known any of those slain personally. I mourn for them, as their final moments in this word were colored by this evil. I love all that were as if they were my own. I hope I get to meet them and show it to them personally in the other world when I pass as well.

Now that I've kind of rambled on. Please also check out someone who I feel is much more of an expert on the subject then I am. Who's a much larger talent with the written word and the images in her mind.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25499432/

https://www.google.com/search?q=transgender+day+of+remembrance&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8

I had a weird ID for a video web series come to my head while in the shower. Just each day read the featured article on the english wikipedia. Whatever it is, regardless of my knowledge of it. I'd just read the page word for word, maybe trying it in different accents. Like today is Peter Heywood who was a british naval officer who I remember nothing about.

Oh hell no! This is the thing that starts military states.

I'm sure some of you have heard of the law that is to be signed into law soon. That will give the government the power to detention you as long as they want. No Trial. No Questions. Just BAM until we feel like letting you out. This is just wow. To think they'd even concider to do such a thing to us. Even if its only for a few reasons all they have to do is eventually add more reasons or mkae up a reason for you to be in and you get to be locked away for all your days.

Here is news article with some info and links about it. Please read it guys and spread the word.

http://www.washingtonpost.com/blogs.....DGfO_blog.html

Getting married. Why do so many people see it as the final step in life? Game Over, as many T-shirts will say?

Why does it have to be an end. Sure you might have one person you'll be with for the rest of your life. But it doesn't end anything. All those things you'd have done with strangers previously you can now do with the person you've married.

You've got a partner in crime, in life. Someone to be there for you and you to be there for. Someone to know your limits, your desires, your wishes. They aren't your ball n' chain, they are your enabler. They are there to do things with and to do things for. Sure you may give up experiencing so many strangers in those ways but your giving up such random chance for someone so amazing.

Its not game over, its just the end of round 1. Start Round 2 and fight with them for your happiness. Together you make everything great, your a team. And in a team match you have to use the strengths of your partner to win, don't be afraid to take out and let them take a turn either. Neither of you are the leader or submissive. Your equal partners in this relationship and should provide equal love.

This is how I view love and marriage. I can't be the only person who sees marriage as nothing but a beginning. Or maybe  ashleyfableblack is just the amazing of a girl, if so I think I need to get her something to show it. Any suggestions?

This is a speech that I was linked to through a Journal by  Okidoki who got it from  Kalira9's journal.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:21597961 is the journal link.

Listen to it please and really understand that this sort of thing doesn't have to be a dream or fantasy. It doesn't have to be something that only happens generations down the line. It doesn't even have to only happen during your children's life. It can be now, it can be here. Please people, really reach out with your heart and mind and understand these things. Look at how you act and what you say in life. The things you leave around you, the way you carry yourself.

So many of you put so many barrier between yourself and others using both high tech and just simple reactions. And others of you use people as simply tools or sources of income. Not caring at all how your hurt you just simply how much your using them and taking advantage of them.

And don't think "Oh this isn't me." I'm talking about every one of you, even myself. Think over yourself and realize what you do and how you could better yourself and make everything better. Put time forward to make people laugh, clean up your community or even just your house and your yard. Give even just a dollar to charity. You might not see or even be able to conceive the result but they are there, trust me. All you need do is make the efforts.

I lived in a homeless shelter for 2 years of my life during high school. The shelter is called Woman's Transition Project which is located in Bisbee Arizona. It was funded by both federal grants and small donations by people in the community. Paying taxes even helps, while I wouldn't say thats is all you need do because only a small part of the government's funds go to grants. Its just an example of while you might not see the good something does it is there, helping people.

And it doesn't even have to be money. Smile more when you go places, even to Walmart smile at the people you walk by. Or if someone looks down ask them if you can help in some way. So many different things you can do that willn't even do anything besides take a few seconds from your time. So please, listen to this once or twice and really take this sort of thing to heart.

Ashley has been doing a series of drawings called My Little Prinny. A revolution of the lovely Demon Penguins against the wave of My Little Pony. Check it out guys, because whether or not you like the Ponies themselves your likely to find her drawings very humorous.

She has a series of them up already and has been working for at least the past month to put all that she has together. So skip on over there and give her sexiness a watch as she deserves it. No touching though, this ones mine.

 AshleyFableBlack Check out my Beautiful wife's page people.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:19644709

See it there.

I was at work the other day and on the TVs in the call center they had a show I think was called 'So you think you can Dance?' and it reminded me of all the fun I had in high school when I was in a local dance group and a ballet class. I even helped the teacher teach her young children's class in exchange for not having to pay to attend the normal ballet class.

I've been wanting to get back into it eventually. Both because I'm out of shape and because I enjoy dancing and the preforming arts so much. Song, Dance, Acting. All of it.

I was just wondering. How many people had actually done something like this ever. I know all of us would say we've danced or been to raves and such. But has anyone actually taken classes for it?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EZ2u3RmspYg

According to Harold Camping today is the end of the world. So all you faithful good little Christians. Get to go to heaven today. So today is a day of celebration for all us furries because I know if you went into a church and confessed what you enjoy on FA and the internet. You'd get the good old "Your going to hell" speech. So let us celebrate!

Happy Rapture day :)

My sweet heart said I should continue the ranting I had on my previous picture, and thus I shall.

I shall start up from where I last was. I can't count the amount of times I was playing a videogames and I looked over to see Ashley either watching happily or even just snoozing. It would make a big smile come across my face and heart. Often I'd pause the game and lay back and watch her besides the game. Leaning over and just kissing her forehead. That is an wondrous thing from my Fiance. I'd often wake her up, which I didn't mean to but it was just to beautiful not to kiss. With her eyes sliding open I'd make sure the first thing she heard was me telling her that I love her. This is just one of the things that makes my heart fly with her around.

I just find it surprising how many times I've gotten situations where even only her words make me smile. She does so much to tell her Co-workers about me. And often when we talk when she is at work that is the first thing I hear is her saying something sweet and her Co-workers laughing. One of the cutest things that mien stinktier said was describing how I act to alot of her friends. "He is like a puppy going down stairs. He'll go down a few stairs and then trip, falling down the stairs." He'll stand up wagging and you can't help but thing that he is even cuter due to the falling, because he is really trying.

My sweet girl wants to have a life together and it something I want just as much. I'm so happy that she picked me out but I hold her close to me like most wouldn't with a skunk since they might spray you.

I love that girl so much. Walking with her blind through life but needing nothing but her hand to hold and her love in my heart. The simple things with her aren't simple things, they are complex dances of emotions and love. She is special to me in every way someone can be and it not something that will ever change.

I still feel like I'm missing something though when talking about my purple transgender skunkubus wife. I just can't think of anything else right now, so I might add things in later. Who knows it might be something deep and profound, like the meaning of life or something.

Blame my fiance  ashleyfableblack.

Say Fuhugwgads and I do these things and ....yeah...go!

1. Tell you something I'll learn about you by looking at your FA page for 13 seconds.
2. Tell you which color you remind me of.
3. Tell you my first memory of you.
4. Tell you what pokemon you remind me of.
5. Ask you something I've always wondered about you, and your answer has to be as vague as possible to keep the suspense.
6. Tell you my favorite thing about you.
7. Give you a weird nickname
8. Tell you what's on my shirt right now.
9. Challenge you to post this on your journal.

I warn all that if you asked for it you'll get it!

Well right now @ 8/19/2010 5:43pm Central Standard Time. Polly Puma is making a collar for Dilan Skunk. Link Follows.

http://www.ustream.tv/channel/dilan-collar

 pollypuma The maker of that collar, you can commission him maybe.

But you missed it, so watch him on FA.

Well as of the end of August I'm going to be in need of a place to live basically.

My roommates  taillone and  skylorforscythe are going to be moving out and since they are my ride I'm left without a ride to and from work and there fore without a way to pay bills.

The plan originally for me was to move in with my fiance  ashleyfableblack but currently that isn't looking very likely. Currently her roommate doesn't know me very well and from my understanding is therefore not very comfortable with the idea of me moving in. So right now that makes that a none option basically. Unless the fate smile down upon me, but they can be very fickle ladies.

So that leaves two options. Find a roommate to take their place or find someone who is looking for a roommate. Either way I don't have my own car so I would need someone who can give me a ride to and from work. Being that my job is in Moore Oklahoma it would be a good choice to try and stay close, but either way. I'm basically asking for anyone who happens to live in the OKC area if they have a way to help. Whether its just simply willing to give a ride to and from work for some gas money or a roommate.

I'd just like to go ahead an give the short version as I realized I kind of went on a long rather about totally personal matters that no one probably cares about so...


~TLDNR Version~
I've spending a few days with.I had a great day w/ ashlyefableblack. We slept in. We played video games together. Went out to eat with friends. Then watched Youtube. Overall awesome day with an awesome lady.


~Full Version~
This is basically the end of my first full day of a 5 day weekend I'm spending with my sweet heart in her house as she has been visiting my place basically none stop since we started dating. I really have nothing against her visiting I just thought it was a good thing to know and that I'd return the favor.

Well I just spent the first day in the house with  ashleyfableblack and it was a very nice day personally. Last Night we tried sleeping on her couch where she normally sleeps. I managed to get to sleep rather well and It felt like comfortable sleep if not a little odd since I didn't get to roll around like I've been informed that I normally do. But I enjoyed waking up the most of it all. When I opened my eyes just a small amount of the fresh sunlight shined in through her window into my eyes. It wasn't long enough to really hurt my eyes when I opened them but just enjoy to flash in my face to wake me up. I heard heard chirping from what I would assume where in the tree right outside her second story window right on the other side of the couch. I had her in my arms with me in a light sweat as the upstairs isn't as cool as I'd like it to be, specially for two people laying as close together as we did.

I laid there for a few moments just enjoying her and wondering if I should head back to sleep but I was never really sure about my answer to that. I closed my eyes, wanting to just extend the time I could hold her close like this but sleep never came back. I looked over to the clock after opening my eyes again to see the clock. The time upon the digital clock read around 10:30am and I normally get up around 8:30am for work. So I pretty much assumed that my internal clock demanded that I wake up and become active. Now that I think about actually seeing the time and having the light shine in my face to start off probably sealed the deal. I eventually wiggled some to try and slide out from under my beautiful skunkubus but that awoke her as well. I asked her to let me up and I managed to get out from under her and climb over and off the bed. I gave her a sweet kiss and just told her to go back to sleep. That small phrase from my experience is a magical phrase for most people if you accidentally wake them as their mind is more then happy to listen. Its kind of the same idea with most hypnosis, if you hear what you want to hear and believe it to be the truth then you'll listen, that if you hear someone to tell you to go to sleep and you want more sleep you'll gladly do it.

I proceeded to put some pants on as I didn't want to walk around in her house in my underwear since she does have a roommate. I headed downstairs and then sat there for a moment and thought to myself. I was wondering just what I could do and if they would mind me doing it. I assumed they wouldn't mind me playing on their video game systems on their tv but then I remember both of our things were still in the car as neither of felt like we wanted to get them out of the car after a good 5 or 6, maybe even 7 hour trip all things considered. So I sneaked back upstairs and stole my shirt from the previous day for use in this venture. I headed back down stairs and took someone's slip on shoes and proceeded to get all of our things from the rather warm car in the rather warm sun.

When this task was done I neatly organized our things in their living room, returning both her keys and someone's shoes to their rightful place. I then actually turned on my computer and tried to access their internet which failed rather quickly as they have it actually password protected, which is understandable really as its what you should do with your wireless internet connects to keep them safe from other people basically stealing internet. After that though I turned on my DS and poked around on Pokemon for a while but then eventually kind of got bored with it. I'd get into a Pokemon rant but that is really something for another journal. After what I'd assume is about 20 minutes of that I finally moved to their video game system and played my save of Fallout 3 that I had brought along on my memory card. I did my normal thing of murdering everything in sight and doing all the optional quests as effectively as possible. I rather quickly realized just how much the contrast of their TV is off though. Their darks are way to dark and their lights are way to light. I turned off the brightness on the game itself to try and compensate just a little for this as its not my place to go editing the settings on their TV for them, but boy would I have liked to fix the contrast as it would have made it so much easily to see past my toes in the dark on that game. Unless I was outside in the sun on that game I couldn't really see well enough to perform as I'd have liked, so moving along was slow.

After what I realized was two hours of their I ended up crawling back upstairs to check on my sweet thing. Her Skunkie butt was still out cold and I just sat there for a while staring at her and eventually she woke up from either me kissing her or just watching her, I forget that detail actually. When her eyes finally started to wiggle I climbed into bed and leaned into her so contently that she was there and this was the place that I'd be moving into when plans finally went through.

We laid there for a moment after I told her what time it was and personally I wouldn't have minded laying there for another good 15 minutes......sometimes I curse my ADHD for spoiling perfectly good moments like that. I love you infinitely for forgiving those moments of mine honey when my mind is constantly trying to find a new thing to think about and for when I start over thinking things. I'm also sorry for any time that it hurts your feelings I don't mean it and hope to make up for it soon to make you feel better.

Eventually we managed down to the living room and played some games, ate some food, and drank. A good time was had by all. We took a quick shower to clear off ourselves from the trip in the previous day and then some of her friends came over and we went to hang out with them. They both seemed like nice guys but I kind of felt out of place almost considering the people I've been hanging out with for the last year. That is nothing against either of the people involved in that sentence its just they are completely different crowd and that means they handle different subjects very differently. So I was actually rather uncomfortable being myself around them and just letting myself speak my mind because as I'll admit my mind jumps around way more then it should and sometimes onto things that it really shouldn't be touching, but I can't help it sometimes, I just have to learn to stop reacting to it so that I can hide it so people don't try and ask me to say it.

We eventually got back to her place with them and ended up playing some Munchkin. During this I'm not sure if everyone was actually having fun playing the game or not as they kept watching the show of "Top Gear" I think was the name almost more then they were playing the game, but I guess that just shows that we have slightly different hobbies and the link which I think is a good thing overall. I was the lowest level when they ended up having to leave but I didn't die. I also never drew a monster I could actually fight since the ones I did draw everyone seemed intend on making my adventure rather unpleasant with very...'unpleasant' things. It was fun as I always enjoy a good munchkin game.

Finally alone again me and Ashley started getting into a conversation about her writing and I explained how I didn't understand one concept she was explaining. I do understand her point I just think it was I wasn't understanding her definition of one thing but I do really understand her point on all of it and I want to say sorry for frustrating and offending her. Then after we got done with that conversation we actually got onto one about people's rights and what things should and shouldn't be legal. Overall we both agree that people don't think past their nose and that people don't have much self control as they would need to have the things everyone says that they want. Those conversations went on for a good 3 hours I think it was and all of it ended with us smiling after realizing this and saying we loved each other as we'd just very much lost track of time.

She went to get something to drink for both of us and then I hoped on the computer and actually brought up some music I wanted her to listen to and then a few Youtube reviews of a few games. We did that until her roommate got home and then we actually got onto a conversation about Gundam and then a subject of parts of a series that we don't like but we like the series overall.

That is pretty much everything that has happened today from what I know and overall its a very very good day. I might have left out a few things but thats either for the benefit of both the parties involved or just my poor memory. Ashley says we remember the things that are important to us and I'm doing what I can to make sure I remember things about her to show she is important to me. I love you Ashley.

I think this is a great idea, for several reasons. One of the main ones is all of the ideas and fear that people have of that religion now and all of the threats people have made about people showing Muhammad on the TV.

Look at South Park for a main example as they have had several episodes with the idea of not showing Muhammad. They do have to follow sensors of the TV as well as think about the kind of position they are in as well. Through all of that though we as the internet can show that it will go through as we want it to.

So everyone I'd say its a good idea to Draw Muhammad and draw him just as you'd like. Don't worry about hurting someone's ideas and feelings because this is your idea and its just as valued as their ideas.

If your insulted by anyone's drawing or maybe if they put him into another art form then just know that you shouldn't try and stop them. Just accept that no everyone agrees with you.

https://youtu.be/NDErgD9YNyc

Now I heard this song while Skylor and me were poking around YTMND. After coming back to my computer and listening it to the once I got the sudden urge to make a dance to it. For a song like this you can't do it along for many reasons.

Reason one would be that its clearly a duet in lyrics so that means you'd need at least two people for it.
Reason two would be the chorus is suppose to be the whole crew singing as well.

So I'd need people to dance in the dance and probably input on the choreography of the dance. So anyone interested please reply. And I ask you have rhythm please :P and dance experience will help us all.

I don't know why but I felt like a journal so if you don't care just ignore it and if you do. Well just keep reading then.

Well after managing to make it to Wild Nights I have to slide back into work. Having 2 days off after the con probably helped but I feel like I'll be ok back at work. Just because I don't think I'll hate it doesn't mean I'd like going back, silly Convergys.

Wild Nights was great just everything rocked. I met so many cool people and hopefully made some lasting friends, Way to many people to really name, also its midnight while I'm just randomly typing this up so I don't really feel like to gathering a list together. You guys are awesome and I can't wait to talk to some of you more over the coming months.

You all rock like me at everything, lol. Anyway this is the end of this random trail of thoughts, hope you didn't get lost.

Time for this from me.

1)I'm never as motivated as I'd like. There are a lot of things I'd like to do but I can't find the drive to do them nor think anyone cares.

2)I've surfed and enjoyed my time on the beach, sadly I'm not as experienced at surfing as I'd like.

3)I have low self-esteem. I never think I'm doing anything as good as I should and I also never think anyone cares.

4)I have a boyfriend and girlfriend that I love very much and think the world of.

5)I love being around my friends and love doing almost anything with them.

6)When I was little I had a peeps trauma event. My grandma got me a box of peeps. I was sitting there as a little kid and had no idea what it was and what I was suppose to do with it. My grandma then picked up the peep and said, "This is what you do with these." I screamed as if I saw her kill an actual baby duck.

7)I lived homeless for 2 years.

8)I have not been to a Furry Convention before, or a concert either. I have been to anime conventions though.