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[2020]
6 years ago
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On the same, regular seat I've always known and sat on, through the windows of information I've always lived through, it felt like the solitary times would never end; pulling the curtains to the world and hanging in an everlasting emotional stasis ... despite such troubling times that clawed in beneath the skin, of mountaneous self-suffering and doubt, of emptiness with the chilling void calling for me every night ... I still saw a reason to keep going, doing, and living; a solid anchor stuck on the rocks of this reality either for the better or for worse, but in the end, better than any inexistance could give. It feels like ... finally surfacing from the dark depths of a box, and breathing a fresh breath of relief; for most of the pains were not healed but alleviated; and it's time to let the courage, curiosity, ambitions and dreams flourish in its glory; as should your truth, sore spots, fragility and dependence be put on display like the scars on your arm, for they're not undesirable ugly traits, but the history of your life and a reflection of what you, as a person, truly believe in.
I believe in telling you a story, with the cute looking furries, about life and the meaning of it -- seen from my eyes. Questions about true will, co-existance, belief, consciousness, cause and creation, and, existence itself. Such heavy topics cannot be easily told, but that's exactly the reason for setting up a universe for so many years, since 2016. I have the desire to ultimate make this in to a tangible project (manga?) but it requires a lot of planning (done a lot of it), dedication and motivation. I've already suffered through numerous attempts at telling this story through rewrites, redraws and each time striving to make it better. I think ... a manga type book would be the way to go. We'll see how it goes.
Other than that, I want to work on developing more complex artworks, with focus on painting, composition and cleverly interacting with the viewer. I want to dig deeper in to how to play around with the eyes of the beholder and give the details way more substance. I want to push myself to make more distinct characters and personalities, and let them express things in a tangible looking world. I want it to be more believable.
Why all of this, why take it so seriously?... because I want to. I want to be serious with this.
I believe in telling you a story, with the cute looking furries, about life and the meaning of it -- seen from my eyes. Questions about true will, co-existance, belief, consciousness, cause and creation, and, existence itself. Such heavy topics cannot be easily told, but that's exactly the reason for setting up a universe for so many years, since 2016. I have the desire to ultimate make this in to a tangible project (manga?) but it requires a lot of planning (done a lot of it), dedication and motivation. I've already suffered through numerous attempts at telling this story through rewrites, redraws and each time striving to make it better. I think ... a manga type book would be the way to go. We'll see how it goes.
Other than that, I want to work on developing more complex artworks, with focus on painting, composition and cleverly interacting with the viewer. I want to dig deeper in to how to play around with the eyes of the beholder and give the details way more substance. I want to push myself to make more distinct characters and personalities, and let them express things in a tangible looking world. I want it to be more believable.
Why all of this, why take it so seriously?... because I want to. I want to be serious with this.
