AB/DL/BF question - What Came First?
9 years ago
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"A word of encouragement during a failure is worth more than an hour of praise after success." - Unknown.
For me, I was a DL long before being a babyfur.
I have been a DL for pretty much as long as I can remember, I did all sort of DL related things as I grew up such as trying to sneak diapers, create makeshift diapers out of things around the house and reading DL stories online. It wasn't until about 4/5 years ago that I discovered and adopted the BF side of me. Funny enough, It was through that BF side that I got more curious about the AB side of the community as before then I had virtually no interest in it. But despite this change, I haven't experimented with any AB stuff and I am not sure if I ever will so technically I'm still just BF/DL.
So my question is, were you an AB or a DL first? Are just one or the other? Let me know!
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Diapers were always the most exciting part about being a TB, though. I think it was because before I knew there were others like me, I didn't know that diapers were "special" to us. I always imagined that if there were others like me, maybe every person would have their own baby item that was the most special. I didn't realize that there was a particular reason why diapers were the most special to most of us.
I didn't really become a furry until about 6 years ago. I always though babyfur art and stories were particularly cute, but I didn't self identify as a furry (though I always loved things like the Care Bears ever since I was a little kid).
I'm also quite similar in regards to the furry thing, as even though I didn't identify as a babyfur/furry until about 4/5 years ago, I admittedly had always enjoy seeing animal characters in diapers, so it also exciting for me to see it whenever they showed up in cartoons. So I guess in a way it was kinda inevitably that we become babyfurs. XD
The other issue is that I don't find babies to be all that cute (though recently a close friend of mine had a baby and I find that baby to be completely 100% adorable, so I think part of the issue is that I've never been "close" to a baby until now, so that might change, at least with this baby). I've always found animals and baby animals to be extremely cute.
So it's hard to picture myself as a baby or as an adult dressed like a baby and found it to be super cute. I always find "baby stuff" to be really cute, but once a human is thrown in there, it's hard for them to be as cute (still can be, but it's harder).
But with a babyfur, you can make your character as 100% cute as you want, especially with all of the awesome artists around.
As far as the TB feelings...it was also hard for me to imagine that there were others like me. While at times I felt like I was the only one, I figured that out of hte billions of people on the planet, there had to be at least a few others like me. However, I don't think I thought there would be as many as there are (and I thought it was strictly an American thing).
But it's always interesting to read articles about infantilism and to learn about it. After reading those articles, it made perfect sense that diapers are the most special thing to us, because there are a variety of reasons why.
It is frustrating in the idea of explaining it to others. When people think of babies, the worst parts are the crying (especially in the middle of the night), the spitting up/puking, and diapers (because of poop in particular, but to a degree pee).
As babyfurs, it's easy for us to take away the crying and spitting up parts....I don't think any babyfurs are particularly into that (crying is kind of nice, but not in the screeching way real babies do it). But with diapers...most people find that to be the disgusting part of babies, but for us, it's so central.
It's particularly tough for me because I don't really get anything out of wetting/messing diapers. But diapers themselves are so huge to me...and it's almost impossible to explain that to someone while avoiding the wetting/messing parts because they think about how that's what diapers are for. Of course, what's interesting is while people keeping peeing/pooping private, diapers are out in the open...in grocery stores and commercials and all over the place....so that helps a lot.
So there's a whole lot of interesting stuff about the topic.
I think the key reason why babyfurs is very appealing is the visual medium it brings to the community, and that's why I believe the babyfur has grown so strong in the AB/DL community. With regular AB/DL content, you couldn't express much in visual way without the risk of entering into the awkward zone (i.e. posting up personal photos) so interactions of that nature had to remain private or among close friends. Babyfurs on the other hand, have access to much greater array of visually expressing yourself with art which has allowed for more types of conversations and help create a stronger identity for yourself. I know this was the case with me as having Billy as my fursona and having pics of him has helped me interact with other people in the community that eventually become my friends, which may have not been possible otherwise. Plus I think the fact that babyfur pictures are super adorable do help.
And I always find it amusing that the most appealing object in the community is often the number one thing most loathed thing about babies from 'regular' people, and you see this a lot on media as it as there are constantly messages and jokes about how diapers are 'gross' or are just for little babies. Though I do wonder if it's that taboo factor that may have inadvertently helped make diapers feel more special as I have talked to a lot of people in the community who say they love the naughty feeling they get from wearing a diaper.
And yep, a very interesting topic indeed.
I think part of it is the physical connection with the, uh..."diaper area".
But also, diapers have a lot of things that unique about them. Other than when babies are bathed, they're always wearing diapers. You can't say that about any other baby item. So that constant physical contact is a big factor.
There's also the intimacy of diaper changes. You can't get much more vulnerable than being naked and having someone clean your private parts while all you can do is helplessly lie there.
And I think that's what does it for me...it's the epitome of helplessness, but also the epitome of love. To think that a baby can't control their pee/poop, and has no power to keep themselves clean...and to have someone else do all of that for them...it's a huge sign of love and care. If somoene's willing to change you, you know they love you. It really grabs that sense of safety, security, comfort, and love.
So for me, that's why diapers are so special.
But at the core, I think they're the same thing....the desire to be completely loved and cared for.
The humiliation idea is fascinating because it's counter-intuitive at first. Why would humiliation be pleasurable? But for me, it's the idea that the other person WANTS to baby you and make you wear a diaper. In your daily life, you would never tell anyone you have that desire because they would think it's crazy/weird/sick. It's so hard to picture someone you know wanting to do it.
But when you're being forced to it means it's not happening because you want it to. That means it HAS to be because the other person wants to. And if they want to, it's a sign that they love you because they want to take care of you like a baby.
So I really do think the two things are related, and the sub/humiliation part is just a reflection of that feeling that the other person wants to love you and take care of you.
For me, though, my absolute favorite is a happy medium between the two. I like the idea of the dominant person being in control, but not wanting to humiliate you (like taking you out in public). I like the idea of playful teasing...like they know they're in control, and they enjoy the idea that they're in control...but that they don't make you feel bad about it.
For example, I often called him a "Little stinky newborn", a "Helpless newborn puppy." or an "Adorable newborn stinker." This often get his face turning red in no time.
One thing you wrote got my attention. You created makeshift diapers out of things around the house? What sort of things did you discover and use? I often used plushies, folded up hoodies, character t-shirts, scarves, mittens, and even my Cub Scout shorts, hats and shirts, among other things, stuffed down the front of my pants or shortalls. I'd use them the same as you use extra diaper padding, even though some of those things leaked more than others. I learned to hide things really well when I was little!
I tried using towels, toilet paper and grocery bags at certain points. With the exception of the toilet paper, I had never tried 'using' them as I knew clean up would be annoying. But I still tried them anyway since I was desperate to wear a diaper. XD
And yeah, it was the plastic grocery bags and they crinkled a LOT!
I think it's quite fascinating how there seems to be a growing group of people like yourself that seems to enjoy the content but not participate. I'm personally glad to see more people like you because it makes me think that this community is becoming a little more accepted than it was a few years ago.
*hugs gently*
Well you're missing out on so much fun.
But yeah, same here when it comes to explaining why I like diapers, it's just too hard for me to put into words and to explain to anyone why I do love them. XD
I would instinctively say I was a DL first, but then again the idea of Age Regression fascinated me even when I was already pretty young! While diapers were always something I was into, I thought the idea of AR was really fun and I'm pretty sure I would constantly include it when I would play with my friends (or even making stories involving it while playing with legos by myself!).
I only officially became a furry 5 years ago, or so, upon seeing
I think cartoons also played a bit role about why I am a BF/DF too as I really loved seeing animal characters (especially dogs) in diapers, and it was a treat whenever they happen to appear in the cartoons I watched. So I guess it was inevitably for me to become a BF at some point.
And I know a lot about your experiments.
I actually didn't even know what a furry was until somewhere around late high school, a rl friend told me he was a furry. OTL I really lived under a rock back then, I definitely should of known what a furry was.
Oh don't worry, I didn't know what a furry was until I was 17. So you're not alone about not knowing what a furry was.