John...

He was like a dream... perfect... everything i ever wanted... with some lovely benefits.
Tall femboy from Vermont.. hair dark blonde and his eyes blue (heterochromia so one of his eyes was darker)... he was funny,caring,loving,nice,kinky,horny,open and loved me the way i am...

17... he was 17 years old... 17 days we spent writing together... even chatted...
It started with shattering his phone once he slipped on ice...
Poor boy... then he used various ways to write me messages...
And it ended up with his internet off...
Since then... i haven't heard of him...
I tried to find him... but... i knew only his first name...
The most amazing 17 days of my life turned grey...faded away...
I spent two months crying,trying to move on,searching him,writing him, whispering to nowhere....cutting myself, trying to forget...
I have three choices...
1st He'll come back... and bring me my happyiness
2nd I'll move on and get another boy who will help me to survive or leave me...
3rd i'll give it up... kill myself and maybe... find him in next life if that thing exists...

I miss you John... i'm still waiting...