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I don't know what I'm supposed to do here anymore.
8 years ago
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I'm not writing this to say I'm shutting down my account or anything, so whoever might care about that, you don't have to worry. But honestly, I'm just not sure what I'm doing here anymore..
I came here because it was kind of an interesting community, with a lot of creative artists and some really beautiful and impressive artwork.. And I heard that it would kind of be a good place to meet people, make friends, kind of have a community, which is something I have always, and probably will always continue to struggle with.
But I've been here for six years now.. and honestly, I have very little to show for it.. I haven't met hardly anyone, and those I have were brief, singular conversations.. I thought I would take up drawing.. I haven't... That maybe I would get back into writing, and at least have some feedback on my work.. I didn't, and received none on even the simplistic writing I posted at first... I'm not fishing for pity, but I really just don't have any idea what to do.. I thought maybe I could create some characters and do some role playing, meet new people, that kind of stuff.. It just never happened, and to be honest, I still don't know how to go about it.. I'm sorry, but going up to someone to be like "I like the way you draw porn. You want to have cyber snu-snu?" isn't something I can easily bring myself to do. It feels just as awkward as if it was being said face to face on the street. And like in everything else.. A simple "Hi" will get you maybe two sentences of back and forth conversation before it completely falls flat.. Maybe it just showcases my failings at social graces more than anything, but I just feel that there should be so much more, and that it isn't fair that no matter what I try, I will always be that person with their nose to the glass going "That looks like fun."
Even here, if I'm brutally honest, is little more than writing to myself, since more than likely the only people who read this are people I've known alot longer than having been on FA, and have already had this discussion.
I came here because it was kind of an interesting community, with a lot of creative artists and some really beautiful and impressive artwork.. And I heard that it would kind of be a good place to meet people, make friends, kind of have a community, which is something I have always, and probably will always continue to struggle with.
But I've been here for six years now.. and honestly, I have very little to show for it.. I haven't met hardly anyone, and those I have were brief, singular conversations.. I thought I would take up drawing.. I haven't... That maybe I would get back into writing, and at least have some feedback on my work.. I didn't, and received none on even the simplistic writing I posted at first... I'm not fishing for pity, but I really just don't have any idea what to do.. I thought maybe I could create some characters and do some role playing, meet new people, that kind of stuff.. It just never happened, and to be honest, I still don't know how to go about it.. I'm sorry, but going up to someone to be like "I like the way you draw porn. You want to have cyber snu-snu?" isn't something I can easily bring myself to do. It feels just as awkward as if it was being said face to face on the street. And like in everything else.. A simple "Hi" will get you maybe two sentences of back and forth conversation before it completely falls flat.. Maybe it just showcases my failings at social graces more than anything, but I just feel that there should be so much more, and that it isn't fair that no matter what I try, I will always be that person with their nose to the glass going "That looks like fun."
Even here, if I'm brutally honest, is little more than writing to myself, since more than likely the only people who read this are people I've known alot longer than having been on FA, and have already had this discussion.
