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The June Journal
6 years ago
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Theme of December: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6-N2540l3ZI
So here I am (doing everything I can), halfway into June and with no pictures in sight, but still thinking about them, which I'd guess is still a good thing, but I just need to do it. June been pretty busy between the projected escalation of COVID cases and the racial unrest that continues to spread throughout the country. I really want to spread the word as I'm just so annoyed at my job.
"Well, Shostyle, you should be grateful that you do have a job." And yes I am, but everyone always has to ask themselves what am I getting the value of living day to day. It does sometimes feel that I'm doing the same things but different day, and that's very stagnant when people don't know what a billing cycle is.
I was listening to a track called Relight my Fire by Dan Hartman and I really feel that spoke to me in a way with my art to really re-kindle it and get at it like I used to do back in the day. I'm getting caught up with little things and not trying to look at the bigger picture here of just enjoying myself because I love the times that I'm drawing even the times that I may not be successful but that dopamine and serotonin works wonders for just being artistic.
I've been reading my Information Technology book at work when I have down time, it's easier to concentrate on reading than drawing moreso, and I don't have to worry about drawing semi lewd stuff without peeping eyes but honestly I don't care at this point, but I do care about being happy, and having to play checkers when you know chess is a slow burn to frustration.
I need some friends lol, I've been in North Carolina for almost three years and I like it, but I haven't made the strides to have those times of networks, and the thing is that I'm older, but I like a lot of things and I'm friendly and I don't have kids (yet lol) I just want to be around people who are positive and like-minded to some degree. Whether that be sports, health, reading, learning, technology, what have you. As long as it gets me to a different environment. I've been thinking to volunteer too to be honest just to help out the community and possibly network that way as well.
Even most of the neighbors in my neighborhood seem to be shutoffish even before the pandemic happened. I've talked to my next door neighbors but they are old and I'm not there yet. I need some people my age. Drive isn't the problem but that brotherhood I do miss. I was thinking of playing all of the Gears series just to have that Dude Bro War story action game which I was supposed to be playing with an old friend, we actually did the whole first Gears but then we got around halfway to Gears 2 and he just dropped off of it without any explanation.
So whatever I'll probably be adding more to this journal later, I just wanted to have a monthly journal out.
"Well, Shostyle, you should be grateful that you do have a job." And yes I am, but everyone always has to ask themselves what am I getting the value of living day to day. It does sometimes feel that I'm doing the same things but different day, and that's very stagnant when people don't know what a billing cycle is.
I was listening to a track called Relight my Fire by Dan Hartman and I really feel that spoke to me in a way with my art to really re-kindle it and get at it like I used to do back in the day. I'm getting caught up with little things and not trying to look at the bigger picture here of just enjoying myself because I love the times that I'm drawing even the times that I may not be successful but that dopamine and serotonin works wonders for just being artistic.
I've been reading my Information Technology book at work when I have down time, it's easier to concentrate on reading than drawing moreso, and I don't have to worry about drawing semi lewd stuff without peeping eyes but honestly I don't care at this point, but I do care about being happy, and having to play checkers when you know chess is a slow burn to frustration.
I need some friends lol, I've been in North Carolina for almost three years and I like it, but I haven't made the strides to have those times of networks, and the thing is that I'm older, but I like a lot of things and I'm friendly and I don't have kids (yet lol) I just want to be around people who are positive and like-minded to some degree. Whether that be sports, health, reading, learning, technology, what have you. As long as it gets me to a different environment. I've been thinking to volunteer too to be honest just to help out the community and possibly network that way as well.
Even most of the neighbors in my neighborhood seem to be shutoffish even before the pandemic happened. I've talked to my next door neighbors but they are old and I'm not there yet. I need some people my age. Drive isn't the problem but that brotherhood I do miss. I was thinking of playing all of the Gears series just to have that Dude Bro War story action game which I was supposed to be playing with an old friend, we actually did the whole first Gears but then we got around halfway to Gears 2 and he just dropped off of it without any explanation.
So whatever I'll probably be adding more to this journal later, I just wanted to have a monthly journal out.
