I don't even know why I'm typing this, I guess I'm just hoping somebody listens while I shout out that I'm upset as if this is my echo chamber. Unfortunately it's an empty one right now.

I guess I'll just use this as a diary instead.
I'm not feeling right today. Covid has possibly become directly involved in my life for the first time, and it may be out to ruin my plans of freedom. And thinking on that has made me think about all the times my plans have failed. Seeing my loved one has failed, trying to not be jealous or paranoid about everything is only barely working and I'm trying to find ways to cope with that still., monetary plans somehow fuck up too...honestly the only way I can live a life that isn't stuck behind a monitor alone at the age of 22 and beyond is to move away. Just out of this miserable state and into a better one with people I trust. I just hope none of these unforeseen circumstances completely stop me from moving.

Whoever just so happens to be reading, thank you for listening and being here for me. I can't sleep, and I'm just too worried to really bother my loved ones about this stress right now. I'd rather get it out of my system without worrying anyone too much about my issues.