I am okay
I am alive
every morning is good
a chance to live life
I feel calm and normal
from the silence and peace
I really love days like these

I feel thankful and patient
that problems exist
without problems
I wouldn't have found me
or know good moments too
It makes those feel as they should be
so seemingly real to me, like how it once felt,
our cornered bond, "I love you, as you are",
as I then clumsily fled and ripped it apart,
I can't undo it or fix how it went,
but I can choose to become someone better
so I guess I wanna type what feelings now matter

I loved you, as a character, a person, a human
how you were and are as you are,
I'm sorry it happened for all these reasons
turning it to a loss to move on from
I think you know well what I wanted to cause
peace and patience, trust and belief,
I tried to get there, with no solid steps
I wanted to gift you all that for relief
because I felt desperate to make things hurt less

from a life time of fuckery deluding my head,
I couldn't see the world's beauty and mess
I tried to fix it the way I thought I had
that's the reason why you met me
I wanted to see what hid near,
that's the reason I tried it,
to find what had left me,
to show what could be

the regrettable part, is all what it cost
but eventually all progress will need some loss
I just hope one day that you find your peace
and that you love your loves to let you live free

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I love emotions, intensity, positivity, and healing
I love characters, unique people, and humans
I love nature, its weathers, seasons and times
I love belief, hope, love and progression
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