Here's something I never really brought up here before, not because I was avoiding the topic, just never really felt the need to bring it up. I just randomly felt like talking about it now. So I consider myself agender. Since I was a kid I never felt like I 'fit' into the molds of 'girl' or 'boy' that, as a kid, I had the understanding of. I avoided wearing dresses, using make-up, carrying around a purse, things would see me as 'girly'. I wanted to have a wallet (which my mother would argue with me about because a wallet is what a man carries and not for me according to her), I like to wears ties (which I still like to wear)and always was drawn to fancy suits and do things considered 'boyish'. Eventually I was called tomboy. I think my mother accepted that as a explanation for my interest and behavior.

But that didn't sit right with me as a kid either. I didn't feel like I was some tomboy. It wasn't that I wanted to change my gender around or been seen entirely as masculine. I just knew I didn't want to be called 'her,miss,young lady' all the time. I didn't want to be a 'her' but I also didn't want to be a 'he' and be called 'sir,mister,young man'. I wanted to be genderless. I wanted a genderless body. The thought of having 'male' parts or 'female' parts never sit well with me. Only the idea of having a genderless body did I feel like 'yes, that is it, that's what I want, what I feel'. A genderless body I could dress up in any way I wanted. For the most part I dress in a neutral way but sometimes I want my IMAGE to give off a 'cutesy' feel or a 'stylish' feel, I'm not dressing my body to REPRESENT a 'feminine' or 'masculine' gender. I hope that makes sense >.< I just feel most comfortable considering my self genderless, never really fitting in with any gender.


This is always why I tend to make a lot of characters (especially my demons ones) that have this sort of mix of gender parts. Like how one character will have a male member but have female parts internally. Or how any of my sona's have a mix, some male and female parts, or whatever, I don't have a 'female' exclusive furrysona or a 'male' exclusive demonsona, etc. I just mix them around, or give them shape shifting abilities, because I personally don't identify as any gender so I just play around with physical gender types for my characters for the hell of it.


Annnyways, that's just some thoughts I wanted to get down because I felt like it. I'm agender. I really don't care what gender pronoun folks use to refer to me. I actually wish they was better words for representing different gender identities since I don't like the whole 'ze/hir/. And 'they' is odd to me too because, as a writer, I prefer it as pural. I don't know, maybe new words will pop up soon that will better represent gender pronouns.